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Chapters: 8/8 Fandom: Sherlock (TV) Rating: Explicit Warnings: Rape/Non-Con Relationships: Mycroft Holmes/Sherlock Holmes, Sherlock Holmes/John Watson Characters: Sherlock Holmes, Mycroft Holmes, John Watson, Eurus Holmes, Anthea (Sherlock) Additional Tags: Fuck Or Die, Something Made Them Do It, Anal Sex, Rimming, Eating Disorders, Unhealthy Coping Mechanisms, Self-Harm, Drug Use, Sherlock Holmes and Drug Use, Episode: s04e03 The Final Problem, Angst, Angst with a Happy Ending, Incest, Sibling Incest, Rape Recovery, Rape Aftermath, Suicidal Thoughts, Reconciliation, Brotherly Love Summary:

At Sherrinford, Eurus experiments with Sherlock’s concept of sexual consent by forcing him to choose between having sex with John, who Sherlock wants and is in love with but who doesn’t reciprocate, and Mycroft, who has had long-repressed feelings of desire for Sherlock which Sherlock doesn’t reciprocate. Sherlock choses Mycroft.

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!!!!!!!!!!!!

(Inspired by ‘Through Your Victory I Shall Win The Light’, by @anarfea & Theirwholebohemiansoul.)

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Thank you so much. Marta! You are a fantastic beta and I appreciate your insights very much.

I’m so glad to be writing with @anarfea again, and I hope to see some of you at the 221B Con co-writing panel!

I’ve been beta-reading this story for @anarfea and @theirwholebohemiansoul . Their summary:

At Sherrinford, Eurus experiments with Sherlock’s concept of sexual consent by forcing him to choose between having sex with John, who Sherlock wants and is in love with but who doesn’t reciprocate, and Mycroft, who has had long-repressed feelings of desire for Sherlock which Sherlock doesn’t reciprocate. Sherlock choses Mycroft.

This is basically the story of the aftermath. So we’re talking incest, rape-recovery, and two distinct pairings in the same story – that’s obviously not going to be everyone’s cup of tea, possibly on multiple fronts. But if you’re open to the scenario, I’d really encourage you to read it. All three men have these interesting characterizations that I haven’t seen before in fanfic, certainly not all three together, and the authors are really giving the characters space to be a bit broken as they go through this. 

Do give it a read if you’re so inclined! Eight chapters planned (and I believe drafted), four published, and if I can keep up my end of things there should be a new chapter each Sunday.

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Soooo excited to be posting another cowrite w Anarfea soon!

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You know, I had forgotten about the sequel we had discussed.

That might should happen.

alternative ending for that which has been your delight?

In the original outline, TWHBYD ended on what is now Chapter 13, when Mycroft breaks the bond and banishes Sherlock. But once that chapter was written, it seemed really abrupt to end it on that note. So we ended adding a couple more chapters, Chapter 14, where Greg and Sherlock have their conversation about what happened and where Mycroft and Greg’s relationship is going, and then Chapter 15, where Greg consoles Mycroft and they have sex. (The sex scene wasn’t in the outline of that chapter, either; Greg was just supposed to cuddle Mycroft, but once I started writing that scene they kind of insisted on having sex so I just went with it.)

The decision to add Chapter 16 came at the last minute. I just felt like Michael felt like too much of a prop, and I wanted for him to get to be a real person. I talked to @theirwholebohemiansoul and they were amenable to writing this coda where Michael comes to visit Mycroft as an adult. I’m really happy with this ending, but it was definitely not what we imagined at the outset.

Also, Bohemiansoul and I discussed the possibility of a sequel where Michael confronts John and Sherlock. Not sure if that will ever get written, but it’s an interesting idea to contemplate. Sherlock doesn’t get a redemption arc in TWHBYD because he just keeps lying and lying to John to the point where when he tries to tell the truth John doesn’t believe him. Without a real confession there can be no forgiveness/absolution. But he has a new opportunity to tell the truth to Michael. It would be kind of neat to see how that might play out.

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And you are doing other things with your life that do not include writing this?

WIP Title ask box game

@porcupine-girl tagged everyone who’s fic she’s ever commented on. PG you’ve commented on my meta, does that count? Anyway, I wanted to play.

“Post the names of all the files in your WIP folder, regardless of how non-descriptive or ridiculous. Send me an ask with the title that most intrigues you, or interests you and I’ll post a little snippet of it or tell you something about it!” 

Anyway, the titles in my WIP folder are:

Vulgarweed’s Toplock Prompt

Tragic Kitchen

The Love Song of J Alfred Fishcroft

Sherlock/Harry Fic

Omegaverse Trash Fic

Me to Play

Maxanne

I Got It From Sherlock

Holmescest FOD

Episode 7

tagging @fataldrum @bitemebat @iwantthatbelstaffanditsoccupant @vulgarweed and anyone who is reading this in a coffee shop.

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Well. Gonna have to go with FOD Holmescest.

WIP Title ask box game

@porcupine-girl tagged everyone who’s fic she’s ever commented on. PG you’ve commented on my meta, does that count? Anyway, I wanted to play.

“Post the names of all the files in your WIP folder, regardless of how non-descriptive or ridiculous. Send me an ask with the title that most intrigues you, or interests you and I’ll post a little snippet of it or tell you something about it!” 

Anyway, the titles in my WIP folder are:

Vulgarweed’s Toplock Prompt

Tragic Kitchen

The Love Song of J Alfred Fishcroft

Sherlock/Harry Fic

Omegaverse Trash Fic

Me to Play

Maxanne

I Got It From Sherlock

Holmescest FOD

Episode 7

tagging @fataldrum @bitemebat @iwantthatbelstaffanditsoccupant @vulgarweed and anyone who is reading this in a coffee shop.

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Time to consider this.....

marcceh replied to your post “H & N”

And he PICKS mycroft skdhshkamzj

Okay but hear me out. 

Keep reading

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Thank you so much! This was an amazing experience from start to finish and I am so glad to hear you enjoy rereading these fics.

Re: the 1 thing I remember you 4 as a writer? Your wonderful That Which Has Been Your Delight Universe. Some stories stay with you long after you read them, and you find yourself reading them again and again. The two stories of this verse are among the most memorable Mystrade stories I have read :)

Thank you so much. I really love that story. It was a pleasure to write with @theirwholebohemiansoul. I re-read it sometimes myself.

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I hate this screen name.

This is a pseud. I created it because I do still work with minors, I have child custody that can be brought to review, and my ex is quite well aware of my regular AO3 account. I will not post anything there that I cannot justify to a Red State custody attorney if I absolutely had to.

When I use it, I feel bad about it.

I congratulate anyone who has conquered whatever limitations hold them back from claiming their work as their own.

Let me introduce myself...

Dear friends,

let me tell you something. For the past year, I’ve been writing under a new pseud on AO3.

I’m MistressAdler and I wrote Training Sherlock

If this means nothing to you, scroll on.

It’s just, I have a story going that has almost 60 000 hits…

Why am I telling you this? To brag? No, not really, though I am somewhat proud but also very humbled and a little bewildered that my writing attracted such a huge audience,

My reasons to come clean are threefold:

First of all, it was the post by a fellow writer claiming it being so hard to get a foot in the door with johnlock fan fic. Well, I started my new account without any tumblr promo or anything in November 2016. I had read all fic by authors such as deklava and fireofangel and I needed more of this very kinky, rather dark, truly filthy porn. But there was none. Now, sisters are doing it for themselves, be the change you want to be and so on… Long story short, I started to write my fantasies down. I had just finished an emotionally draining fic on my main account and was in the mood for PORN in capital letters. Nothing too complicated, just something to get off on. So I started posting, without an elaborate plan how the fic should develope… 

…well, a little over a year later it has a second part I’m writing at the moment and, as I said, nearly 60k hits.

It’s certainly not the best johnlock fic ever written. It caters very graphically to specific kinks that might not be many people’s jam - but there are obviously enough people out there who like stuff like that. This was freeing! I’m not alone with my fantasies. That made me daring to go places I’d never dared to go before in writing - and maybe it’s that what drew so many readers to it. Not necessarily the quality of my writing, but perhaps the honesty of it, the boldness, it being a bit unusual? I don’t know. I didn’t write it for kudos and validation, I wrote it for me, because I wanted to read such a story. I’d never thought about how many hits or kudos I’d get with it. I hoped the comments wouldn’t be too harsh, that was all. In short: It is absolutely possible to start from scratch and gain a huge readership in the Sherlock fandom if you do something unique and pour your heart into it.

Second, there’s a great threat going round by jbaillier about writing porn. Some comments in that thread read as if they tried to put porn in the dirty corner of fan fic; as if porn isn’t as worthy to be written and read as long plotty fics. And I want to say: I don’t think so. Writing hot porn is a skill. To be able to write porn that turns people on is as much a talent as it is to write elaborate stories with intrinsic character development. Porn is valid, especially in fan fic, where slash always had its place.

But then I asked myself: If you think so, why do you ‘hide’ behind a pseud? (Also, swissmissing named my account as a successful newcomer account and I wrote her a thank you just on anon… and then I thought it somewhat sad that I didn’t dare to say, hey, that’s me btw). In the beginning I retreated to the safety of a new pseud because it gave me freedom to write as a nobody. None of my mutuals would see the filthy story I wrote. That made it possible for me to write without restrain.

So, thirdly, by now I am at the point where I don’t want to stay anonymous any longer. I want to practice what I preach and stand proudly by my work. Too many especially female writers ‘hide’ behind Anonymous when it comes to explicit fic because it’s safer (I got some very nasty comments, I can tell you), as if enjoying porn is something to be ashamed of. Which it isn’t. I don’t want to do that any longer. I want to tell you: look, this is what I like to write sometimes, you don’t have to read it but I’m not ashamed of it either. I wrote a fic that many have read and I want to claim my fic. Because it is all mine. It’s salaciously dirty. I’m proud of it. I’m proud that I wrote over 100k, posted regularly and finished the first part, beside having a family and a full-time job. I’m proud that I’ve made people happy with it and allowed them to explore their kinks alongside with me. And I want to state so publicly. If I want porn to be valid, I have to accept it for myself as something valid. I want to show you that a mid-forty mother of two can write filthy porn and be good at it.

Now, if you should have become interested, be warned. This is dark! It is not traditional johnlock, it’s more of an AU. It’s brutal at some points. It is EXPLICIT in capital letters. It has Holmescest among other pairings. Beware!!!

I didn’t write this post to promote my fics, just to tell you: hei, one facet of me is that I write VERY kinky porn, just so you know. I’m the one who wrote this hugely successful dirty fic. And it is fun! This is me. And I don’t have to be ashamed of what I do. Neither has anyone who enjoys stuff like this.

Thank you for listening.

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Wow. Over a year. I never though myself capable of writing a fic this comprehensive and..well…long, and I know if I had been on my own I wouldn’t have stood a chance (or even considered trying). TBH, @anarfea is right. I would have written the thing far faster, infinitely shorter, and it would have sucked. I needed someone pulling me under the surface level. fortunately, I had the most amazing writing partner in @anarfea and remarkable betas as well, for whom I am immensely grateful. There was so much to explore here, and I am so proud. I do think we did it emotional justice.

I was going to say this is a good fic to read to feel better about your own dysfunctional family at Thanksgiving, because it is likely not as royally fucked up as Mycroft’s situation (at least, I sincerely hope not). But then again, part of what was so amazing about this fic was just how much it did tap into reality, given an essentially impossible premise in a Universe that doesn’t exist. And that’s what I loved most about it. And that comes from having a cowriter you can go to those depths with and come out the other side.

Yes, this goes to some very dark places and, at times, I found myself rather shocked to feel so much commonality with… well I won’t give the plot away. Nor will I readily confess here which characters I found myself deeply entrenched with on their journeys through this ( ask me in comments and I will probably tell you far too much about it), but I will say I found myself on a bit of a roller coaster– one I hope readers will enjoy riding as well.

“That Which Has Been Your Delight” is Finished

Oh my god. It’s been more than a year that I’ve been working on this fic with @theirwholebohemiansoul. And now it’s finished. And I’m a little bit sad that it’s over, because it’s been such an amazing journey. This is the first large scale collaboration I’ve done, and it was so good for me and I’ve discovered that I actually like collaborative work quite a lot when it’s not forced projects at work or school where I’m the one who ends up doing everything.

Actually, really Bohemiansoul was the one setting the pace that I never quite kept up to. It probably would have taken 3 years for me to write this on my own lol. Though truthfully, I couldn’t have written it on my own at all, that’s the beauty of it.

So, I don’t want to tell everyone to drop everything you’re doing right now and read because this is a very dark and angsty work and absolutely not for everyone. However, if you’ve been thinking about reading it and have been waiting for it to be finished, I wanted to let you know it’s finished now.

Also, if you’re into a/b/o noncon holmescest, and looking for something deliciously dark to read unbeknownst to your conservative family members this Thanksgiving, well, this is your chance :)

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That Which Has Been Your Delight has Updated!

http://archiveofourown.org/works/7855435/chapters/28330086 “The bond was always the problem. Maybe John would have simply decided to ignore it, given time. He has certainly ignored a great many other things that do not fit into his limited worldview. But the simplest explanation is always the best. My scent is similar to yours because I wanted it to be that way. I chose your scent since it is genetically similar to my own and used it as the basis for a synthetic masking formula. Diplomatic negotiations in countries where omegas are still seen as second-class citizens go more smoothly when I can pass myself off as an alpha. I’d even have been willing to wear some kind of synthetic pheromone cocktail to make the bond less obvious. It was unlikely any fabrications would work <i>forever,</i> but I would have tried. But Sherlock, this has long been a decaying orbit. Ever since the bond, there was no possibility of a positive outcome.”

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"That Which Has Been Your Delight " is nearing its end

I am so proud of this fic.

I don’t throw around “blessed” a lot, but I am lacking a better word. I am blessed, to have @anarfea as a coauthor on this project. I have delved into issues of guilt, accountability, reclamation of power, and forgiveness in ways which I’d never thought I’d be capable. As always, when I take on such deep and troubling subject matter, I have learned things about myself. But this time, I also learned a great deal about writing, and about rewriting, and about disagreements and teamwork and all that stuff you learn when you finally work with people you truly respect. It’s what they try to teach you in group projects in school, but it inevitably fails in that context.

So.

Thank you, Anarfea– and beyoncesfiancee our beta throughout, who taught me a thing or two about fearlessness.

I’m sad it’s almost over. And I hope people read this story and it gives them something to think about. (Or even talk about, because I am always interested in discussing the path we chose with interested readers.)

https://archiveofourown.org/works/7855435/chapters/17937274

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Chiming in here as Anarfea's coauthor in "That Which Has Been Your Delight".

Our concept of these homologous pairings was close to the turn-of-the-century view of Lesbians and the idea if Romantic Friendship. It was not unusual at all, but was viewed as a sort of a "phase relationship" before the "Real Thing" (a thoroughly heteronormative one, which had the additional baggage of child-rearing and social norms viewed as part of becoming a woman, though there was a continued degree of social segregation between a male and female sphere).

What I love most about O-Verse is this ability to play around with gender norms. I think there would be A/A and O/O pairings...but if they could truly bond? Perhaps this is tainted by my own view as asexual, but I think ABO Universe has stronger biological drives and imperatives, and as a result, a stronger sense of the natural? That heats make sex a far greater biological need and ( as complex as sex is...) would consequently make it even more stifling and restrictive-feeling for people who did not want that sort of intense bonding for whatever reason.

But I do think, much like males are descended from females in utero who basically took a hit of extra testosterone ( damn....there is a feminist classic short story addressing this and I can't remember who wrote it about males essentially being females who caught a virus in utero and were "deformed" into males) they would likely have some vestigial omega parts. I doubt that society would ever fully accept these pairings. I think Omegas, having the ability to form a traditional bite bond, would perhaps view their bonds as more legitimized and Alpha-Alpha pairs might struggle more for acceptance. This is an interesting dive into biological vs socialized gender roles.

can alpha x alpha bond each other? during an alpha rut will they consider going at it with another alpha if the alpha in the only one in the room after their rut has been triggered (both alphas unmated)

Hi nonny! What a fascinating question! There are many things I love about fandom’s invention of shared alternate universes like Omegaverse. One of them is that nothing is canonical in these universes – it’s entirely up to each fan creator to decide how they want the rules to work. Even when there are common tropes or fanons around how things tend to work, there are plenty of writers out building worlds that take things in different directions.

All of which is to say, there is no right answer here. How would you like it to work? I think it would be cool to see more fans make up answers to this question, and I’d love to hear your take on it! :D

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New chapter up! Sherlock is manipulative as hell. No, really. Even for him.

For the love of God, mind the tags!

Chapters: 11/15 Fandom: Sherlock (TV) Rating: Explicit Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence, Rape/Non-Con, Underage Relationships: Mycroft Holmes/Sherlock Holmes, Sherlock Holmes/John Watson, Mycroft Holmes/Greg Lestrade Characters: Mycroft Holmes, Sherlock Holmes, John Watson, Greg Lestrade, Mummy (Sherlock), John Watson’s Father, Anthea (Sherlock), Harry Watson, Clara (Sherlock), Sherlock Holmes’ Father Additional Tags: Abortion, Abusive Relationships, Adoption, Adultery, Alpha/Beta/Omega Dynamics, Alpha Sherlock, Angst, Childhood Sexual Abuse, Dark, Domestic Violence, Dubious Consent, Fisting, Forced Bonding, Forced Pregnancy, Gaslighting, Implied/Referenced Drug Use, Infertility, Knotting, Married Sherlock Holmes/John Watson, Mating Cycles/In Heat, Mpreg, Mycroft Whump, Omega Mycroft, Rape, Sibling Incest, Suicidal Thoughts, Eating Disorders, Body Dysmorphic Disorder Summary:

“You love John.” Mycroft’s voice was barely above a whisper.

“I do. Does that mean,” Sherlock kissed him again, this time just catching Mycroft’s lower lip as he moved back to look right at him, hiding nothing of his intent, “that I cannot love you as well?”

Mycroft turned his head. “You’re going to ruin me.”

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Chapters: 10/15 Fandom: Sherlock (TV) Rating: Explicit Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence, Rape/Non-Con, Underage Relationships: Mycroft Holmes/Sherlock Holmes, Sherlock Holmes/John Watson, Mycroft Holmes/Greg Lestrade Characters: Mycroft Holmes, Sherlock Holmes, John Watson, Greg Lestrade, Mummy (Sherlock), John Watson’s Father, Anthea (Sherlock), Harry Watson, Clara (Sherlock), Sherlock Holmes’ Father Additional Tags: Abortion, Abusive Relationships, Adoption, Adultery, Alpha/Beta/Omega Dynamics, Alpha Sherlock, Angst, Childhood Sexual Abuse, Dark, Domestic Violence, Dubious Consent, Fisting, Forced Bonding, Forced Pregnancy, Gaslighting, Implied/Referenced Drug Use, Infertility, Knotting, Married Sherlock Holmes/John Watson, Mating Cycles/In Heat, Mpreg, Mycroft Whump, Omega Mycroft, Rape, Sibling Incest, Suicidal Thoughts, Eating Disorders Summary:

“You love John.” Mycroft’s voice was barely above a whisper.

“I do. Does that mean,” Sherlock kissed him again, this time just catching Mycroft’s lower lip as he moved back to look right at him, hiding nothing of his intent, “that I cannot love you as well?”

Mycroft turned his head. “You’re going to ruin me.”

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Working on Chapter 11 of That Which Has Been Your Delight

Michael’s parentage resolved. John no longer suspicious and, in fact, offering up unlimited support. John <i>also</i> with a greater sense of purpose as facilitator in any recovery process, thereby pulling him further out of his self-indulgent slump. Sherlock’s bond with Mycroft broken. Mycroft might even seek out Greg to process the outrageous betrayal? No. Mycroft would never disclose any part of this. But it was, if not quite perfect, still an undeniably beautiful plan. [Sherlock has a scheme. A very bad scheme. Quelle suprise.]