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Cendre and Cielo

So, basically, I'm kind of undecided about this one because the three of us share similar personalities but we have very distinct images.

The three of us have a little bit of everything mentioned up there.

I am wild in my own way. I kind of speak aggressively with persons I am comfortable with. I have a wild imagination (meaning very active), and maybe I would be the first in line to try extreme stuff that we usually haven't done before (extreme sports!). I am not really sure, but I think I have more intense sexual thoughts than the other two. So that's that.

Compared with what I have to say for myself, I think I really am the wild one? But I always associate "wild" with those who like to party and socialize with other people. I am not that kind of person.

If I'm not mistaken, someone who likes a lot of company is Cendre. I think she'd be the first in line if we went to a club or something. Although I think I have greater sexual desires than the other two (oh come on, doesn't everyone go through this stage?), it was always Cendre who knew sexual jokes better than the two of us did. So, I don't know.

Cielo's not really wild. She's just noisy, and talkative. But I wouldn't call it wild. She's just always hella excited most of the time.

The IDGAF attitude... Nobody doesn't really "not give a fuck" about something. Everyone cares. The difference is that some do it really quietly that they make themselves believe that they don't really give a damn, while some are willing to let people know about their feelings.

I am more of a quiet fool when it comes to what my emotion is. When I feel it overintensely, that's when I try to take it out of my system by telling someone (a close friend or something) about it. But I rarely do that, because I'm afraid that maybe I was just being irrational and that I care too much about it. So I'm still leaning to the IDGAF attitude.

Cendre's kind of the same. She cares a lot. When I say, a lot, I mean, A LOT. Sometimes she'd think when speaking to a group, "Am I being too bossy here?" But, as she always tells me, she doesn't push people to tell her what they are supposed to tell her. If it makes any sense. She always tells me "I don't really care if you share this to me or not" but deep down I know she's really thinking about it. She's going to become upset about it but not actually tell that she's upset.

Don't let me get started with Cielo. She cares a lot about stuff. She's the biggest overthinker. I may overthink, but I overthink quietly. She voices out everything going on inside her head. Cendre's the same. They share the same trait about what they feel and experience.

I am definitely not the cute and innocent one.

If I have to choose, it's Cielo. Cielo is innocent, but she's not stupid. So it's a good thing. I think she's cute because like what I previously said, she's always excited and grinning and laughing. Sometimes I keep getting these thoughts that it's Cielo who always has it easier with life. My life is my family and friends so you know what I mean. I'm not trying to bring her down or put some value over the three of us, I'm just saying that Cielo's life looks like the one in the movies. It's happy, satisfying, and uncomplicated.

Cendre is cute, but she's not exactly innocent. She is also someone who gets hella excited with stuff. But this title really belongs to Cielo.

Again, everything I wrote here is just my unjustified point of view.

If it's just black and white though, here's my summary.

Cendre is the wild one. I'll give it to her.

I am the one with the IDGAF attitude.

And Cielo is the cute and innocent one, hands down.

[thegoldkidney-blog]

This is who.

Six months to go before I’m twenty.

My last name is not Kidney, but you can call me Gold.

I have a mother and father, but they’re separated (if I understood correctly, they were officially annulled this year). I have two sisters: Bunny, who is around two years older than me, and Eyebrows, who is around 4 years younger than me. The three of us are females, and we’re all hetero’s, if you’re curious. We also have a shih tzu named A. Bunny’s boyfriend, Dimple, gave A to her as a gift. A’s father, D, is Dimple’s dog.

I have a lot of good friends.

The first person I called my best friend is Matam. I met her in high school and we became very close in sophomore year. We’re still in contact up to this day, and even if I made a lot of great friends along the way, she is still one of the best. We used to call each other something along the lines of “other half” because we had so much in common.

I was lucky to have a roommate like One. I met her when I first moved to Manila with a good high school friend named Miracle. Along with Cheekbones, the four of us instantly became good roommates and great friends. One is very nice. She’s weird, but good weird. Cheekbones is a funny friend, but, unfortunately, she moved to Italy in sophomore year. We’re still in contact up to this day, and she’s going on a vacation back in the Philippines on July. Miracle and I weren’t as close today as we were in high school. But we were already friends back then, just not this close like we are today.

I met Cendre and Cielo in college during our freshman year. Cendre is tiny, cute, and angry all at the same time. Cielo is upbeat, meticulous, and easily amused (which is a good thing). Both of them talks a lot, but Cendre is better with strangers than Cielo. Even if I get pissed off with them as often as I do with my sisters, I can actually call them my best friends.

There’s this one awkward friend I got. I met King in college, sophomore year. He’s also a good friend, but I still feel hesitant with adding him to this post as we’re not as close as I am with the other people I mentioned. He is handsome, rich, and detached. Kind of feel like he’s tied himself away to not get too close, or something like that. But he is also kind of nice. So it kind of became the four of us (Cendre, Cielo, King, and me).

I think that’s all. No matter how strong or weak my bond is with these people, I love them and they’re the most important to me right now.

2018 June 3 22:26