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I just walked out of the shower and asked myself what to it is. It was 4h20. Hehe.

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Btw, i have being masturbating for 4 days. Thanks to my social anxiety that i don't go out and fuck everyone i can get. But like, im having this obsession over having an orgasms

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Lets survive another year

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I don't understand how people "find themselves". im in my bed since months and im trying to motivate myself to do stuff but nah

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I think im at my worst or something. Everything is just a fog. I wanna die but not hurt anyone.

Its new years eve and im alone in my appartment in the dark wondering what to do. Do i want to eat or smoke or die.

I hate it so much. Seing everyone with their love one and I can't even have a relationship with my cat.

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I'm just a fucking imposter in everything i do. Even when i want to kill myself.

The only time someone told me i was good was when i had sex or blowjobs with them. I never really had good experiences at work or in family situation. But like. I want to be nore than just good for sex. I want to be someone you know.

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the stage of my decomposed body will tell you how lonely i was.

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I don't know who i am anymore. I'm so lost. Everything i do is wrong. I feel being in a limbo

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What hurts me the most during my family gathering is seeing my mom doing fun activities with the kids of her boyfriend. I want to be happy with you too. Why you don't take time with your kids. I understand we are old but you still can do activities with us.

Oh and i can cry now. I cried on my way to my dads and on the way back.

All day i was between happy and suicidal. I hate it.

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I need to find a new job. But like everytime i go on indeed, i get so overwhelmed by the responsibilities. How do people go to work and talk to people?! I hate seeing people. They complicated.

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I want to get better but at the same time i just want to die. I just want something meaningful to live by.

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I was happy today and i smiled

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I'm so confused and lost. What are the reason to live? I dont go out to see people cuz everything gives me anxiety.

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Am in my bed since 3 hours. I need to do chores and my bûches for Christmas and i have no motivation to do it.

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I don't understand people. I'm at my worst and i feel you just want to get high and fuck me. I understand that we had our time that we did have aex, but right now my libido is gone and i just need someone to help me eat or clean.

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I feel so dead, empty, numb inside. I'm trying to do stuff i usually do, but no, i still feel that.