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It's been a long time. But I'm here to say that I'm a better person than I ever was before...and still growing. Every single thing a person told me to put me down are all of the things are what makes me who I am. I'm so glad I learned this. The love I have for me will attract love to me in unimaginable ways.

I am unapproachable...No, I have standards, values and a moral code that I live by and I am strong in my reserve.

I am soft. Yes, I feel things deeply and I react.

I am cold. No, but I am focused.

I talk too much. Yes, I have a lot to say.

I love too easily. That's what you think, but I definitely love hard when I do.

I am distant. No, but I protect my peace at all costs.

I am seductive. Eh, I'm a sexual being, I ambrace that.

I act white. I would never aspire to whiteness, what you associate with whiteness is in fact VERY VERY Black.

I'm very Black. See above..but also I love my skin, I'm IN love with my skin.

I'm fat. Oh, really? Should I hate my body? Because I treat it right.

I work too much. I hardly work doing what I love.

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#2 Write something about yourself that someone told you that you never forgot.

In college, this guy told me that I’m beautiful and so many guys think that but I’m extremely unapproachable to men and I friend zone everyone immediately.

I never forgot that because it made me check myself and think about intention vs. perception I didn’t know anyone viewed me as unapproachable. I intended to be someone not to toy with and someone sure of herself.

Now intention vs. perception is a part of my life. I practiced it for years.. i don’t claim mastery but it’s helped me to make important decisions with a fuller perspective.

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#1 - 10 things that make you really happy

1. Sleeping

2. Finding something random and beautiful

3. Drinks with my friends

4. Quality time with my lover

5. Doing good, impactful work

6. Good conversations

7. Thrifting

8. Sharing something I care about with someone else and them appreciating it

9. Books

10. Music

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Day 9

April 5th, 2017

Prompt #9: How have you been playing small?

I have a big mind that always running. I have big dreams about everything. But I haven’t been taking any risks. I’m applying for things within my comfort zone. I haven’t been pushing myself to the limit health wise. I guess I think there’s something elusive about becoming the person who you’ve always dreamed about that scares the crap out of me.

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Like breathing.

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Do small things with great love.

- Unknown

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Evergreen.

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Day 6

**Left out day 6**

April 2nd, 2017

Prompt #6: What would you like LESS of in your life?

I would like less hate. Self-hate, hate of others, hate of change, hate of differences. I truly wish we had a better grasp on the effects of hate. It ruins so many things and so many people. I wish I had less tears. I feel like I’ve been more emotional in the past couple years than I’ve ever been in my life. And just when I think I’m done, fresh out there’s more. I would like less doubt! I would love to be confident enough to try anything, to be open to experiences that could be great for me. Less stress. Less headaches. Less worrying. I’m working on all these things.