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oh I'm in recovery btw

forgot about this account lol

I don't want to be thin anymore I want to be a big sexy muscular bear

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Idk who needs to hear this but if you are on here and feel you still have time to get better or you are thinking about recovery this is your sign to get better I wish I could and I am considering it again because lying on my floor curled in a ball wondering if I’m about to have a seizure or my heart is about to stop beating because I took too many diet pills is not a life I want and is hardly a life I’m sick of having chest pains and praying to god I don’t collapse it’s not worth it and I hope atleast one person reads this and chooses recovery and chooses life over pain

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skipped a meal for the first time in 2 months. had a diet soda instead.

I hate how good it felt.

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shoutout to all my fellow disabled people with eds

to the disabled anas and mias who can't work out because they physically can't or sensory wise it isnt tolerable

to the disabled people with BED who people think are slacking off or gross

to the disabled people with sensory issues that play into ARFID

to everyone else disabled with an eating disorder (because i know im not mentioning a lot of situations i could go on and on)

not enough people talk about us in EDed spaces and i just wanted to say i love and appreciate you all, your eating disorders are valid, and to take care of yourself in any way possible

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yea no we back

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I am seconds away from relapsing at all times

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I hate how horrible men with eating disorders are treated. we get completely sidelined by everyone and treated like shit by people with the same conditions. not everyone with an Ed is a woman, shut the fuck up

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I wish i was the 'doesnt eat for days or get out of bed and looks deathly' depression not 'eats everything to try and fill a void no amount of carbs and calories will help' depression

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oh BTW I'm trying recovery again I'm so fucking done with this

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I wish I could see a photo of myself at my goal weight. That would be the ultimate motivation.

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MAGIC SPELL EVERYONE

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Reblog to lose 7 pounds in a week

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Reblog to weight less than yesterday

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anti-binge guide:

~ read this list 20 times ~

count to 100 very slowly

talk on the phone with someone

clean up something gross (bye I never did this one to be honest, lmao. no thank yo)

go out on a walk

pour salt over craving food (also a popular one I never did. a bitch just didn’t like to waste salt or food like that. i say that while heavily relying on number 10 🤡)

make a list of triggers + avoid them // find low cal fibrous, filling alternatives

go outside and do 20 pushups + 100 jumping jacks (the jiggling was enough of an anti-binge lmao); bonus, do in front of a mirror (this is just cruel but also effective so idk yall, take your gander)

take a shot of ACV (LIGHT IT UPPPP lmao, pretend you’re clubbing but the vodka is vinegar and rather than feeling buzzed and happy, you’re miserable and desperate. but babes, we gotta romanticize this, so party it up anyways lmao)

sleep

c/s (wastes food, but worked wonders for me. just make sure you have at least a bite at the end, and rinse the mouth, but don’t brush to preserve that enamel)

listen to a podcast / read a book

watch something gory

write in your diary

th1nsp0

make a food planner for next week

calculate the deficit yoo’ll maintain for the week and the lbs progress if you don’t binge (it feels like a reward then, to refrain)

online window shop for clothes you want to fit in

dance / go on a run

take a shower/bath

do some self care. attend to those emotional needs rather than using food as an emotional crutch. sis is not your therapist.

chew on ice (i was never this desperate lmao)

plan a controlled metabolism day and work the foods you want to binge on now in that day to practice moderation and portion control while also reinforcing discipline

STOP if you have already started. you don’t have to continue. you’re okay. you still have control. stop now and prove it to yourself.

learn some biology (human anatomy, physiology, etc)

✨some affirmations✨:

~ repeat these to yourself for as long as it takes for the urge to binge to go away ~

food does not hold power over me

i don’t actually want this

*this food* actually really grosses me out

i don’t even like to eat

i’m going to put this away because i don’t need it and i listen to my needs

i am such an intuitive eater. i know when to stop eating naturally

its so easy for me to not eat

not eating is so easy

i take care of my emotional needs rather than numbing them away with food

food won’t make me feel better. self care will

i take care of myself.

i am committed to taking care of myself

i don’t even want to eat anymore.

i have no appetite. i never do

this food taste so gross and it lingers in the mouth. why would i want to eat something like that

i naturally crave fruits and vegetables.

i naturally eat healthy

i feel so much lighter and happier when i don’t eat

i feel better now that i said no to *this food*

i don’t really need food

i am actually really thirsty. i need water, not food

i am okay

i have control over myself and my body because i listen to it and take of it

i have discipline because i am naturally built for this

i am okay

i will be okay

this urge is not the end of the world. i don’t have to give in

just because i have a desire, that doesn’t compel me to fulfil it. i have more self control than that

i am okay.

i will be okay.

i am strong

i am okay

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When you say "I'm fast1ng" society doesn't bat an eye

When you say "I'm purpousfully st@rv1ng" society goes wild

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why do people have minors dni in their shit but then interact with minors

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whoever invented zero calorie sodas i am kissing you on the mouth

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does anyone know any ED books with male protagonists? I know it might be a niche category considered the typical "ED story" protagonist is a suburban teenage girl, but it is a NEED .