thecelestiallibrary

[thecelestiallibrary]

I wanna run. I wanna scream. I wanna just escape from my own fucking head. But there isn't an escape. It doesn't leave. I am fucking trapped. So I freeze. I dissociate. With my head screaming, locked behind layers of ice, sight fuzzy. I dream of dying.

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The hours slip by,

the world moves on, but I stand still.

My thoughts are heavy,

weighing me down.

I hear the doubts,

telling me I don’t belong.

I wear a smile,

but inside, I’m empty.

I’m tired of fighting,

of pretending to be strong.

The silence fills the space,

and I fade away.

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“I will breathe. I will think of solutions. I will not let my worry control me. I will not let my stress level break me. I will simply breathe. And it will be OK.”

— Shayne McClendon

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"The most beautiful exits require no explanation. Let your peace be their puzzle."

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You can't live if you're not alive especially for a soul who's living with an eternal silence in empty void and is eager to get rid of this mortal body

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"I look at what is happening in the world and I see that our whole species is on a path of destruction. Like it is programmed, another pattern. And I just get fed up with being a human, being this small tiny thing that can't do anything about the world. Everything feels impossible."

- Matt Haig, The Life Impossible

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“It feels like a punch. Tears fill my eyes, and I wonder how I could be upset over losing something I never had.”

— Jodi Picoult, Between the Lines

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“Teach your little ones about the rules of decent behaviour. When they grow up, it will be too late to learn.”

— Eraldo Banovac

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A good benefit.

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— Franz Kafka // Richard Siken

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Alejandra Pizarnik, from 'Continuity', Extracting the Stone of Madness: Poems 1962-1972

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The edges of this will soften,

the weight will lift,

and in time,

it will be okay.

Not yet,

but soon.

[thecelestiallibrary]

Truths I would wish for her to hear and accept:

I am not coming to save you from your feelings. There is also no magic or other person to fix your feelings for you. The fixing part is your responsibility. You call yourself "the victim," but you aren't the victim of your poor choices. You possess the ability to think and reflect your own behaviour and its consequences, and that brings us to:

You are living a lie. You lie to everyone around you, including yourself. Of course, it's comfortable to stay in this nest of lies, but then you have to accept I do not wish to be near you. I tried to tell you the truth, but you insist on your victimhood. Who of us is the parent again? Those lies keep you stuck in your vicious cycle and prevent you from true happiness.

At least you accepted my wish of not wanting to have contact to you. For that, I am grateful.

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I romanticized the darkest parts of my life, painted pain into shades of poetry, and turned heartache into something beautiful.

I made my suffering feel softer, more bearable, as if giving it meaning could take away the sting.

But some nights, no amount of pretty words can disguise the darkness.

- Daria Synn

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I hope you think of me,

and that it shakes you,

that my memory,

lingers like a bruise

[thecelestiallibrary]

You tried to change, didn't you? Closed your mouth more, tried to be softer, prettier, less volatile, less awake. You can't make homes out of human beings. Someone should have already told you that.

Warsan Shire