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Ava Gardner, Whistle Stop, 1946

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Fleetwood Mac at Madison Square Garden in NY - June 30, 1977. Photo by Chuck Pulin.

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Rose Quartz - Taquaral, Itinga, Minas Gerais, Brazil

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sophiatuxford via instagram 

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The Atelier Couture “Thy Love”

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i wrote an entire account of my Appalachian family, tracing from the late 1600s to my great-grandma’s passing in 2016. it was one of the hardest things i’ve ever done on multiple levels but also one of the most, if not THE most, rewarding projects i’ve ever completed.

my family is Melungeon but i’ve found that our ancestors had more Jewish blood (and possibly Romanichal blood based on the given names they had that were common among Romany in the 19th century i.e. Luvenia, Herod and Aquilla, and how some of them moved back and forth a lot in short timespans, but i’m not sure) than the Black and Native DNA that people think of when they think “Melungeon”, though i’m possibly descended from a Pamunkey chief, Totopotomoi, a long way back. our family has constantly intermarried with the Sizemores and gosh that makes me feel like i have a connection to royalty!

i got a very tiny amount of West African on my 23AndMe test and my dad took a MyHeritage test and got back Balkan. but the African results I got are really confusing bcuz it didn’t say anything specific, just “African Hunter-Gatherer”.

i know it sounds weird talking about tiny bits of African DNA i have but for context for those who don’t know much or anything about Melungeons, our identity isn’t as much about the non-white blood we have, but rather about how our ancestors formed tight-knit, insular communities because of how they were discriminated against and from there they formed their own unique culture that’s trickled down to us. a lot of us today are phenotypically “White” and therefore have white privilege and yet at the end of the day, race is and has always been a social construct and we still have legitimate spiritual connections to our ancestors.

my grandma says she’s going to take me on a road trip to see my relatives in Ohio and our ancestral state of Kentucky and i’m SOOOO excited. i’m genuinely stoked.

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happy valentines day

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Rollingstone outtakes,

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so much of the new testament only half-tugs at me because jesus is so stoic and near-passive about going to his death in sacrifice so it’s hard to feel bad as he comes off as almost two-dimensional about it, but the one verse that gets me is luke 22:42. 

“father, if you are willing, let this cup pass from me. not of my own will, but of yours to be done.” 

i think it humanizes him more than anything else. he’s begging his father to make the inevitable pain just a little more bearable. a child willingly going to his death for his father without question, but in a nearing hour asking “will it hurt?” it makes me sad every time i think about it.

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Gowns by Louise Hamlin-Wright, 1980s.

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María Félix as Messalina, 1951. Dir. Carmine Gallone

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