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“Knowing what it is to feel loved.”

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YES GUYS 🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉

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i cannot believe that the ever after got so fucking sick of blake and yang’s gay antics it FORCED THEM TO STAND ON A BROKEN BRIDGE UNTIL THEY CONFESSED 😭😭😭 ever after did the whole fandom a favor, who knows how long it would’ve taken them otherwise

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Awwww 🥺❤️❤️❤️

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I CANT WITH BLAKE’S NERVOUS LITTLE “Try and keep up!”

LIKE OF COURSE SHE ALREADY KNOWS SHE LOVES YANG AT THIS POINT BUT SHE WAS STILL SO NERVOUS BECAUSE YANG NEVER OPENED HER BIG DUMB BEAUTIFUL EYES AND REALIZED ‘HEY MAYBE BLAKE LIKING ME BACK IS POSSIBLE’. I DON’T THINK THE THOUGHT EVER CROSSED YANG SO SHE SETTLED FOR ALWAYS STICKING BY HER SIDE AND JUST DEALING WITH THESE FEELINGS SILENTLY.

MAD RESPECT FOR MS BELLADONNA, THAT WOMAN WAS DOWN SO BAD THE ENTIRE VOLUME SHE FULL SENT THIS BITCH.

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But the way Yang’s face changes and clouds part when she realises. 

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SHUT UP NO ONE TALK TO ME

!!!!!!!!!!!

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DKDHWKCHSKCJ AHHH!!!

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WE GOT FERAL BLAKE BUT AT WHAT COST????

AT WHAT FUCKING COST???

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Weiss Schnee being a Beyblade - inspired by Jujutsu Kaisen ED 1

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Yeah…It Makes a Lot of Sense

I really want to applaud the crew on how well they paralleled Yang and Ren’s abandonment issues this last episode. Specifically the irony that a lot of what Yang is calling Ren out on is stuff that she specifically does herself to cope.

It isn’t surprising that the two share coping mechanisms, given their backgrounds. It’s not uncommon for people with abandonment issues (like Yang and Ren) to internalize the pain and anger of being left and direct it at themselves instead of those that hurt them. Essentially try to identify the “reason” those people left to try and “fix” in themselves so it never happens again. Ren blamed himself for being too weak to stop the Nuckelavee, so he resolved to become a “true huntsman”. Yang feared Raven and Summer left because she wasn’t “good enough” so she decided to become someone to look up to. It’s not fair to either of them. They absolutely had no fault in their situations, but blaming themselves gives a sense of control. They can “fix” themselves. They can’t “fix” giant grimm monsters, ideological suicide missions or the abstract fear of motherhood. Those are big things WAY out of their control. Pushing people away gives them time to try and do that without having to worry about scaring people away or feeling that pain again.

Despite the similarity, these two tend to go about it in total opposite ways. Ren typically internalizes, keeping his thoughts and feelings to himself. But, as we’re seeing now, when his emotions hit a breaking point (such as, “crap. Maybe I’m not a real huntsman, maybe I’m still just a scared little kid”) he starts externalizing and lashing out at those around him. Yang, on the other hand, typically externalizes her emotions - wearing them on her sleeve for the world to see - until she hits a breaking point. At which point she shuts down and begins internalizing: taking the pain out on herself. She’s picking up on Ren’s signals because he is finally expressing them in a way she’s used to doing herself.

Which makes her silence in this scene so equally important and ironic. Sure, she empathizes with Ren, apologizes on his behalf to Jaune and tries to present where he’s coming from. But she never directly says she relates to him. This is the character who used her very first appearance to the world to declare “I Burn”.  What do you do when you touch something hot? You pull back. You do your best to leave that stove top alone so that it can do it’s job. From scene one this character has worn the fact that she keeps her emotional distance from people on her sleeve. And she says…nothing.

She’s thinking it, though. When Jaune confides in her, you can see it in her eyes - that hesitation. That urge to just say “yeah, me, too”.

But she doesn’t. Instead she turns away. Starts working on the motor. Honestly I can’t blame her. It’s scary to think that there’s something outside of her control (her subconscious) that might cause her to push people away whether she wants to or not. She knows she’s done it before. But, she’s made so much progress…surely she’s past it. But what if…? Like I said, it’s not something she can control. And she knows she’s been distant. I mean it’s been 3 volumes and she has yet to open up about Raven or parse out her feelings about Blake leaving.

It’s only natural for her mind to wander. Maybe…think of someone she’s scared of losing. Someone she’s already lost before. Remembering looking into that someone’s eyes, reassuring them that she isn’t a monster only to have them vanish hours later. Of how maybe, if she’d done better at controlling herself against Mercury, the aftermath of the Fall may have turned out differently. And how that person is now miles away. On the opposite side of a split Yang unintentionally caused and wonder if she’s pushing her away again.

Y'all know who I’m talking about right? Yeah,

Sure, Jaune.

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Real talk though, can we talk about Taiyang’s reaction? This is the first time he’s seeing Ruby in months. This is the first time he’s even hearing from her since that letter she sent to him back during the v4 finale within the first couple hours of making it to Mistral, and who knows if that letter even made it home! It’s been months since then, with Taiyang not having heard from either of his daughters since Yang left. And now he finally gets to hear from one of them and it’s on a television screen on a channel that’s not supposed to be working and hasn’t worked since Beacon fell a year ago, as she tells the world about a super important secret that he’s one of the few people on the planet who knew about it beforehand! He was on STRQ, he knows how dangerous Salem is, and now here’s Ruby, revealing to the whole world that she’s now a part of this war. He’s probably feeling proud, excited, scared, terrified, helpless. Ruby just said Atlas was under attack and then the feed goes out! I can’t even imagine all of the feelings Taiyang must be feeling as he watches the screen go blank and his baby girl fade off the tv monitor.

This is how we leave Taiyang Xiao Long. In a dark room with nothing but a couple lamps and the tv for light, of which the tv is the brightest light in the room, holding his head in his hands while his dog tries to comfort him. All of this after begging to see his youngest daughter for just a second longer.

I feel so bad for this man.

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Blake hating all unorthodox forms of travel is so funny to me 😂

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Ruby: We lost Nora! We have to tell the others!

Ruby: *takes out scroll*

Ruby:

Ruby: where is oscar's aura

ELSEWHERE IN ATLAS...

Ren: We lost Oscar! We have to tell the others!

Ren: *takes out scroll*

Ren:

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Blake Belladonna 8x03

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Blake and Nora interacting❗

Blake advising Nora based on her own experience of an abusive relationship with Adam❗❗

Blake understanding what love should truly look like now because of what she shares with Yang❗❗❗

Excuse me, I need a moment to cry.