give me your back then, if you don't want to see me. i'll use it as a canvas to paint on. give me your stare then, if you don't want to speak to me. i'll use it as a mirror to guide me. give me your guilt then, if you don't have any faith in us. i'll find a way to make it a lesson. every day, in each interaction, i am looking for ways to progress. to turn your indifference into a source of love.
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im a woman which means i know what youre talking about. im a woman which means theres no appropriate time for my anger, my response. no real place for my love other than my hands. im a woman which means i think about speaking but dont often get the chance to. im a woman which means i know everything. i have faith i believe i believe i believe i believe
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im after new love and i cant help it
growing taller
falling over
hoping for a new perspective
you left me over and over
I wont forget it
im on my way to find something better
you'll find a way to know for sure
it will never happen for you
again
third time unlucky
i think you always knew the truth
you cant belong to anyone
not if you dont want to
i can
i know how
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if you don't know how to talk
then for my sake
just once
don't talk to me
I can pretend a while longer that it's no bother
so long as you still know how to use your hands
and your eyes
if you don't know how to talk
let me talk for the both of us
i'm a miracle worker
at over compensating
in the name of being kind and noble
and never-needy
like a fish in a bowl on a desk in your room
I can pretend it's only natural
to be right here
at this time, in this place
so conveniently
effortlessly
alive for you
never needing
anything in return
I've felt so desperate at times
as desperate as a lonesome weed in the garden
begging to be stepped on for the hope of
having a memory
I've practiced apologising to myself
on your behalf
i live with a made up language
you can't speak
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all the love i gave
just to feel punished for it
nothing left to mend myself
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tell me where to put my love
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“I never feel exposed because there’s nothing inside me that isn’t in you. All writing is about all of us.” - Sheila Heti
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i get everything i want ❤️
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i ask for your loving then i sweep it away
lingering in hallways, hoping you stay
am i this ironic
sowing this hell, this grave,
this loveless and lonely space
the only time im feeling safe
the only time im feeling safe
optimist, how are you so glued together? im making a mess
pretending you dont notice how i ruin this
ill let you go if you wanna go, isnt that fine, yeah
but ill tell you to go when you dont wanna go
and thats my crime
thats my crime
time, ill be doing the time for all that i say and all that i dont say right
its more about me than it is about you
its fight or flight
i never challenge myself , just making the same mistakes thrice
i shouldve learned by now
but youre such an optimist
it makes me morph into something so small
i think if i cant love you perfect, i cant love you at all
and every reason i am searching for,
leads me to see thats my crime
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coming around slowly slowly
what would i do without you? starve
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positive affirmations: i am deserving of nice things, i welcome nice days into my life, i am valuable and creative, i am abundant and generous
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“its stupid. how frightened i am of you leaving. you just got here. the tea is still warm in the pot.”
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i think in a way i rob myself by not allowing my heart to do what she wants
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i love the way the sun makes me feel and i realised today that you make me feel the exact same way. and laying in the sun with you, laying in bed with you is all like a dream come true
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