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Final Task

What is your full name?

Annabel Lee Nash

How old are you?

24

Relationship status?

Currently single and not really looking. After my breakup with Daniel I realized that I needed some time away from romantic relationships to kind of just really understand what it is I’m really looking for in  partner other than someone to just fill the void of my parents. Although I do believe we had something really good and would consider being with him again which would be great for Kolby.

Do you have any children? Names? If none, do you plan on having any?

I have a son with Daniel, Kolby Edward Grace. His middle name is to honor both is Grandpa and Uncle who were taken from us way too soon.

Where do you live?

I live in Charleston now. I needed to get away from New Quinton so I could finally breathe and start my life but I didn’t want to go too far for the sake of Kolby; he needs his father.

What do you think of New Quinton?

I try to think of New Quinton as little as possible these days, though it’s hard when I’m driving there every weekend to take Kolby to his fathers. To me, New Quinton is still my personal hell. I still see the judgment on the faces of the people who have always looked down on me and it still hurts. None of my close friends that I loved seem to be around anymore so it makes it that much harder. But I feel like a part of me will always feel like that it’s home despite everything that happened. Despite all the drama and the bad times it’s where I grew up and it’ll always be a part of me.

When was the last time you were home? If you never moved away, why not?

Last weekend. I made the choice to move out of town for the sake of my sanity and to better myself and I feel like it’d be unfair to make Daniel come get Kolby all the time when it was my choice leave.

Do you miss home? If you never moved away, are you glad you stayed?

Some nights when I’m lying in bed and thinking I start to miss it a little but I think it’s more the people. I find myself missing Abel and Marcy more than I probably should but they were my world during the really hard times and I’d be lying if I said I didn’t miss Daniel most nights. Other than that though, I don’t really think I miss anything about the town. I certainly don’t miss the life I used to live, that’s for sure and I’m glad I’ve finally grown out of it and realized that I can have a decent life despite everything that had happened.

Who were your closest friends five years ago? Do you still talk to any of them now?

Oh, God. Marcy and Abel for sure. I fell out of touch with Marcy when Daniel and I started getting serious and I still feel really badly about that because she really was my ride or die but I know deep down that if we were to reconnect it’d be like we never stopped talking. I talk to Abel on a daily basis, after all he is my adopted family. Out of every in New Quinton I see him the most, spend all of our holiday’s at the Haye’s family gatherings. And God, is he great to Kolby! And even though it was really, really, rough at times (especially towards the end), I would be lying if I said Alec wasn’t in my top three. We had a lot of issues but in the end he always put up with me and my antics and I was too deep in my own world to see that all he was doing was trying to protect and care for me, but I haven’t talked to him in years.

How have you changed in the past five years?

I don’t even know where to start. I’m clean now. That probably has to be the biggest one. I smoke before bed and when I wake up to help with my insomnia, anxiety, and depression because I’m afraid to take any pills because I’m terrified of messing up and becoming addicted again but other than that I don’t even drink alcohol anymore. For a while I was real bad into heroin and other drugs. I was doing everything and anything I could get my hands on because I genuinely felt like I didn’t deserve to be alive anymore and that my actions had made me into a monster. Unlike five years ago, not even that, three years ago; I actually have control over my life and make thoughtful choices. When I became pregnant is when I started to take therapy seriously and first got clean. Going cold turkey when you’re an alcoholic, heroin, pill, and coke addict is the scariest and hardest thing anyone could go through and I wouldn’t wish that pain on my worst enemy. I got my GED and then began studying art. I’m working towards my fine arts and art history major right now and make a living through my art and freelance modeling. I knew I had to get clean and become a better person for not only my son but for myself. I realized I was no better than my parents and in order to give Kolby the love he deserves I had to do a complete 180 and believe it or not, Daniel was my biggest support through it all, besides Abel of course. The last couple of years have been the hardest of my life without a doubt but it was all worth it to see the smile of my son every day when I wake up. I couldn’t have done it without him.

Do you miss who you used to be?

Not at all. I’ve learned how to live with and deal with my mental illness and now that I have control over that and can see how I was hurting myself and the people I love, I could never look back and miss that person. I can’t change who I was in the past but only make a better me for the future and that’s all I’m working towards. I’ll never be that lost and scared girl ever again. 

Where do you see yourself five years from now?

Hopefully running my own art studio. Even though I’m completely free of my parents in every aspect, I still get money from them through a trust fund that was set up for me when I was born and although at the moment all of that goes to the ASPCA, I might use a portion from it to buy a little shop. I see myself doing everything and anything I can to make sure Kolby has the life I never had and always wanted growing up and to make sure he always has two loving parents no matter what. I don’t necessarily see myself with anyone but that doesn’t mean it won’t happen either but for now I’m primarily focused on continuing to better myself and my family.

Other Things About Annabel in the Last Five Years:

She still has all of her pets and Phillip is Kolby’s personal guard dog.

Art is her way of venting more now than ever and puts all of herself into her work which usually sells as soon as she restocks her online store so she’s made quite a name of herself. 

She sold the house that she bought for herself and Marcy and used that money plus money from the money her Grandpa left for her to buy a house in Charleston. 

Because of her relationship with Daniel, Annabel and Charlie are on much better terms and can be in the same room as each other and actually converse like civil people. 

Abel is still her lifeline and biggest support system as she is his. 

Shortly after she became pregnant, she found out that her mother was drinking through her entire pregnancy with her little brother, Barron, who suffered from FAS and is now wrapped up in a lengthy battle to try to get custody from her mother. Her father still wants nothing to do with either of his children. 

 Her Nonna passed away a year after Kolby was born which rocked her hard and caused a brief relapse but with the help of Abel, his family, and Daniel, she was able to quickly get back on track. 

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“All you’ve done in the last two years is lie to everyone. I’m starting to think you’re just a piece of shit liar and it’s pathetic. You weren’t lying to protect anyone but your own fucking image and you know it. I mean, I’m a terrible person but at least I’m not a fucking liar. But that doesn’t matter because I only came here to say one thing; I. Told. You. So.”

“I…Yeah, I guess I can’t really…” Alec trailed off, looking at the person’s phone. It was a screenshot of his sister’s instagram with her ultrasound on it. He sighed. “Yeah, I didn’t know she was going to post that…” He shrugged and sat down. “I had to lie to protect my family. I don’t think I should be given shit for that.”

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danielgraceful:

Daniel watched as she did, leaning back in his seat. “You can do whatever you want, I can’t stop you.”

“You can’t? Or you don’t want to?” She asked while continuing to dance in front of him with a smirk on her face.

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“Well, no,” Daniel tried to hide his smirk. “I can’t touch you. But I mean…I can’t really control you, can I? You’re a grown woman.”

“So what if I were to just walk up to you and do this?”

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danielgraceful:

“You just gonna stand there?”

“Yeah, well it’s not like you’re going to let me touch you or anything so what else am I supposed to do?”

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Annabel jumped at the sound of another voice, having been brought back to reality from her thoughts. She looked around at her surroundings and wondered how she’d gotten there. The last thing she remembered was being in a hotel room. “Wha-” She began before seeing Evan and sighed. “What’re you doing here?” She asked with a confused daze in her eyes. 

Evan had just come out of the town’s coffee shop, trying to get a fix of her new addiction, caffeine, when she spotted Annabel. The girl was wearing hardly anything, and even from across the street, Evan could see the small bruises marring the insides of her arms. She quickly made her way over to the other girl, taking off her jacket in the process. “While I doubt she was in the right there, the worst form of punishment for her would be to see you walking around town with your arms shot to hell.” She held out her jacket and took a sip of her coffee, trying to seem indifferent to the other girl. “Put it on.” She said, hoping Annabel actually would. 

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Text - Bels

Dan: pills what pills

Dan: bels shes still my girlfriend chill

Annabel: oh you didn't know?

Annabel: interesting.

Annabel: she's been buying aderall from me for like two months or something.

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Annabel couldn’t help but to chuckle when Dan tried to comfort her. He was honestly just as bad, if not worse, than she was in this situations. “It’s fine, I know what you meant.” She shrugged it off knowing he had meant well and thought over the idea of blowing off her next client. He wasn’t wrong, she definitely had enough money in the bank to get her and Marcy through the next year but she had a lifestyle she was invested in that cost a lot. ���I- Okay, yeah. Fine.” She nodded. “And for the record, no, Natalie didn’t hit me. She’d already be dead if she had but I knocked the fuck out of Alec. So, my place or yours?” 

Dan smirked. “Aw, yeah, she punched you, eh? No wait – you punched her? Or?” He shook his head and laughed. “Fuck it, I don’t know, I was gettin’ head when that was happening so I didn’t give a fuck. Someone got punched, yeah?” He followed her gaze to the ground, reaching over to pull her chin up to face him. “No, you’re not. Anyone can fuck old dudes, it’s not even that big of a deal.” Daniel paused, dropping his hand from her face. “That wasn’t a nice thing to say, was it? I meant it in a better way than it came out.” He shrugged. “Nevermind – look. Fuck that, okay? Blow it off, you got enough money anyway.”

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“His job doesn’t allow him to pick and choose where clients get tattoos. Get. Over. It.”

“He doesn’t have to be.” Ivy crossed her arms over her chest. “Actually it does matter if I like it or not, he is my boyfriend and that’s how relationships work.” 

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Text - Bels

Dan: DUDE

Dan: HOW THE FUCK

Dan: DO I TELL YOU NOT TO TELL HER

Dan: AND THEN YOU TELL HER

Dan: HOW

Dan: YOU TRYNA GET MY NUTS CHOPPED OFF??

Annabel: So I'm supposed to always wear pants in case Ivy see's me? Nah, fuck that.

Annabel: She was in my fucking facce bragging about her new litle job in new york or whatever like she's sooooooo much fuckin better than me when she's poppin just as many pills, stupid bitch.

Annabel: so yeah I showed her the whole tattoo to make her mad and it worked :)

Annabel: fuck that stuck up cunt.

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