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Update: I needed a haircut and to get back into drag.

Being genderqueer is weird because I feel dysphoria and it’s like “do I need a haircut and binding tape, or do I need to talk to my doctor about spending hundreds of dollars on hormones that might not even give me the wanted effects.”

Don’t mind me. I feel icky and since my feelings about gender kind of wax and wane, I have no idea what to do about it.

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I should probably update my bio post,,, I don’t vibe with it the same way anymore,,, but putting things into words is difficult

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I’m curious, what assumptions do you make about me, if any? I want to know the vibes I’m giving off on this blog.

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Guys I think it’s working,,,

Gunna try my hand at this manifestation thing. Figure if it doesn’t magically work, the consistency of reminding myself I deserve love is probably healthy. Just finished up making a ritual oil for it. Gunna put in on before I sleep the next few nights and idk chant or something.

I would look up specifics on how to do it, but I fear that side of YouTube and tumblr are uhh,,, scary sometimes. Plus I tend to do better if I’m crafting my own process for this kind of thing.

No hate on people who do this regularly, I just find a greater population of people I don’t want to interact with in this side of social media.

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Gunna try my hand at this manifestation thing. Figure if it doesn’t magically work, the consistency of reminding myself I deserve love is probably healthy. Just finished up making a ritual oil for it. Gunna put in on before I sleep the next few nights and idk chant or something.

I would look up specifics on how to do it, but I fear that side of YouTube and tumblr are uhh,,, scary sometimes. Plus I tend to do better if I’m crafting my own process for this kind of thing.

No hate on people who do this regularly, I just find a greater population of people I don’t want to interact with in this side of social media.

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Being genderqueer is weird because I feel dysphoria and it’s like “do I need a haircut and binding tape, or do I need to talk to my doctor about spending hundreds of dollars on hormones that might not even give me the wanted effects.”

Don’t mind me. I feel icky and since my feelings about gender kind of wax and wane, I have no idea what to do about it.

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Nothing has given me so much gender euphoria than me, bikini top and swim shorts, happy trail and hairy armpits, short hair on head, and two kids coming up to me asking “are you a boy or a girl.” I shrugged. Absolutely made my day.

at the beach. shorts. bikini. happy trail. & hairy pits. hairy toes. & flops that flip. transgender swag, you never miss. #poetry #slam-poetry

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Hey update: I’m going by Kit online now. It’s a name I’m considering for irl and want to test it out.

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I’m going into my senior year of college and working on my thesis, which plainly, is about feminist-pagans and goddess worship.

Right now, I’m looking for primary sources. Divine feminine. Self help. Stuff like that. Or even, the opposite of that if you think of something. Goddess worship without the feminist aspect, if it’s out there. Also preferably recent stuff, maybe past 20-25 years?

It isn’t necessarily to include in my thesis, but to understand the topic further and get ideas.

Can you think of any books?

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As I get closer to my last year of college, I wonder if that’s going to change. I like college more now, so I might find ways to be connected while still being busy.

Where do you feel most spiritually connected/disconnected?

For me I feel most spiritually connected travelling on the open road. As for disconnected, currently school lmao.

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I may have already reblogged something like this, but feel free to ask questions!

Polytheist & Pagan Asks

🙏 - Which pantheon(s) do you actively worship?

🌞 - Which deity(ies) are you closest to/do you worship the most often?

✨ - Do you believe in patron deities? If so, do you have any that you know of?

🌍 - Which pantheons do you believe exist?

📜 - Have you ever made an oath, vow, or contract with a deity? If yes, how did it go (you don't have to share)?

📿 - What are three things you're grateful to your deity(ies) for?

🖋️ - If you could say anything to your deity(ies) right now, what would you most want to say?

💌 - What is your favorite form of deity communication?

🎭 - What is an emotionally impactful or a silly worship-related experience you've had?

❤️ - What's one memory of your practice that you reflect the most fondly on?

🥂 - What is your favorite devotional act or offering to give?

🎉 - Do you celebrate any festivals? If so, which ones?

🫂 - Do you syncretize any pantheons with one another? If so, which ones?

��� - Do you delve into topics like the occult or the mysteries? Do you do anything esoteric?

⭐ - What is something you wish people outside your practice knew more about?

📖 - Do you like the way your pantheon is most often portrayed in media? Why or why not?

🏛️ - Do you have a favorite statue or temple to your deity(ies)? If yes, what is it?

🔥 - Do you have a favorite myth or tale from your pantheon or others?

🧭 - What led you to your practice?

🧿 - Did you have any other spiritual beliefs before discovering your current practice?

🪽 - Do you believe in angels and/or demons? If yes, do you worship or work with any?

🪄 - Do you practice witchcraft? If yes, do you keep it separate from your deity worship?

🪦 - Do ancestors or human spirits play a big role in your practice?

🐾 - Do animal spirits play a big role in your practice?

🌱 - Does nature - plants, nature spirits, etc. - play a big role in your practice?

💀 - Do you believe in ghosts? If yes, have you ever had an experience with one?

☄️ - Do you believe in astral travel/the astral realm? If so, have you been there before?

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I love when people ask me questions i know the answer to 💕💕💕

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How does gnosticism influence your theology and worldview as a panentheist? ♡

I’ve studied Gnosticism in an academic setting and a few things just stuck with me. It’s not necessarily the gods or god-like figures of the gnostics that I like, but some over the overarching beliefs.

For one, the striving towards knowledge. For me, this knowledge isn’t some secret capital T true knowledge, but personal knowledge. Knowing thyself and all that stuff. Taking time to think and understand what you believe and how you work.

Another aspect is the unknowable god figure. A higher power that is so higher-power-y that the human mind simple cannot comprehend it. We can try, and we can find comfort in trying, but I feel we can never truly know. For me, that figure is beyond, yes, but also within the universe. They are the earth and planets, they are the dirt and the air, the birds, the beasts, us. But they are also more.

I also like the dualism, though I see it a bit differently. I like the idea of concept pairs in existence, but I see it more like a sliding scale with another aspect. Best example for me is a queer gender spectrum. You can be masculine, feminine, both, something else, or nothing. I see things as a complex set of soft “opposites.” Everything and nothing. Old and young. Life and death. Stuff like that.

I will note that “gnostic” is used for a lot of groups. Even “true” gnostic texts don’t agree on everything. The aspects I like aren’t consistent themes in all gnostic texts I’ve read, but they are ones commonly associated with certain texts.

Edit: whoops I forgot to thank you for asking. Thank you for your curiosity and kind way of asking!

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My “Some Maybe Helpful Definitions” post has still been getting likes, so I was wondering if I should make another with new words?

Any words related to religion and/or paganism that you want to know? I like doing deep dives on words.

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Connected: in my backyard. It’s my little part nature and I have so many good memories there.

Disconnected: at college, I feel like I don’t have much time to go slow and feel spiritual.

Where do you feel most spiritually connected/disconnected?

For me I feel most spiritually connected travelling on the open road. As for disconnected, currently school lmao.

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Spell or Prayer or Something Else?

I have come to the understanding that I don't believe in magic. Haven't done a spell or anything like that in probably over a year. Just made a "spell" jar. To be fair I used to call them prayer jars, so it wasn't necessarily a spell, but still.

This one was for focus and motivation, and I think most of the past ones have been for confidence or love related things.

I have at least realized that I was being unhealthy with love related things. Not like in a taking away people's autonomy way, but in a "I can't be loved without magic" mindset way.

Anyway, I hope this jar helps me clean my room and get my summer homework done.

Tried to look at the correspondences a little differently. Instead of looking at lists people make, I kind of just use what I had and the connections my own brain made.

Ingredients:

Coffee grounds- energy

black tea with vanilla - energy and softness (so I'm not to hard on myself)

crushed red pepper- passion, energy, fire under my ass

salt - protection from distracting thoughts

black pepper- courage to get off the couch/out of bed

rosemary- purity of mind

cinnamon- passion, reminding me I love what I do

a little note with intentions.

Sealed with white wax and a little yellow.

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New label?

I think monotheistic druid might be more my vibe.