the-thoughtdaughter

[the-thoughtdaughter]

my hunger is, at once, disgusting, transcendental, sickening, and divine.

no matter, all i do is crave.

[the-thoughtdaughter]

i was not made for a solitary existence.

every moment of every day, my body longs to melt into yours until our flesh gives way to let our souls merge. i want to breathe the air from your lungs and feel the beating of your heart in my chest. i do not want to know where i end and where you start because there is no "me" or "you", just us and the forces of the universe paving our way toward each other; into each other.

oh, familiar stranger! oh, spectre who occupies my dreams - both sleeping and waking - find me soon. come home, darling. i want to know who you are and why i love you so.

[the-thoughtdaughter]

i'm getting bad at replying.

is this peace or melancholy?

[the-thoughtdaughter]

even the voices in my head have gotten tired of cursing such an exhausted existence.

[the-thoughtdaughter]

— Rudy Francisco

[the-thoughtdaughter]

i just want a moment of peace and quiet. i've been looking for it everywhere. i'm at my wit's end; perhaps, the only place left to look is in my grave.

[the-thoughtdaughter]

girlhood is the ever-present urge to simply sell yourself - your dignity, your mind, your soul - for scraps of attention.

[the-thoughtdaughter]

[the-thoughtdaughter]

[the-thoughtdaughter]

people will hear you talk about struggling with mental illness and say “you can do anything if you just put your mind to it”. brother what part of the body does the mental illness happen in. what do you think is the problem

[the-thoughtdaughter]

The most terrifying part of having memory issues is when you can feel something from 5 seconds ago be thrown out the window and there's an empty hole where it once was. You remember that you forgot something.

[the-thoughtdaughter]

Someone in an autism facebook group I'm in just asked "How am I supposed to earn enough to make a living without burning out?"

Someone replied: "You're not. Even neurotypicals can't right now in the system designed for them. We're the canaries in the coalmine. When we start failing, they know something is wrong."

[the-thoughtdaughter]

—mothers

ijeoma umebinyuo // hyatt moore // class of 2013 by mitski // i, tonya (2017) // ? // gustav klimt // ? // lady bird (2017) // i remain in darkness by annie ernaux

[the-thoughtdaughter]

being the firstborn daughter of immigrant parents is a nightmare because it’s almost impossible to reconcile the relationship with your father.

you are simultaneously daddy’s little princess,

and the ultimate product of his anger and violence.

[the-thoughtdaughter]

cats are living, breathing proof of pretty privilege because my little princess could tear the whole house apart and she would receive a "stern" lecture (in a baby voice), a thousand kissies, and a nose boop as "punishment".

[the-thoughtdaughter]

( 𝒾’𝓂 𝑔𝒾𝓇𝓁𝓈 )

[the-thoughtdaughter]

born to experience happiness.

forced to remember it.