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[the-thoughtdaughter]

girlhood is the ever-present urge to simply sell yourself - your dignity, your mind, your soul - for scraps of attention.

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people will hear you talk about struggling with mental illness and say “you can do anything if you just put your mind to it”. brother what part of the body does the mental illness happen in. what do you think is the problem

[the-thoughtdaughter]

The most terrifying part of having memory issues is when you can feel something from 5 seconds ago be thrown out the window and there's an empty hole where it once was. You remember that you forgot something.

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Someone in an autism facebook group I'm in just asked "How am I supposed to earn enough to make a living without burning out?"

Someone replied: "You're not. Even neurotypicals can't right now in the system designed for them. We're the canaries in the coalmine. When we start failing, they know something is wrong."

[the-thoughtdaughter]

—mothers

ijeoma umebinyuo // hyatt moore // class of 2013 by mitski // i, tonya (2017) // ? // gustav klimt // ? // lady bird (2017) // i remain in darkness by annie ernaux

[the-thoughtdaughter]

being the firstborn daughter of immigrant parents is a nightmare because it’s almost impossible to reconcile the relationship with your father.

you are simultaneously daddy’s little princess,

and the ultimate product of his anger and violence.

[the-thoughtdaughter]

cats are living, breathing proof of pretty privilege because my little princess could tear the whole house apart and she would receive a "stern" lecture (in a baby voice), a thousand kissies, and a nose boop as "punishment".

[the-thoughtdaughter]

( 𝒾’𝓂 𝑔𝒾𝓇𝓁𝓈 )

[the-thoughtdaughter]

born to experience happiness.

forced to remember it.

[the-thoughtdaughter]

nvm. i’m rewatching season 1 again and wtf 💀

i take it back.

as much as i dislike viserys targaryen and think him a foolish and weak king, the one thing i respect about him is his steadfastness to his daughter’s claim to the throne.

i was almost sure he would alter the succession the moment aegon was born, but he truly gave the title to rhaenyra because he BELIEVED in her, not because she was the only option at the time.

for all the things he lacks, this man truly understands the qualities required of a ruler doesn’t rest in their genitals but in their head, heart and fist.

[the-thoughtdaughter]

as much as i dislike viserys targaryen and think him a foolish and weak king, the one thing i respect about him is his steadfastness to his daughter’s claim to the throne.

i was almost sure he would alter the succession the moment aegon was born, but he truly gave the title to rhaenyra because he BELIEVED in her, not because she was the only option at the time.

for all the things he lacks, this man truly understands the qualities required of a ruler doesn’t rest in their genitals but in their head, heart and fist.

[the-thoughtdaughter]

Hurt follows me around like a whining, whimpering mutt at my heels. loyal to a fault, pathetic enough to be unhateable.

sometimes, i can shake him away for a while. convince myself i’m rid of him, but he always comes back.

every person that’s been in my life… i’ve either been hurt by them, or i’ve been the one hurting them.

in the end, i’m glad i have a companion i know won’t leave. at least, Hurt is familiar and i know now how to hold him so the whimpering dies down. so he’s only just a weight in my arms. it’s comfortable sometimes.

[the-thoughtdaughter]

𝐈 𝐰𝐚𝐧𝐭 𝐬𝐨 𝐨𝐛𝐯𝐢𝐨𝐮𝐬𝐥𝐲, 𝐬𝐨 𝐝𝐞𝐬𝐩𝐞𝐫𝐚𝐭𝐞𝐥𝐲 𝐭𝐨 𝐛𝐞 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞𝐝, 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐭𝐨 𝐛𝐞 𝐜𝐚𝐩𝐚𝐛𝐥𝐞 𝐨𝐟 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞. 𝐈 𝐚𝐦 𝐬𝐭𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐬𝐨 𝐧𝐚𝐢𝐯𝐞; 𝐈 𝐤𝐧𝐨𝐰 𝐩𝐫𝐞𝐭𝐭𝐲 𝐦𝐮𝐜𝐡 𝐰𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐈 𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐝𝐢𝐬𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞; 𝐛𝐮𝐭 𝐩𝐥𝐞𝐚𝐬𝐞, 𝐝𝐨𝐧'𝐭 𝐚𝐬𝐤 𝐦𝐞 𝐰𝐡𝐨 𝐈 𝐚𝐦.

A passionate, fragmentary girl, maybe?

[the-thoughtdaughter]

to all the weird, chronically online losers who have nothing better to do with their time than come up with completely useless verbiage to describe physical features (e.g. clean girl aesthetic, hazel coffee makeup, blueberry milk nails, girl pretty, boy pretty, cat pretty, dog pretty, etc)

negative canthal tilts are so fucking sexy.

idc what your trendy little tiktok fyp has been feeding you. downturned bedroom eyes are so unimaginably attractive.

fuck you for making people think otherwise <3

[the-thoughtdaughter]

it's coming back again

what is?

my dearest and oldest friend...

who?

the voices in my head.