the-midnight-in-me

[the-midnight-in-me]

The irony of tariff trump voters complaining that their family cut them off

My republican grandma hasn't spoken to me in nearly a year bc I didn't do enough to reassure her that the one-time $500 UAW check she got wouldn't push her out of her welfare programs. 🙄

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Every fucking year it's something with this fucking bitch.

I didn't ask you to take me to see the broadway Lion King. I don't need a hysterical phone call from you the night before because you're too stupid to load a QR code on your phone, and I especially don't need you to casually mention that you blew $400 on the tickets, and now you expect to be chauffeured and I'll have to be the one trying to find a parking space in downtown in the pitch black of night, etc. I literally thought we were just going to go see Mufasa. I had no idea she meant the broadway bs. I NEVER would have agreed to this had I known before she bought the tickets. For one, I'm not really interested, and two, I would have realized how quick she would be to rub my nose in how much she spent on it. Note to self: Stop being stupid and agreeing to letting her do ANYTHING for your birthday. You KNOW it always turns into a stupid dramafest with her.

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reasons i haven’t replied back:

- i’m socially exhausted - i don’t have the time right now - i don’t know how to reply - i have a bad memory and got distracted - i’m having a depressive episode and don’t have the energy to socialise

not reasons i haven’t replied back:

- i’m ignoring you just because - i hate you - i’m fed up with you - i don’t want to be your friend anymore

[the-midnight-in-me]

There's nothing more for me

Lead me away

Or leave me lying here

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Maybe if I rant enough about MAGAts via public facebook posts, my toxic mom will do me a solid and uninvite me from the holidays so I don't have to be the one to bail.

[the-midnight-in-me]

I'm so fucking tired, y'all.

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Kinda numb over the election. Scared. Because either A: the majority of this country really is that awful/stupid and it's just getting worse instead of better. Or, B: Really terrible people have found really insidious ways to rig elections and we are at their mercy. I keep hoping some big bombshell will drop that there was blatant foul play and something will be done about it. But I've also watched this fuckwit get a pass for the most heinous shit over and over again for the last 8 years so I'm doubtful that anything would be done about it even *if* something's uncovered. Either way, we are fucked.

I feel like I'm in autopilot mode. Like there's a buzzing under the surface that I should DO something, but I realize there isn't anything I can actually control about ANY of this outside of vent my frustrations at pro-T bullshit I see online and through art. There's this weird sort of feeling of resignation; I see the waterfall edge getting closer and all I can do is continue to be loudly and unapologetically me until I go over the edge.

[the-midnight-in-me]

♥︎𝓞𝓻 𝓲𝓼 𝓲𝓽 𝔀𝓱𝓮𝓷 𝔂𝓸𝓾 𝓯𝓸𝓻𝓰𝓮𝓽 𝔀𝓱𝓲𝓬𝓱 𝓯𝓮𝓮𝓵𝓲𝓷𝓰𝓼 𝓪𝓻𝓮 𝔀𝓱𝓲𝓬𝓱♥︎

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Been a minute since I got out the tarot cards; feeling anxious about the election on Tuesday and was hoping for some reassurance. This looks fairly optimisitc...!

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Your trauma responses once kept you safe. Thank them, then gently let them know their job is done. It's time to grow.

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Mom called me today and I am just realizing that I didn't ruminate over it at all...!?

JFC I should have tried prozac sooner

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healing involves a lot more grieving than you’d expect. progress hurts. you’re moving on from things that happened but also things you wished would happen and never did. mourning does not mean you are not getting better.