the-midnight-in-me
They Mustn't See the Midnight in Me
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Semi-personal IFS Parts Work side blog Internal Family Systems (IFS) is a trauma therapy approach I'm exploring under the guidance of a therapist.General CW. I'm using this space to vent some of the crap in my head and I'll be the first to admit that it gets heavy and melodramatic [far too often]. Please look after yourself if you stumbled onto this blog and decide to dig. I'm not exactly trying to hide any of this, but I've also purposefully separated it from my main to avoid dumping it on anyone non-consensually. To be clear: I do not have DID and any "characters" mentioned here are not "alters"; they are merely representations of thought patterns / trauma responses that I'm trying to get better at recognizing and re-directing, for my own sake as well as for those who have to put up with me irl.
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the-midnight-in-me 7 hours ago
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鈾ワ笌饾摓饾摶 饾摬饾摷 饾摬饾摻 饾攢饾摫饾摦饾摲 饾攤饾摳饾摼 饾摨饾摳饾摶饾摪饾摦饾摻 饾攢饾摫饾摬饾摤饾摫 饾摨饾摦饾摦饾摰饾摬饾摲饾摪饾摷 饾摢饾摶饾摦 饾攢饾摫饾摬饾摤饾摫鈾ワ笌
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the-midnight-in-me 3 days ago
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Been a minute since I got out the tarot cards; feeling anxious about the election on Tuesday and was hoping for some reassurance. This looks fairly optimisitc...!
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the-midnight-in-me 16 days ago
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Your trauma responses once kept you safe. Thank them, then gently let them know their job is done. It's time to grow.
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the-midnight-in-me 23 days ago
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Mom called me today and I am just realizing that I didn't ruminate over it at all...!?
JFC I should have tried prozac sooner
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the-midnight-in-me 27 days ago
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healing involves a lot more grieving than you鈥檇 expect. progress hurts. you鈥檙e moving on from things that happened but also things you wished would happen and never did. mourning does not mean you are not getting better.
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the-midnight-in-me 28 days ago
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May have just commentators cursed myself
[Bone tired tonight, fml]
Physically I feel like absolute garbage lately, but I am still riding the high of feeling stable emotionally/mentally for maybe the first/longest time in my life to really mind all that much
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the-midnight-in-me 28 days ago
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Physically I feel like absolute garbage lately, but I am still riding the high of feeling stable emotionally/mentally for maybe the first/longest time in my life to really mind all that much
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the-midnight-in-me 1 month ago
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Could really use a decent night's sleep, just sayin
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the-midnight-in-me 1 month ago
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Holy hell the prozac dreams last night were wild
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the-midnight-in-me 1 month ago
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There's a certain kind of irony/cognitive dissonance in wondering if going back to daydreaming about ChanDon as I'm going to sleep is a sign that I'm starting to go down hill On one hand: Comfort characters, yay~ On the other: Why am I turning to that? What is going on subconsciously that I have gravitated back to self-soothing with hurt-comfort themed daydreaming?
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the-midnight-in-me 1 month ago
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Something I've noticed is some brain fog/headaches/migraines? on and off, especially the week following my period. Idk if it's just one of those "getting older" things or if it's related to the meds. Flouxetine apparently can cause low sodium levels so maybe I'll try to up the salt intake for a bit and see if that helps at all. The hyperfixation on TCGs is waning which...is probably the best for my wallet tbh. I can't keep up with the rotating formats in Pokemon (at least not the physical format--the competitive cards are all so expensive and there's a new expansion every month it feels like), and it has gotten old playing against the same hyper-competitive guy at Lorcana league every week because there's only four of us and the other two generally play against each other all night.
Overall I'm finding it harder and harder to *want* to go anywhere and be around people at all on the weekend with how drained I am. Maybe that by itself is a sign that I need to up my dosage.
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the-midnight-in-me 2 months ago
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the-midnight-in-me 2 months ago
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the-midnight-in-me 2 months ago
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y'all. if you're going to demand people add funds to a group account for stuff like deaths or whatever, don't fucking use an app-only thing like fucking VENMO I do NOT want to install another stupid app on my phone that requires me to add sensitive financial information just to send $20 to a coworker fund ffs, what in the boomer technophile hell???
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the-midnight-in-me 2 months ago
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The difference between last year's trip and this year's was truly night and day.
I was nearly PARALYZED by anxiety most of last year into this year, over analyzing every single moment and worrying I was never doing enough Now I'm...calm? I didn't spend the entire week feeling like I shouldn't be there? Cautiously optimistic that the antidepressants actually are doing something, even if I need to adjust the dose as the days grow shorter.
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the-midnight-in-me 2 months ago
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