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the end and the beginning - wisława szymborska tr. joanna trzeciak

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Night That Overflows My Body by Mahmoud Darwish

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A Burst of Light, Audre Lorde

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“No writing is wasted. Did you know that sourdough from San Francisco is leavened partly by a bacteria called lactobacillus sanfrancisensis? It is native to the soil there, and does not do well elsewhere. But any kitchen can become an ecosystem. If you bake a lot, your kitchen will become a happy home to wild yeasts, and all your bread will taste better. Even a failed loaf is not wasted. Likewise, cheese makers wash the dairy floor with whey. Tomato gardeners compost with rotten tomatoes. No writing is wasted: the words you can’t put in your book can wash the floor, live in the soil, lurk around in the air. They will make the next words better.”

— ERIN BOW

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requesting help for urgent survival expenses in june:

gas/electric account deposit to start service - $570 internet setup - $40 phone bill - $50 security deposit repayment (currently borrowed from family) - $500 car insurance payment - $290 car repairs - $100 remaining of initial $530 car title/plate transfer fees - $150 service dog training sessions - $800 total for beginner training & plan food/groceries - $250

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TOTAL: $2750 needed

i'm a very disabled, very low income trans person who cannot make it through this without help. i make art, read tarot cards, make candles, sell clothes on depop, etc. for those wanting something in return. as always i cannot thank everyone enough for the support. please boost, ty. explanation of circumstances, addl info below.

VENMO: @ enimi | CASHAPP: $stoat | PAYPAL & ZELLE: dm me

the $2750 i am hoping to raise is all rounded down to the nearest tens digit from the actual cost of each expense. it does not include cost of rent for the new home or for the old one, utilities (other than my phone bill) for either place, moving out, city animal license registration fees, veterinary appointments, routine animal care, my own medical care, or other bills. all of these additional expenses are consistently accounted for and will not be issues now or in the future. i am having trouble affording the things i do need help with (as listed above) due to multiple small paychecks in a row after being out of work because of er visits, surgeries, illnesses, and school closures for spring break/holidays, so i'm going to have a rough start at the new place. i am a paraeducator and will also have about 2 weeks of no work/no pay in between the regular school year ending and summer school (reduced hours) starting up during the month of june. after july 1 i should be in the clear for the foreseeable future so long as i raise enough now, but there are a ton of one-time expenses i have no way to come up with the funds for since they all happen to fall at the same time. once again...

VENMO: @ enimi | CASHAPP: $stoat | PAYPAL & ZELLE: dm me

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{Hannah Green, from "Are you still hungry, Mother?"/ Unknown/Sam Gordon, "A Mother's Hate"/ Ella Wilson/ Joan Tierney/ Ella Wilson/ Ocean Vuong, from On Earth We're Briefly Gorgeous/ Unknown/ Nayyirah Waheed/ Sharon Olds, “Holding To A Wall, Treading Saltwater”/ John Green, Turtles All the Way Down/ Safia Elhillo, "an inheritance," published in Narrative Northeast/ Annie Ernaux, from I Remain in Darkness/ Poplar Street by Chen Chen/ Unknown/ Tumblr User: @inkskinned/ Elena Poniatowska, from "La Flor de Lis," published c. January 2011/ Kyung-Sook Shin, Please Look After Mom}

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Franz Wright, “Publication Date”

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woah.

a list of things you probably owe me | maria giesbrecht

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ferrante was literally so insane for this. like she actually needs to be put in jail for this

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Marie Howe ‘What The Living Do’

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“Charm me. Furiously. Torment me. In detail.”

— Hermann Hesse (via carnavage)

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Hey did you know I keep a google drive folder with linguistics and language books  that I try to update regularly 

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Mary Oliver, from "October", Devotions

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The best notes written in manuscripts by medieval monks

Colophon: a statement at the end of a book containing the scribe or owner’s name, date of completion, or bitching about how hard it is to write a book in the dark ages

Oh, my hand

The parchment is very hairy

Thank God it will soon be dark

St. Patrick of Armagh, deliver me from writing

Now I’ve written the whole thing; for Christ’s sake give me a drink

Oh d fuckin abbot

Massive hangover

Whoever translated these Gospels did a very poor job

Cursed be the pesty cat that urinated over this book during the night

If someone else would like such a handsome book, come and look me up in Paris, across from the Notre Dame cathedral

I shall remember, O Christ, that I am writing of Thee, because I am wrecked today

Do not reproach me concerning the letters, the ink is bad and the parchment scanty and the day is dark

11 golden letters, 8 shilling each; 700 letters with double shafts, 7 shilling for each hundred; and 35 quires of text, each 16 leaves, at 3 shilling each. For such an amount I won’t write again

Here ends the second part of the title work of Brother Thomas Aquinas of the Dominican Order; very long, very verbose; and very tedious for the scribe; thank God, thank God, and again thank God

If anyone take away this book, let him die the death, let him be fried in a pan; let the falling sickness and fever seize him; let him be broken on the wheel, and hanged. Amen

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Erou, Maya Phillips