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Tumblr is cancer. I'm deleting mine.

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Don't let me fall under. You said I saved you from exactly what I'm going through. After your first heartache you said you went crazy. You said all you did was fall in love with the wrong people or just have sex for pleasure and not love. I'm falling. Don't let me. Catch me before I hit the ground. What if I hit too hard. What if I never recover. What if I become unrecognizable. What I fuck up big time. Like I always do. What if one day you try to text me to see if I'm ok and my phone rings but i can't answer because I'm lying next to it lifeless. Caused by pain and regret and the inability to live with it anymore. I ask you this because Ive already fallen. I have fallen for you. And you caught me and picked me back up. But this time depression slammed me in the face with a baseball bat and my body is tumbling backwards. Please catch me.....please

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I hate this sickening feeling. Like darkness is slowly taking over me. All I want is for my own selfish desires, but at the same time. All I want is to be yours, for your own selfish desires. The darkness is blinding. And the blindness is silent. And the silence is killer. But death is not the escape. I must stay strong. I am yours. I don't care what it takes. I must simply put it. I am yours...

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There is nothing more enjoyable than crying from heartbreak while your nose is stuffed up and you are sick....NOT

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I COULDN’T RESIST DSKJGNSDG

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In my opinion love and happiness are two different things. But when you find that person that makes those two emotions combine...hold on to it. Fight for it. Don't ever let it die. You'll hit bumps in your road of life, but in the end, you'll come out stronger than ever

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I told you no matter what I'm never giving up on you. For how hard I'm fighting to try and keep you, you sure don't seem to want me back..

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How can you stab my heart and twist the knife, pull it out and stab me more, and then expect me to heal that easily?

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You were the reason my heart would beat. And now it just stopped.

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There is only one thing keeping me from going mentally insane right now and she is the most beautiful person in the world. Too bad she can't be with me right now as she is in alabama. So I'm just going to lay here. Cry. Sleep. And hopefully wake up tomorrow...

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That moment when you really want and desire to help someone, but you're so exhausted that if you try, you will just make it worse 😔

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Fuck this. Nothing I ever do is right. Even when I wake up at 7:30 I'm still not waking up early enough. Whatever you fucking losers

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It's weird how when the person you love says "goodnight, I love you", it becomes normal. You almost become dependent on those four words to help you sleep. And whenever that person is upset and says "night" you don't have a good night. You have a very rough night. Like you night depended on her saying those four words for you to sleep on into the morning. I lay here now victim to this thinking "I love you my dear, and I hope whatever troubles you, will not be there in the morning" goodnight my love thelovelybellehasfallen

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You can't fix stupid

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Pretty low of someone working at a public school to tell me to get my life together :(

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K. Cool. Yell at me for being 19 and unable to get a job because no one wants to hire a 19 year old who can't afford college or any form of trade school and has no work experience. That's fucked man. Like really. Why on earth would you even think it's remotely possible for me to get a job. And when I do, you FUCKING YELL AT ME BECAUSE ITS "NOT A REAL JOB!" ITS. A. JOB. oh my god I just can't handle this right now.

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