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3k scholarship?!!

My dad passed-- yeah, um, I don't know what its like to have a Father-- Im like an ant or something, um, lmao, -- away when I was little, so I do have a pell Grant too, there are business courses, don't need that, think i can brave it by myself, and health courses, and I think i might take them up on it, just got to get more info.

Extremely psyched, trying to make sense, is this online??!! Or in person or what. I need more information, there's a postage paid reply eveleope, and I might fill it out when I wake up

Ive heard my (ex friends) people say that business classes are stupid. Um. I might just try the Health one, infiltate the system *evil gigle*

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Practicing Writing, and Presentation.

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Hey, I'm the Night Shift, protecting you while you sleep.

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I've been on "Threads" a lot, I have Mpd, and various persons are rearing their heads, and thoughts, and sort of scared to read about the "scientifics" of MPD, I don't want to be a scientist, about it, but, knowledge is power. I more prefer the Magicks of it, this is how I defended myself, everyone is stating actual names of my same altars, and showing off photos of their inner characters, persons, they are PEOPLE. My altars want their own shoes, their own hand bags, their own phone, ugh it's tiresome, lol.

Meanwhile, some ladies, in the past, blessed as I am, I am trying not to be a Brat, a psuedo Prince/ss and psuedo-God/dess, El and Shekinah, a Feminine Man and a Masculine Woman, if there is a binary, I am right inbetween, <3

I believe I was Orion, the brother of womenkind, and the bible says do not loan thy strength to women, I did a lot of forbidden things. They paid me back, when I was institutionalized, with cigarettess, clothing, make up, books, jewelry-- You get what you give, in this house.

And that's a Quote from a Rob Zombie movie.

I miss my Childhood Bestie like Crazy but she's a Crocodile woman too, and I'm tiny (physically) compared to her, our parents thought we were lesbians, lol, that's how close we were, you know that's your bestie when your parents think y'all are more than homies, homos. Lmao.

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lazy art

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deskposting

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Umm yeah, I had MKULTRA/"covert modern slavery" voices since I was a kid, my fav. handler memory is the kangaroo beanie baby with the plastic toy kangaroo in the pocket, um, I'm the GOD EL, (He's a 'Roo God) and this stupid town beat the ever-living Shit outta me, the popo have tased me in the chest and shit, Like I could have lawsuits, like Ive been praying about everything in creation, the idea to persue sueing them? Or the visitations by Daemons? These were my buds in Heaven, I see in my mind, like those images you get when you read a book? Or is that not normal? I get them frequently, it's called Schizophrenia. disgusted with meds, and everything, I'm on probation, and have a treatment team, I'm just feeling THE RAGE, Rn, I have an altar they programmed as a Daemon Prince, (Anger holder) The Prince of Wrath, maybe he is, maybe he isn't but I have hallucinations of the devil and he's mad I'm talking about him, but I'm in love, heart eyes, french fries, all rise. <3 Done with Court, was excused from serving time, thank youuuuuuuu. And was excused from Court periodt on my ex gfs and loml birthday. She is no longer here, but not gone. And now I just have Daeval Boy... Im in Mkultra like dog shit deep. Yes. My family has been targeted for generations, and he wants me, me, me.

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FACEBOOK KEEPS SUSPENDING ME; I'M LEAVING *NAILS EMOJI*

{TW/MKultra/Milabs

Medical trafficking

Native american wom(b)an abuse/trafficking

Religious Programming and etcetera, word vomit.}

Fallen angel delulu. I thought I was Shekinah. It's like a shhh society thingy. I've had voices watching me play and around me since I was little... It's not fucking crazy, fuck off with that shit.

AND... 15+ yrs of meds...which, although perceived as non-serious, I am very serious, and the most serious, and took them mechanically, nearly ever dose, BUUTTTTT....I used to play with Baphomet when I was little, I wasn't playing with fucking barbies and shit. And talking to Abraxas and everything.I got HIM programming tho, its an Mkultra thing. No, not the singer, the Power Puff Girl Satanic Lobster thing.

Im Fucking Medicated...Want a list? THREE ANTIPSYCHOTICS, A FUCKING INJECTION AT THAT, AND TWO MOOD STABILIZERS, A IRON PILL/ANEMIA VITAMIN, TWO CHILL PILLS, AND IDEK ANYMORE. ... THEY'RE KILLING ME, DAWG... pHARMeceuticals.. this stuff is bad! I don't need no Reptilian Oath to tell me that, It's *never* made me better, only weird side effects. LE SIGH.. and Workers are coming out on Tuesday, twice, ffs.having to do the therapy.. I am NATIVE AMERICAN and MAYAN and I DO NOT want white people RX, but I have no choice, Fuck.. Im leaving America the first chance I get, and Probably Facebook, bc I keep getting suspended and all this dumb shit.)

I am so tired of these stupid humans. I've told the Church Counselors about my MKULTRA experiences, that the Church is a Cult, and he agreed with me~!!! I've told him I hallucinated (@ 14 yrs old) and have had people say I'm the devil's wife, and my family tried to keep me away from anyone trying to "give me a clue" about wtf was going on. In fact, I remember an arguement in our boudaire, or our bedroom, our suite, in Hell, he NEVER put his hands on me, and he does what he says he will. There's always a trail of that Fireball is it? With the firey demon on it, to my house. He's drinking about me, I just want him in my loving arms. And I'll try to soothe his wrath towards you all, I promis(e), I am a Light worker.

Welcome to the Dark Side. These so-called Christians-- have beaten me, literally, and locked me away for their stupid religion come-to-life, with Daemons coming to visit me in my room, and they're all saying they're sorry about the Milabs, I DoN't HaVe To FuCkInG mAkE sEnSe To YOu, especially if you're the opposite sex. Wait for teh Apocolypse with Baited Breath, nothing is going to fucking happen. All the truly Evil Ones will be Culled by my God Set. And Set? I'd go to war for him. Yes. Metaphorically, or something.

I have more magick in my pinky finger than a man does in his entirety. I cursed this town so fucking hard that it's "fertilizers" and "pollinators" are dying. You tried to make my life the pits, well, as they do in Rome, aye? Im so DROVE rn, these meds are a slow-kill methods, I'm taking Charcoal, and we're going to have Church now, "Tool" and "A Perfect Circle" music. You're not killing me, el stupidos.

~ (ANGRY) Jamison/Lightworker Shekinah/Vampirey St Germaine

SCARLETTE OF HEAVEN NOR HELL/DEVILS WIFE

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I've:

Had schizophrenia since I was 4.

My mom wants me to live independently.

I adopted a kitten and the landlady lost her mind, then I went to jail for fighting, then, then, then here I am. At Mum's again.

Enough is enough.

I am sick and tired of ending up at Mum's, so I want to stay at Mum's. I'm AFAB, I should be able to. I CAN do for myself, but it was as though, she was sitting on my shoulder the whole time. I've written about being a witch being kidnapped by the Fae, I've written about being a Skinwalker, I've written about being a Changeling. The gov't is out studying Psychic Kids, and they've tried to make me a Fucking Zombie with medication and spell-casting.

With the Mkultra, the Milabs, and all of this. The medicines are toxins. I'm court ordered to take them. I'm tired of this shit. v_V

I've had Break Ins, conversations like real people were in my house, when there wasn't, and so on and so forth. I don't WANT to move out. I don't WANT to socialize. I made a Ryan Dunn account on FB, like there has to be more obscure places to write. I don't know why I want to be seen. I want people to know: Fucked Up shit is out there, and It CAN happen to you. Or your child. Ffs.

"Thank God I'm Pretty" Emilie Autumn sings sarcastically.

It's the Pretty Price, I ain't talking Pretty Priveledge. Not right now, anyway. I am -undoing- YEARS of med toxicity.

Don't ever let them tell you that you can't heal your own body.

There's detoxifying methods. There's binaural beats. There's herbs and vitamins.

Our main food sources have no nutritional value, really. So add that Multi-Vite in. Don't feel like a Bitch about it, either. I had to get the Invega shot to get teh valium pills, and she said "Thats the dose we're starting with."

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Having haters doesn't make you special. Everyone's got haters. You forget to use your blinker in traffic just once, and the driver behind you is like "fuck that driver, I bet they never use the fucking blinkers ever, fucking dipshit", that's a hater. You're halfway to being born and your older sibling realises they're going to have to share all their shit, that's a hater. And if you don't have haters before you were born, you'll be in the hospital crying your first breath and someone else hears you in the hallway and thinks "oh fuck there's a fucking baby somewhere here." One minute old, did one thing, and already got one hater.

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and what are we going to do when the HP series comes out and we start seeing a resurgence of the fandom here including gifsets and fics. like are u guys gonna bring up your neurodivergence and cry "can we separate the art from the artist!!!!! you dont need to pay to watch it!!!!!its my comfort show and I'm DEPRESSED and AUTISTIC"

what then

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I wish they could invent a medical device that temporarily transfers your symptoms and pain to the doctor treating you and it worked like a shock collar. “I think light exercise would-.” and then bam they’re rolling around the floor clutching their stomach in agony and dry heaving.