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Sick of crying Tired of trying Smiling but dying

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When you’re down and tears fall profusely, one or two puppyhead would sneak in your arms to comfort you and that would make me cry even more. I have to be as strong and amazing as my dog thinks I am.

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Can’t wait to be an old guy who would spend the rest of his life playing or teaching guitar without worrying on anything

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I just wanna remember things 10 years from now, And think about us like “what we had was great”

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I cannot imagine life without my pupper and grandpupper

It always makes me cry thinking that my ‘children’ are getting older and they have short lives. Sepanx kung tawagin. They changed my perspective in life. That in life it is not just me anymore because there are little ones who depend on me. Having a dog teaches many aspects to your life. Whenever I’m in doubt with capabilities, those puppy eyes and wagging tails gives me a message that my puppers think that I am the most amazing person in the world and there’s nothing I cannot do. They spend most of their life waiting for me to come home with some treats so I prefer being at home playing and napping with them. These thoughts goes through my head as these sleepyheads are all over me being cute

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I’m not being an apathetic, pero hindi na ko ganon nalulungkot kapag nakakabasa ng mga taong nag-suicide. MAS nakakalungkot yung mga mababasa mo sa facebook nila na pinopost ng mga friends or family nila. Yung mga papuri, memories with the person, yung mga magagandang salitang gustong sabihin mababasa sa timeline nung victim. Nakakalungkot isipin na hindi na niya ito mababasa at kung nasabi ito nang mas maaga ay nabawasan pa ang chance na gawin ng biktima ang kitilin ang sariling buhay. Tulad sa nangyari kay “AS”, the signs are clear on her fb. Her timeline was a ‘dark’ one. For one month puro ‘depression’ ang pinopost niya and even her last work was about it. Nakakapangilabot kung mag bbackread pa. Sana lang pag may nag-oopen up na tao wag i-ignore. Lalo if private matter ang pinag-uusapan. It takes guts para ilabas ito kaya please take it seriously. You don’t really need to say such motivating words. Sometimes they just want to be heard and keeping them company would be a huge help for them.

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Wanted to be near you but Somebody owns you now.

Rivermaya, Between the Stars and Waves (2003)

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Wag mong aminin Ang katotohanan Hindi ko kakayanin At ayokong masaktan Kung pagibig sakin Ay mamamaalam Wag mong aminin

Rico Blanco, Dating Gawi

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8 years ago, my daily routine was hard (at that time). Kasarapan ng tulog, gigisingin ako ni Nana dahil sumasakit ang kanyang paa. Kailangang masahe-in at pahiran ng efficascent oil para maibsan ng kaunti ang sakit. ‘Manok’ akong maituturing, sabi ng aking lola. Pagsikat ng araw, gising na at pagkagat ng dilim nama’y tulog na. Kaya ang ganitong routine ay mahirap para sa akin. Mga ilang oras pa ay magpapa-alalay na siya papalabas ng kwarto papuntang sala para makinig ng balita sa TV. Kaya pa naman niyang maglakad pero di lang kami pumapayag na maglakad lakad dahil may mga pagkakataong natutumba siya lalo kapag mababa ang kanyang blood sugar. Kaya bago matulog ay kailangang may naka-reserbang ‘Coke’ sa kanyang tabi. May mga pagkakataon ding nakakapunta siya ng sala mag-isa galing kwarto. Kaya naman daw kasi siya, at ayaw niya kong maistorbo sa pagtulog. 5:00-9:00am Sa ganitong oras ay gising na gising na ko. Nasa sala na rin ako pero naka-higa pa rin hehe. Magpapabili na siya ng almusal like pandesal, pancit, lugaw, coke, at kung ano ang gusto ko. Pagtapos ay makikinood na din ng balita tapos mag-mamasahe uli. Naghihilot at nakatingin man sa TV, ang utak ko naman ay naglalakbay sa DoTA world. Gusto ko ng sabihin ni Nana na “okay na” para makapaglaro kahit isang game lang. Iniisip kung sinong hero ang pagpa-praktisan ko. Puro laro kasi ang nasa isip ko. Pinapayagan pa din naman ako maglaro, pero kadalasan ay napapasarap at napapahaba. Sabi nga ng iba, “Bata eh.” Alas nuwebe, ang pagbukas din ng pinakamalapit na ‘Chowking’ samin. Bibili ng Beef Wonton Soup + Arroz Caldo na may kasama pang Halo-Halo. Kanya pa lang yan, pero hanggang tanghalian na. Chowking is life kami dati pag may sobrang pera. Spareribs everyday pero nakakasawa rin. Ayaw niya kasi ng hindi kami nakakakain nang tatlong beses sa isang araw at lalong ayaw niya nang nagsasayang. Solb na ako sa pagkain pero siya hindi dahil umeepekto na ang masasamang elementong taglay ng pagkain na yun. Maalat, matamis, sabaw + sabaw ng halo-halo tapos may coke pa. Magmamasahe na naman uli at kapag nakatulog ay tatakbo na para buksan ang PC at maglaro. Tatawagin niya ko para masahe-in siya uli at ako’y padabog at kakamot kamot pang pupunta. Gusto ko mag-laro eh. Paulit ulit ito sa loob ng halos dalawang taon. Sinukuan ko to at hiniling na matapos na ang ganitong buhay. Gusto kong mamuhay katulad ng mga kabataang ka-edad ko noon. Ang dami kong namiss sa childhood ko. Nakuha ko na ang buhay na ginusto ko noon. napagtanto kong mas maigi ang ganung buhay. Tanging problema ko lang ay kung kailan makakapaglaro. Ngayon, sandamakmak na problema. Ang buhay na ginusto ko kapalit pala nito ang pag-alis ng lola ko. Mali ako. Nana, salamat sa lahat. Sa lahat lahat. Utang ko sa’yo ang lahat lahat ng buhay na tinatamasa ko ngayon. Hinding hindi ko makakalimutan ang mga aral na binibigay mo sa’kin noon sa araw-araw. Hindi ako pala-dasal na tao but if I do, palagi kang kasama don. Everyday I miss you because every part of the house reminds me of you. From paintings, your favorite keyboard, kaldero, plato, etc. You have a presence inside of me kaya palagi kitang napapanaginipan at naaalala. I would give up everything I have just to be with you even for a single day, just to thank and be sorry to you.

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If you're still alive. You will be hated. If you die. You will be loved and missed. Yeah this is the world.

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One day, we will never have to say goodbye, only goodnight.

Mayoralgo, 2017

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‘Wag mong lilimutin Na nandito lang ako Hawak ang larawan mo.

Rivermaya, Bye Bye na

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May mga tao kasing kahit wala ka nang pinanghahawakan, hindi mo mabitawan.

Unknown

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Perspective

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Stop over

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Enhancement test

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My door is always open. ANYONE who needs to chat or speak is always welcome to call, text or chat at any time of the day. It’s no good suffering in silence. We can go have breakfast/lunch/dinner/merienda or just sit and hang out. Just talk to me and I will always listen. Could at least one friend, please copy and repost (not share) this? We are trying to demonstrate that someone is always listening. My chat box is open 24/7. Even if we aren’t close, please don’t hesitate to talk to me. Message away!