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HI HI!!!!!! ough your artstyle is so crunchy and nice and shaped, could I ask for a Vil in your style?/nf have a nice daaaayyyyyyy 🫶🏻

Here's what I came up with! (Zoom for details)

I won't lie....this was very difficult.

I have very specific pictures of the characters in my head..and Vil was...well he was never that clear. There's characters that come to me easily, like Jack, who I've only drawn twice to get a design I'm somewhat satisfied with

Idia and Malleus had some more work done on them that I haven't shown here, but I'm at a place where I like how they look...

Vil tho???? Absolute nightmare- here's one of the many sketches and explorations I did to try and figure out something that I'd like and that fits the character's personality

I knew I wanted him to have bold shapes, wear something high fashion runway style but also be sth easy to move in and walk around, I wanted to reference royal cloaks and the original evil queen's design, I knew I wanted to add in a flower motif (because I associate Vil with flowers a lot) , I referenced his og design and the red carpet card (forgot how it was called LMAO) a lot- generally looked at how cannon Vil presents himself, and tried to translate that through my brain filter.. (I won't even get into the journey of his hairstyle)

I'm still not 100% happy with it, a complicated and appearance focused character like Vil needs more time to get done right....but I am running out of ideas here I'm afraid...

I'll maybe revisit him again in the future! But for now, I put the pen down 😭💔

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I love rambling as you can see

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is happy from fairy tail and pippi långstrump too niche of a combo or do u see my vision

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FT Girls x Ghibli

aka what I think each FT girl’s fav Ghibli movie is

Lucy — Howl’s Moving Castle

Read the book before watching the movie, absolutely adores them both. Definitely had a major crush on movie!Howl growing up (and a little one on book!Howl too, but she’d never admit it outloud)

Wendy — Totoro

Watched it because of the cute animals, was absolutely sobbing her EYES out at the end. Could not stop thinking about Mystogan throughout, had to be consoled by Chelia and Carla. Still cries every time she watches it

Juvia — Ponyo

Sees her child/pre-Fairytail self in Ponyo. Made Gray watch it with her, who did actually enjoy it by the end.

Erza — Princess Mononoke

It the first movie she ever saw, not long after joining Fairytail. Watched it on repeat all night, had to be physically dragged away from the TV by Cana and Gray.

Levy — Whisper of the Heart

Lucy recommended it to her and Freed at one of their book club meet-ups (which they definitely have trust me) and she adored it. Thinks it’s a beautiful exploration of the writing process.

Mirajane — Kiki’s Delivery Service

Put it on for Lisanna and Elfman when the three were kids, but ended up liking it even more than the other two. Was the first “childish” thing Mira actually allowed herself to enjoy after joining FT, so it’s now the Strauss’ official Comfort Movie (tm)

Lisanna — Spirited Away

No Face scared Elfman too much to watch it with her as a kid, and Mira only wanted to watch Kiki’s, so she made Natsu and Happy watch it with her. They agreed when she told them it had a dragon in it. After Lisanna “died,” Natsu and Happy couldn’t even look at their copy of it, and only ended up pulling it back out after Edolas for movie night with Lisanna. She cried.

Yukino — When Marnie Was There

Thought it was a sapphic film for 80% of the movie, did not expect the plot twist. Still cried at the end

Ultear — The Tale of the Princess Kaguya

One of her favorite movies of all time. Didn’t cry while watching, but DID cry the next day while hugging a very confused Meredy

Cana - Porco Rosso

I don’t know how to justify this one I just think she’d enjoy it

Mavis — Nausicaa of the Valley of the Wind

She’s literally Nausicaa. Like come on. I think she’d also really enjoy Castle in the Sky but Nausicaa is my personal favorite and I needed it on this list

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carla deserves a break from all the insanity team natsu puts on her. "oh but at least lucy and wendy are norm-" NO. look again. most beautiful woman on the planet and Child Containting Powers Of Nuclear Intensity. i think carla deserves a break

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juvia is literally perfect and i’ll always be mad at mashima for making her into a living schtick

like this woman is a S-ranked mage who literally fought entire guilds alongside 4 other people, and not even halfway into the series she becomes this obsessive crazy person - and why you ask? oh, it’s so that we can make fun of her emotions. like, every moment we get of her nowadays that isn’t all about gray is worth it’s weight in gold. i love gray and gruvia, don’t misunderstand, but it’s sad how gray became her entire life. mashima just isn’t always good at portraying women. and that makes me sad. juvia my darling i miss you with all your potential

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i just really wish natsu's character could be treated seriously by mashima. i miss that smart, thoughtful, secret genius. he who was sly and fun, yet realistic: he who didn't joke around every damn panel he was in, who could accept that certain fights weren't his to take. og-natsu, i know you'd never get hung up on being the one to fight with ignia. you'd want to, but you'd know that it takes more than one to win over him: acnologia wasn't beaten alone, why would the other dragons be?

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When do u think Natsu actually realized that he fell for Lucy and i know he treats her differently but can u give moments where it's initiated from his side?

This is going to be a long post so buckle up!

Okay, first of all: the Phantom Lord arc. Though I don't think he fell in love with her at that point of time, I think it was the events that seriously solidified his partialness to her. I'd go into detail but I can already feel a long post incoming, so I'll keep it short: Lucy telling Natsu that she loves being a Fairy Tail wizard, while crying over the fact that she didn't want to leave ↓

After just trusting her life in Natsu, jumping from an insanely high tower, with a mere belief that maybe she had heard him in the distance – I think it struck a chord with Natsu. Like, it would be normal to cry after a fall like that, but Lucy wasn't concerned about that aspect. Her head and heart was all about the guild, how she didn't want to go, and that resonates with Natsu. Natsu's entire life at that point is 1) Finding Igneel, and 2) being with/protecting the guild.

Then I'd say it's a pretty gradual build in their relationship. They go on a lot of missions, hang out together, and just in general spend a lot of time connecting. There's some Natsu-saves-Lucy, some Lucy-saves-Natsu, some hand holding (tenrou arc I won't forget about that, thank you anime team for adding that scene), and then comes the next pivotal moment. GMG arc and the dragon festival that follows.

By then I'd say Natsu and Lucy are very much in this friends-with-emotional-benefit zone: much more than friends, absolutely not yet lovers. But with Lucy's near-death experiences in her battles, Natsu has to refrain himself from getting involved each time Lucy gets beaten up - he becomes helpless, and the worry that's sowed inside of him gets watered each time Lucy still puts his faith in him, still trusts him to come out a winner. That entire section when Lucy's in the infirmary and she tells Natsu that her entire being trusts that Natsu can do anything, I think that's when Natsu falls in love.

Now wait!! He still doesn't quite understand that he loves her. But he understands that his feelings for Lucy are more tender than any other feelings he's ever had. He treasures her in a new, heavier way. She's become precious to him.

Precious. Where have we heard that... oh >:) ↓

Now the Dragon Festival was LETHAL in a trillion ways, but especially for nalu fans. The whole Future Lucy plot and the forehead touches and the Future Natsu and Future Lucy fighting in a wasteland moments and the Natsu skipping the final GMG match to save Lucy. And of course. Future Lucy dying. It's not the first time we see Natsu get so heavily affected - it happened in the tower of heaven, when Erza was ready to give her life up. But it is the first time we see Natsu see a friend die. Like, a team mate, someone who he's responsible for bringing to the guild. And after the whole GMG conundrum? Had a single more bad thing happened Lucy during the dragon festival, he’d probably turn into a demon right there and then. Dare I even say: their relationship was the strongest at this point in time.

After the GMG and the Dragon Festival, we get the Sun Village arc (I don’t like the Eclipse celestial spirit arc so I’m not counting it, same with Key of the Starry Sky arc — technically some nalu moments but not exactly building imo) and then another big one: Tartaros. Ooooh brother, THE best arc of all times, wish Mashima knew how to replicate it. But alas, he doesn’t.

The Tartaros arc isn’t exactly a pivotal moment where Natsu “falls in love” but rather an important aspect to understand his later actions. Like this guy goes through some pretty grusome stuff, learns a lot of complicated, bad things about himself, and finishes off the arc with losing Igneel — his father that he's spent ages searching for. Natsu's entire life is turned upside down, so he decides that he has to become stronger: cue, he heads off for a year to train.

His time away isn't very elaborated on — not from Natsu's viewpoint or Lucy's. But I think it's understood that he chose not to bring along Lucy because she could be put into danger too much for him to be able to concentrate on building his strength: he knew his training would be dangerous. During this time we also have the Gildarts-scene in chapter (idk i can't be bothered to look it up but y'all know the one ↓) which is kinda debated on — who was Natsu talking about here?

I'm still not certain on if it was a heart to heart on the Igneel-matter, or if it was about his guilt of leaving Lucy behind, like many theorise. I'm not even certain that it's limited to one of them — he could be talking about both. But at the very least, this entire year was one of those "distance makes the heart grow fonder" moments for him. He wanted to get back to his normal life with Lucy so bad. After all, it wasn't like him showing up at the GMG was in order to meet Lucy — had he wanted more training after that, he'd head off again, but I don't think he could physically bring himself to do it, even if it hadn't turned out that the guild had disbanded. Though that's just me speculating a bit.

And about the guild disbandment: oh jolly, he was not happy. He had finally taken the step to grow stronger to protect everyone in his beloved guild, and here Makarov went and disbanded it? Leaving Lucy completely alone? Lucy, who once jumped from a hella high tower because she was just so devoted to stay in the Fairy Tail guild? Yeah, I think that broke him a little. At this point there was just so much guilt involved around his whole relationship with Lucy, because now he had put her through so much pain only because he brought her to Fairy Tail that day in Hargeon.

The next arcs I'd say Natsu's trying to spend his time redeeming himself for the countless things he's done bad (getting the guild back together, just generally staying by Lucy's side as much as possible). And naturally he keeps getting hit by challenge after challenge (it's not easy to be a book written by his immortal brother, yk?). And it's even harder to watch Lucy die again, this time for real (he thinks bc he's stupid and also has a tumour that's nothing less than a ticking bomb) (give this guy a break lol).

Anyways: Lucy's death nr2. Natsu can't live a life without her. Now I know — he still doesn't quite understand that it's romantic love, but I think he does understand that it's pure love. No matter if kissing and reproducing was involved, all he knew was that a life without Lucy is completely unimaginable, so blinded by rage he becomes and decides to decapitate everyone in his way (sorry about that Gray).

The last couple of moments I'll go out of my way to mention as signs of love is 1. when he's won over Acnologia and falls towards Lucy, crazy relieved, saying "I'm home", 2. Gajeel pointing out Natsu's crush on Anna, Natsu basically saying "oh that's why I like Lucy so much" (I embellished it lol) and 3. "We're still gonna be together from here on out, right?" yeah that man won't ever leave her. Ever. It's just not an option.

Now since I've only talked about specific moments, here's what I have to say about his relationship with her in general:

Throughout the main plot line, we also see a shift in Natsu's behaviour. Someone here on Tumblr pointed out that Natsu always finds a way to shield Lucy if something unexpected happens, after not being able to shield her from Future Rogue. There's also the small detail of the order he calls out to people - it goes from being pretty random, to Lucy almost alwyas being on the top of the list: likely because she's always on the top of his head. And in general I'd say that Natsu initiates (i'm adding this entire paragraph bc i realised that you asked about when Natsu initiated stuff, more than when he fell in love lol) almost all of their interractions. It's Natsu who wants Lucy to join Fairy Tail, to form a team, he's the one who enters her apartment constantly, he's always searching her out - his interest in her is at a constant high so we never feel like we get "moments" that he's paying her extra attention. He has one setting, and it's "Lucy" cranked to the max. Lol.

I could also add some HYQ moments to the mix here, but they've been few and far inbetween, and also mostly played off as jokes, so I can't really consider them as moments when Natsu initiates his love. I guess his jealousy can be considered a sign? And when (spoilers from the manga) he runs around to protect her/save her from creepy-freaky-jail (the only one who made it freaky was him, with those wild fantasies lol). Maybe I need to jog my memory a bit, but so far there hasn't been any non-pervy nalu moments initiated by Natsu in the HYQ, aside from jealousy-chap. Sadly.

Hope this gave you the answer you were hoping for! Sorry it took so long, I started writing on it and realised it would be a bible so I put it in my drafts to fetch some pics to make it less wordy, and then I forgot about it, lol. But here it is!

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‼️MIRACULOUS REDESIGNS‼️

I'm planning to do a BIG series of Kwami swaps (80 additional designs, plz wish me luck 🙏) but first I needed some basics of my design principles for each character and Kwami, so here are all the designs I'm working with::

To make the 80 designs more manageable, my plan is to work by the Miraculous first, for example I'll do all of the bee & all of the snake designs rather than all of Chloe & all of Luka's designs, that way I'm working in slightly smaller batches of designs & I can keep them unique enough from one another

And if anyone is curious, here's my chart for organizing the swaps and also the hero names:

(and I'm allowing comments on the document if you have any thoughts or alternate names (bc I'm not sold on ALL of them) so plz feel free to do so)

P.S. I don't intend on doing anything with this in terms of a story or lore, or even full illustrations, it's just something I've wanted to do for a long time

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Everyone: “Fairy Tail is the strongest guild in all of Fiore! They must have a super selective invite-only program to get in.”

Makarov, Fairy Tail Guild Master: “I found every single one of these wizards in a dumpster.”

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I don't know if this has been done yet

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Saw a post on here that was college au nalu where natsu was an art major and I have not stopped thinking about it. So here is my take on that :3

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Imagine having been born in 1905... And all your life it doesn't fucking stop. The Great War, the Spanish Flu, and then you go out of your mind for 7 years. Everyone is traumatised and nothing matters. Then another crash. And then the rise of fascism, and the War to end all Wars didn't and it's 1945 and you're just about still there. You may have fought or ferried the boys from Dunkirk or sabotaged the Nazi occupiers or worked in the factories and put out fires during the Blitz and you're lucky to be alive, because not all your friends made it. But you are and finally, fucking finally, it stops. It stops. You are tough as nails and you can put that strength to work into building something and you do, and people have cars and can buy icecream and you have a pension fund and the kids have money of their own and no nightmares.

I want that for us. I so want that for us. I want to be the generation that has seen fucking everything and is like a MRSA bug and unfazed and when that Cheeto finally dies, I want us to. Plant the gardens and clean the seas because we can and we want to and we remember some joy, some time of trust even when it got broken and we can say to the 20 somethings "let us show you what we can build, how it can feel."

And maybe Gen beta will take it all for granted like the boomers did, but we can give Gen Z and Alpha some peace because we, and Gen Z and Alpha have seen the Dark Times and fuck that noise.

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These guys...

Bonus:

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today i found out that when monarch butterflies migrate south for the winter, all the ones that go across the middle of lake superior suddenly stop going south and go west for five miles and then continue south. which really freaked scientists out cos like What is in the Middle of Lake Superior what do Butterflies know that We Dont Is This The End Times etc. anyway turns out about a hundred million years ago there was a mountain there and the butterflies still think they gotta fly around it. classic butterflies