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symbols, and numbers, rule the world

symbols and numbers have a much deeper meaning sometimes than you think. If you pay attention to the repeat numbers and symbols in your life, you might notice patterns or find things you didn't know before.

Numbers and symbols can be evil. therefore when confronted with evil, you should pay attention to the repeat numbers and symbols. Let that settle in your subconscious mind, but also know how to fight evil.

Evil numbers and symbols are 666, swastikas, inverted crosses, owls (sometimes for mind control), monarch butterflies (mind control), and sometimes watches (mind control).

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A Coastal White Painter's Home with Reclaimed Materials in Cornwall - The Nordroom

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I am going to start writing about my transformation. So much of this blog has been repetition, sadness, and mental slavery. Today, I am set free.

I could not be more EXCITED, happy, peaceful, calm, content, and glad than I am now. It is because although I have had a lot of bad news in my life, today I am receiving good news. That is the gospel of JESUS CHRIST. I can tell you it did not happen overnight. No, I can tell you I was frustrated, felt ignored, sick, overcome by defeat, misguided, and still controlled and misled astray by Satan and his army. Let me tell you, he can be defeated and HE WILL accept his defeat. He knows he is running out of time, and he is down to his last and final tricks. I can tell you the good news is the gospel of Jesus Christ. The bad news is we have to deal with Satan..but don't get discouraged. This is the journey of every Christian. Remember, faith can help you overcome EVERY SINGLE obstacle in your life.

Let me give you some examples.

Divorce, sexual assault, trauma, death, cancer, homelessness, unemployment, and practically any misfortune I can think of.

The most traumatic life experiences ( I could be wrong) from my experience of trauma are 1. Divorce, 2. Not having parents ( in correlation with homelessness, adoption, think of orphaned children, etc.), 3. Sexual assault (Rape, sexual harassment). 4. Cancer. 5. Life-threatening accident.

I put divorce as number one because although I have never been married (as part of my script for MK trauma-related programming, my parents had a bitter divorce when I was 5 years old and could be in the same room together) I believe it is THE most traumatic experience a human can go through. I believe that men/women who are divorced (long-term and short-term) need intensive therapy and empathy, and they should be guided by a law enforcement officer in court and at home as well as monitored for depression. The entire process is a nightmare and leaves a scar that is a lot harder to heal than others. In the bible, marriage is supposed to be sacred. It is a deep soulmate/love connection to your partner. I mean, it is just the person you spend the rest of your life with, share your finances with, have kids with, and sleep next to. It is also a sin to lust for/seduce another person, commit adultery, and not value your marriage. Why are you trying to seduce other men when you are married or see that they are in a commitment? Sex offenders always are hungry to molest, and want more than they can have.

A lot of times, all of these are related somehow. For example, it could be having a long marriage to an abusive spouse that you divorced and have been sexually/physically abused by. It could also be a severe illness causing loss of job, homelessness, and more depression. It is a negative cycle that is VERY hard to break and be positive.

Those are my top 5. I do not think there is anything on this earth more traumatic than these life occurrences. All of these life experiences caused PTSD> a severe and life-threatening condition that is hard to cope with and manage. A lot of times, Satan and his minions can be behind these traumatic, awful, painful experiences. This is the bad news you have in your life. Every single bad thing that has ever happened, divorce, you lost your house, you lost your job, you got diagnosed with cancer, etc. Now let's talk about the good news......

We talked about trauma, depression, sadness, PTSD, and despair. Now let's talk about the good news.

The good news is you don't have to be sad anymore. You don't have to be depressed and feel like a loser. You're NOT a loser. God gives second chances, even third if you're heart is in the right place and you receive the message. Life is hard, and satan controls everything in this world and puts obstacles in our path. Rather, ask for help.

He is there to help you. What a relief. I know I need a lot of help. He is almighty, understanding, caring, and full of knowledge and wisdom.

And the good news is.....

He sent his son JESUS CHRIST to atone for your sins and help you overcome satan.

Just think about the pain and suffering Jesus endured... I know as an MK slave who has experienced complete disassociation, suicide triggers, and unbearable pain I can relate to Jesus. One day, we will live in his paradise where there IS NO suffering or pain. And we got there through JESUS CHRIST. That is the greatest news you ever heard? I know it is. It puts a smile on my face and heals the pain in my heart. Also, Jesus is there to help. These times are the hardest you will ever experience. These trials are incredibly HARD. Remember, you are not alone. Jesus is here to save us from this awful world we live in. From hearing about rape, suicide, murder, and death.

He is the GOOD NEWS. ANYTIME you want to resist a suicide trigger, overcome the pain of disassociation, KNOW WHO YOU ARE ( Satan steals identity), THINK OF JESUS. THE TRUTH WILL SET YOU FREE, FRIENDS. AND YOUR RESOURCES ARE THE BIBLE OR THE BOOK OF MORMON. KNOW YOUR ENEMY, DEVELOP YOUR STRATEGY OF DEFENSE THROUGH THE SCRIPTURE. IT IS YOUR RESOURCE DIRECTLY FROM GOD, THE CREATOR. IT HAS ALL YOUR ANSWERS.

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That GIRL /streetwalker

I was A lost young girl 

wandering the streets 

Searching for love in the wrong places

so lost in darkness

my mind lost in translation 

trapped in a dark fantasy world 

I’m a day dreamer 

day tripper 

but with hopes and dreams 

that one day will come true 

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dissasociation

don’t go over the rainbow

like I told you

if you cross over pain will be no more

you cross anyway

or down the rabbit hole

it’s a trap from a sexual predator and you won’t find your way out

no this is not Alice in wonderland

it’s not creative or magical

its mind control

it’s just another programming site

yup down the rabbit hole

you might try to take your life

hospital bills, private school debt, broken car engine

that’s what’s down the rabbit hole

emotions numbed by the pain trapped in trauma

memory is hazy faces I can’t remember

but that’s not your fault you were led there

I don’t want to listen to you anymore

I will no longer do what you say

whatever happen to free will

maybe I’m just a psycho

its complete dissociation and mental insanity 

or maybe I’m a victim

I guess thats what happens when you cause enough trauma to the brain

staying in a state of confusion 

I guess that’s what they get for chasing rabbits

the soul is no more

its not your fault if you were led there by a magician/predator 

just another victim of satanic ritual abuse 

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Flower Power

70s Era vintage style

Paw shops

Vintage shops

Flower dresses

Church on Sundays

Church at night

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Dead inside

for a while I functioned and operated as a complete slave

dead inside 

dead in the eyes 

mind was lost 

focused on the same routines 

committing crimes I did not want to commit 

but a hostage 

a slave 

I wasn’t praying to god 

I was spiritually dead 

hell had already accepted me and I felt the burn 

the heat 

the loneliness, isolation, and despair 

all the bad people go to a bad place because they’re no good 

and there’s nothing there but torment 

and fire, and they will burn 

they see in his eyes the wrath of his fury 

that he unleashed on them 

everyday they know that they are not god 

His name is Jehovah

and he has saved me. I was a rebellious, lost child 

sick in the mind and abandoned 

and he did not abandon me anymore 

it took a while for me to repent 

years of living in denial 

denial that the way I was living was right 

it wasn’t 

I thought I could live a life without him..but that is a spiritually dead life 

and I would be as dead 

as the soulless people whose fate led them to hell 

led by their own ignorance, blindness, sin, and because they rejected the gospel and did not have faith. 

I will not be spiritually dead 

operating only on a low vibration 

ignorant of how easy life is for me 

how privileged I am 

the only way I can come back to life from the dead is through Jesus Christ 

he is my savior 

the atonement is what cleansed me of sin 

the missionaries led me to the church 

and I finally, broke out of my stubbornness 

and made the decision that would ultimately seal my fate-the decision to be baptized and accept the Holy Spirit 

Had it not been for my baptizing I would still of been a wanderer, stranger, 

a lost soul 

The answer was always there I was just led astray 

and too stubborn. 

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Christ is the Redeemer

Christ redeems men from temporal and spiritual death 

Christ’s birth—Christ redeems men from temporal and spiritual death

The Atonement saves mankind from spiritual death, death, and eternal damnation 

Had it not been for me choosing to be baptized, I would have been toast. 

Light cast out darkness and Jesus Christ is the light 

Jesus Christ is the way

Jesus Christ is the savior and redeemer 

Jesus Christ is love 

He is god’s son sent to suffer and die on the cross 

for our sins