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my spending habits are becoming a lot worse and it's so unhealthy. i have debts to pay together with all the bills. tangina, this fucking life.

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i'm so hungry. but i won't eat. kasi wala naman akong perang pambili ng food.

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i want to feel special.

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of course, i feel bad. you're a professional liar.

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i can't sleep.

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i just learned that retroactive jealousy is a symptom of ocd and i am experiencing it. the not-so-sane thing i did was to diagnose myself using google resources. turned out, i have severe ocd!

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i'm not scared anymore.

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bf be gaslighting me when he couldn't do the bare minimum :⁠-⁠)

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pinagupit ko sa students ko bangs ko kanina and they all agreed that it looked good. and when i left the classroom, other students saw me and said the same thing. but when my co-teachers saw me, they immediately laughed and mocked my hair. i felt embarrassed because it happened in the hallway. i think, bagay naman sa 'kin talaga mag-bangs kasi ang laki ng noo ko. i just don't understand anong ginawa kong mali bakit parang lagi akong binubully ng mga katrabaho ko even if they're literally 5-10 years older than me.

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i spent the weekend at my bf's, now i'm alone in my bed, thinking if i should go to work tomorrow with this separation anxiety.

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i hurt myself. so others can't.

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sleep is an escape. i can't even close my eyes.

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i just realized, no one really cares about me at work. i hate being too attached to them.

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i have no one.

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if i could kill you know i'd kill myself first.

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this job makes me want to kill myself.