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today makes it 3 years since my life pretty much changed for the worse. i cannot tell you how fucking angry i am. i’m not sad. i have always been prone to anger,but this is different; everything makes me angry now. don’t touch me, i’m angry. don’t talk to me, i’m angry. don’t look at me, im angry. i’m so tired of being angry but that the only emotion that makes sense; it’s the only emotion i feel like i really feel anymore. sometimes i think about it and wonder was it worth it? was it worth moving from one trauma just to get shoved into another?

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Prepare yourself to:

• LOSE YOUR SEX DRIVE! - wow can you believe that one day you might not even wanna have sex? You’re going to be OUT of it all the time. Making out with someone is just not a big thing. The next big thing isn’t an orgasm but hitting your goal weight.

• BE COLD ALL THE TIME! - even if you haven’t experienced large drops of body fat or weight. When your body produces too little thyroid hormone, it can make you feel cold no matter the temperature. Also, you might notice strange little hairs everywhere. Thats called LANUGO - your body is trying to keep you warm.

• BRUISE EASILY! - Its enough just to pinch your thigh and congrats, your legs are officially purple. Caused by low blood sugar and lack of vitamin B in your system.

• BE THIRSTY EVEN THO YOU JUST DRANK! - aw man, it must be so fun to constantly shock your body like this. You can go through 10 bottles of water and still have dry mouth. Unexplained but could be a sign of diabetes. Drink liquid magnesium, it makes a huge difference! (0cal)

• STANDING UP AND PASSING OUT! - you get used to it but its always a nice shocker. I’m pretty sure we all look insane when we stand up and then grab the nearest thing to hold onto. This is called orthostatic hypotension and occurs when a person’s blood pressure falls when suddenly standing up from a lying or sitting down position.

• HAVING BAD MEMORY! - mixing up words and their meanings, forgetting small things like dates and years. Do you really need a medical name for this or do you realize its caused by not feeding your brain the proper foods?

ANOREXIA IS NOT PRETTY. IT IS NOT A FASHION TREND!

BE PRO-RECOVERY. GET OUT WHILE YOU STILL CAN!

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“starving wont make you skinny”

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I can’t think of any other mental illness where you have to make constant disclaimers that you’re ~not glorifying~ it on this hellsite. A depressed person can speak frankly about their mental illness and wanting to kill themselves and no one thinks “oh, other ppl will see this vent post and magically develop depression, I should report them and get their blog deleted” but a person with an ED isn’t allowed to speak about it or show symptoms at all. None of the “uwu your mental illness is valid” crowd really sees eating disorders as a mental illness; they care more about healthy people who might develop EDs than they do about those of us who are actually sick and need help, because they secretly see everyone with an ED as immoral, evil, and vain and that’s the tea 🍵

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me: wow I have a headache

ana: it’s cus ur fat

me:

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recent admission has me wondering if I should delete this account altogether or just be absent from it for awhile and look back on it. not completely sure if I can/want to let go of this part of me, but I hope to have an answer soon

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Treatment on Monday :/

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