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"It's not goodbye, it's a see you soon."

—I've been talking with a friend, well I didn't know I was considered a friend for her ... she has had bad days and well her partner is special ... it's a bit problematic if relationship but the point here is that she has been very sad.

She misses her mother, because of big problems her mother was removed from her and now that she is an adult she wants to find her by carma or why bad luck pursues her she has never been able to find her for more than she looks for or searches.

Tonight he talked to me telling me how bad he felt, how bad he is and how his girlfriend did not already realize his status ... I did not want to play their relationship because it is none of my business ... I think he wrote a bible almost ... supporting her to make her feel better, and it seems that it worked but I think what affected her the most was that I ended up telling her that: no maybe he wasn't a friend for him but he could still count on me for everything ... Affection and good now he does not answer ...

I guess he should have taken it wrong ... but it really was not my intention, yet I hope that what I said before that encouraged him a little.

I may never really understand what I meant by the latest and I never believe that this ...

Knowing that I am considered a friend, a support or something to hold on to in bad times makes me feel a little good.

It makes me think that maybe all the bad things I've done something good I have and it makes me feel a little better knowing that I can be supportive for someone, although for me they or everyone will not be for me ... I can't deny that having them by my side and well ... feeling their words of encouragement feel good but not enough to stop thinking that I feel empty.

I have so many people by my side that maybe I could be happy. I can laugh with them, I can sing, fight and talk for hours and hours with them, smile without stopping and laugh until I cry for the stomach ache that makes me laugh so much, but it seems that this is not enough for me...

Pessimistic, maybe ... I think I can no longer see things in a more positive way than before, even though I try hard to be happy and fill the void inside me.

I have so many people by my side ... but I still feel so alone. I don't understand why, nor do I understand why I feel this way, so empty, such a hollow, such garbage and so little ...

I shout to myself: hey! you ... yes you !! You have everything, a loving mother, beautiful brothers, some uncles who support you and grandparents who love you, friends who would give everything for you ... why do you still think that you are alone? you're an idiot! I try and keep trying to get that in my head every day.

But it is as if that were simply noises in my head, empty words that come and go again and again ... fading more and more and disappearing into the darkness of my interior.

There are people who do not have a father or a mother who loves them, or maybe they have it but they are crap of people but they are still moving on. There are people who think about paying people who hurt them so much, there are people who get up and move on, become better people and keep shining but why I stay deep ... from the darkness.

I don't think that people who encourage me to keep trying don't work. Never! I thank you very much in advance I never thought I could be so loved by someone or be considered that ... someone special to them ... I never thought about it ... and I really didn't want to think about it ... I feel that I don't deserve so much for such Little I have given.

I think about being a better person for them, smiling and being happy just to make them happy, to give them my support even if they forget me in a few days ... I would even give money without worrying about anything ... just to be of help to someone It makes me feel a little ... just a little better. I enjoy life, I sleep and as much as I can, I get angry, cry and laugh as much as I can. I live what I can ... I live as if it were the last day of my life ...

I want to think that maybe one day it will be the last of my life ... it motivates me to try to give everything for them and be able to be someone's salvation. Being the one who gives him the push so they can be happy ... I think it's the only thing that makes me feel good, think that maybe ... just maybe I can finally have a place somewhere when the day of my death I arrived.

I am not so religious ... but I want to believe that there is a paradise, a place to belong to ... but I know that I have done bad things that are considered a sin and I may never go to that place ... I want to believe that such Once I can have a small place there and be at peace.

It's not like I'm thinking of killing myself now, I don't ... but I just know that I should enjoy life as much as possible, smoke so much that my voice gets ugly, reveal so much that dark circles become darker, laugh so much until crying, say so many "I love you" as if it were the last ... but never, never say goodbye ... if not a see you soon.

I love you all although I know that nobody will read this and if you read them one day, I want you to know that I try and try. Don't hate me, don't cry for me ... just remember that I'm still here and I'll stay here until everything is over ... maybe one day it's just a bad memory and I'm finally at peace.

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I'm exhausted...

–I really don't have anything against my mother going out with someone and how good she is doing her life, since my father and she are already divorced, he also already made his life so I think there is nothing of bad.

The only thing that I think is wrong is that ... don't let me go to dinner just because it's busy in the living room ... to go to the kitchen I have to go through the living room, so as I always wait until it will end ...

It's already 1:12 AM and when I'm going to see if she is already unoccupied she gets upset ... I haven't had dinner and other than that, the little I had to eat my sister ate it and what now remains. .. burned because she did not pay attention, I keep saying ... I have no problem that my mother has a partner, I am more happy about it ... but ... apart from that she bothered that I interrupted her. ... he got upset when I told him that the food was burned ... and when he planned to make me eat ...

I didn't want it anymore, I really don't want it anymore I'm already exhausted ...

neither did my pet have dinner but well at least the average meal burned maybe my dog ​​might like ...

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things of every day ...

I have learned to live with it, long before I knew what I was driving alone.

I never really thought that mine could be inherited, because sometimes it was good and then it was on the floor.

those moments in which the only thing I wanted was to disappear ... my padred did not understand it or rather thought that they were adolescent stages while I was only looking for the reason to live.

I can not deny that there were good times in my life but there is always a vacuum that I will never fill, but surrounded by people it will never be enough.

it may smile, I laugh out loud and do not stop being happy ... but deep down I know very well ... that everything is false ...

I repeat it, I could do it alone and I would do it only several times ... it is a war that only I finish ... the bad thing is that probably that end ... is not the happiest for all.

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I'm tired  

I'm tired that whenever I have money to pay one of my debts, my mother needs money ...

Promising me that I was going to pay for it in the afternoon ... the day passes, another day passes and when I ask about the money, it bothers me.

What do you want me to do!? if I! I had more money, fuck I would not ask! I would let it happen because you are my mother!

but hey understand me ...

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I love bara =w=

Today was looking for something interesting to do … and I find some bara and that’s how I started my search . I love bara , I like the muscles and manly that the characters look…but I fuck who does not like one for yourself -cofcof.-

anyway … I was looking for and filling my poor memory cell until topo me a picture … I stayed with face: wtf ? that’s it ? … I found me a character with tremendous penis that looked more like a third leg … fuck I left thinking that you do with that?…

It is that if you start thinking of a pollazo kills the poor fuck xD and if not, no longer walk well that ends with uke .

I love what anatomically impossible :v wajajaja!

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I am of the people who likes dramatic roles, several times and tried to kill my characters but partner's role I've had have been refused. Today I finally managed this dramatic end where my character dies in a tragic way , now I feel remorse and I feel so depressed, I 'm regretting killing him .

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Baby come kiss me quick!~ <3

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A little about me , do not judge me

Who I do not ever go to church for catechism. At that time where I was doing my confirmation had a friend who also liked yaoi , and we always sat together .We talked about our favorite couples and sometimes hard things we talked about in the middle of mass . From the time when I go to church I get sleepy , I think the devil has gotten me …