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god i’m so fucking angry, why can’t people just fucking follow the rules a person sets. bajsjwksk

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trigger warning: mentions of sexual assault/r*pe

i can’t believe that it’s been two years since i was raped by a friend of mine. to this day, it has been the absolute worst experience of my life. i was so excited to leave for college, so excited that i had actually finished packing about a week before my move in date. that experience absolutely wrecked me; breaking that last bit of purity i had in my life. going back to school always makes me feel sick to my stomach, because it reminds me of that experience.

and i can’t believe that to this day you won’t leave me alone. i can’t believe that you still go out of your way to message me from other people’s numbers and social media profiles. so fuck you. fuck you for continuously reminding me of that experience; because living through it wasn’t enough for you. i’ve lost count of how many people i’ve blocked on your account. please just let me live in peace

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junpei i miss you

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u okay? i mean i'm sorry if this sounds(?) nosy but i'm just concerned. u don't have to answer tho!! dw!

yes i’m okay. yesterday was a very hectic day for me. i didn’t take my medicine and felt extremely anxious then entire night. it just really made yesterday i enjoyable. thank you for checking in though :)

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i didn’t like that one bit, oh well

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i think i just had a literary breakthrough. unfortunately, it’s gonna hurt.

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My dead sweet girl, mommy read your rant the moment you posted it. I just never responded because my response is the same. I really think you should reevaluate what your mental health is worth to you.

That being said, I don't know why you need the money, I don't know how your home life would be affected if you quit, I don't know a lot of things, and only you do... So of course only you can make the decision.

I'll be here to support you no matter what you choose, <3

Now come rest your head between mommy's legs. (Also you still have two whole long thirsts from mommy to respond to on your Fushi account) ;)

Love,

Mommy

i’m sorry :( i definitely think that i’m compromising my mental health by working this job. i just have a lot of stress in my home life over this. my stepdad keeps pressuring me a lot about staying there because i’ve already made a commitment. he’s also just super verbally abusive and i don’t want to get even more bullshit from him if i stay there. it’s almost like i think my mental health would be better if i am gone, even if it means being miserable and in physical pain.

i don’t have a problem leaving, i just don’t want to downgrade significantly in terms of pay. i’m okay with going down a dollar or two an hour but the jibes i’ve been offered are like $5 less an hour & i just don’t think it’s worth it. i need to pay for my college payments and other bills, otherwise i’d just say fuck it and take the summer to relax a little bit more.

i also risk losing the sign on bonus if i leave before a certain point so i’m not really sure. i know it’s annoying to listen to multiple times, so i’ll try to stop talking about it, but it’s extremely difficult.

i need to figure out what format i want to respond to the messages in, since i can’t respond to them on this one. but i absolutely haven’t forgot about them. i actually revisit them a lot when i need to relieve stress hehehe.

how do you want me between your legs?

xoxo,

tessa <3

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The only extra kisses Mommy needs are on my lips because mommy is thirsty thirsty thirsty.

Love,

Mommy <3333

ok so come here then. bring ur little legs here. also you never responded to my rant :(

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So I'm going to be frank with you because that's just how Mommy is when I give out advice. I understand that you have other job offers and that the only reason you're staying with this job is because it pays better, but you need to ask yourself this: what is your mental sanity worth to you? Because what is the benefit of making more if you're just going to be miserable all the time anyways? I understand wanting to wait around in hopes that it gets better but sometimes... It just doesn't. Sometimes they'll work you to the bone and if you try and renegotiate they'll retaliate or fire you and they're already retaliating on you. I'd hate to see it get worse for you from here and sometimes, you just have to take the leap to see if things get better at a new place.

Love,

Mommy <3

these people are fucking CRAZY. like we had a manager quit mid shift and now they’re being even harsher and it’s absolutely crazy. thankfully though, i requested three days off & got approved. i need a break from them.

xoxo,

tessa

p.s. sending u extra kisses rn because i got a gut feeling that i needed to.

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the long awaited rant post:

so up until this point, i’ve already mentioned some of these problems but as a refresher; bug problems, extreme lack of hygiene, racial remarks, sexist remarks, being forced to stay alone with my male supervisor, accusing me of stealing $60 (which they found out was a shift leader’s fault), scheduling me early and later than my shifts, calling customers “fatasses” when they order a lot of food, etc. and it’s gotten even worse since this.

just because i can’t wait to tell you. let me fill you in on my own eventful day. i came in to work and saw that our normal manager had today off & that another manager was supposed to close the store with us. he’s always really gloomy so i didn’t think anything when he made a comment that he was going to walk out (because i took it as his normal humor). he, then, proceeds to check his phone and see a text message saying that he could start his new job in a few days. at this point you can see his attitude change. like 20 minutes into my shift he walks past me with his book bag and quits on the spot. we scramble around for the next hour because we don’t know what we’re supposed to do (since he was the only manager on duty & we need his id code in order to get his drawer out and other stuff. we get so behind right then it was ridiculous. it took us almost the rest of the night to catch back up. it was absolute ridiculous. he was mad at our general manager but it really screwed us (the other employees) over.

they’ve just also been really inconsiderate of hours. when i was hired, i told them that the earliest i could come in was about 2 PM and that i didn’t mind closing the store occasionally. immediately, they’re scheduling me as a closer every single night that i work (like dude it’s be nice to have one day off when i didn’t have to close). in addition to that, i see they’ve scheduled me at noon. when i reached out to my manager, she acted like it was the biggest deal that i come in at 12 because i was scheduled (despite that i clearly stated that in my application). so she really irritated me when she made the remark that i was only able to work if i was closing, especially because it was stated in a completely different manner when i was asked.

In addition to this, my one coworker is really making me uncomfortable. in the simplest terms he straight up told his girlfriend of three years that he liked me and insinuated that we had been in a sexual situation where he’d seen my bra & the tattoo under my bra (which was one true whatsoever). pretty much she messaged me all angry accusing me of flirting with her boyfriend. when i told her that i was more into women and definitely hadn’t flirted with her boyfriend, she then tries to hit on me. she sends me photos and videos of her ass, telling me multiple times that she’s bisexual, asking how kinky i am. it really made me feel grossed out by both of them.

and like people are just so spiteful there. i’ve never met people that are so filled with hate that they take out on the staff and customers. it just feels like a rain cloud of a rain cloud was a place. it’s been a huge stressor and doesn’t seem to get better.

but truthfully, i just don’t know if it’s worth quitting because of the pay. and i know what you’re gonna say, but i just really need the money so i don’t want to make less

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Of course I'll lay with you. Lay with you and give you nothing but cuddles.

I'll keep an eye out for your rant post today.

Love,

Mommy <3

yes, gimme cuddles immediately because i’m losing my damn mind here.

this is just the most recent thing that’s happened

i have seriously got to find another job because these people are on my last nerve. so i’m typically scheduled anywhere 2-10 or 3-10, five to six nights a week. keep in mind this is us closing early, she wants to extend that time like three more hours once we get more people. i asked my manager if i could move my hours earlier and get off earlier, because i feel like i haven’t had any time to relax or do any summer stuff. she proceeds to tell me that she’s not going to do it, and that if i don’t stay until close that there’s no place for me there. it just really irritated me because like ??? you guys are literally a hot mess right now, what do you even mean? and i told her that i didn’t like closing all the time because it was extremely tiring for me & instead she decides to schedule me an hour earlier for all my shifts this week, in addition to me closing. so now she’s just increased all my hours..

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i would let chuuya hit it raw. no birth control. no plan b. nothing. just straight raw doggin until the sun comes up

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There's nothing wrong with taking the day off and avoiding this sensitive area. I don't speak with mine anymore and quite frankly I feel the same. When mother's day rolled around I tried to avoid everything because I just didn't want to feel sad about my mother's passing. I completely understand, you are not alone, and you should do what's best for you. We will be here for you when you come back.

Love,

Mommy <3

can you just,, come here and lay with me? i’m so tired & want your attention

also,, i’m about to make a rant post & i want you to read that shit and respond because wtf

update: i got lazy so i’ll do it some other time heheh

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ok i am officially staying off my social media for the rest of the day. i can’t stand seeing all the father’s day posts right now, & it’s really hard not to be bitter because of my situation. idk, all the posts just remind me about how i can’t celebrate today.

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Getou Suguru (Jujutsu Kaisen)

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hi tessa! i've read your pinned post so so many times and i still can't understand the second part. specifically this part 'where i plan to post solely writing content in the future' i'm really sorry to annoy you! and i don't mean this as a mean ask! i'm just really confused! sorry again tessa!

it’s okay! essentially i just meant that i plan to only post writing content (and other writing related things) on @fushigurocockslut in the future. i know that a lot of people didn’t particularly like all the tag games, ask games, and other shit posts that were posted there so i made this account to do all that stuff freely. this way, if people only want to see my writing-related posts, they won’t have to block all the random tags to achieve that! i hope this answered that question :)

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It's ok sweetie, Mommy's Puerto Rican, I've got enough booty for the both of us. Oh don't ever expect aftercare from Sukuna, but Yuuji will most certainly give us the care we need. He'd run us a nice bath after rinsing us off with bubbles and oils and all the extra fluff we need while joining us in ourselves. Though we do tire him out too, so it ends up just being a very sleepy cuddle filled bath until one of us decides its time to get out and go to bed. Oh I'd be surprised if I didn't find you playing with him even after I told you to wait. I can see it now, him tied up and blindfolded just like you wrote. Wanting to touch us so bad, lay his hands on us, and you already put a pretty little rod in him didn't you? But you see, that's perfect, because now I can just tend to you after removing Yuuji's blindfold. Letting him watch how I tame you. I think I might shove your face on the mattress just close enough to feel his breath on your face but not close enough to kiss while I play with your pretty little pussy. I think I want to watch it some this time. I want to stare at it while I give it delicate little touches. Stare at it while I tap, tap, tap a vibrator to your clit until your hips keep trying to rut towards it, you impatient little girl. Oh I'd love to just watch it clench as soon as you get an inkling of stimulation with your hands tied behind your back. You'd probably try to lift your head, am I going to need to reach my leg around and press my foot on your face to keep you down? I will. Let me play. Let me watch. Let me put my two index fingers in and see how far your pretty hole stretches for me after playing with your clit for a while. How naughty... Stretching so much? Are you aching that badly for my strap on already? Oh? Is that what you've been babbling and begging for? I was far to distracted by your pretty pink pussy in front of my face. I never even tasted it yet and you already want my strap on? Or are you just that needy to feel something more than all this prolonged edging? I'm going to taste you first of course. I want you to cream and clench around absolutely nothing before I stuff you so full. Are you making nice pretty little faces for Yuuji? I hope you are my sweet girl. Now let's suck on that swollen little clit of yours, suck on it with my tongue flicking it from within until I hear those little whines I recognize of you cumming. Only then will I stick my tongue in. And guess what? That's when I toss you aside and kiss Yuuji. I'll let Yuuji taste you. After all he's been such a good obedient boy. I know it wasn't his idea to start playing. I know who the real culprit is. You get no kisses from me yet. Now lets get that nice strap on, shall we? How much can your back bend when you're on your stomach with your ass in the air and your head is on the mattress? My legs are longer than my torso, but Mommy's still short. I think I want to try and see if I can fuck into while I still have my foot pressed to your face to hold you near Yuuji. I hope your flexible. I'll also grab your hair and wrap it around my hand a few times to use it to fuck into you while I use my other hand on your hips to pull up and push towards your head. You'll be absolutely contorted, and I know aftercare will involve a back massage (which I give really really nice one's by the way), but just think about how deep I'll be fucking into you. Just think about how absolutely frustrated, and how much you had to have fought back for me to want to fuck you like that. Oh I'm sure you'll come undone pretty soon in a position like that. That's when I can leave you with a vibrator tucked in your panties with it nestled on your clit, giving you a few kisses as I straddle you and enjoy the vibrations myself for a bit, getting me nice and wet so I cant slide right in after taking out the rod from Yuuji and ride him myself so I can get off. If I notice you spread your legs even further for Sukuna, so he can get deeper in, of course I'll slap that slutty little clit of yours. Such a little slut. I might even start rubbing it with my

fingers and switch to slaps intermittently. You think that if I make you so tight for Sukuna, he wont break me? I'm curious... What would you like to see Sukuna do to me? I mean. This could be something you enjoy as well for how mean I can be to you.

Love,

Mommy

please, let me bite a chunk out of that ass, i’m on my knees

i’ve never really experienced aftercare so i don’t think i’d need a whole lot, maybe just some gentle reassurance & a nap. a bubble bath sounds nice though, maybe i’ll take one tomorrow after work. the thought of a bubble bath with someone sounds extremely relaxing though.i’m just imaging a movie scenario bubble bath.

naive little yuuji, always going along with my plans, knowing that they’ll get the both of us in trouble after we inevitably get caught, that’s why he’s so fun though- he’ll always go along with it if i convince him enough.

mommy,, don’t stare too much. i get too self conscious. it’s gonna make my face all red with embarrassment if you keep staring at me like that, especially if yuuji is watching too.

of course i’m aching for your strap, you knew that long before you ever asked me. i just love being stretched around your fake cock.

oh, that sounds very fun. i almost regret not ruling you up sooner because, fuck, you sound so hot right now. there’s no doubt that i’m gonna cum quick if you fuck me like that. i absolutely love a rough fuck, drives me wild.

oh no, regardless he’s definitely gonna attempt to break you. that’s just how he is- no taming that one.

there’s so many things i want to see him do to you; spank you, edge you, overstimulate your, make you cry, make your boobs bounce with his thrusts, cover you in marks, spit into your mouth, make your eyes roll back into your skull, and make you all whiny like you make me. i just want to see you be man handled for once. i’m sure it’s be so tucking sexy.

xoxo,

tessa