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Liam talking about Bear

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Another year older now, happy birthday to meeee 🥳🎂

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Had to share this @WeHeartIt

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Actually life is beautiful because the sound I make while trying to breathe around hot food sounds like my dog trying to eat an apple. When I yawn my cat tries to put his face in my mouth like a little dentist man and when he yawns I put my finger in his obligate-carnivore trapzone and we both know he will not hurt me. When I do not fold my clothes, they do not hold it against me.

I am demonstrably sad, and lonely, and full of fear. But there are other people who will hold my hand, who will point out the hawk overhead, who will give you That Look in a public place. The other day at a coffee shop a child said "look! It's snowing!" so all of us strangers went to go look out the windows. It wasn't the first snow and it won't be the last but wasn't it lovely, like that?

How wonderful to live in a world where birds and frogs both say beep! How wonderful to have an ocean of beautiful sharks with their dinosaur teeth! How wonderful the moon and her changing face, how wonderful the bees and their dancing to communicate, how wonderful shrimp and their forbidden layers of vision! How wonderful, you, and what you will give the world! The way we love things enough to spend entire blogs devoted to them? How people will let me explain my Pokemon team to them? How we will both jump at the scare in the movie, how we laugh so loudly, how it feels to give someone your baking? How wonderful to be alive. I am sorry for forgetting.

This is the process of getting better. With wonderful people and wonderful strangers and wonderful friends: I am getting better, slowly. Thank you, whoever you are. In some way, you've been wonderful, and left a wonderful place in the world to ripple out to me. In some small way - isn't it beautiful - I promise, you've been helping.

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I was rewatching wwat portugal (the show where liam hurt his leg) and it's so bitter sweet.

He was so overcome by all the love that was given to him, making him tear up on stage, and it breaks my heart because that's all he ever wanted.

It's a similar vibe to his birthday shows where he would get emotional during the happy birthdays or the chants, he was reassured that fans loved him. He spoke post 1d about knowing that he was the least popular amongst the fan base and it's so utterly devastating that he was aware he was the least favorite and still tried everything he could to make the fans feel comforted but a lot of them didn't return the favor.

During 1d when things got hard liam was always the first one there to reassure fans and try to ease their fears and anxieties and maybe he thought in the back of his mind he would win some people over or maybe he was just being a good guy and taking care of people. Either way it's devastating that he just wanted to be loved and the most outpouring of love he received came when he wasn't here to feel it.

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for me internet friendships are “we don’t talk all the time but I see you’re online and it makes me happy” and I really hope it’s like that for everyone

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Eat colorful ✨️ 😋

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tumblr friendships can be the purest form of friendship bc it's like. hey i like you based on your shitty vibe and concerning ventposts and that weird sex thing we're both into. raw dogging friendship

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what really gets me, after the initial shock, is the fact that what i remember as a group of bright eyed, over ambitious kids are now grown adults who are able to navigate the complexity of this situation.

we not only grew up with the boys, but we grew up with each other.

a lot of us have careers, families, a whole life far detached from the one we used to dedicate to a group of five boys (and their families, hairstylist, bodyguards… even a pigeon). and in one moment, simultaneously and instantly, all those memories came pouring and flooding back.

we grew up, but we never left

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We miss you, love. ❤️‍🩹

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"If we could only have this life for one more day"

"If we could only turn back time" 💚💛💙🇮🇪💔

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I believe in gentle parenting. Unfortunately many people refuse to parent their child at all under the guise of gentle parenting. Sometimes you’ve got to look your fourth grader in the eye and say “Little dude, that was an asshole move.”

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This has to be one of the funniest bits of 1D Chaos I've ever seen.

I miss you more and more, Payno. 💔🕊