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guess who just binged on biscoff and chips lmao

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Calories.

When I started losing weight I could easily eat 1700 calories with no problem

I found out 1500 was recommended for weightloss, so that became my intake

There was a time when I was proud to eat 1000 calories and now I’m ashamed if I eat even 900

500 calories used to be too low for me now it’s a cheat day.

100 calories seemed normal for a snack now it’s a days worth of food.

I wonder how long until I hit 50, how long until 20 is a binge, how long until 0 is too much.

If 1500 is a binge then what is healthy?

Calories are no longer a measure of energy from food, they are a measure of my worth and if today has been a “good” day.

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bitches won’t weigh themselves the morning after a binge bc they’re scared they gained—so to try and make up for it they’ll run around at work, starve themselves, and do a quick workout hoping it’ll burn everything off before stepping on the scale later that night...

nice to meet you! i’m bitches! :)

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me @ very talkative cats: i love you so much. please continue your story. tell me about your day. i love you

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Wanna be a thin boi 😭

!NOT PROANA!

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🌙 w i s t e r i a ☀️

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Destroy the stereotype that anorexics don’t eat

Some days I will eat three meals a day, others I will eat nothing. Some days I’ll have fast food, others I will shake at the thought of it. Some days I will lie in bed all day, others I will get up and be productive. Some days I can’t stop thinking about food, others it passes over my head.

On good days I seem ‘fine’. But you don’t see what goes through my head on my bad days.

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Tomorrow I will be better

Tomorrow I will be better

Tomorrow I will be stronger

Tomorrow I will be stronger

Tomorrow I won’t eat

Tomorrow I won’t eat

Tomorrow I’ll be thin

Tomorrow I’ll be thin

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Being visible is the worst! Having a physical form is abominable! Public spaces are a nightmare! If you see me outside no you don’t!

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PSA

I think i speak for every ED blog when i say that even though i hate myself and my body - i do not think the same about any of my followers.

you could weigh 200lbs more than me and i still would not think you’re ugly, MY body dysmorphia and my ED does not extend to you

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Reblog if you hate your stomach area.

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*gives myself burn out* wow why am i so lazy and tired i need to grow up i was doing so well forcing myself to ignore my needs in favor of living up to my ideals of productivity :/

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Something that only people with restrictive ED’s understand is calories as currency. You have a budget and it’s up to you how to spend it and you spend all day obsessing about how you’re going to spend it. You freak out if you overspend and let’s be honest, we’re all poor in calorie currency.