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adrian chase in the new trailer

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all that’s coming out of the new season is solidifying my favoritism towards him. fly high handsome

i’ve been rewatching squid game and it has reignited my love for mr sangwoo,,

personally, i’m someone who doesn’t mind whenever people dislike characters and i actually quite like disliking characters while appreciating the writing for them. it is nothing out of the ordinary to enjoy awful people.

but with sangwoo, a lot of the hate i’ve seen towards him comes from holding him to a moral standard that he simply cannot adhere to. squid game is all about desperation and the faux freedom of choice that comes within those walls. to them, this is another chance. they cannot be the same as they are outside. they have to fight harder, bite and tear away at the skin to become someone different in there and hopefully this time, they’ll be someone. they’ll be something.

sangwoo did not do what he did with any cruelty. he is not a cruel man. what he did can be seen as cruel, of course, but there is no actual resentment that occurred beforehand. it is simply part of the game now.

in the most blatant of ways, we are the VIPs who are watching those in unfortunate circumstances fight with each other. the show has made this very clear and i’m not suggesting this is anything groundbreaking here. what it does, however, make me think of, is how often we compare struggles. how some characters should have died instead of others, how we dismiss a lot of the background characters’ deaths because we don’t fully know their stories, we haven’t connected with them — but we know they are all miserable and willing to die for money. they are all in a hole and want to crawl out.

i mention this because i’ve seen multiple comments say that sang woo simply wanted the money for his reputation, for his business. people almost always end up forgetting his mother. it is as though we have cut the umbilical cord for him and completely severed that connection, made him as distant from his mother as he feels he is. but he longs for her. he watches her from afar, he lies for live, he hides his shame, he was never really good, he hasn’t been so good. he wants her proud, wants her beaming. it is cold and it is lonely and he just wants to see her again — he feels this is the only way. he was her only baby. she is all he has.

he reads to me like an open wound walking, detached and always participating in forms of self harm outside the game. drinking, smoking, even attempting to commit suicide by inhaling toxic fumes in his bathroom. in the game, he wants to live. in the game, he has a chance. there’s a possibility there that things will be alright again and he can fix everything, and his mother will love him again. i fully believe that she would’ve loved him regardless of what he ever did. but she clearly sacrificed herself a lot to give him a good life and this feels like a failing to her. a let down. you’ve given me everything you have and i’ve become nothing with it, i cannot return the favor, i cannot make things better for you like i wanted to. i’m tired of wanting more, i think i’m finally worn

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was too busy looking at his ass to fully mourn the fact that ken cosgrove is losing his joy and whimsy for life post eyepatch

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he’s a good man ! i made this edit and never posted it on here. we should all jump him

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cross posed from my tiktok. the loveliest boyfriend!

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what if your english twink betrayed you

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dale cooper: thinking women’s sex symbol

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i’ve been rewatching squid game and it has reignited my love for mr sangwoo,,

personally, i’m someone who doesn’t mind whenever people dislike characters and i actually quite like disliking characters while appreciating the writing for them. it is nothing out of the ordinary to enjoy awful people.

but with sangwoo, a lot of the hate i’ve seen towards him comes from holding him to a moral standard that he simply cannot adhere to. squid game is all about desperation and the faux freedom of choice that comes within those walls. to them, this is another chance. they cannot be the same as they are outside. they have to fight harder, bite and tear away at the skin to become someone different in there and hopefully this time, they’ll be someone. they’ll be something.

sangwoo did not do what he did with any cruelty. he is not a cruel man. what he did can be seen as cruel, of course, but there is no actual resentment that occurred beforehand. it is simply part of the game now.

in the most blatant of ways, we are the VIPs who are watching those in unfortunate circumstances fight with each other. the show has made this very clear and i’m not suggesting this is anything groundbreaking here. what it does, however, make me think of, is how often we compare struggles. how some characters should have died instead of others, how we dismiss a lot of the background characters’ deaths because we don’t fully know their stories, we haven’t connected with them — but we know they are all miserable and willing to die for money. they are all in a hole and want to crawl out.

i mention this because i’ve seen multiple comments say that sang woo simply wanted the money for his reputation, for his business. people almost always end up forgetting his mother. it is as though we have cut the umbilical cord for him and completely severed that connection, made him as distant from his mother as he feels he is. but he longs for her. he watches her from afar, he lies for live, he hides his shame, he was never really good, he hasn’t been so good. he wants her proud, wants her beaming. it is cold and it is lonely and he just wants to see her again — he feels this is the only way. he was her only baby. she is all he has.

he reads to me like an open wound walking, detached and always participating in forms of self harm outside the game. drinking, smoking, even attempting to commit suicide by inhaling toxic fumes in his bathroom. in the game, he wants to live. in the game, he has a chance. there’s a possibility there that things will be alright again and he can fix everything, and his mother will love him again. i fully believe that she would’ve loved him regardless of what he ever did. but she clearly sacrificed herself a lot to give him a good life and this feels like a failing to her. a let down. you’ve given me everything you have and i’ve become nothing with it, i cannot return the favor, i cannot make things better for you like i wanted to. i’m tired of wanting more, i think i’m finally worn

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Who makes you feel the most loved

i don’t think i have specific people that make me feel more loved than others. i think that im loved differently by a lot of people but it is ultimately love and that’s enough for me. i’m very lucky to be surrounded by people who are genuine and kind, passionate and thoughtful and i feel like that has come with a lot of searching into myself and what i think i deserve. maybe i make myself feel the most loved because i allow myself to be loved! but short, cheesy answer every person in my life has made me feel loved immensely and i cannot measure it. im loved universally despite the entire field of psychology being created in order to understand what’s wrong with me specifically /j

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miss ollie reeder so bad, i haven’t been the same since i hit him with a car ughhh (he’s fine)

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reposted from my instagram. i love you all. reach out if you ever need anything. i’ll leave my socials down below and tag some stuff i’m particularly into so you have an idea of what content i’ll be sharing. take care! i will still be semi-active on here.

instagram: here

bluesky: here

letterboxd: here

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people always say that malcolm and ollie were toxic but i would've skipped the formalities and crashed out within minutes of meeting ollie. i think there is some primal response to bully him. it's not your fault you were born with the ability to make people insult you erotically, almost in a pavlovian way

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mouthwashing

some sort of thoughts collected into one board that i will touch on later. i'm a sucker for any sort of religious imagery and am obsessed with how it was handled in this game. it's like they're desperately trying to give a meaning to whatever is happening but really, it's all just for mouthwash. stuck in a purgatory like state and never coming home, it's all just so still. eerily so! they're so detached from everyone else. how is goodness rewarded where you're not viewed as a person? how is evil punished? is judgement day approaching and if so, why am i being judged so cruelly? why can't i get rid of the filth between my teeth, this constant taste of iron. mother, i can feel the soil falling over my head

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he’s so awful. when this can be used as someone coping with the pain and attempting to give it meaning, this sounds like an excuse of his. i am a part of your life and your pain. whether you like it or not. i’m real and here and i matter. i am important. i have an impact on you. if it was up to me, i could kill you right now. but i won’t. because the pain is what keeps you conscious enough to where i can still see you as a real person while i disregard other people’s personhood. you are the only real person to me. no one else matters. you’re the captain. you were the captain. i’ve taken over your role but i will never inherit your pain — because i don’t want to feel alive and human. i want to be more than that, i want to be idolized and bigger than what i am. i am the 0.01% that you cannot disinfect. i will make you rot. inside and out

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these employees avoiding eye contact with shiv after kendall started tussling with roman and shoving her ohhh,,,,(also love stewy watching everything go down)

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my late night with the devil package will be coming in soon so prepare for me to be annoying about the movie again. show me a man in a suit acting neurotic and my brain starts creating synapses so loud that when you ask me what's going on i respond with "why are you whistling?' from the impact against my eardrums