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Hey Friendo's, Just a heads-up on how my updated account will work, because somehow I felt the need to post this as my excuse for being terminally offline until I'm not.

I'm mostly going to run tech-deck as a queued space, so everything on here isn't going to be posted as I see it, other than these quick blurbs.

I will have my queue running maybe 2 posts a day, probably spaced out enough to not overflow people's dashboards. So say an 8 hour spread between posts. That being said if you see my like a post, it doesn't mean I'm only liking and that's the final commitment. It just means I'm setting up your post on the queue line so that it gets reblogged while I go figure out a way to keep on surviving within the means I have irl.

That's about it, hope everyone is doing dandy, and anyone who wants to join me, I will be preparing for my chance to overthrow the American Government! Peace out, and Fuck Nazis! ✌️

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STAR TREK: TNG "Hide and Q"

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Tech-Deck 2.0!!...sorta

This is a long one folks, so I'll add a TLDR at the bottom. But for those who wish to read on, grab some popcorn :3

Hello friends! It's been a while. like, a year or so I guess? There may be some who remember me, and there may be some who are like "never heard of ya!" and that's quite alright!

My name is Tech-Deck, or Techie, or Amber (by person to person mostly, but anyone is welcome to call me by that name too) I used to be someone who posted an re-blogged a lot back during the heydays of a show called "The Bad Batch"

A year ago I made the ulimate decision of destroying my tumblr account of, geez 11 years? I had it since 2012, but really didn't do much on it for a long time. That was until I got hooked into the Star Wars fandom. And suddenly it was like an entirely new wave of socializing had swept me under my own two feet!

I fell in love with a show called "The Mandalorian" during lockdown and had such a blast that I wanted more SW content, but didn't really know what else to watch that I found interesting.

And then my brother told me about this Clone Wars spinoff called "The Bad Batch" and I watched the first hour long premiere and I was instantly hooked.

But at the time I had not seen much of The Clone Wars TV show outside of a few stray episodes on cable TV. so I knew I had to dig my heels and go back to watch the entire 7 season run of the show and...My God what a show it was! (This is why I'm an avid cartoon = for everyone ambassador because holy hell!) So much drama, and action and political espionage and sabotage and all the "tages" lol.

From there I got back to the new show that seemed to be an interesting spin-off of TCW and it was something in that show that really sparked my shift into more social and creative avenues.

I joined Discord for the first time, I started to connect to a lot of other fans of the show, and then....I got the inspiration to write!

and my God, did I have a lot to write about, or moreso I had a lot to write about a certain character. But the bottom line in the moment was I had jumped into a new creative avenue that I never thought I would ever do. And, not to toot my own horn, but I felt like I did pretty well with my works. At least the ones important to me were.

I enjoyed the love and even the constructive criticism I got, I went through the same fun of watching each episode and wanting to write my own characters, or ideas into each one, but alas my time management and slow writing speeds didn't quite match up all the time.

And lets just say, that in all my years of living, I have met friends for a season, a reason, and a lifetime thanks to this fandom. I get to work with an amazingly talented, awesome, and wonderful individual who has been nothing but supportive of my endeavors and I am so very thankful to have them in my life! so yes, thank you @tech-aficionado!!

And of course, there are too many to list here, but I have made some incredible friends that have pushed me, and inspired me to not only write, but to be more open about my experiences and challenges, and dare I say, my strangeness in such a strange world.

...With all that said...why did I leave tumblr then if I was doing great?

To be honest...on the inside I let my own self doubts and criticisms get the best of me.

Many days i would struggle to even open up my discord or chat with people, or even be honest in how i was feeling. I could tell that a lot of external pressure I thought I felt was really my own self-hate and guilt seeping through the smiles and bright eyes. I wanted to be open, but something was holding me back from explaining my sorrows, and ultimately I also could tell my main struggle was hoping for absolute recognition.

I realize it's a silly thing now, but back then I would be disheartened at the lack of response or comments and such to my works or to my replies. I felt like there was still this invisible wall that I couldn't get past to be part of this greater collective of individuals. I let my idea of perfectionism and need for approval get the best of me, and I finally had a moment of clarity driving out to a hike one day.

There were many times I wanted to delete everything social media wise and just forego the entirety of it. To finally be like me in my youth where all I really needed was the open air and a good book and some irl friends to hang with.

So I finally deleted my tumblr account and oddly enough, it did feel like a giant weight came off of my shoulders. Like I no longer had to feel like I needed to prove myself by writing all the time, or trying to engage in fandom chats with everyone at all times. I finally felt free to let my real personality and introverted needs to take over.

I was still pretty active on Discord with friends, but even then soon I started to dwindle in my comments and posts. Gone were the days where I would have the app open on my laptop or phone, ready to jump into a conversation about the latest episode or the latest spicy fic one of us wrote!

Now I barely keep check, I'm on a few times during the week, but it's mostly DM's to my boss, who is currently sitting next o me as I type like my keyboard is on fire, about how annoying our co-workers can be, or planned trips to places together. But I can tell that this is exactly where I am the happiest.

I love all my friends that I have made on here and on Discord or other media, and I want you all to know that I will never not love you all so much, but I also know that my own sanity rests with more quiet time than probably most people.

I'm a loner at heart, always have been and I probably will most likely be for the rest of my life. Do I have my days where I need social contact, yes. But even then there are moments where my battery just dips so drastically that I need a breather for a week or 2 before I come back online, or chat again.

So now the real question...why am I back on Tumblr, where it all began?

Well, I guess I never really left this place. I had this new account for a while, mostly to make sure my friends were doing okay that I didn't chat to much, but also, there's just something I enjoy about seeing everyone's passions and love to share their creativity and liveliness on one of the last genuine social sites left. I can't bear the idea of not having something great to read or share with others and this is that one place that sparks creativity in others...it definitely did for me :3

So now you all know, at least whoever read all the way through! (I commend you, it was definitely a lot to process myself) and I want you all to know that I'm not fully back and running a blog like I used to. I don't write much at all anymore, and I probably won't pick it up much again unless I really feel the urge, but even those urges are just small WIP's that hang out in my docs for years collecting dust and growing new mold spores!

I'm just here, vibing to my own tunes and at my own pace, and I have made peace with that. And I want to encourage you all to also take a breather from time to time, you don't have to delete anything if you're not as insane to jump the gun like I did.

But take some time to consider your own health and well-being. Find that lost spirit if you feel like you're in the dark, and if this is where you feel your best and your most "you" than keep at it!

I will be here, vibing and lurking, just being me. And that's all that I need to be! PEACE!

TLDR: Tech-Deck is back, but at my own pace and my own vibe!

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Remember this viral post? Wanda and Jamal and her husband Lonnie are the most wholesome people, this story brought tears to my eyes originally and I am crying once more learning from Jamal's social media that Lonnie has sadly passed away.

Rest in Peace, Lonnie :(

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Found this on Pinterest and it made me almost huck my phone across the room

Credit: swninetynine Pinterest

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so my turn to rant...

If the whole entirety of the Star Wars community can hear the words "Somehow Palpatine returned" and just roll with it...

I don't see how Tech disappearing into the mist and being never seen again couldn't possibly end with "Tech, you're alive!!"

AND ANOTHER THING!!

If Hunter stans really want to push the narrative here that 'Tech has to be dead because it's plot convenient or for the sake of shock"

Then please explain why Hunter survived falling off the cliff and slamming multiple times onto sharp rocks and hard ground, only to be somewhat battered and shaken, no broken bones? No passing out? No long-lasting or episodic injuries? He's just...fine. for Plot right?

Oh and for that matter, Tech fought multiple stormtroopers WITH A BROKEN FEMUR! AND HALFWAY PASSED OUT! and then he did fucking pass out and still survived!

Listen, I'm not making the point that Hunter should have died, but I am making the point of how contrived this narrative of "Oh Tech was meant to die because he's too good, or Tech is dead, you all need to accept it" In the frame of Star Wars and how death can be cheated in so many different ways.

Because if Somehow fucking Palpatine returned and we write an entirely new set of rules and storyline to fit that! Then how can we say for certain that Tech is dead.

Somehow Tech returned, and I am leaving it at that. Be it in fanfiction or a future SW series. I will die on this hill and you can kiss the darkest part of my white nerdy ass!

<3

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My fellow leftists, do NOT give in to defeatism.

Things are already turning around.

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nice to have confirmation that crosshair is a "so no hug?" kinda guy

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yes i want an armour wearing, mando’a speaking, space husband

sue me

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@tech-aficionado

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Hey....this you on an earlier post? ^ or somehow just another person with the same exact icon and username and IP?

How about we not repost other people's works by adding shitty AI filters and not even CREDITING THE ORIGINAL ARTIST OR ARTWORK AT ALL! Like you said you would!

Thanks :)

also, since you couldn't do it, the original artwork was done by @cobaltbeam whose work is amazing and was a commission for someone else.

There, that took me all of 2 seconds to add the original REAL creator! You're welcome.

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SHE'S FINALLY FINISHED!

Happy late Christmas & happy new year! Thank you all for your support this year! Be safe if your going out tonight.

Uncensured version is available on my patreon.

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Hey everyone! Holly here to bring in the New Year with a cursed Tech pic because I have Covid for the third time, and there’s more NyQuil in my system than water rn.

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