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I just wish I was better

In any sense really

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I hate this shit so much. STOP GENERALIZING YOUR EXPERIENCE TO ALL PEOPLE. I can promise you that it absofuckinglutely does not get better for everyone. I would kill to be my teen self or young adult self again. Was I depressed? Yes. Suicidal? Yes. Was I better than I am now? By a long shot. I have never been as miserable as I am now. So I just wish that dumb fucking morons who spew vapid "it gets better" would shut the fuck up.

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Beautiful words, spread it to others who may need it!

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💔 I am a poor excuse for a friend 💔

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Was macht ein Mensch mit seinem Leben, der nicht mal in sein Uni-Mail Fach gucken kann?

What does one do with life, if they can't even check their uni mail?

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It always has....?

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Ive started sleeping more the last few years

And i realized

The reason i sleep more is because i dont have to feel if I'm asleep

Thats why i idolize death.

You dont have to feel if youre asleep..

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It's been 6 years of uni instead of 3. I am still the same person. I didn't grow. I only did what I was supposed to do. And I don't even know, most of the time, what that is.

I'm still as stupid as before. It even got worse. I can't concentrate for more that 30 minutes. On anything. I hate it. It sucks the joy out of the things I like and makes the hard tasks even harder.

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Today I punched my wall lightly.

I am still amazed at how little it took for my skin to break and paint the wall red.

I haven't been this FUCKING angry for a long time. Now I'm stuck like this for days and it just does NOOOOT GO AWAY

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Me: *has talent*

Someone: *has talent too*

Me: Oh look I have been replaced

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you ever be so stressed and you look in the mirror and you’re like wow ok great I’m fucking ugly too

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