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I HAVE A HUGE UPDATE!!!!! have a flight to catch BUT IT WILL COME!!!!!!

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i will think of you till the end

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just realized i never posted this and still have some in my notes, should i continue it?

should i make a list of tc films or age gap films and underline the ones that include a tc?

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since graduating last year i have gotten so many questions by former classmates if me and m still keep in contact. when they say that he treated me different and said so many nice things about me when i wasn’t around are just fueling my delusions of him actually being into me.

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a year later and still you’re the only thing on my mind. i keep replaying the moment you told me to contact you after the summer. seeing you again will bring out too many emotions in me. when only the thought of you brings me this much joy, i can’t imagine what meeting you again is like.

a year later and i now realize how inappropriate you were at times, but still i reminisce. you were the first guy i laid my eyes on. the first guy who made me feel comfortable. the first guy who promised me things would get better. and for that i am grateful.

a year later and i have to live with the part of me that is left with you.

i miss you.

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my first ever tc came by my work earlier with his kids 🥺

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last day before summer break tomorrow.

gonna wake up early to make sure i look my best. have this really cute outfit planned, the skirt is everything <3 even gonna do my hair and everything! can’t leave m with a bad impression.

gonna miss m so much over the summer :( am going to stay in the same city for around a month so maybe i’ll see him around? (hope so).

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HE CALLED ME DROP DEAD GORGEOUS?

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didn’t stay behind in m’s classroom after class and made a remark about it…

(went back to ask a question about an assignment tho, but ended up talking about the weekend lol)

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had m as a substitute for four hours todayyyy :) soooo happy! he asked for my history book and everythingggg heehe

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thinking of him while listening to lana del rey and fiona apple are two extremely different things.

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m is on a school trip w another class so i won’t see him this week :(

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most tcc crushes are honestly laughable but m… omfg he’s genuinely so hot

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Behind-the-scenes of Molly Maxwell (2013). Photography by Kate Yang-Nikodym.

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Do u have any more stories abt him? I’m so invested now😭

been ia due to a lot of reasons but i can tell about what happened today since no other stories comes to mind lol

he finally watched one of my fav films and took me outta class to talk about it :) he looooved it and couldn’t stop saying how much he trusts my taste in films lol there is a very iconic party scene in it so he started talking about some of his fav party stories and so i shared some of mine. it was like getting to know a different side of him and something about it made me soooo happy. he also talked about his family (since his brother is in film school rn) and got really personal. he ended it by saying that what we talked about stays between us and that i shouldn’t be telling my classmates how well we know each other :) later in the day he gave me a neck massage while we discussed freud lol

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broke things off with my bf.. now i don’t need to feel guilty for fantasizing about m <3

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FUUUUCCCCKKKKK can he stop making eye contact all the time and making me feel special???????? i’m trying to get over him..