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i just pick up after years of abandonment the journals of sylvia plath, don’t ask me how i am

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i look at people’s windows, you’re so beloved by me

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Songs from The Tortured Poets Department as Penguin Modern Classics ✨

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So in the song Chloe or Sam.. I guess is him saying he loved her a good thing or a bad thing? Sorry if i am stupid and still thinking about it. I think it's a bad thing because if he did, they could've avoided everything and been together anyway but they also can't go back to that time. Or is it a good thing cuz it would mean he still wonders about her..right? It's kinda conflicting and maybe that's the point? But usually if someone says "I loved you the way that you were" it's usually a bad thing. You've changed too much..I loved you before is not usually good and could be cause for a breakup and I think that's why I'm confused. I'm sorry if this doesn't make sense or you don't care. My interpretation makes sense to me only cuz it is to someone who has passed away if that helps and I'm trying to find the actual meaning with the whole song.

it's okay!! sorry for not replying to your earlier message, i figure replying to this one kinda captures both!

so it is conflicting and that is kind of the point. it's bittersweet, full of longing and in denial that their story is over.

throughout the song, taylor is vague on details, but basically suggests that their relationship fell apart back then because she was too young and he was too fucked up (on drugs, inability to see her for who she was) to make things work. she changed plans/outfits/lovers/rules in order to move on; he did the same. implication (imo) is that he had an easier time of this than she did because she can't forget him, part of her still wants him.

so she's saying that she wishes he would tell her, "i wish you hadn't moved on" and also, "i loved you back then." because it would confirm to her that he missed her too and what they had was important to him too - so important that he never forgot her either. implication being that they would try again.

but simultaneously, she's acknowledging that you can't force love to happen. but it really would be just as simple as asking, "did you really love me back then? do you still love me now? do you ever wonder... what if?"

and yes, there is a darkness to it, because we get the implication that all of her changes, all the outfits and rules and lovers, were in service of forgetting him. and it's not even working.

it also brings to mind themes she's explored throughout midnights and ttpd: once being young and naive, the ingenue, the never-needy ever-lovely jewel... and then being damaged, and those hurts turning her into the pained and misunderstood adult she is now. we see it in waolom, the prophecy, and the manuscript, as well as throughout the rest of her discography.

it's also giving wildest dreams (say you'll remember me!!!) and all too well (you were there, you remember it all too well!!!) and question...? (it's just a question!!!)

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"sometimes comment on my sweater" within the context of cardigan ("you put me on and said i was your favorite") is sooooo. like i was once precious to you and now i'm only an afterthought.

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you’re not calvin harris i’m not rihanna this ain’t what you came for we’re modern idiots

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“i never grow up, it’s getting so old” is extra painful when you think about mastermind (“no one wanted to play with me as a little kid”) and the bolter (“a curious child ever reviled by everyone except her own father”) ……. i never grow up. i’m still the young kid who no wants around

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'does it feel all right to not know me?' absolutely ruins me every time. you knew me so well and now you don't know anything about me. we spent every second together and now I haven't seen you in weeks. you knew where I dropped my hair ties at night and now you don't recognize anything I'm wearing. doesn't this feel wrong? doesn't this feel like the worst possible outcome of us? have we become such strangers to each other that even this, which seems like it should feel like the coldest kind of hell, might not bother you at all? have we lost each other so completely?

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begin again is top tier in taylor’s discography i would not accept other opinion

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happy new years swifties 🥂❣️

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i love her outfit from last night

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part of the reason why i always found folklore to be so bone crushingly sad is taylor's other albums up until then always ended with some kind of optimistic bookend - often fan favourites and symbols of hope for fans (our song, change, long live, begin again, clean, new year's day, daylight) but folklore just ends with hoax, which just accepts the idea of living in love that is so tinged with pain and sadness but not wanting anything else

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fave evermore lyrics for its' birthday?

oh, i just saw this! but i think is “and i was catching my breath. floors of a cabin creaking under my step and i couldn't be sure. i had a feeling so peculiar, this pain wouldn't be for evermore” 🍂

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I’m sorry but I’m still stuck at the fact that Taylor’s loved ones threw her a party to celebrate this massive professional and personal feat she’d poured her heart and soul into for three years, embracing the greatness of it all and welcoming her home in what is likely a very emotional time. It seems like it’s the softest and warmest place to land and an incredible way to transition back into “civilian” life as it were and once again I would wager this might be the first time her success and accomplishments have been lauded in this way.

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📖✏️ⓐⓛⓛⓢ 🤍 ⓕⓐⓘⓡ 🤍 ⓘⓝ 🤍 ⓛⓞⓥⓔ & ⓟⓞⓔⓣⓡⓨ 🤍📚🖋️

happy friendship bracelet exchange ✨

omg! i’m so sorry i miss this. thank you for sending one, you’re very sweet 🧸💘

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happy birthday to my bestie @taylorswift, i hope that all the magic you have brought into my life returns to you as well

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I think the cat poster says something like “congrats on the tour mom, time to snuggle with us”??? and i hope that’s exactly how she’s spending her time

wait this is right i think and 🥹🥹🥹