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GAH I REALIZED I NEVER SHARE HOW I BECAME INTO A TOONIAN-

Well, here is how this handsome and amazing cat was reborned!

So, everything started in 2017, i was into batim fandom a lot and i used to spend hours and hours of my life looking for comics of batim, until i discovered the toons fandom! I was kinda intrigued of how they mix different cartoons together, but it was so cool to me!

i was looking for some toons comics, until i discovered a comic that completely take all my attention

"old time, by mimicomics"

I remember that while I was reading the comic, there was a certain feeling of familiarity in it, I thought it was simply nostalgia when seeing old cartoons interacting so I didn't give it much importance

I got too hooked on that comic, I read the second part called "toons", and again that feeling of familiarity was there, but stronger, however it wasn't until I read the most important of all, and where this incredible and handsome cat appears ✨

Time out

as soon as i read it, it was like someone hit my head with an anvil (ironic) It was like a sudden burst of information, and I could barely process it "hey... I lived this, I genuinely was there!" my mind told me I was genuinely confused, why did I feel like I was there? Why does this feel familiar? I thought he was just a stupid guy, and that was why I became very familiar with "Alex", so I just let it go and didn't give it any more thought

But as time went by, I felt more and more strange with my body, I didn't feel "myself" in it, I also got constant flashbacks of my memories of my past lives, I thought I was going crazy, I didn't know what was happening

The more I ignored it, the more it came back, it was like I was denying something, like I was denying myself

I soon discovered that I felt more comfortable when I used to roleplay as Alex, I felt comfortable, I felt "me", when I did it, I felt at peace and that weird feeling disappeared

For personal reasons I ended up coming to Tumblr, as soon as I got to Tumblr I felt at home. After scrolling through Tumblr for days, I found something that caught my attention

"the Toonian label"

I decided to research it a little more and ohhhh boy... it all made sense now! again, it was like getting punched with information BAHHAHA

Even though I refused to accept that I was a toon for a while and thought I was crazy, the more I thought about it the more it made sense! With a lot of work I slowly accepted myself, I accepted that I was a toon, I accepted that I was Alex

To this day, I still feel very strange having a human body and not a rubber one, but meh, I think I can live with that BAHAHHAAH 😼✨

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i want to talk about something-

Probably all of you know who is Xilef, well, as y'all could know, i only exist canonically in a very old comic and in a small cameo In a episode of twisted tales of Felix the cat, well... Probably it's kinda obvious, but "Alex" don't exist anymore after that comic of 2022 (or 2021 i don't remember-)

What do I mean by this? well, "Alex" was redesigned in Xilef, so yes, Xilef is a new me! so yes, now canonically I exist as xilef, not Alex, but I prefer to continue being called alex because let's face it, Alex sounds better than Xilef BAHHAHA

I know that most of you are confused because for a while I said that me and Xilef were different people, but in reality we are the same person, just "redesigned"

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Hm... I'm gonna try to post often here, i have this blog so abandoned-

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GAH This sounded more like a vent sorry

It's just- It's more common for me to see someone who hates me than someone who likes me

You know, sometimes it feels so alienating when I'm someone favorite toon-

Like, what do you mean you don't hate me? What do you mean you don't prefer my cousin? what do you mean that some popular toon is not your favorite? What do you mean you have no problem seeing me? What do you mean you get excited every time I appear on screen or when someone talks about me?

What do you mean you like me?

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You know, sometimes it feels so alienating when I'm someone favorite toon-

Like, what do you mean you don't hate me? What do you mean you don't prefer my cousin? what do you mean that some popular toon is not your favorite? What do you mean you have no problem seeing me? What do you mean you get excited every time I appear on screen or when someone talks about me?

What do you mean you like me?

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Something crazy that i think all the time, is how i was a such an horrible person- and how much i changed since back then

I mean- people that i already know now was the people that i tried to murder, except bendy, me and him were besties before/silly

But wow, just look at me! Here, trying to be nice to everyone

Ngl that sometimes i wanna be a bitch with everyone though

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THISSSSSS! THISSSS!! hell! people always ask me why I'm not evil anymore, and it sucks!!

I know this may be obvious but for those who need to hear this-

YOU DON'T HAVE TO ACT LIKE HOW YOU DID BACK IN YOUR PAST MEMORIES TO BE TOONIAN 💥💥💥

People are constantly changing, and so do toons! You don't need to conform to how society views you! You started a new life, and you are given new experiences and challenges with this life, which can mold your perception, identity, and personality differently compared to how you viewed and behaved back then! Even the world has changed, allowing you to express yourself in ways we wouldn't back in the 1900s!

To the Toonians who's orientation is different from their source memories, you're valid To the Toonians who have grown over their lives, you're valid To the Toonians who feel the need to conform, you're valid To the Toonians who are questioning their sense of self, you're valid To the Toonians who are scared to come out yet due to any reason, you're valid

Each and every Toonian has their own story and journey, give them the voice they deserve! 😼✨

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WELCOME DEAR! ✨

My main account @alexitoelmichi

Hey hey! Welcome to my source box! The original idea is from my cousin ( @rightyofelix )! So i decided to do mine because uh- yeah :3

Hello everyone! My name is Alex the cat, but you can also call me Faceless or Taxidermia! I'm a toonian since i could remember

But first of all...

WHAT'S A SOURCE BOX?

"A Sourcebox is an account where you document your source memories, daily life & challenges as a Toonian, as well as receiving questions from folks about your personal experiences"

— Felipe el michi ( @rightyosources )

So as you could read, I'm gonna document all the things about my Toonian life here! Feel free to ask whatever you want! Just remember to be respectful ✨

Tags for posts about general Toonian experiences are going to be: # 𓈈 🤍 𝘪𝘴 𝘵𝘢𝘭𝘬𝘪𝘯𝘨 ﹆ׂׂ ˖ ̨𖥔

— MY SOURCES!! —

꒦ ͝ ꒷ ͝͝ ꒦ ͝ ꒷ ͝͝ ꒦ ͝ ꒷ ͝͝ ꒦ ͝ ꒷ ͝͝ ꒦ ͝ ꒷ ͝͝ ꒦ ͝ ꒷ ͝͝ ꒦ ͝ ꒷

OFFICIAL MEDIA

Actually the memories I have from here are very few, but I can still remember them clearly!

Tags for posts about official media are going to be: 𓈈 ��� 𝘪𝘴 𝘴𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘯𝘪𝘯𝘨 ﹆ׂׂ ˖ ̨𖥔

▭𝅼▬࣪▭𝅼▬࣪▭𝅼▬࣪▭𝅼▬࣪▭𝅼▬࣪

TIME OUT/OVER

Most of my source memories come from here, although I did things that I'm not proud of, I like to remember this memories!

Tags for posts about time out are going to be: # 𓈈 🧪 𝘪𝘴 𝘺𝘢𝘸𝘯𝘪𝘯𝘨 ﹆ׂׂ ˖ ̨𖥔

▭𝅼▬࣪▭𝅼▬࣪▭𝅼▬࣪▭𝅼▬࣪▭𝅼▬࣪

FACELESS ILLNESS (BIG TW)

This is the most triggering memory source of all, because many traumatic memories come from here, I must warn you that Faceless is not mentally well- so I ask you to be patient asking to him

Tags for posts about Faceless illness are going to be: # 𓈈 🪚 𝘪𝘴 𝘴𝘱𝘭𝘪𝘵𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨 ﹆ׂׂ ˖ ̨𖥔

▭𝅼▬࣪▭𝅼▬࣪▭𝅼▬࣪▭𝅼▬࣪▭𝅼▬࣪

TQFTIM (HORNET NEST VERSION)

My memories from this source are very blurry and I hardly remember much, so I will try to explain as much as I can :3

Tags for posts about TQFTIM are going to be: 𓈈 🐍 𝘪𝘴 𝘸𝘢𝘷𝘪𝘯𝘨 ﹆ׂׂ ˖ ̨𖥔

▭𝅼▬࣪▭𝅼▬࣪▭𝅼▬࣪▭𝅼▬࣪▭𝅼▬࣪

TOONXIDERMIA

Although I don't have many memories from here and I'm still trying to remember them, I can answer questions about this source easily!

Tags for posts about Toonxidermia are going to be: 𓈈 🪡 𝘪𝘴 𝘴𝘦𝘸𝘪𝘯𝘨 ﹆ׂׂ ˖ ̨𖥔

▭𝅼▬࣪▭𝅼▬࣪▭𝅼▬࣪▭𝅼▬࣪▭𝅼▬࣪

BURLESQUE

Memories of the best years of my life, although there are not many concise things there are still things that I remember

Tags for posts about Burlesque au are going to be: 𓈈 🥂 𝘪𝘴 𝘥𝘢𝘯𝘤𝘪𝘯𝘨 ﹆ׂׂ ˖ ̨𖥔

꒦ ͝ ꒷ ͝͝ ꒦ ͝ ꒷ ͝͝ ꒦ ͝ ꒷ ͝͝ ꒦ ͝ ꒷ ͝͝ ꒦ ͝ ꒷ ͝͝ ꒦ ͝ ꒷ ͝͝ ꒦ ͝ ꒷

So, feel free to ask whatever you want! But be respectful, i may not answer any ask about very traumatic experiences to me, so please respect that!

Trigger warning for SH, Gore, labor exploitation, Domestic violence, and physical abuse, stay safe! 🤍🤍