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Anyway you all must look at what i found

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I havent seen this before.... I believe they are trying to say its an unreleased doll?

Either way it took me forever to find this post again since i tried to ignore all spoilers yet this still remained in my memory, I didn't even like or save it for later. I even tried looking on the genshinresource blogs and updates for it, i almost convinced myself i had dreamed it up.

But then i found it again.

I love zhongli so much

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Update.

So all of last week the guy never showed up for work. On sunday me and my friends were asked by our female team lead to write down what happened. I asked her why we hadn't seen him and she said it was a medical situation.

Now it is the next week and im told by one of our male team leads that that guy is no longer employed here. Our male team lead thinks he probably stopped showing up because we caught on to his staring so quickly... but we didn't tell on him until he had happened to call out later that one week. He never even got talked to about the whole thing since he never showed up again.

At least we dont have to worry about it any more.

Sorry i havent updated in a while

Im a bit stressed and have some other things eating up my time

Theres this new guy at my work, and last week on sunday (12th) he was talking to other coworkers about something or other during lunch. I just happened to catch something about the "illegals" so i decided to just ignore the guy forever then and there. Well a bit later conversation ended at some point and out of the corner of my eye it seems like hes looking in my direction. I glance at him quickly and it seemed like he really was. I was NOT going to make eye contact with the dude because then he may try to talk to me.

But it felt like this guy was staring at me ALL LUNCH. And once you notice it, it's not hard to tell at all, but also I couldn't be 100% sure unless I made eye contact.

He was doing the same on our last break

The next day (its actually the middle of the night cuz i work overnight) lunchtime rolls around again and that guy isnt there yet, neither is anyone else except my two work friends because we get their earlier than everyone else (one likes to make sure their food isnt tampered with because trans, the other i remind to come because i like keeping to a set schedule and they always forget or dont check.)

and i dont have the greatest memory because its been over a week now so conversation might be off a bit but, our trans friend starts off with "so the new guy keeps calling me a dude..."

And me not finding that suprising "yeah...he doesnt give off great vibes. I decided I didn't like him after his "illegals" comment yesterday."

The other two just kinda nod and hum in agreement

And i was a bit nervous to say anything, it's just staring y'know? But also its incredibly creepy that hes only staring at me, or us since we all sit in the same lil spot, but i decide to ask them anyway

" Is it just me or was he staring at me, or us, all lunch yesterday?..."

Trans-friend "Oh yeah he was. definitely."and the other friend just nods with a face of "yup unfortunately"

"oh so you guys noticed it too. I'm not crazy then."

He stared at us that day too

Our weekend goes by and its now the start of my work week this past week. Heres a poor rendition of our lounge. Also he would stare at us during our 15min breaks too

I don't remember the exact order of events I'm sorry, but i really do have such a poor memory. Anything unimportant after a couple of days is forgotten and everything gets tangled up. Anyway

One day hes still staring, i remember for maybe a couple days i would face away completely with my hood over my head and i would grip it over my face to completely block his view. I remember looking up one time to find him not staring and it seemed to be the only time he wouldn't. One day i happened to see him slowly walking past my work area watching me and then speed up once he was past... I remember a couple times where i would leave early and hide in the bathroom so i didnt have to be stared at.

Sunday is here again and i decide I'm going to wear "scary" makeup like one of my friends does. Both of them are always facing away but where i am, i can always see him unless i face my friends. I can always tell he is at least staring at me. So i decided to test if he would still stare if i wore makeup like my other friend does and if that affects anything.

It did not. However. I dont think he expected me to wear makeup that day much less bring my makeup with me to work.

Because he decided to sit here that day

We think he purposefully sat here so we wouldn't notice him staring. He probably knew we knew cuz i would hide, transfriend would talk louder and said he would look away when she did? I didnt notice that because i was worried that her doing that would attract more attention and he would try to talk to us.

But one of my makeup pallets has a mirror, and I would use that to fix my makeup after eating. Whether its my eyeliner or my lips i took as long as possible. But that was after eating

I noticed my trans friend would glance and glare at him a lot before then. A few minutes before my friends leave after their 30min lunches i finish my own lunch and decide to fix my makeup. I hadn't planned for this since he usually sits infront of us and not behind, but i realized i could position myself discreetly yo be able to see him in my mirror.

And yeah he was staring right at me. I could make eye contact with him without him knowing. And im pretty sure he figured it out because i noticed hom staring a lot less. And his body position was different a lot too.

Usually he sits upright, either leaning back or forward slightly with his hands on his lap (didnt notice him moving them a lot, dont think hes that bold yet)

But that day he was leaning on the table with his elbows on the table and his head in his hand turned facing away from us. He was trying to make himself seem bored and like he wasnt watching us.

And he was like that for both first break and lunch.

Once the second break came around he was back in his usual spot in his usual position watching us and not trying to hide it.

I wanted to fucking scream at him.

Monday however he apparently called out, and while we were going to tell one of our female teamleads eventually we decided to take advantage of him not being there and it being our last day of the week, to tell about him.

We know its just staring and he thankfully hasn't tried anything more, but its weird, and rude, and creepy and because its only ever at us and its ALL the time, its extremely concerning especially since we can tell what kind of guy he is and his views immediately. He is absolutely not the kind of guy we want to be around.

And before anyone says anything, its not like we are trying to get the guy in trouble. Theres another dude with the similar views, that we dont like either that we mostly ignore and that our trans friend refuses to work with. I dont like one woman because shes selfish, and one of our coaches is a bit of a dick with unreasonable expectations, but at least hes professional and not a creep. I don't know most of the rest of my coworkers views and i get along great with pretty much all of my male coworkers (its mostly men anyway) i am even willing to work with the people i generally dislike. One of my closer friends that i havent mentioned here because he doesnt go to the lounge for his breaks or lunch, is also a guy and hes fucking amazing.

We just want that guy to stop staring at us. To just leave us alone and mind his own business. Theres no reason to stare so much. Its one thing if its done rarely, stare or zone out for a couple minutes and then stop and not do it again because its an accident or you didnt realize you were staring. Ive caught a couple coworkers doing that, ive done that even. It just happens yknow

But this guy was doing so ALL THE TIME, EVERYDAY, JUST NONSTOP STARING AT THE ONLY WOMEN IN THE LOUNGE.

ITS WEIRD

so anyway hes going to get a sitdown talking to his next day at work. Hopefully that scares him out of doing it again.

I have never been so creeped out by a coworker. Krep in mind this is my first job and what i have to do involves a lot of bending over or kneeling. So when i first started i was very concerned about people staring at my ass. No one ever did. And if they did, they didn't look long or be weird about it. Even before all this happened, one time i had to stack a pallet onto another one. And if its just one pallet i like to just walk backwards over it and drag the other on top. Well it didnt occur to me until i was in the middle of doing so that i would be essentially backing my ass up infront of my coach (the dick one. He was talking to another male coworker at the time), but even then I don't think he even knew i was there. He might be a dick and bad at his job managing us (and maybe is harder on us girls), but at least he isn't a creep to us. I would probably like him more if I didn't have to work with him

So its just even weirder that this new guy, who has only been here a few weeks at most, is not just creeping me out but is also creeping out my two female friends too. The audacity...

Anyway yeah so that's why I'm stressed and sorry again for not posting anything in a while, have a sleepy baby who wanted a cuddle as i was writing this as a reward.

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Oh yeah and another thing that has happened this past week

While i never liked TT and havent been on it for years, i recently learned it was getting banned (then it did and that got undone) and i heard a lot about people moving to an actual chinese app and loving it there

If you couldnt tell, i am also chinese, but i live in america and was raised in a white household. Im very disconnected with my people and culture as many americans are. It was only within the past couple of years after i got into genshin and falling in love with zhongli that i really started to care more about china, chinese people, and learning about the culture.

I started to see theough the propaganda western media feeds us, but i didnt know how to break through it, or where to start, Where to look. I didnt know an app like Xiaohongshu (rednote/little red book) existed as i honestly thought such an app would be banned in america if they are wanting to ban a place like TT.

What i really want to say is that im really glad more people are starting to view chinese people in a more positive light. Despite where i grew up and who raised me, i still face bold discrimination because of my race. I see it a lot here in the western side of the genshin fandom too. Anyway I'm really glad i have more resources for connecting with my people and culture. I hope more people learn to stop hating chinese people and asians in general. Its a huge problem here in the US despite the fight for racial equality, so much so that asians (chinese people specifically) are treated as worse and sometimes as more dangerous than black people. But we are even more of a minority here and western media doesnt want anyone to like asian countries.

So that's just another thing that's been going on. I'm really enjoying xiaohongshu and have spent most of my free time there lately.

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Sorry i havent updated in a while

Im a bit stressed and have some other things eating up my time

Theres this new guy at my work, and last week on sunday (12th) he was talking to other coworkers about something or other during lunch. I just happened to catch something about the "illegals" so i decided to just ignore the guy forever then and there. Well a bit later conversation ended at some point and out of the corner of my eye it seems like hes looking in my direction. I glance at him quickly and it seemed like he really was. I was NOT going to make eye contact with the dude because then he may try to talk to me.

But it felt like this guy was staring at me ALL LUNCH. And once you notice it, it's not hard to tell at all, but also I couldn't be 100% sure unless I made eye contact.

He was doing the same on our last break

The next day (its actually the middle of the night cuz i work overnight) lunchtime rolls around again and that guy isnt there yet, neither is anyone else except my two work friends because we get their earlier than everyone else (one likes to make sure their food isnt tampered with because trans, the other i remind to come because i like keeping to a set schedule and they always forget or dont check.)

and i dont have the greatest memory because its been over a week now so conversation might be off a bit but, our trans friend starts off with "so the new guy keeps calling me a dude..."

And me not finding that suprising "yeah...he doesnt give off great vibes. I decided I didn't like him after his "illegals" comment yesterday."

The other two just kinda nod and hum in agreement

And i was a bit nervous to say anything, it's just staring y'know? But also its incredibly creepy that hes only staring at me, or us since we all sit in the same lil spot, but i decide to ask them anyway

" Is it just me or was he staring at me, or us, all lunch yesterday?..."

Trans-friend "Oh yeah he was. definitely."and the other friend just nods with a face of "yup unfortunately"

"oh so you guys noticed it too. I'm not crazy then."

He stared at us that day too

Our weekend goes by and its now the start of my work week this past week. Heres a poor rendition of our lounge. Also he would stare at us during our 15min breaks too

I don't remember the exact order of events I'm sorry, but i really do have such a poor memory. Anything unimportant after a couple of days is forgotten and everything gets tangled up. Anyway

One day hes still staring, i remember for maybe a couple days i would face away completely with my hood over my head and i would grip it over my face to completely block his view. I remember looking up one time to find him not staring and it seemed to be the only time he wouldn't. One day i happened to see him slowly walking past my work area watching me and then speed up once he was past... I remember a couple times where i would leave early and hide in the bathroom so i didnt have to be stared at.

Sunday is here again and i decide I'm going to wear "scary" makeup like one of my friends does. Both of them are always facing away but where i am, i can always see him unless i face my friends. I can always tell he is at least staring at me. So i decided to test if he would still stare if i wore makeup like my other friend does and if that affects anything.

It did not. However. I dont think he expected me to wear makeup that day much less bring my makeup with me to work.

Because he decided to sit here that day

We think he purposefully sat here so we wouldn't notice him staring. He probably knew we knew cuz i would hide, transfriend would talk louder and said he would look away when she did? I didnt notice that because i was worried that her doing that would attract more attention and he would try to talk to us.

But one of my makeup pallets has a mirror, and I would use that to fix my makeup after eating. Whether its my eyeliner or my lips i took as long as possible. But that was after eating

I noticed my trans friend would glance and glare at him a lot before then. A few minutes before my friends leave after their 30min lunches i finish my own lunch and decide to fix my makeup. I hadn't planned for this since he usually sits infront of us and not behind, but i realized i could position myself discreetly yo be able to see him in my mirror.

And yeah he was staring right at me. I could make eye contact with him without him knowing. And im pretty sure he figured it out because i noticed hom staring a lot less. And his body position was different a lot too.

Usually he sits upright, either leaning back or forward slightly with his hands on his lap (didnt notice him moving them a lot, dont think hes that bold yet)

But that day he was leaning on the table with his elbows on the table and his head in his hand turned facing away from us. He was trying to make himself seem bored and like he wasnt watching us.

And he was like that for both first break and lunch.

Once the second break came around he was back in his usual spot in his usual position watching us and not trying to hide it.

I wanted to fucking scream at him.

Monday however he apparently called out, and while we were going to tell one of our female teamleads eventually we decided to take advantage of him not being there and it being our last day of the week, to tell about him.

We know its just staring and he thankfully hasn't tried anything more, but its weird, and rude, and creepy and because its only ever at us and its ALL the time, its extremely concerning especially since we can tell what kind of guy he is and his views immediately. He is absolutely not the kind of guy we want to be around.

And before anyone says anything, its not like we are trying to get the guy in trouble. Theres another dude with the similar views, that we dont like either that we mostly ignore and that our trans friend refuses to work with. I dont like one woman because shes selfish, and one of our coaches is a bit of a dick with unreasonable expectations, but at least hes professional and not a creep. I don't know most of the rest of my coworkers views and i get along great with pretty much all of my male coworkers (its mostly men anyway) i am even willing to work with the people i generally dislike. One of my closer friends that i havent mentioned here because he doesnt go to the lounge for his breaks or lunch, is also a guy and hes fucking amazing.

We just want that guy to stop staring at us. To just leave us alone and mind his own business. Theres no reason to stare so much. Its one thing if its done rarely, stare or zone out for a couple minutes and then stop and not do it again because its an accident or you didnt realize you were staring. Ive caught a couple coworkers doing that, ive done that even. It just happens yknow

But this guy was doing so ALL THE TIME, EVERYDAY, JUST NONSTOP STARING AT THE ONLY WOMEN IN THE LOUNGE.

ITS WEIRD

so anyway hes going to get a sitdown talking to his next day at work. Hopefully that scares him out of doing it again.

I have never been so creeped out by a coworker. Krep in mind this is my first job and what i have to do involves a lot of bending over or kneeling. So when i first started i was very concerned about people staring at my ass. No one ever did. And if they did, they didn't look long or be weird about it. Even before all this happened, one time i had to stack a pallet onto another one. And if its just one pallet i like to just walk backwards over it and drag the other on top. Well it didnt occur to me until i was in the middle of doing so that i would be essentially backing my ass up infront of my coach (the dick one. He was talking to another male coworker at the time), but even then I don't think he even knew i was there. He might be a dick and bad at his job managing us (and maybe is harder on us girls), but at least he isn't a creep to us. I would probably like him more if I didn't have to work with him

So its just even weirder that this new guy, who has only been here a few weeks at most, is not just creeping me out but is also creeping out my two female friends too. The audacity...

Anyway yeah so that's why I'm stressed and sorry again for not posting anything in a while, have a sleepy baby who wanted a cuddle as i was writing this as a reward.

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Smol update on the ita bag!

Definitely not finished ofc. It just felt so empty so I had to put SOMETHING in there.

My hands hurt from the pins so much >~<

It was very hard choosing what to take from the shrine and put it in here. The shrine feels a bit more empty now

Solution is: buy more merch obviously.

Ah but I should save more. I already have lots of merch.

For now I need some sleep.

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LOOK AT WHAT I ACQUIRED

ZHONGLI ITA BAG

I've waited so long for this

Its so well made i cannot wait to decorate it

It will never leave my room but I love it so damn much.

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So I got these chocolate covered fortune cookies for zhongli on his birthday

And I forgot about them in his gift bag

Now that I remembered them I remember that I had intended to open one for each of us on new years to see our fortunes

This was the first one I opened and its for him

And I doubt you can read it but it says

"Slow down and enjoy the things that really matter."

And out of any fortune he could have possibly gotten I think that's the most Zhongli fortune out there.

And then this one is mine

"Focus only on positive thoughts and live your life to the fullest."

And yeah this one is definitely directed at me. I have been having a lot of anxiety lately

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I found out we will be moving again in a couple months so i cant put up my new shelf yet.

I knew we would move eventually and id have to take it down to move but its a lot sooner than expected so its not worth it to put it up

This is the shelf i got tho T~T

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ZHONGLIS LATE PRESENTS ARRIVED

I had forgotten about the candy filled yuanbao lol

Once I get my new shelf they will be displayed properly.

This is the tea cake I bought

I dont understand what kind of tea, or what it tastes like, to be honest. I went with my intuition. But it smells nice. It is a pity I don't know how to use one of these but I hope he enjoys it!

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Yulin (self insert) doodle

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I had an idea

There is this fan animation , a long, long time ago from when i was in the TFG1 fandom of all the characters doing this three frame/picture dance. And i thought "i wanna see zhongli do that dance".

First of all the artist that did that video has been gone nearly a decade and suddenly i find out that not only are they back, but they are making genshin animations

Secondly

Im biting off more than i can chew :)

Im doing them all. This is but one of 182 (91 characters so far) drawings I'll have to do. Starting with mondstadt.

Anyway please show some love to

Jino san

Because i referenced the pose and chibi style from their video, and i still love them and I'm so glad they've gotten into genshin. And their animations have gotten even better I really recommend watching their old videos and their new shorts.

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So is no one else gonna talk about the new coin we see in zhonglis birthday art?

What coin is that! It's slightly larger than normal mora. Maybe it's a higher value coin? Or maybe they are finally starting to print a new mora? That would be cool as hell.

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I finished cleaning my room and took my bath so i just got done putting together zhonglis temporary present and making the shrine a bit more presentable (though its mostly hidden by real and fake flowers now XD)

Inside the sparkly red bag is teo boxes of white chocolate strawberry and milk chocolate lindt chocolate truffles (separate pink and red heart shaped boxes respectively) and a box of chocolate covered fortune cookies? Thought I might open that for new years and see what our fortune is lol. And the fake flowers that will be used to replace the real ones once they wilt.

I'll eat the chocolates eventually and that's why it's temporary. I won't eat them right now though, let him enjoy them for a while. I still have PLENTY of sweets anyway.

I have a tea cake that's coming. I dont know how to use them and I don't even know if it would taste good. Either way I think he'd appreciate it and the fact that I tried. It's hard to know what kind of gifts to give when I was so disconnected from my culture as a child. I have heard that tea is always a good choice, its even been given as a gift in genshin once chenyu vale came out, and even if it's a basic kind of gift, hes never had tea from this world. So if in some way he is able to enjoy it, he will get a chance to taste something possibly new. I know how much he loves tea hahaha

In theory I shouldn't have any trouble finding him a gift... I tried looking at antiques, but i have to consider the fact that i cannot actually give him whatever gift i choose, and then theres the fact that i do not know how to choose good antiques much less know what he would like. And such old items are bound to be dirty and i dont know how to clean them.

I thought about perfume, but theres already a bottle on the shrine and i wear another of the same everyday.

I cannot get clothes, nor games. Incense is not allowed in the house.

I felt bad just getting him flowers. They are so temporary and i cannot even get a well put together bouquet. I daydreamed about what flowers and their meanings I would give, but I don't have the luxury of being picky. And I don't know how to pick good flowers like he does. I can only hope he would like the selection ive given.

But a tea cake is pretty shelf stable (it will go bad eventually but not as quickly as flowers or food) and while i also love tea, I'm much too nervous to use a tea cake yet. I don't want to do it wrong and waste it. I don't even have the tools necessary to do it.

But it is something I don't mind leaving near the shrine, dont mind not using and letting it be his gift entirely. I believe he will appreciate it as a gift.

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Genshin Impact | Animated Artworks | 2024 Birthday Artworks: Zhongli

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Flowers for zhonglis birthdaaaay

Its kinda ugly and a few hours late buuuut better late and have something right?

Im still in the process of cleaning my room, and the shrine is a crowded mess (yes i even put the diluc figure up there even though i said i wouldnt)

I also got some fake flowers and other valentines day stuff as gifts (i was shopping anyway and they were out so why not get them. Also his actual birthday gift, a tea cake, will be late due to distance.)

Heres how the shrine is currently looking too since its been a while since i updated

Im getting a new display shelf for another part of my room for some of the items like packaging, the art book, unhung picture frames and i wanna give the official merch geo vision in the blue box its own special spot. It is my vision and not his afterall.

And the cat diluc.

And im thinking about getting a nice tablecloth for the shrine.vwith it being so cluttered it needs something to make it stand out more as something important and not a pile of toys.

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What you don't see in zhonglis birthday art is me sucking his dick under the table

I am unwell

I cant wait to buy him flowers in the morning after work.

I'm far too distracted for my own good lol i am concerning my coworkers.

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I love you zhongli

HAPPY BIRTHDAAAAAY

Happy Birthday, Zhongli!

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