#zsakuva xanthus claiborne

[aestheticpearl]

— 𝐨𝐫𝐚𝐧𝐠𝐞 𝐣𝐮𝐢𝐜𝐞

✧·˚what happens when xanthus turns you but you never wanted to be turned in the first place?

“what have you done to me?”

your eyes hurt with the bright lights that didn’t seem so bright moments ago, but then again you could barely feel your body moments ago, then all of a sudden you felt your once numb body feel so intensely that it was painful.

you lock your eyes with xanthus, his lips and fangs smeared with blood that you can tell if it’s yours or his, deep down you know it’s a mixture of both. you don’t want to accept that though, you don’t want to accept the reality of you being turned and now stuck as an immortal being.

“what did you do? what have i become?” you look down at your hands, they have a paler complexion that frightens you.

xanthus moves cautiously as if to not spook you, almost as if you’re a skittish baby deer that’ll bolt at any second.

“love, i had no choice—” his voice is soft as he cautiously reaches out to you, only for you to pull back almost immediately.

“how could you? you should’ve just let me die.”

“no!” he doesn’t mean to shout at you and he certainly doesn’t mean for you to flinch at his tone. “…no love please understand.”

“you’ve doomed me to an eternity of a life i do not want to live.”

“you don’t mean that, you’re confused.”

tears freely flow down your face as you come to terms with your situation. stuck as a vampire for the rest of your time on this earth, forced to drink the blood of the living, the thought of it almost makes you hurl.

you seek xanthus’ comfort but he was the cause of all this distress, but you feel beyond conflicted and these emotions are only intensified with this new you.

“i need you to be away from me.”

“i’m not leaving you love.” xanthus only backs away from you but his eyes never leave your figure.

it’s silent for undisclosed amount of time until you speak up.

“…i’m hungry.” you sniffle. “i don’t want to be hungry.” a hiccup. “i’m scared.”

xanthus moves close to you and gets down to your level.

“i’m right here love, i can find you something to eat okay?”

“i don’t want to drink blood.” you cry out through tears. “i’m not a vampire, i’m a human.”

xanthus’ crimson eyes are filled with empathy for you as he recalls feeling the same way when he was first turned. he does his best to comfort you by pulling you into an embrace.

“i know love, i’m sorry. i’m so so sorry.” he pets your hair as you cry into his arms.

you hate how comforting his embrace is and how it puts you at ease, like your body recognizes him. you want to be mad and scream and shout at him for doing this to you but you just can’t bring yourself to do so.

“you’re not going to go through this alone love, i will stay with you forever i promise.” he holds onto you tightly. “i love you, i don’t need a bond to tell me that.”

the bond. you had almost completely forgotten about the bond and then it suddenly hits you, xanthus had felt your death and had to push through the pain and emotions to turn you. he’s grieving you as much as you’re grieving yourself.

you look up at him and wrap your arms around his neck in a tight embrace that he returns with a passion.

“i’m sorry love, i understand if you don’t forgive me.” xanthus can feel his own tears prick his eyes, but he does his best to stay strong for you.

“if there was any other way i would’ve tried it i swear, i never wanted this for you my love. i just couldn’t let you slip through my fingers like this, i’m sorry.”

you’re scared and your whole body seems to be shaking with sobs or hunger, but you can’t really tell what it’s from and some how that scares you more.

“just please don’t leave me.”

your silence scares xanthus more than he’d care to admit.

“okay.”

i feel like i have too many xanthus posts but i just can’t help myself with vampire tropes man😔

.love always <3 pearl

.masterlist

[thea1chemy]

not true actually

[baked-mango]

This is all the Zsakuva main boys and how I feel about them. They're also drawn as chibis and it's super cute and I'm never changing my opinion and I wanna know if y'all would change where everyone is. <3333

This took me all day, i love this fandom

#bringbackyandereboypleasesakuIactuallylikehim

[puxaagam]

OLD DRAWINGS! OLD! VERY OLD!

i don't...i...i don't...draw like this anymore...i swear 😭

(btw the dates are in dd/mm/yyyy order)

Okay so, i still have more drawings from 2022 because i was literally obsessed with the sakuverse (and it helped me go through a very shitty time 🩷) , but i want to keep what little dignity i have left after posting this. If you couldn't tell, i hate to post art that i don't deem perfect but whatever. I did not spend all of 2022 without friends and drawing like crazy just so no one could see it. Don't laugh (or I'm gonna cry /jk)

And because i hate the idea of those things being the only drawings of mine you see today, here's a recent (? doodle of a much more older, crankier and grumpier Isaac.

(that old man has seen some shit 🏃‍♀️)

[grapesrsogood]

Im bored so here is one head cannon for every character I’ve listened to ( ¯ □ ¯ )

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- Xanthus enjoys playing the piano for Love whilst they’re reading.

- Andrew can’t tell the difference between AI and real videos/images.

- Dontis decided to try out TikTok to attempt to “connect with the younger generations of human” and accidentally has an (extremely blurry and with an even more confused Dontis) image posted of himself with no tags and the song About Damn Time by Lizzo playing in the background.

- Issac secretly watches 40 min long cat videos before going to bed, he refuses to let anybody find out, but in his defense its only because if he didnt end the day with funny cat videos, the horrors of his job and responsibilities that weigh on him would cause him to not be able to sleep. He’s tried things like CBD and relaxants but its just made him more anxious at the thought of intruders. (Sorry about making this kinda sad i just love Issac and i ignore him way too much).

- Elias’s favourite colour was pink when he was younger, but he got weird looks from his dads colleagues when he wore it so he decided to lie and say his favourite colour was blue instead.

- Asirel has an issue with rolling his eyes, whenever somebody talks to him, he rolls his eyes, if somebody knocks on his door, he rolls his eyes, etc. It’s a huge problem that he’s had his whole life and he cant go a day without rolling his eyes.

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No, i haven’t watched any of the others…

Im a very picky listener okay

Anyways, is this worth a taglist? Idk, pls let me know if you want to be tagged in things like this too or just the longer fics :3

@xxluneilaxxaus @penelopesbaby @claiestve

@onasvigo

[claiestve]

ꨄ sakuverse tweets ! :

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how we feelin y’all

[belladonnadawn]

Merry Christmas!

I hope all our wishes come true 😌

[lemonieeatelier]

This is very scuffed 🧍🏻‍♀️

I hope everyone enjoyed this & thanks for watching.

[norabugz]

Long time sakufandom lurker here, I was messing around with editing styles and I accidentally made a really cute Xanthus x love edit, so thought I'd share!

(love is depicted as male, female and gender neutral in this... Oops)

[zsakuva]

now that we have an idea of what vic looks like, what about fran? :3

I think this kind of reference gives me Fran vibes.

[supabirdy]

I miss the old crumpet community. When @aestheticpearl was the only one that posted stuff, only fanfics existed and ZsakuVa wasn’t active on tumblr. The golden days fr fr

[aestheticpearl]

why are you awake this late?

✧·˚feat: kayson mayer, jonah, xanthus claiborne, andrew marston, issac rhoades, elias

✧·˚genre: fluff

✧·˚requested: yes!

✧·˚a/n: i actually made this at 3 am cause i couldn’t sleep lol (edit: i had to fix kayson’s cause there was an ERROR)

.love always <3 pearl

.texts masterlist

[thea1chemy]

I LOVE THEM ALL (these are the only ones in my camera roll)

[baked-mango]

This is them drawn from my memory only

And my pookie bookie bear

I FEEL LIKE THEY'RE KINDA CLOSE

slayed

[c-t-r-l14]

I saw this on Pinterest and immediately thought of Xanthus.

Meet his love, Zara.

Xanthus and Zara….that got a helluva nice ring to it!

[maymaybe4]

I love how everyone has just become insecure about Xanthus and Love during all this time with no content