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Chilltrax (June 08, 2023)

23:59 Flexible Fire - Amatista 23:59 C H I L L T R A X - Toh Freesound 23:56 Tep No Feat. Starzun - Hold Me 23:52 Gus, Nuage - The Place We Know (Original Mix) 23:47 Emi Ca - Just Breathe 23:42 Double Touch Feat. Reigan - All I Want 23:41 C H I L L T R A X - Jimpster 1 23:36 Alison Goldfrapp - The Beat Divine 23:33 Pines Feat. Fractures - Rewrite The Ending 23:28 Joy Orbison Feat. Lea Sen - Better 23:25 Dex 1200 - Ongea Nami 23:21 Chicane Feat. Moya Brennan - Saltwater (Chicane Slow Tide Remix) 23:21 C H I L L T R A X - Toh Cymbal Roll Bass 23:15 Arley & Sirolf - One Day 23:11 Sons Of Maria - Always 23:07 Bonsaye - Kismet 23:03 Eli & Fur - Better In The Dark 22:59 Everything But The Girl - Run A Red Light 22:59 C H I L L T R A X - Be Svendsen World Comes 22:56 Holen - Healing 22:52 Blonde Maze - Something Familiar 22:49 Lp Giobbi Feat. Caroline Byrne - Another Life 22:46 Heard Right & Fløa - Enough 22:42 Kelela - Contact 22:42 C H I L L T R A X - Toh Moon Boots 22:36 Syml & Zero 7 - Symmetry (Zero 7 Remix) 22:33 Dreem - Miles Away 22:29 Andrew Nagy & Joel Winterflood - Little To None 22:24 Booka Shade & Satin Jackets - Fusion Royale 22:20 Gramatik - Muy Tranquilo 22:20 C H I L L T R A X - Retsyn 22:16 Monolink - Turning Away (Parra For Cuva Remix) 22:11 Alampa - Lush Dance 22:06 Il:lo - Cynnes 22:03 Lapsley - 32 Floors 21:59 Fabio Vee & Mike D' Jais - Consolation 21:59 C H I L L T R A X - Street Life Worlds Cc 21:55 West & Zander - Silfra 21:51 Elderbrook & Tourist - Howl (Chill Mix) 21:48 Charles Webster Feat. Shara Nelson - This Is Real 21:43 False Intentions - Good Liar 21:39 Two Lanes - Never Enough 21:34 Nicholas Gunn Feat. Chris Howard - Thought Of You 21:34 C H I L L T R A X - E-chilled-music 21:29 Forty Cats & Arentis - Zen 21:25 Reel People & Paula - Vibe (Moods Remix) 21:21 Sofi Tukker - Swing (Mahmut Orhan Remix) 21:17 Passenger 10 - Voices In Her Head 21:14 Finding Mero - In Loving Memories 21:11 Rhye - Summer Days (Roosevelt Remix) 21:10 C H I L L T R A X - R.i.p. John Hurt 21:07 Kidnap & Pinkpirate - Things Change 21:03 Sebastian Davidson Feat. Lewyn - Second Hand Love 20:58 Ghenwa Nemnom - Story Of A Battle (Chris Zippel Remix) 20:54 London Grammar - Baby It's You 20:54 C H I L L T R A X - Slurry Toh 20:51 Afterlife - All I Wanted 20:47 Sons Of Maria - It Takes So Long 20:42 Royksopp Feat. Astrid S - Let's Get It Right 20:38 Wassu & Mimi Page - Within Me 20:34 Edapollo - By The River (Faodail Remix) 20:34 C H I L L T R A X - Trans Europe Vocoder 20:30 Eli & Fur - Where I Find My Mind 20:26 The Knocks Feat. Foster The People - All About You (Equal Remix) 20:23 Aftruu - Falling Asleep 20:19 Attom & Kwesi - Rogue 20:18 Morcheeba - Gimme Your Love 20:14 C H I L L T R A X - Ct The Backward Chillout Channel 20:11 Flexible Fire - Marea Turquesa 20:07 George Fitzgerald & Syml - Mother 20:03 Feiertag Feat. Tessa Rose Jackson, Oli Hannaford - Yearn 19:59 Cahelo - Bananaquit (Mass Digital Extended Remix) 19:59 C H I L L T R A X - Valante Io Toh 19:55 Alampa - The One 19:49 Trilucid - Cheyenne (Extended Sunset Mix) 19:46 Rocket Empire - Lima 19:41 Rodriguez Jr. Feat. Liset Alea - What Is Real (Deep In The Playa Mix) 19:41 C H I L L T R A X - Cleanliness Don't You Agree 19:37 Floa & Phonic Youth - Falling Away 19:33 Lipless & Blue Noir - Alone 19:29 Chris Malinchak - When The World Stops Turning (Quiet Mix) 19:25 Arto - Now You're Gone 19:20 Massive Attack - Unfinished Sympathy (Oakenfold Remix) 19:20 C H I L L T R A X - Toh Dzihan 19:17 Fløa (Floa) - Pictures Of You 19:12 Attlas Feat. Mango - Over The Water 19:08 Duckmaw - Habits 19:05 Everything But The Girl - Forever 19:01 Evelynka - Letting Go 19:00 C H I L L T R A X - Escape The Noise 18:57 Lar - Collide (Jody Wisternoff & James Grant Remix) 18:54 Cannons - Bad Dream 18:51 Attlas & Jodie Knight - Used To The Silence 18:47 Leaving Laurel - The Family We Find 18:43 Eloi El - Stick Together (Blonde Maze Remix) 18:43 C H I L L T R A X - Glitchy Toh 18:38 Rasmus Faber Feat. Metaxas - Be Real (Satin Jackets Remix) 18:35 Chill Cole - Liquid Life 18:30 Darius Feat. Benny Sings - Rise (Darius Remix) 18:27 Jones Meadow & Clara Mendes - Em Baixo 18:21 Be Svendsen - Andromeda 18:21 C H I L L T R A X - Magnifyingglasssogood4u 18:17 Feiertag - Didn't Know Why (You Lost Your Soul) 18:13 Two Lanes Feat. Kwesi - Another Time 18:10 Holen - Healing 18:07 Forester - Saint (Shallou Remix) 18:03 Elderbrook - The End 18:03 C H I L L T R A X - Comes To Chill Out 17:59 Giants' Nest - Flower Burst 17:55 Lamorn - Olsen After Midnight 17:51 53 Thieves - Heights 17:46 Palladian - Zagara 17:42 Blonde Maze - A Break In Continuity (Forty Cats Remix) 17:37 Sound Quelle & Tailor - Where We Should Be 17:37 C H I L L T R A X - Worldschilloutchannnel Orbit 17:33 Alampa - Playoff 17:30 Vintage & Morelli - Once Upon A World 17:26 Royksopp Feat. Astrid S - Just Wanted To Know 17:23 Ben Bohmer Feat. Jonah - Home 17:19 Holen - Breathe 17:13 Roisin Murphy - Incapable 17:13 C H I L L T R A X - Tcc Warm And Tender Ocean 17:09 Kx5 & Sofi Tukker - Sacrifice (St Mix) 17:06 Tep No - Deep Sin 17:03 Dex 1200 - Ongea Nami 16:59 Billie Eilish - Everything I Wanted (Aquadrop Remix) 16:59 C H I L L T R A X - Toh Freesound 16:55 Gus, Nuage - The Place We Know (Original Mi 16:51 Sebastian Davidson - Nomads 16:47 Running Touch - Why Do I 16:43 Reel People & Muhsinah - Something New (Kraak & Smaak Remix) 16:39 Feathervane & Oreonic - Overcast 16:39 C H I L L T R A X - Cool Refreshed Smooth As Can Be 16:34 Steven Weston Feat. Tae - Same Dream 16:28 Satin Jackets - Little Airplanes 16:24 Duckmaw - Distant Worlds 16:19 Royksopp & Susanne Sundfor - Oh, Lover (Nto Remix) 16:15 Zero 7 Feat. Danny Pratt - 400 Blows 16:15 C H I L L T R A X - Chill Out Chilltrax 16:11 Woven - Brushes 16:06 Alison Goldfrapp - The Beat Divine 16:03 Westseven Feat. Angus Powell - Go Right Through (Sound Quelle Remix) 15:58 Two Lanes - Movement 15:58 C H I L L T R A X - Toh Cymbal Roll Bass 15:54 Andre Aguado - Through The Night 15:51 Lp Giobbi Feat. Caroline Byrne - Another Life 15:47 Il:lo - Ink 15:44 Emmit Fenn - The Chase 15:44 C H I L L T R A X - Worlds Chillout Channel (Chillout Channel) 15:40 Jan Blomqvist & Malou - Alone 15:36 Olan - Wake And Return (Little Dragon Remix) 15:31 Ross Couch - On Fire (Downtempo Mix) 15:27 False Intentions - Good Liar 15:27 C H I L L T R A X - Toh Moon Boots 15:23 Xixi Feat. Kwesi - Close To U 15:20 Mansionair & Kim Tee - Next High 15:15 Jean Caillou - Signs 15:10 Eli & Fur - Better In The Dark 15:05 Northern Form - Mend 15:05 C H I L L T R A X - Organ The Chillout Channel 15:01 Dreem - Miles Away 14:56 Baile & Haulm - Knows No End 14:53 Elderbrook & Tourist - Howl (Chill Mix) 14:48 Sons Of Maria - Outbound 14:43 Mass Digital - Thoughts Of U 14:43 C H I L L T R A X - Slurry Toh 14:39 A.m.r & Lumynesynth - Unfinished 14:33 Leaving Laurel - There Is Beauty When You Allow Yourself To See 14:30 Lost In Pacific & Hanging Valleys - Escape 14:26 Satin Jackets Feat. Tailor - Somewhere In Paradise 14:22 Tycho - Weather (Nitemoves Remix) 14:22 C H I L L T R A X - Something I Should Tell You 14:17 Nicholas Gunn & Alina Renae - Angel Eyes 14:13 Washed Out - Too Late 14:09 Rocket Empire - Astoria 14:05 53 Thieves - Lyd 14:01 Phello - Timelapse 14:01 C H I L L T R A X - Escape 2 Music 13:58 Ran The Man - Yucatan 13:55 Afterlife - All I Wanted 13:51 Aparde - Know You 13:46 Alex Lo Faro - Move With Me 13:43 Leisure - Take You Higher (Serebii & Arjuna Oakes Remix) 13:38 Odesza Feat. Olafur Arnalds - Light Of Day (Parra For Cuva Remix) 13:38 C H I L L T R A X - Backward Rvb Where World Comes 13:35 Elypsis - Open Your Eyes 13:32 Reel People & Paula - Vibe (Moods Remix) 13:28 Edapollo Feat. Akacia - Run 13:24 Giants' Nest - Crema 13:21 Chill Cole - Liquid Life 13:17 Morcheeba - Even Though 13:17 C H I L L T R A X - Fresh And Fascinating 13:13 Morgin Madison & Ryan Lucian - From The Start (Mm Chill Remix) 13:09 Mango & Cloudcage - More Than This 13:05 Tomb - Unbound 13:02 Diplo Feat. Rhye - Mmxx - Xii 13:02 C H I L L T R A X - Valante Io Toh 12:56 Trilucid - Cheyenne (Extended Sunset Mix) 12:53 Flexible Fire - Amatista 12:49 Che Jose Feat. Jodie Knight - Freedom (Mass Digital Remix Edit) 12:45 Cinnamon Chasers - Surviving The Fire 12:40 Jones Meadow - Entrance 12:40 C H I L L T R A X - R.i.p. John Hurt 12:35 Max Cooper - A Model Of Reality (Tor Remix) 12:31 Teemid - L.a. 12:26 Billion Watchers - Rainman 12:22 Sound Quelle Feat. Daniel Robinson - Tempest 12:18 Tosca - Swimswimswim 12:17 C H I L L T R A X - Twcc High Standard Of Quality 12:14 Lar - Collide (Jody Wisternoff & James Grant Remix) 12:11 Fløa (Floa) - Pictures Of You 12:08 Cannons - Footsteps In The Dark 12:04 Melosense - Nous 12:04 C H I L L T R A X - Toh Dzihan 12:00 Lapsley - Levitate 11:57 Attlas & Jodie Knight - Used To The Silence 11:54 Holen - Healing 11:51 53 Thieves - Two Days 11:50 C H I L L T R A X - Jimpster 1 11:47 Floa & Phonic Youth - Falling Away 11:43 Nils Hoffmann Feat. Malou - About You 11:40 Satin Jackets Feat. Tailor - Spell 11:35 Blank & Jones - Floatation 11:30 C H I L L T R A X - Glitchy Toh 11:26 Elderbrook - Wasted On You 11:22 Edapollo - Standing There 11:18 Giants' Nest - Purple Beach 11:14 Feiertag - Didn't Know Why (You Lost Your Soul) 11:09 Ry X & Olafur Arnalds - Colorblind (Whomadewho Remix) 11:09 C H I L L T R A X - Chilltrax - Chill Out Piano 11:04 Cahelo - Bananaquit (Mass Digital Extended Remix) 11:01 Avira & Nicholas Gunn - Sensing You 10:56 Lamorn - Olsen After Midnight 10:52 Sultan Shepard - Sirens 10:48 Boerd Feat. Stella Explorer - Another Life 10:48 C H I L L T R A X - Toh Freesound 10:44 Kidnap - Start Again (Kidnap Piano Mix) 10:40 Sons Of Maria - It Takes So Long 10:36 Kelela - Enough For Love 10:31 Heard Right & Oracle - There For You 10:27 Il:lo - List 10:27 C H I L L T R A X - Parents Magazine Seal 10:22 Eli & Fur - Where I Find My Mind 10:18 Christian Loffler Feat. Menke - Lys 10:13 Two Lanes - Movement 10:09 Farius - A Big Life (Sound Quelle Remix) 10:06 Jones Meadow - Expect 10:06 C H I L L T R A X - The Chillout Channel Redux 10:01 Flexible Fire - La Cumbre 09:57 Gus, Nuage - The Place We Know (Original Mi 09:53 Genix & Zashanell - All I Want (Chill Out Mix) 09:49 Dex 1200 - Ongea Nami 09:45 Cannons - Tunnel Of You 09:41 R Plus & Faithless Feat. Amelia Fox - It's Enough (The Last High) 09:41 C H I L L T R A X - Escape The Noise 09:36 Booka Shade & Satin Jackets - Fusion Royale 09:31 Leisure - Slipping Away (Flight Facilities Remix) 09:28 Morcheeba - The Moon (Kutiman Remix - Version B) 09:25 Sebastian Davidson - Nomads 09:20 Massive Attack - Paradise Circus 09:20 C H I L L T R A X - Magnifyingglasssogood4u 09:16 Kx5 & Sofi Tukker - Sacrifice (St Mix) 09:11 Deep Sound Effect Feat. Svetlana Voice - Dreaming About You (Dj Aristocrat Remix) 09:06 Emi Ca - Just Breathe 09:01 Tsha - I Know 09:01 C H I L L T R A X - Toh Cymbal Roll Bass 08:58 Lp Giobbi Feat. Caroline Byrne - Another Life 08:55 Finding Mero - In Loving Memories 08:51 Embliss & Lumynesynth - Phases Of The Moon 08:47 Khotin & Tess Roby - Fountain, Growth 08:43 Logic1000 - 21 08:43 C H I L L T R A X - Trans Europe Vocoder 08:39 Kidnap & Pinkpirate - Things Change 08:35 Little Dragon - Water 08:31 False Intentions - Good Liar 08:28 Blonde Maze - Daydream (Otherwise Fine Remix) 08:23 Thievery Corporation - From Creation 08:23 C H I L L T R A X - World Comes To Chilltrax.com 08:20 Giants' Nest - Heart Void 08:16 George Fitzgerald & Syml - Mother 08:13 Boerd Feat. Stella Explorer - Before We Drown 08:09 Chill Cole - Liquid Life 08:09 C H I L L T R A X - Toh Moon Boots 08:06 Elderbrook & Tourist - Howl (Chill Mix) 08:03 Emmit Fenn - --amman 07:57 Royksopp - The Ladder 07:54 Jones Meadow & Clara Mendes - Em Baixo 07:54 C H I L L T R A X - Retsyn 07:50 Zhu & Yuna - Sky Is Crying 07:45 Jean Vayat & Evelynka - My Soul 07:42 Henry Green - Realign 07:38 Arto - Now You're Gone 07:33 Washed Out - Eyes Be Closed 07:33 C H I L L T R A X - Slurry Toh 07:29 Monolink - Turning Away (Parra For Cuva Remix) 07:26 53 Thieves - Waves 07:21 Dim Kelly - Nocturna Animal 07:16 Eli & Fur - Better In The Dark 07:12 Everything But The Girl - Caution To The Wind 07:12 C H I L L T R A X - Worlds Chillout Channel (Chillout Channel) 07:07 Alex Lo Faro - Move With Me 07:03 Kaskade - Where Did You Go 07:00 Afterlife - All I Wanted 06:55 Ghenwa Nemnom - Story Of A Battle (Chris Zippel Remix) 06:51 Flume Feat. Emma Louise - Hollow (Logic1000 Remix) 06:51 C H I L L T R A X - Valante Io Toh 06:47 Vok - Skin 06:44 Flexible Fire - Amatista 06:40 Satin Jackets & Panama - The Future 06:37 Holen - Healing 06:37 C H I L L T R A X - Take Me Away! 06:32 Steven Weston Feat. Tae - Same Dream 06:26 Rüfüs Du Sol - See You Again 06:22 Palladian - Zagara 06:17 Sons Of Maria - Are You 06:11 Dj San & Sebastian Moore - In Your Eyes 06:11 C H I L L T R A X - E-chilled-music 06:07 Valante - Vana 06:02 Trilucid - Cheyenne (Extended Sunset Mix) 05:59 Chris Malinchak - Happiness (Eternal Moment Mix) 05:53 Il:lo - Cynnes 05:50 Vandelux - Tulum 05:46 Fabio Vee & Mike D' Jais - Consolation 05:46 C H I L L T R A X - The Chillout Channel, Chilltrax 05:41 Above And Beyond - Sun In Your Eyes (William Orbit Remix) 05:37 Reel People & Paula - Vibe (Moods Remix) 05:32 Eelke Kleijn Feat. Diana Miro - You 05:29 Emmit Fenn - What Falling In Love Is For 05:24 Two Lanes - Movement 05:20 Shallou Feat.wales - Begin 05:20 C H I L L T R A X - Tcc Warm And Tender Ocean 05:16 Xixi Feat. Kwesi - Close To U 05:11 Mango - Skyline 05:08 Sum Wave - Milkyway 05:05 Indigo Eyes Feat. Kehina - All Over Again (Remix) 05:05 C H I L L T R A X - Toh Dzihan 05:02 Attlas & Jodie Knight - Used To The Silence 04:58 Lar - Collide (Jody Wisternoff & James Grant Remix) 04:55 Kx5 Feat. Hayla - Escape (Chill Mix) 04:51 Elderbrook - The End 04:46 Eric Hilton - Artifact22 04:46 C H I L L T R A X - Cleanliness Don't You Agree 04:42 Feiertag - Didn't Know Why (You Lost Your Soul) 04:39 Drama - 3am 04:35 Farius - Coming Up (Hold On) (Dokho Remix) 04:30 Shingo Nakamura - Come Closer 04:24 Marsh Feat. Katherine Amy - Find Me 04:24 C H I L L T R A X - Escape 2 Music 04:21 Heard Right & Fløa - Enough 04:17 Jan Blomqvist & Malou - Alone 04:13 Solomon Grey - Home 04:10 Melosense - Nous 04:10 C H I L L T R A X - Glitchy Toh 04:05 Sons Of Maria - Don't Tell Me I Can't Have It 04:00 Lamorn - Olsen After Midnight 03:56 Jones Meadow - Fences 03:52 Kc Lights Feat. Leo Stannard - Cold Light (6am Remix) 03:52 C H I L L T R A X - R.i.p. John Hurt 03:47 Alison Goldfrapp - The Beat Divine 03:42 Chris Malinchak, Kiesza, Malin - Tree 03:38 Camelphat - Waiting (Eli & Fur's Found Version) 03:34 Rocket Empire - Astoria 03:34 C H I L L T R A X - Toh Freesound 03:29 Nicholas Gunn & Alina Renae - Angel Eyes 03:26 Beacon - Pay My Debts 03:21 Zaven - Passive Activity (Evren Furtuna Remix) 03:15 Arley & Sirolf - One Day 03:11 Satin Jackets Feat. Mandy Jones - In This Life 03:11 C H I L L T R A X - Be Svendsen World Comes 03:08 Dreem - Miles Away 03:03 Double Touch Feat. Reigan - Greatest Day 02:59 Gus, Nuage - The Place We Know (Original Mi 02:54 Eli & Fur - Carbon 02:50 Duckmaw - Distant Worlds 02:50 C H I L L T R A X - Worldschilloutchannnel Orbit 02:47 Liz Cass - Blue 02:42 Reel People & Muhsinah - Something New (Kraak & Smaak Remix) 02:38 Maxxim - Waterfalls 02:34 Two Lanes - Searching (Ct Fixup Mix) 02:34 C H I L L T R A X - Worlds Chillout Channel (Chillout Channel) 02:30 Otr Feat. Shallou - Heart 02:27 Odesza Feat. Maro - Better Now 02:23 False Intentions - Good Liar 02:17 Groove Armada - History (M3 And Bachelors Of Science Remix) 02:17 C H I L L T R A X - Cool Refreshed Smooth As Can Be 02:14 Jako Diaz & Leyet - Only You 02:10 Alex Hook Feat. Rene - You Showed Me 02:06 Woven - Brushes 02:01 Darius Feat. Wayne Snow - Apology 01:58 Lp Giobbi Feat. Caroline Byrne - Another Life 01:58 C H I L L T R A X - Toh Cymbal Roll Bass 01:54 Sons Of Maria - It Takes So Long 01:49 Above & Beyond & Marty Longstaff - Gratitude (Aname Pm Mix) 01:45 Sound Quelle & Tailor - Where We Should Be 01:41 Jones Meadow - Paint 01:38 Cannons - Loving You 01:33 Nox Vahn & Marsh - Come Together 01:28 Fakear - Crystal 01:28 C H I L L T R A X - Magnifyingglasssogood4u 01:24 Armin Van Buuren & Matoma Feat Teddy Swims - Easy To Love 01:20 Parra For Cuva - Paspatou 01:17 Flexible Fire - Marea Turquesa 01:13 Floa & Phonic Youth - Falling Away 01:09 Avira & Nourey Feat. Tom Bailey - Favourite Game 01:06 Finding Mero - In Loving Memories 01:06 C H I L L T R A X - Toh Moon Boots 01:02 Nightcap - The Two Of Us (We Only Need) 00:59 Elderbrook & Tourist - Howl (Chill Mix) 00:56 Rocket Empire - Lima 00:52 Catz 'n Dogz Feat. Jaw - Time 00:52 C H I L L T R A X - Jimpster 1 00:48 Everything But The Girl - Forever 00:44 Jos & Eli & Eli & Fur - Riffs Of The Night 00:39 Sumsuch Feat. Matty Eeles - Find Home (Vincenzo Remix) 00:34 Volen Sentir & Makebo - Into The Stars 00:30 Camelphat X Cristoph Feat. Jem Cooke - Breathe (Camelphat Just Chill Mix) 00:30 C H I L L T R A X - Slurry Toh 00:26 Vandelux - All I've Ever Known 00:21 Chris Malinchak - Saving My Love 00:17 Approaching Black - New Life 00:14 George Fitzgerald & Syml - Mother 00:10 Wassu & Mimi Page - Within Me 00:09 C H I L L T R A X - Ct The Backward Chillout Channel 00:06 Chill Cole - Liquid Life 00:03 Lliam And Latroit Feat. Brea - Someday (Latroit Edition) 00:00 Afterlife - All I Wanted

#Chilltrax #Chillout #Lounge #Downtempo #Ambient #Trance #Deep House #2023 #June 2023

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luxielle · 3 years ago

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A little treat for my talented, selfless, dearest friend @quirky-and-kind ^^ Please enjoy these whimsical Ryu's in their natural state--joyful, adorable, and very, very in love.

Love you, Lea--my charming, theatrical wife 😘

#mystic messenger #mystic messenger zen #mysme #hyun ryu #zen x lea #thank you sweet friend for helping me be brave and reminding me what's important in life ^^#merry xmas but more importantly merry every day #thank you for giving me sweet stories about that boy I love #and also letting us bang the hell out of each other 🥰#lux does art

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medu707 · 3 years ago

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I'm a little late but still! Happy Zen anniversary, @quirky-and-kind! <3<3

#i love them #lea you are a very kind person #<3 #mystic messenger #mystic messenger zen #zen #mysme #mysme zen #hyun ryu #zen x lea #mm #art #my art #digital art #fanart

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gureishi · 3 years ago

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already flying through the free fall

Saeyoung X Eunji (CMC) featuring Zen X Lea (CMC)

red universe | Saeyoung’s route: 5th day

If she climbs up on the windowsill and tilts her head back just enough, she can see the sunset from here.

Eunji has been watching sunsets for ages. The house where she grew up had a big oak tree in the front yard, and from the top of it she could see an endless expanse of sky. She wasn’t supposed to climb it, but she did anyway—scurried outside when no one was paying attention and climbed all the way up, careful to tuck whichever (hated) dress she was wearing around her legs so it wouldn’t rip.

She never loved to have her feet on the ground. From the air, she could see neat little lines of pretty rooftops, which covered homes, which covered families. She could see the skyscrapers she loved in the distance—just a short train ride away (but to a little girl, that’s an eternity). When the sun started to set, she’d pretend she was painting the sky all the colors of the rainbow; she’d watch the pinks and purples as they sank below the horizon and imagine she belonged among them.

She’d grip the branches with her knees and lift both hands to the sky and feel like she was touching heaven.

When she was a teenager, she’d climb to the roof of her apartment building, kick off her shoes, tie back her hair, and watch the setting sun amidst broken bottles and painted-over wires and the other trash that covers the roofs of buildings in the city. She wasn’t allowed up here either—never allowed anywhere—but when it had been two days (or even three) since she’d seen her mother, she’d start to feel small. Standing close to the sunset, she was strong, and the sorbet-colored sky sung her name.

She’d imagine herself as a cloud, or a gust of wind—going, going, gone.

It was impossible to get to the roof of the building where she lived with Kate. It was a three-story brownstone, and from their apartment on the second floor Eunji couldn’t see the sunset at all.

During those years, she’d sometimes run out in the middle of cooking dinner, bare-armed in the winter, laughing as she sprinted down the city streets. It was always loud here, and she shimmied her hips to the music blaring from speakers perched precariously on the uneven sidewalk and smiled when she saw the river sparkling in the distance.

She never minded the roaring sound of the highway or the dirty, fishy smell of city water. Over the Hudson, the sky would be red. She’d hug herself tight and imagine falling into it.

Back then, she’d run home, shivering and silly—and nothing felt quite right, but she was always on the verge of leaving. Now, she’s not supposed to go anywhere at all.

It’s familiar, this feeling: she hears sit still and smile echoing in the empty air whenever one of these strangers (friends?) reminds her she’s safest if she stays put. She’s spent her whole life living in other people’s boxes, she thinks—even when she was sure she was free.

Now she’s alone, and this sterile apartment feels more like a hospital than a home, and she realizes she’s never been any good at choosing.

Eunji dims the lights and twists her body till she can make out the horizon beyond the buildings that loom all around, shielding her from most of the sun. She lays her cheek on the window and feels grateful for the shock of cold glass against her skin.

There are streaks of red and gold in the cloudy sky and she wishes she were anywhere but here.

If she thinks too hard about the situation she’s found herself in, she’s afraid she’ll fall apart. There is nothing ordinary about the organization she’s involuntary ended up joining—nothing logical about the party she’s supposed to be planning. If the strangeness of the weeks since she left home (came home) hadn’t made everything a blur of uncertainty, she would have left already.

She should have left already.

She’s not ready to admit to herself why she’s still here.

It’s unfair, she thinks, that he has almost certainly seen every picture of her that anyone’s ever put on the internet and she’s only looked at what he’s allowed her to see. She hates that she’s saved his stupid profile pictures to her stupid phone and zoomed in, trying to gauge the secrets behind his smile by staring too hard at blurry pixels on a tiny screen.

The sky reminds her of his eyes.

Eunji doesn’t trust the person that sent her here. She doesn’t trust anyone who’s assured her that she’s safe. She doesn’t trust herself.

She’s nothing if not bold.

Still staring at the sky—darker now, stars peeking out behind purple clouds—she calls him. It is already becoming habit, her finger hovering over the spot on her screen where his contact lives before the app is even open. She wonders if he ever watches the sunset. She wonders whether he was thinking about her, too.

The phone rings once and then connects. There’s a pause.

“Thanks for calling Seven Zero Seven, genius astronaut, friend of cats. Nobody’s home right now. Leave a message with the color of your underwear and I’ll call you back.”

She giggles. There’s definitely something wrong with him.

“I already know what your voicemail sounds like, silly,” she says. “My underwear’s got pictures of cars on it.”

He chokes. She’s won this round.

“Is—does it—really?”

“You wanna see?” She grins and brushes her hair back off her face, feeling proud of herself.

“God,” he mumbles. “Yes. No! No! Forget I said that. I didn’t say that. Who am I? Who are you?”

Eunji tucks her legs up to her chest so her whole body fits on the windowsill. Of course her underwear doesn’t have pictures of cars on it. Who owns something like that?

“I’m Eunji,” she says. “Nice to meet you.”

He sighs heavily. He sounds weary, or maybe just overstimulated. She wonders how his breath would feel on her neck.

“Why, uh.” God, she loves that she can leave him breathless. She loves that nobody else can hear how his voice sounds when he talks to her. She loves that his laugh is sweet like the color of sunset. “Why did you call?”

She has no idea why she called. She pictures him checking the cameras, wondering if she’ll come out into the hall so he can see her.

“Tell me something about myself, Seven Zero Seven.”

He laughs: high-pitched, nervous. “What?”

“You know everything about me,” she says. “Tell me something I might have forgotten.”

He giggles and she hears him shifting in his chair, like he’s focusing himself. When he speaks again, he sounds serious.

“When you were seven years old,” he says, “you fell out of a tree. You didn’t break any bones, but your parents took you to the hospital anyway.”

Eunji sits up straight.

Of all the things, he thinks of this just as she’s sitting and watching the sunset. She wonders if he can see inside her mind: the things that delight her; the things that frighten her.

She remembers falling. It wasn’t getting hurt that scared her then, but the repercussions of getting caught breaking a rule. She has a feeling he understands about that kind of fear.

“How’d you know that?” she asks. She was sure he’d seen pictures—her addresses—her schools. She didn’t expect him to have already stored details about her childhood in his beautiful, mysterious mind.

He makes a funny sound, like he’s not sure what to say. “Hospital records,” he mutters. “Uh, sorry.”

All her life, Eunji has withheld information from the people she meets, feeling safest if she’s got secrets. She hardly ever spoke to Kate about the years before they met, because it felt good to know that some things belonged only to her.

But: “I don’t mind that you know,” she tells Seven. As she says it, she finds that it’s true.

He giggles weakly.

“What am I gonna do?” he whispers. “You can’t say things like that to me.”

“Why?” She unfolds herself from the windowsill. It’s fully nighttime now.

“Have you ever jumped out of a plane?”

Eunji raises her eyebrows. She’s fast, but he’s faster.

“No,” she says. “Have you?”

“Of course.” There’s a glimmer of confidence in his voice now, and it makes her stomach drop. “Feels like the universe is expanding inside your chest. That’s, uh—it’s how it feels when I—”

“When you what, babe?”

He makes a spluttering sound in response to the term of endearment and she tosses herself onto the bed.

“Whenever I think about you.”

Now she’s the one who’s breathless.

It wasn’t so long ago that she was in love. She remembers being held too close, too tight: the suffocating warmth of someone needing you. She’s used to hiding from people who are kind to her, but right now she feels different.

She finds she doesn’t want to disappear.

“I—” she starts—but there is a commotion in the background, and she gets the sense that he is being scolded.

“Never mind!” he chirps. “I have to go! It’s—ahh!”

There’s a scuffling, and Seven is gone.

Eunji dangles her bare feet off the edge of the bed, head spinning. She wants to run to him.

She sends a text instead.

Hey, she writes. I have to ask you something.

She’s sure that Lea is working—but in this strange new version of reality, there is no one else she trusts.

She’s not sure there ever has been.

Lea often works late, and Eunji doesn’t expect a response right away—but one comes in a matter of seconds.

Hi! she types back. What is it?

Eunji has a million questions, and she isn’t sure there’s a good way to ask any of them.

Does he act like this a lot? she writes, which isn’t a great representation of her scattered mind, but it’s something. She doesn’t have to say who she means.

Lea is typing—then she isn’t—then she is again.

This is Zen, the message says. Eunji laughs, because texting with them is like talking to a very beautiful two-headed creature: she never knows which one she’s going to get. Seven’s a weird guy, Zen writes. But he’s gotten weirder.

Eunji smiles. She tries to picture Seven speaking to someone else the way he’s been talking to her, and her heart aches.

It hasn’t even been a week, and she’s already hoping that she’s special.

Sorry, the next message says. It’s Lea again.

Eunji nibbles her bottom lip and waits for an answer. What, exactly, does she want to hear?

He’s never been in love, Lea writes. If that’s what you want to know.

Eunji lets her phone fall from her hand, immediately disappearing into the unmade bed. She can hear the rattling of her own heartbeat.

Lea answered the question she wasn’t sure how to ask—allayed some of the shadows surrounding all this brightness. She should have known her new friend would already understand.

She tangles herself in the blankets, staring at the ceiling. For her whole life, she’s been gazing at the sky and wishing she could dissolve in it—she’s built a whole career out of her furious desire to transcend gravity.

And Seven says thinking of her is like falling through space, and she sees his eyes in the color of sunset.

She sits up and looks out the window. The sky is inky black, and usually she’s scared of the dark.

Tonight, all she sees is stars.

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Love All Year: Photo Day

Zen, Yoosung, Saeyoung, Saeran , Jaehee, Jumin and Jihyun along with CMCs: Lea, Eunji, Byeol, Lumen and Heidi.

SFW | Suggestive Content and Swearing

September 14th is Photo Day: While taking photos with one another (whether via photo booth or professional studio) is a regular occurrence, September 14's Photo Day gives couples an official reason to do so. (Source)

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Flipping my pony tail over one shoulder then the other. Posing, kneeling on the couch utilizing a table side lamp along with what natural light I could grab from the only window across the room. Phone held above my head enjoying the dynamic angles I could achieve from this mildly awkward body positioning. Snapping off a burst of pictures. Flopping back to sit I hear a giggle break the silence. “That looked really serious.” Standing in our bedroom doorway Lea is grinning having just watched my entire performance.

“My torso looks amazing.” Eyes flicking up to her gesturing with my head to cross and join me. To my surprise Lea falls down into my lap. Planting a quick kiss on my chin before turning her attention to my actions on my cell. The small weight of her form melds into mine and I relax back. Arms wrapping around her as I continue working.

“You up to something special darling? It looked a little more involved then your usual Outstagram shoot?” Smirking as Lea takes it upon herself to start to scroll through the new photos, studying them all closely, a critical look on her lovely face.

“I want the perfect attention grabbing shot for my announcement.” Stilling in her work at my proclamation. Leaning back to look up at me confusion on Lea’s face.

“What announcement Zen? I don’t recall we were getting ready to reveal any new projects?” Burying my nose in her hair, my long fingers running teasingly between her thighs.

“Hmmm, well you know it’s almost photo day? Your beloved boyfriend might have booked a special shoot with Rui that day. One I plan to spam all over my Outstagram.” Tossing my phone to the side, my body pulsating with excitement at the news of my surprise. The hand that had been holding my cell drifting up my girlfriend’s shirt to tease along the lace at the top of her bra. “My first picture day with you. We’re going to look jaw dropping.” Wistful tone as I playfully squeeze her clothed breast in my large hand. Usually Lea is very receptive to my touch today she jerked away and from the look on her face I could tell she wasn’t happy.

“Hyun- '' Flinching I know both the tone and the look I was being leveled with. My girlfriend hated having to deny me anything. To say she spoiled me rotten would be an understatement but somehow I’d crossed some kind of line with what I hoped was going to be happy information. “I’d love to do the photoshoot with you. Rui is always kind to us but you know you can’t post the pictures on Outstagram again.” Reaching out to grip the side of my face this time it was me that lurched back from her.

“But it’s my social media and I was going to make an announcement and make a big deal out of a rare appearance by you. I think my fans will like it.” The volume of my voice rising as I feel heat rush to my face. Already aware what Lea’s answer was going to be because my agency and their PR department was always in conflict with me about something.

“Baby, you remember clearly how furious they got after Valentine’s Day. They threatened to reevaluate your contract. Please don’t push them again. At least not until after you’re established a little bit more as a drama actor and we hopefully have a little wiggle room for demands.” The concern heavy in Lea’s voice doesn’t waylay my surge of emotions like it usually would.

“I need to move.” Squeaking in surprise as I stand and scoop Lea up in my arms before depositing her back on the couch. ‘I’m going out for a run.” It had been a long time since I’d exercised angry. Maybe since I injured myself prior to Echogirl. Generally I could talk to Lea but I knew her stance on this would not change. She’d give me my every whim until it came to me being pig headed about my career. I would work myself to the bone for my art but I always wanted to bend the rules for her.

“Hyun please, can we talk about this or-“ Lea had pulled herself up to stand grabbing for my forearm. Gesturing towards the bedroom with her head at her suggestion. The denial was like a cold spray of water. I was insatiable until I was furious and then I just wanted to escape.

“I need to go out. I need to be alone.” Voice hard, even in my anger I’m gentle as I remove Lea’s grip from me. Kissing her finger tips before returning to getting changed. Maybe I was throwing a temper tantrum. I knew I wasn’t going to get my way in this instance and it infuriates me. The fact anyone can dictate anything about my relationship with Lea boils my blood.

“Zen, you know going out mad is not a good idea.” Practically begging me, Lea tugs plaintive on the back of my shirt.

“I need to figure things out in my head Lea, please let me go.” Fighting hard to maintain control. Refusing to scare the smaller woman. When her hold falls away I feel a clench in my heart at having to bicker with her about this on top of my annoyance about my agency. “I won’t be gone long.” Turning I grab her in a hard kiss. Growling into her lips I don’t want her to think I’m mad at her.

“I’ll be waiting when you get back my love.” Looking forlorn when I break away again, but accepting. Lea slowly turns to wander back to the couch. I stomp into our bedroom to get ready to go.

Four miles in, sweat beading and running freely down my taunt body. The dull satisfying ache in my thighs from my exertion doing nothing for me today. My stomach still flopping around and my heart feeling cold, I couldn’t focus on anything. Drawing to a pause and stopping my music, breathing hard I let out a roar of frustration. A dog barks someone in the distance in reply but other than him the street is quiet. Hands on my quadriceps leaning over I’m still livid.

When my life had just been me, I’d drifted along just accepting a lot of these random rules laid out for me by other people. Who I should be seen with, who I shouldn’t. What type of clothes I should wear to what event. Things completely out of the realm of acting or theater. All matters that had never meant anything to me but I’d went along with in hopes of favorable attention and the chance to get on another stage.

Both my agency’s and most of my directors made very little qualms about telling me my looks were the majority of my popularity. I’d like to think with some careful decisions in roles I’m slowly starting to change that but still I wasn’t a fool. My pictures still sold as the most solid portion of my merchandising. The average person would rather look at my face than see me deliver a monologue.

Lea got in the way of their fantasies. It was a fact I was told often, sometimes directly in front of her. Rude people had even had the gall to tell us she was holding me back. It depressed me that she was forced to hear these things. Even if I told her and deep down I knew she could tell they were not true we were both only human and it wore on us. Music is still muted. I start off at a light jog again, willing the movement to take away my muddle of thoughts only today it wasn’t working.

Times like Picture Day might seem silly to some people. They might even seem ridiculous to my girlfriend who I know humors me with them. It was these times that I was able to just be her Hyun, her boyfriend without all the other pressures. Was it too much to ask for just one day a month where she could just be my girlfriend. Lea was an incredible manager. The way she intuitively cared for both my career and me was priceless but I frequently wanted something more for her and to be denied such a simple thing as sharing our beauty with the world. It left me unable to make amends with my feelings.

Slowing to a halt, I let out a hard laugh. Almost like it’s mocking me ahead is a billboard on the side of a bus stand, of me. From an ad I’d been so excited to do for a whiskey company. Lea had worked for weeks making connections and getting me a conversation with them. The two of us figured out how to craft my image to appeal to their higher class clientele. Stalking forward glaring openly at my own visage. Perfectly posed, flawless with makeup and touch ups. Looking suggestively at my audience, drink in hand. Men would want to be me, alluring, masculine and women would want to fuck me making them buy the product for their significant other to live out their fantasy. All typical marketing tactics. At the time I’d been happy to play the game. This was a product I liked and I rarely got offered endorsement work I was actually interested in.

Currently, pulling down my face mask I frown sternly. “This is your fault.” Fists balling I grunt exasperated and hurt. “Everything that I’ve struggled with in life that has gone wrong is because of you.” The volume of my voice rises as the pace of my breathing quickens. “If I’d been born with all my talent but a slightly less beautiful face. Maybe my family wouldn’t have ostracized me. Maybe I could be taken seriously as a performer. Maybe the majority of my fan club wouldn’t think I was owned by them and I could give Lea a halfway normal relationship.” Fat tears well up in my eyes blurring the picture. My guts churn, thinking about all the past couples I’ve seen online for the holiday. How happy they always looked. How in love. Breaking my own heart that no matter how much I want the same thing I’ll probably never have it because I’ve been cursed by my outrageously good looks.

“Have you brought me anything good? I had to run away from home because my own mother tried to damage my appearance. I’ve gotten talked about behind my back since I started working because people think my face is the only reason I get roles. I struggle to make genuine friends because people feel intimidated. I finally meet someone who sees beyond just my beauty but now I have to fucking deny her everything sweet I want to give her. Why?” I can feel the tears streaming down. I'm practically pressing my nose into the glass. “FUCK”, it barely registers when I hit the billboard. The dull thump of my fist punching my reflection in the eye echoes in the empty street. Crying, swinging, it feels like every emotion I’ve been bottling up for maybe years is bleeding out of me.

Jolting to a stop the moment I see blood in my line of vision. Chest heaving lifting my arms I’m horrified to see I’ve cracked the skin on multiple knuckles on both my hands. “Fuck”, only now I sound defeated, small. No longer the roar of fury but the bleat of loss. Frantic I glance around, but unless someone is watching me out a window I at least had enough sense to pick the right street for my outburst. Jerking my face mask back up, my eyes downcast I take off at a fast pace again to home.

Creeping in the door, cradling my more damaged right hand, scanning for my girlfriend. Uncertain what I actually think I’m going to do because it’s not like our apartment is really big enough for me to hide from her. “Zen?” Curiosity in her voice as I’m very slowly attempting to quietly close the door. My expression is sheepish when I turn to meet her. Looking quizzical, Lea seems to be attempting to gage where my mood is after my exercise.

“Hey babe,” Hands subtly drift behind my back, trying to maintain a nonchalant air. Eyes narrowing as Lea studies my face. It wasn’t just that I was naturally a very expressive man but Lea could always seem to read my thoughts. Most of the time I loved that. At the moment I wished I could crawl into a hole.

“What happened darling?” Not anger but worry about my appearance. Sighing I know it’s pointless to minimize my injury. Hang dogged look I hold out both my hands knuckles facing out to her for Lea to see my handiwork.

“Hyun,” horror in both her eyes and her voice. Crossing the room swiftly, gently taking my offered appendages. “Oh baby, what did you do to yourself?” Lifting to kiss my uninjured finger tips. “Zen,” pained, I can see words she wants to say but are holding back. Remorse is clear in my expression. Everything just feels like shit at this moment, except her. The way she leads me to sit at the kitchen table before running into our bathroom. Returning with armfuls of products to fix up my cuts. “At least you're between roles right now. We’ll treat these wounds aggressively so they heal quickly for you.”

Pulling another chair closer to sit right next to me, I watch Lea work diligently on her task. “I’m sorry angel. I know this was stupid-“

“It wasn’t a person right? And do you feel better?” Maintaining focus on her task, I can’t help but let out a short laugh as she asks.

“It was a picture of me.” That stops her. Gaze lifting to assess the meaning behind the information I’d just shared.

“Do you want to talk about it, Hyun?” Deft, delicate finger tips tracing along the back of my hand. It never fails to amaze me how easily I can feel our connection from just a touch. How grounded Lea always makes me feel.

“You know why I’m upset. We both know it won’t change. I feel like running through all of it again will just piss me off more. I chose this life, you chose and accepted me. This is the part that sucks” Heavy thoughts drench me. Deflated, wincing from the sting of the disinfectant. Almost daily I tell Lea I want to give her the world. It’s a joke I can’t even give her the ability to publicly be my girlfriend.

“Why don’t you get cleaned up and change Zen. Then I’ll finish bandaging you up. I canceled our appointment with Rui but we’re having dinner with Jihyun and Heidi tonight. He’s going to take some shots for us beforehand.” Brushing my bangs out of my face before leaning up Lea presses a fond kiss to my forehead. Inside my mind is racing from the news she’d just shared.

“But why did you cancel our appointment? I mean I’m grateful Jihyun would take photos of us. You know I think he’s the best but are we just going to not celebrate Photo Day now?” Clearly whining, feeling strung out. I don’t want to be disappointed by anything else this afternoon.

“I have different plans for our holiday Zen. I’m hoping you can see that sometimes quality is better than quantity.” The cryptic words do nothing to dissuade my rushing thoughts

“Is what we’re doing in theme with the day?” Usually I was a fan of surprises but at the moment I just needed to know I was going to get some sort of celebration.

“Do you trust me Zen?” Soft and devoted, her smile is the first thing to placate my shattered nerves. Of course Lea would ask that question. The one statement she knows I won’t be able to combat.

“With my very life cherub.” This time when Lea nuzzles close she presses her lips to mine and it’s heaven.

“Then go get cleaned up my love.” Hovering, her breath tickles my cheeks. Smitten, Lea can make me stupidly hers in moments, I nod.

“As you wish, my darling girl.”

It was an early morning, Lea forcing me to behave and get ready as we had to be out the door at an unusual hour. Not what I’d had in mind for picture day but if I was with my girlfriend I could excuse our missed workout and rushing to some secret location. When the taxi took us to a small nondescript store front I was even more baffled. Maybe I would have even been concerned except watching the glow in the face of my angel. It hit me that whatever she had planned she was absolutely over the moon about it.

“Can I cover your eyes darling?” Something in my brain fizzed out. My girlfriend is practically wiggling in excitement. It feels like my heart is seizing in my chest.

“I’m at your mercy princess.” Pushing back her curls, purposely dragging my lips along the auricle of her ear. Smirking at the shudder in her breath. Biting her cute little pink tongue peeking at me from between her cherry colored lips. Grunting I want to steal it, but remembering I’ve already been reminded three separate times today to be good. Instead I lounge, inclined forward hands drifting down into my pockets watching my twittering little lamb hunt around in her purse. Ever the picture of the patient and dutiful boyfriend.

Lea had come prepared, pulling out a scarf from her bag after a short search. Giggling as I waggle my eyebrows at her with a flirty purse of my lips. Air kissing her. Standing attentively as Lea covers my eyes with the fabric and ties it tight enough to hold without being uncomfortable. “Can you see anything Zen?”

“No I can’t. I’m such an obedient boy I even closed my eyes. Do I get a reward?” Voice lilting up, raising both my hands to frame my face cutely. Thrilled when Lea’s immediate reply is to press her lips into my waiting ones. It had surprised me she’d been able to deny my charms for this long. Maybe I was losing my touch?

“No more temptation baby.” Running her thumb along my lips I assume trying to clean up her lipstick. “Can you hold my shoulder? I’ll lead you in?” Her hand grips mine, lifting it to her body. Gently holding her arm I nod affirmation.

“I’m your willing servant M’lady.” Picturing Lea was blushing, she didn’t know what to do with herself when I was submissive to her whims.

“Darling Zen?” Pausing, working together Lea indicates we are going in a door and assists me in not getting trapped in it.

“Yes, my baby?” The air inside the building tastes a little stale. Like this place wasn’t used as often. As soon as Lea drew to a second stop I captured her in my arms.

“Are you ready for your surprise, my Adonis?” Squirming in my grip, Lea licks my chin and I let out a nosy groan. Chiding myself for not having the brilliant idea to turn photo day into a sexy movie making day until this moment. Maybe I could make up for being a slave to my agency next year with that.

“Please, my princess. I can’t even imagine what we’re doing.” Soft hands fiddle around my face as the cloth falls away. Gasping, we are standing in a large room with minimal mood lighting, but spaced aesthetically along each wall is photo after photo of Lea and myself. Together, with our friends, outside, inside, the party, it was like a storybook of everything we’ve experienced together since meeting. It was magical. “Lea what is this?” Awe in my tone, slowly turning trying to drink in every detail of us.

“It’s my picture day gift to the love of my life. I never want you to hate any part of yourself Zenny. You are the most dear and real individual I’ve ever had. I’d move the universe to give you what you desire.” It hadn’t taken long for me to tell Lea the entire story about my run that day. The careful and delicate consideration she has treated me with since. The pampering I’ve received. It made me want to misbehave more to get even more attention.

“But if it weren’t for these devilish good looks Jagiya things would be so much easier.” Pouting, pushing, seeing what else I can get. Shaking her head Lea was also well aware when I was fishing.

“Even with your delectable appearance my darling, we have a perfect life. With perfect friends. Yoosung and the twins helped me put together what pictures to use. Jihyun helped find and arrange this place, “Jaehee helped organize everything and Jumin- well he paid for it all.” Sheepish Lea laughs. “And we’re not the only ones here to enjoy this little exhibition either.” Beckoning me with her finger, Lea starts to move towards a doorway and I realize there is another room in the rear of this one. Curious, I followed her clasping hands as we strolled into what was the larger part of his building which had to be a gallery from the set up.

“Surprise!” Half hearted laughter as upon entering Yoosung and Saeyoung yell out the word. Everyone glanced up at us at our entrance. Jihyun and Heidi to one side where from their positions I can tell he was just explaining something about the picture they were in front of. Jumin Han appeared to be dictating something while making poor Jaehee work instead of just enjoying the holiday. Tables of snacks and drinks including my favorite beer. Saeran is hanging next to them with his girlfriend who I just recently met for the first time, Lumen. They seemed to be feeding one another some of the sweets. Saeyoung and Yoosung were also hovering near the tables with Eunji and Byeol. It looked like they had all been making conversation but the second we entered Yoosung broke away. He was coming to hug my girlfriend because he knows it bugged the shit out of me.

“Happy picture day guys.” Bright smile from the younger blonde as he did just what I suspected he would. Opening his arms and Lea broke away from me to say hello. The smug grin Yoosung graces me with is met by a look of loathing from me. Behind Yoosung, Saeyoung chortles.

“Someone doesn’t like to share.” Glaring as Lea immediately glances back at me. The fond smile that graces her face causes a chain reaction in me. Pulling away from Yoosung with a squeeze to his hand Lea returns to my side wrapping her arms around me as I grin triumphantly at my friend.

“You keep spoiling him like that and he will become impossible.” The droll voice of Saeran breaks my mood. Smirking from where he is presenting Lumen with a truffle. Laughter from the Choi side of the room answered by an exasperated noise from behind me.

“I think that scenario is already a given.” Jumin is smirking himself brow raised and I glower, Lea’s grip tightening around me the only reason I don’t launch in a tirade.

“We’re here for a celebration.” Quiet and steady, Jihyun’s soft tone stilled the more raucous noise. “Happy picture day to you both.” Inclining his head at us as Heidi, smiling gracefully tucked into his side.

“The photos from the other night came out perfect.” Excited, I’d watched her and Lea quietly talk to each other while Jihyun had set up the pictures. It wouldn’t surprise me if my princess was more concerned with my actions then she’d let on or that she’d share her worries with our friends. Heidi I’m certain was hoping the positive news would change my mood.

“And we picked out good choices too.” Eunji’s bright voice drew my attention back to the other side of the room. “And I even stopped Saeyoung from picking photos of you sneezing.” Giggling as Eunji shrugs at her own teasing.

“And it wasn’t easy, you know how persistent he can be.” Rolling her eyes playfully, Byeol pokes the red head.

“Obviously my choices are the best ones.” Giggling himself Saeyoung points over to the corner where I can see a photo of a group of us doing silly poses fully decked out after one of our parties.

“Can we get started? I don’t understand the point of this holiday anyway and it was my understanding the reason we all had to gather was because Zen is incapable of behaving in public.” Jumin had pulled out his cell phone slowly scrolling across the screen.

“Sir that’s not entirely accurate-“ Vaguely I’m aware of Jaehee coming to my defense as my brain fizzles down to the color red. Fury at the wanton disregard of my pain, tensing not certain what action I was about to take but ready to strike back at the robot judging me.

“Hyun.” Desperate, her voice and the press of Lea’s form directly into the front of my mine blocking my path shakes my sudden outrage. “Look at me baby.” Dainty hands that hold me stronger than a vice, bring my gaze down to hers. Losing myself in Lea’s dark pools feeling my breathing automatically slow to match hers. Shaking her head demure in her warning.

“Fuck you Jumin Han.” Throwing venom at the raven haired man as he gazes cooly at me from above his phone screen.

“I see you prove my point.” Lea’s bristling in my arms turned swiftly.

“Guy’s this is supposed to be a day for us to all get together, let's not fight.” Yoosung’s plea breaking out from the side of where we are standing.

“Typical, this whole group is such a mess.”

“You’re not helping Saeran.” The sharp tone of Byeol quickly cut in.

“Baby, let's go for a walk. Let them figure out their own shit.” Low voice as with a smirk Saeran leans into his girlfriend pushing her hair behind her ear. Running his finger tips down and along her exposed collar bone. Brow cocked his eyes burning as they fell on her lips. Lumen wiped a small smug of chocolate off her boyfriend’s cheek, licking her thumb, glancing between Jumin and myself before nodding coyly with a grin.

“Maybe take a little something for ourselves?” Gesturing towards the table, Saeran follows, laughing lowly.

“I love the way you think princess.” Balancing an entire platter of truffles with one hand as Saeran’s other arm firmly wraps around Lumen’s waist, his fingers digging possessively into her hip. The two saunter out of the room. Lumen leaves all of us with a small wave. The show of their departure having dulled the anger hanging heavy prior. Frowning up at Jumin he’s now pointedly ignoring me.

“Let’s go look at our pictures baby,” But Lea’s already there. Tightly clutching the side of my shirt anchoring us together.

“I want to show you my favorite first Zen.” Yoosung’s bound up next to her. Powerless against them both, I nod as I allow myself to be led away. Out of the corner of my eye I see Jihyun and Heidi crossing to Jumin. Winking at me Heidi nods towards the CEO in line and I know they are going to handle whatever just occurred to smooth things over. Mouthing my gratitude I’m very glad to instead focus my attention on my princess tickling her sides as she squeaks and attempts to run from me jovially.

Pausing I watch Saeyoung moving towards the food with both the ladies with him. “I don’t think your brother had an altruistic purpose but thank him for breaking the tension for me.” Brows knitting for a moment Saeyoung forces out a laugh that’s a little too hard. It seemed his relationship with his twin was still progressing slowly. Making a mental note I’d have to get together with him soon so we could talk about it.

“Yeaaah. I’ll let him know.” Eunji grabbed Saeyoung’s hand, squeezing it with a sweet smile of concern, painting her lovely face. Golden eyes shining, Saeyoung follows his lips creeping back up into a grin soothed by the light of his sun and stars.

Yoosung stopped us in front of a piece that was also one of my favorite pictures of the three of us. Lea and I had taken him out the night before his birthday so we could celebrate him turning another year older at midnight together. Yoosung had of course gotten a little tipsy and it was the two of us singing a drinking song and dancing, with Lea very obviously laughing at us. The picture had been taken by someone at the next table and the lightning in the bar was very flattering. It was such a perfect representation of our relationship, together, everyone looked so happy. It had been such a good night. Looking at the photos at either side it hits me how many amazing memories are contained in this room.

“I can’t picture how hard it is Zen to not be able to share the things you want to. I think we’re the most alike in that we both really wanted relationships where we could have these goofy romantic times and now you get the chance to do them and I know I’d be mad if it was denied to me because of the other big love in my life.” At my side I can see my girlfriend encouraging Yoosung to continue and it dawns on me. Of course she’d probably spoken to everyone else but she’d turned to him for help. He was the person both of us were closest to and spent enough time with us that he’d definitely become our third wheel.

“But don’t you think Zen at the end of the day you do get to share everything you want to with the people that actually matter. I know you have a lot of Outstagram followers and you get more everyday but we’re your family.” Heartfelt and actually profound, the comment sets my thoughts into a momentary whirl. For so long I’d been caught up in having the perfect standard relationship like you’d see in a movie or read in a book. Expectations for things we’d do or say at certain times and events that would happen.

“I’m still disappointed you have to make accommodations for my career Lea.” There it was. That was the heart of the matter for me. Lea tried to reshape the universe to give me everything I desired. Shouldn’t she be frustrated with me or mad and shouldn’t she blame me?”

“Oh my darling,” playing with my hair the way she was watching me like I was the most treasured being in her world. It set my heart into a rapid beat. “I love you, for you, for this handsome face that strikes me stupid almost daily, your bold heart that takes my breath away. I never accommodate anything in my life for you. Hyun you accentuate everything beautiful and good and you bring me a never ending bliss.”

“We’re all glad to know you Zen. Even Jumin, who will never admit it. You’re an important part of our family.” Bowled over by a tsunami of emotions. I find myself just staring up at the picture we are in front of biting my lip feeling tears pricking the sides of my eyes. My entire life I’d been alone on some level. Often told I wasn’t good enough or unwanted. Maybe at the end of the day that’s what I’d most been looking for. Validation I did belong and that I was here and that I loved this woman at my side with an audacity that frightened me. But I was seen and understood every single day by the people that did genuinely matter to me.

“My love-“ Her fixated attention on me wavered as Lea gripped my forearm signaling me to look behind us. Yoosung’s head lifted and he gasped before it melted down into a grin of fondness. Spinning I too stopped. Jihyun was behind us a few feet and in his arms he held my favorite picture from the ones we’d taken a few days ago. Blown up, framed. The picture currently in our living room of us, my past favorite from our first party, was romantic but felt more posed, less authentic. Jihyun had captured our essence. Out of nowhere that day I’d swung Lea up sideways across my shoulders. It was a cheeky move I sometimes pulled at the gym to do squats with her. We were both laughing and it was the most natural and joyous I’d ever seen us. We looked like the perfect pair. Framed by the golden light of the sun setting. It was our love captured in such a way it struck me speechless.

“My picture day gift to you Hyun.” Jihyun was speaking and I could feel the press and hear the exclamations of all of our friends.

“Thank you.” There was a rawness to my voice I wasn’t used to. Struggling against such an overwhelming feeling of love from everyone. It was different then at the stage door with my fans. These people knew me, Hyun Ryu and they still cared about me this much. “All of you. Even you.” Conflicted when I glower at Jumin. His expression remains stone with the exception of the mildest twitch to his lips.

“Even I will admit that piece is aesthetically pleasing. Jihyun as usual created a masterpiece. Which was probably made easier by the fact the two of you are very obviously in love and seem to compliment one another.” The indifference in Jumin Han’s face made his words even better. If he could see that about Lea and myself when he was a robot who didn’t even understand the concept of romance it must be the most plain fact. It pleased me enough that I didn’t even feel the need to insult him.

“I appreciate that Jumin.” Struck, attention falling back on how perfect Jihyun had captured our love before I find my eyes returning to my princess who is also staring slightly starry eyed at the photo. “I appreciate all of you. I know you’re here because let’s face it I did act like a dumb shit earlier this week.” Voice rising, taking command of the room, scanning and meeting the face of each of my friends (and my family). “The truth is I need to grow up. I’m acting like a child. I want things a certain way, but that kind of life is not possible for me.” Unsurprised when I feel Lea’s hand latch onto the side of my shirt again. My steady support.

“None of us have a normal life, except maybe Yoosung. That’s probably why he can’t get a girlfriend?” Saeyoung chortles at his own quip as Yoosung’s voice immediately lifts in protest. Chuckling, I shrug sheepishly at the red head.

“I bet all of you have other plans today. Well, except maybe Yoosung.” Now the blonde’s face is turning crimson in annoyance.

“I came here to be nice. Why are all of you being assholes?” Reaching out I slap Yoosung’s shoulder good natured.

“Thank you everyone for caring enough about my princess and about me to share this morning with us and knock a little sense into my thick head. I belong here with every single one of you. You’re all an important part of our story. Even Saeran and Lumen.” Vulnerable, I’d gathered Lea against me, my hand in her hair. Relaxing as she settled her body into mine.

“When the RFA was formed it was to help disadvantaged people.” Heidi took the large portrait from Jihyun as he started speaking to settle it safely to the side. Fidgeting with nothing to hold, the cerulean haired man had something important to share but was still struggling with his memories. “I don’t think any of us realized what this group would come to mean to each other.”

“People I can depend on.” Jumin’s dry voice, laying a supportive hand on Jihyun’s shoulder as Heidi returned to encourage him.

“People we can love.” Heidi’s charming smile finally allowed Jihyun to breath fully again.

“People who teach us.” Biting his lip, Yoosung was already emotional and struggling to contain his own tears.

“People who understand us.” The quiet tone of Jaehee with a soft look of appreciation warmed the whole group.

“People who care.” Pushing her long hair behind her ear, Byeol reaches out gripping Saeyoung’s hand as he smiles at her.

“Support no matter what you’ve done.” Reflective, flush, Saeyoung swallows hard as Eunji presses a hand against his cheek on his other side.

“You always have someone who has your back.” Squeezing Saeyoung’s bicep, Eunji beams out at the group as there is a murmur of agreement from everyone.

“Forgiveness,” Having gathered himself Jihyun looked stronger. Watching the conviction in his face I could feel the power in his words.

“It’s given me a home.” My princess, her sentiment sending me spiraling into a whirlpool of love for her, because I knew I was the heart of where she belonged.

“You’re my family.” There was nothing else I could say, it was the most important feeling I had and I knew every single person standing here with me felt the same. The atmosphere was tender but quiet for a time. Kissing Lea’s temple I could see silent looks and touches shared between many of us.

“We still have all the food my chef prepared. Everything is exquisite, perhaps we should partake in some before we further examine the photography.” For once I didn’t see a reason to argue with Jumin Han. It was the right suggestion.

My life was destined to be a show. Regardless of what I do, it was who I was. Yet it wasn’t until this moment that I truly realized how lucky I am to be performing it with these people. This was only the first act and now I understood I wasn’t looking for my standing ovation but that one face in the crowd that tells me everything is as beautiful as I dreamed it would be. Arm wrapped around the shoulders of the woman I love with the people I admire we moved to celebrate. The picture perfect group of strangers that have become a tribe of friends.

My beautiful and darling Zen divider provided for ME by the truffle eating princess of a grumpy red haired man @luxielle

Tag list: @goddess-shattering-star @zennysgirlfriend @gureishi @agent-bee @rubylookingaround @geniously-hacked-bebop @my-love-is-eternal @welookateachotherandlaugh @dis-gorl-does-stuff @blossom-daze

#mystic messenger #darling zen #dramatic romantics #zen x lea

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rayroseu · 3 years ago

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Thank you dear friend for all the nice tag comments you been leaving on my posts lately!! They make me happy!! And thank you again for sharing the Zen birthday art!! I really loved it!!! 💕

AAAAAA you are welcome, miss lea! (≧◡≦) ♡*:･ﾟ✧ I love each of your entries in zenday!! they were all wonderful and so exciting to read everyday, im happy to learn more about zen and his feelings and relationship with lea! you write him in situations i never wouldve thought and know how will he react.. especially on the les miserables prompt!! I really really really love the emotional impact on that one (╥﹏╥)❤ and thank you for liking my little present for this handsome king,,, he truly deserves all the love from you and the world~!

i love that strawberry gif i HAD to draw it 💀 ❤️ 💞

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sunlightheidi · 3 years ago

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MASTERLIST

[*COMPLETED: 10/28/2021]

Clouded thoughts, fevered kisses, wandering hands - that first taste is always so sweet, isn’t it?

Eight drunken stories with each member of the RFA.

A collaboration with @quirky-and-kind

*All fics created will be NSFW with mentions of alcohol. #DRUNKTOBER2021, #twalcohol.

1. Jaehee Kang 🤍

2. Jumin Han 🖤

3. Yoosung Kim 🤍

4. Vanderwood 🖤

5. Saeyoung Choi 🤍

6. Saeran Choi (SE) 🖤

7. Zen 🤍

8. Jihyun Kim "V" 🖤

🖤 ~ written by Heidi

🤍 ~ written by Lea

All headers created by @luxielle, dividers by @firefly-graphics.

#DRUNKTOBER2021 #twalcohol #masterlist #mystic messenger #lea x heidi #jihyun kim #jumin han #Jaehee kang #Yoosung kim #Saeyoung choi #saeran choi #zen #mystic messenger smut #mysme smut

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animatedarchives · 4 years ago

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SOPH, YOU DIDN'T TELL ME U PLAY MYSTIC MESSENGER OMG SHAJSJ ✨ CONGRATS ON YOUR MILESTONES BB ♥️ CAN U ... hehe match me up with a Hq, KnY, & Mystic Messenger character? 👉👈 You basically know me but I'm 18, I go by she/her. I like animals and color pink. I'm really shy but I can be loud w the right people lol. I can't cook or bake HAHAH and I love to cuss. Anime is my salvation and procrastinating is my job. I also love to draw and play the guitar. I space out a lot and I doze off, too!

HI LEIA DARLING I HAD SOOOO MUCH FUN WRITING THIS HEHE i really hope you like it!! all the hugs and kithes for you bb 💕💘

i match you up with...

sugawara

this man is super hardworking and would definitely make sure to help keep you on track with your studies and concentrate in school. he’d also suggest study dates where he helps tutor you in subjects you’re weaker in. after studying, you guys would just chill, eat, laugh at memes, play mobile legends and watch animes together (he loves doing all your favourite things with you because he likes seeing you get all excited about it — he thinks it’s adorable). being very in tune with people’s emotions, he knows and caters to your every need. when you’re too shy to initiate interaction, he’ll do it. when you want someone to rant to, he’s there. when you need some encouragement, he’s there to uplift you. you also help to bring out the playful side of him, making him feel more relaxed and carefree. with you, he’s able to temporarily forget about responsibilities and the things that stress him out, which is great for for his mental health. he would also loves to cook and bake for you!! you’ll watch as he whips something up, slowly learning things along the way and eventually, making meals together becomes one of your favourite activities to do together. mans is 110% husband material.

and...

rengoku

rengoku is so bright and outgoing, you don’t ever need to feel shh when you’re around him. in fact, you guys hit it off so well with your energies bouncing off each other as you blabber about how your days went. you guys are such a talkative couple, some of the pillars get tired of it but neither of you care because when you two are together, no one else in the world matters. that is, until rengoku makes you laugh so loud that oyakata has to come out and tell you guys to quieten down, after which you guys apologise profusely and sheepishly retreat to your own estate to continue your conversation (sanemi scoffs as you guys pass by him, glad you guys got scolded for being too loud). rengoku has a hearty appetite and he loves eating with you, especially since you share such a huge love for food. you guys always surprise each other with snacks and you always make sure to get his favourite: sweet potatoes. he’s always thinking of you when he goes on missions, the ache in his heart from being away from you ever-present. but he always fights hard to stay alive because wants to see you again, the image of you burning in his mind and feuling the fire in his heart.

and...

zen

zen would definitely treat you like a princess and spoil you to no end. he loves and thinks its adorable when you get all shy whenever he flirts with you, so he does it on purpose just so he can see you blush and get all flustered. he’s not a fan of cats (i mean, he’s literally allergic to them) but he loves dogs and would definitely adopt one with you. this boy indulges in your cussing for sure (you guys literally have no filter i swear) and it doesn’t bother him one bit. he absolutely loves cooking for you because he just wants to take care of you and pamper you in every way possible. he‘s the biggest fan of your art, just like you are of his acting. you guys also love jamming together, where you play the guitar and he sings. seven secretly recorded and posted a video of you guys once and it went viral. you then decided to create a youtube channel where yall started posting covers together and eventually, you guys expanded to lifestyle vlogs. when you two cuddle, you lay on his chest as he sings you to sleep, comforted by the feeling of his arms around your waist and the sound of his heart beating only for you. he always makes you feel so special; he’s the prince charming you’ve always wanted.

#sophs 400 event #soph hits 400 #sophs matchmaking service #haikyuu headcanons #sugawara koushi x reader #haikyuu sugawara #haikyuu suga headcanons #kny headcanons #demon slayer rengoku #rengoku headcanons #mystic messenger headcanons #mysme zen #zen headcanons #my babies ❤️#lea 🌵

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jafndaegur · 3 years ago

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Jaf!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!! 🎁 How wonderful of you to gift all of us for your special month ♥️ ♥️ Could I please have Zen x reader in the Mystic Messenger fandom with the prompt “You deserve the whole world”. Thank you dear 😘 😘 I hope you have a very special day!!!!

Laughter

Mystic Messenger | Zen x Reader

"You deserve the whole world."

a/n: Waaaaaaah thank you for the birthday wishes Lea!!! I'm always happy to do this event, so I appreciate you popping in and joining ^^ I hope you enjoy!

Zen is hunched over the dining room table, head in his hands. The sound of his foot tapping on the floor drives you insane. You both just managed to make it back to the shelter of his home, having fled Rika's apartment just an hour prior. You both took your own path in trying to calm down, everything reeling just a bit too fast to catch your breath. You are the first to emerge, and seeing him quiet and still and nearly crumpled in on himself...it's all a bit much for you.

As much as you want to apologize, to go forward and tell him how sorry you were for putting him in danger. You can hardly muster words let alone those.

Opting to go sit on the couch to wait for him seemed like a compromise. From there you could still see him without being in his way. There's a tremble that rocks you a bit too hard and perhaps you weren't as calm as you thought. Of course not, what'd you expect after a bomb scare? You sit and tuck your legs underneath you, drawing a throw pillow up to your chest—hugging it close. What have you done?

In the near-kidnapping, in the fight that could have happened, Zen had been one step too close to the precipice of threat. He came to Rika's apartment for you. You think you probably should feel flattered, overjoyed, that someone loves you enough to step-in to defend you. To have your back. But instead you can only play worse case after worse case of the what-ifs had Unknown been successful in any capacity. Your stomach churns painfully.

"Honey?" Zen's voice is sweet and soft almost as if he were uncertain of whether to call for you or not.

Looking up, he stands in front of you with a confident smile that contradicts his voice.

"Is there room for two here, sweetheart?"

You nod and scoot over for him. Gratefully, he plops down next to you. Both of you are quiet for sometime.

Alive. He's alive and warm, you think. "I'm sorry," you finally whisper. "I'm sorry for all of this."

Zen blinks staring at you in confusion before suddenly bursting with laughter.

Your face heats up and if it weren't for the fact that his laugh was the charming sound in the world, you'd probably start crying. He rests his hand on the crown of your head and leans in. His forehead presses against yours as the last of his outburst fizzles into little chuckles. The pad of his thumb swipes along the crest of your cheekbone. It's soothing.

"Sorry, honey. I know this is serious," he murmurs. "It's just...there's nothing to be sorry about. I'd happily rush headfirst to save you all over again."

"But you were in danger," you meekly offer.

"So were you," he counters a little sternly. His nose brushes against yours. "I love you sweetheart, and I want to give you everything I can. You deserve the whole world, afterall. But that means I gotta keep you in this big old world too."

For whatever reason, you realize why he found that funny. Perhaps you both are just that tired. A giggle manages to escape you anyways.

A breath of relief escape his chest. "So what do you say? Deal?"

"No more bombs," you negotiate.

Zen laughs again before pulling you close and tucking you against his chest. "I think that's something we can both agree on."

⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚ Tomorrow: MysMe | Zen x Reader ˚୨୧⋆｡˚ ⋆

#mystic messenger #mysme #mysme zen #hyun ryu x reader #zen x reader #mysme hyun ryu #jafs hobbit like birthday

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cafedanslanuit · 4 years ago

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who do you think your moots could pull (from any anime/ manga)

anon im sorry this took so long, but here you go!!!! also if we’re moots and i didn’t tag you i’m SORRY i did my best to remember everyone </3

let’s begin! ~

@rfadaydreaming / @puppylcve - okay i know you guys don’t know this but cae is really pretty. so i honestly think she could pull anyone lmao BUT i have a strong feeling she would be erwin smith’s type.

@requindeterre - the ultimate ship is sh0rk. that is, saeyoung + shark <3 a close second is nanami x shark, but the saeyoung ship holds my heart <3

@bitsybutton - dabi. dabi. DABI!!!! motorcycle rides to the beach, drinking together until the sunset, maybe shotgunning a cigarette--- i live for this ship sm.

@bunx - i would say someone from genshin but i don’t play ;-; so im gonna go with tamaki, a sweetheart and too good for the mess bnha has become lol

@jihyuncompass - do i even have to say............ jihyun x anne. i even made them their own playlist heh <3

@spacesquidlings - gavin x squids is the clear choice here!! i see a lot of domesticity and sweet things for these two

@ofoceansandtombstones - mikasa x nyla is the one and only ship for me <3 taking care of your garden together, travelling, making fun of me and porco LMAOsdkjhfsd i love our hcs so much <3

@robospybird - omg we’ve talked a lot ab this in the server mutliverse lmao so im gonna go with endeav-- KIDDING. honestly, this is new but sero x eli? i really see it. we haven’t talked ab it before but i like it <3

@liamiya - you can’t follow lia without shipping lia and atsumu together. you just can’t. <3

@junisfics - im obviously going to go with armin lmao. to be honest eren was a close second but im afraid if i pair two aries together they’re going to destroy the world.

@soranociel - ofc mrs. braun has to be shipped with reiner <3 no other choice here

@boston-bakedbeans - jean x boston is my one and only jean ship <3

@armins-futon - goldieee <3 omg i’m between armin and porco... but i’m going with armin for this one.

@armins-bowl-cut - izzy!!! i have to go with porco here i just <3 yeah. love the idea of you two together heh

@oi-levi - levi ackerman has to be my choice. the way you write about him just lets me know how much you truly understand him and how cute you two would be together <3

@alert-arlert - i’m going with armin for this one <3 study partners, library dates, coffee runs together when you’re both sleepy... college sweethearts, istg i see it

@bakhoe - reiner x mar, for obvious reasons <3

@somecatastrophe - colt x jo <3 i just..... yeah <3 him getting embarrassed, being playful together, taking care of small falco :’)

@todorki-shoto - kuroo x t!!! honestly i love to see it, highschool sweethearts, study dates, boba dates <3

@kirishwima - listen, this is going to be. not what you expected but hear me out. just a second. jumin x sophie. I SAID LISTEN. i just feel he would try his best to take care of all your needs so you don’t have to worry about the small stuff and only focus on your studies and eventually your work <3

@bokoutoe - ray!!! maki x ray are my favourite <3

@ackermans-freedom-inc - levi x suz, obviously c: but imagine him sending you coffee from your favourite shop when you’re studying as a small gesture :’)

@thebubblybakery - i just think the cutest thing ever would be to pair you with niccolo <3

@quirky-and-kind - zen x lea!!! honestly i love this pairing so much and im so happy to somehow have contributed to their storyline :’) zen is so sweet and so are you, i can honestly see you being v happy together <3

@erenstellar - this may be controversial but i’m going to go with jean. i have no proof i have no reason, i just feel jean would be OVER THE MOON to have someone like you by his side <3

@alrightberries - my first thought was eren, definitely. but i could also most definitely see it with levi. hmmm. i’m going to go with levi for this one. i see you two as these long-time couple were you guys start acting married without being married <3

@franciium - this is a blind guess to be honest but i’m going to choose osamu for this one. he has both a playful and a calm side and i can see him truly admiring your art <3

@dimplesum - with oikawa!!! definitely. i can see it: the friendly banter, walking home from school together after voleyball practice, boba dates. i see oikawa uploading a lot of insta stories about you two <3

@inthisblogwestanthechoitwins - saeyoung!!! chaotic couple that is always fun to be around c:

@meowlayn-art - i just feel the need to ship and artist with an artist, so i’m going with jihyun for this one. i love your art so so so much and it’s either jihyun to be your artist companion or jumin to take care of everything else so you can focus on your art <3

#honestly i look at this list of amazing writers and im like ???????#y'all follow me?????#i'm in love i love them and admire them sm #allie answers #anon whispers

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chrancecriber · 1 year ago

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Chilltrax (June 03, 2023)

23:59 Henry Green - Shift (Edapollo Remix) 23:53 Il:lo - Cynnes 23:50 Eloi El - Stick Together (Blonde Maze Remix) 23:47 Jones Meadow - Expect 23:47 C H I L L T R A X - Be Svendsen World Comes 23:43 Session Victim - Isle Of Taste 23:39 Alampa - Playoff 23:35 Ry X & Olafur Arnalds - Oceans 23:31 Lipless & Blue Noir - Alone 23:27 Lar - Collide (Jody Wisternoff & James Grant Remix) 23:23 Thievery Corporation - From Creation 23:23 C H I L L T R A X - Tcc Warm And Tender Ocean 23:19 Morgin Madison & Ryan Lucian - From The Start (Mm Chill Remix) 23:14 Mass Digital - Thoughts Of U 23:11 Holen - Not Too Late 23:06 Blonde Maze - Being Pulled (Polar Inc. Remix) 23:06 C H I L L T R A X - Toh Moon Boots 23:03 Elderbrook & Tourist - Howl (Chill Mix) 22:58 Cahelo - Bananaquit (Mass Digital Extended Remix) 22:53 Nicholas Gunn Feat. Chris Howard - Thought Of You 22:48 Arley & Sirolf - One Day 22:48 C H I L L T R A X - Cleanliness Don't You Agree 22:44 Harvey & Oscuro - You're All I Want 22:41 Dex 1200 - Ongea Nami 22:36 Darius Feat. Benny Sings - Rise (Darius Remix) 22:30 Trilucid - Cheyenne (Extended Sunset Mix) 22:26 Zimmer Feat. Fhin - Lost Your Mind 22:26 C H I L L T R A X - Street Life Worlds Cc 22:22 Tomb - Unbound 22:18 Floa & Phonic Youth - Falling Away 22:15 London Grammar - Lose Your Head 22:10 Sons Of Maria - It Takes So Long 22:10 C H I L L T R A X - Slurry Toh 22:07 Mansionair & Kim Tee - Next High 22:04 Afterlife - All I Wanted 21:59 Leaving Laurel - The Family We Find 21:55 Ferr By Ferry Corsten And Rich Walters - Limbo 21:55 C H I L L T R A X - Magnifyingglasssogood4u 21:52 Jones Meadow & Clara Mendes - Em Baixo 21:48 Royksopp Feat. Astrid S - Just Wanted To Know 21:44 Feiertag Feat. Tessa Rose Jackson - Ambivalence 21:39 Billion Watchers - Rainman 21:35 Washed Out - Eyes Be Closed 21:35 C H I L L T R A X - Valante Io Toh 21:31 Kidnap & Pinkpirate - Things Change 21:27 Emmit Fenn & Shallou - Hollow 21:23 Duckmaw - Habits 21:19 Eli & Fur - Better In The Dark 21:14 Chris Malinchak, Kiesza, Malin - Tree 21:14 C H I L L T R A X - E-chilled-music 21:11 Finding Mero - In Loving Memories 21:07 Cannons - Bad Dream 21:03 Booka Shade & Satin Jackets - Fusion Royale 21:00 Rocket Empire - Lima 20:56 Lapsley - Levitate 20:56 C H I L L T R A X - Toh Dzihan 20:50 Double Touch Feat. Reigan - All I Want 20:47 Sebastian Davidson - Nomads 20:41 Royksopp & Susanne Sundfor - Oh, Lover (Nto Remix) 20:36 Alison Goldfrapp - The Beat Divine 20:33 Melosense - Lost In Gruvv 20:33 C H I L L T R A X - Something I Should Tell You 20:28 Steven Weston Feat. Tae - Same Dream 20:23 Ross Couch - On Fire (Downtempo Mix) 20:18 Volen Sentir & Makebo - Into The Stars 20:13 Nicholas Gunn Feat. Derek Luttrell - Lose Control 20:09 Wassu & Mimi Page - Within Me 20:09 C H I L L T R A X - Ct The Backward Chillout Channel 20:05 Feathervane & Oreonic - Overcast 20:02 Fløa (Floa) - Pictures Of You 19:57 Joy Orbison Feat. Lea Sen - Better 19:54 Pableno - Heights 19:49 Two Lanes - Never Enough 19:44 Ry X & Olafur Arnalds - Colorblind (Whomadewho Remix) 19:44 C H I L L T R A X - Escape The Noise 19:39 Forty Cats & Arentis - Zen 19:35 Jan Blomqvist & Malou - Alone 19:30 Rüfüs Du Sol - See You Again 19:26 Olan - Wake And Return (Little Dragon Remix) 19:23 Chill Cole - Liquid Life 19:18 Thievery Corporation - Lebanese Blonde 19:18 C H I L L T R A X - Cool Refreshed Smooth As Can Be 19:14 Elderbrook - Wasted On You 19:09 Deep Sound Effect Feat. Svetlana Voice - Dreaming About You (Dj Aristocrat Remix) 19:06 Flexible Fire - Marea Turquesa 19:02 Faodail & Kakadu - Painting In Shades (Edapollo Remix) 19:02 C H I L L T R A X - Glitchy Toh 18:58 Feiertag - Didn't Know Why (You Lost Your Soul) 18:53 Leaving Laurel - There Is Beauty When You Allow Yourself To See 18:49 Leisure - Take You Higher (Serebii & Arjuna Oakes Remix) 18:45 Phello - Timelapse 18:42 Ran The Man - Yucatan 18:42 C H I L L T R A X - Take Me Away! 18:38 Everything But The Girl - Run A Red Light 18:35 London Grammar - Baby It's You 18:30 Fakear - Crystal 18:27 Lost In Pacific & Hanging Valleys - Escape 18:24 Morcheeba - It's Summertime 18:23 C H I L L T R A X - Comes To Chill Out 18:20 Il:lo - Ink 18:16 George Fitzgerald & Syml - Mother 18:12 Charles Webster Feat. Shara Nelson - This Is Real 18:09 Dreem - Miles Away 18:09 C H I L L T R A X - Toh Freesound 18:05 Mango & Cloudcage - More Than This 18:02 Nuage Feat. Gus - The Place We Know 17:57 Jones Meadow - Fences 17:53 Eli & Fur Feat. Brothertiger - She's Just A Wanderer 17:53 C H I L L T R A X - Jimpster 1 17:50 Cannons - Loving You 17:46 Giants' Nest - Crema 17:43 Emmit Fenn - The Chase 17:38 Blank & Jones - Floatation 17:33 Massive Attack - Paradise Circus 17:33 C H I L L T R A X - Toh Cymbal Roll Bass 17:29 Jako Diaz & Leyet - Only You 17:26 Sebastian Davidson Feat. Lewyn - Second Hand Love 17:21 Jean Caillou - Signs 17:16 Heard Right & Oracle - There For You 17:12 Satin Jackets Feat. Mandy Jones - In This Life 17:12 C H I L L T R A X - Worldschilloutchannnel Orbit 17:07 Two Lanes - Movement 17:03 Westseven Feat. Angus Powell - Go Right Through (Sound Quelle Remix) 17:00 Lp Giobbi Feat. Caroline Byrne - Another Life 16:55 Emi Ca - Just Breathe 16:51 Sons Of Maria - Always 16:51 C H I L L T R A X - Toh Moon Boots 16:47 Blonde Maze - Something Familiar 16:43 Melosense - Nous 16:39 Sound Quelle Feat. Daniel Robinson - Tempest 16:35 Floa & Phonic Youth - Falling Away 16:31 Tycho - Into The Woods 16:31 C H I L L T R A X - Fresh And Fascinating 16:26 Nicholas Gunn & Alina Renae - Angel Eyes 16:22 Mansionair & Vandelux - Empty Promise 16:18 Palladian - Zagara 16:14 Tep No - Deep Sin 16:10 Odesza Feat. Olafur Arnalds - Light Of Day (Parra For Cuva Remix) 16:09 C H I L L T R A X - Chill Out Chilltrax 16:04 Dim Kelly - Nocturna Animal 16:01 Elderbrook & Tourist - Howl (Chill Mix) 15:57 Boerd Feat. Stella Explorer - Before We Drown 15:54 Farius - Coming Up (Hold On) (Dokho Remix) 15:50 Embliss & Lumynesynth - Phases Of The Moon 15:46 Khotin & Tess Roby - Fountain, Growth 15:46 C H I L L T R A X - Organ The Chillout Channel 15:42 Approaching Black - New Life 15:38 Reel People & Paula - Vibe (Moods Remix) 15:34 Christian Loffler Feat. Menke - Lys 15:30 Nils Hoffmann Feat. Malou - About You 15:27 Lar - Collide (Jody Wisternoff & James Grant Remix) 15:23 Shallou Feat.wales - Begin 15:23 C H I L L T R A X - We Are The Music Makers 15:18 Eli & Fur - Where I Find My Mind 15:15 Edapollo - Standing There 15:11 Giants' Nest - Heart Void 15:07 Genix & Zashanell - All I Want (Chill Out Mix) 15:07 C H I L L T R A X - Slurry Toh 15:04 Afterlife - All I Wanted 14:59 Cahelo - Bananaquit (Mass Digital Extended Remix) 14:55 Che Jose Feat. Jodie Knight - Freedom (Mass Digital Remix Edit) 14:51 Fabio Vee & Mike D' Jais - Consolation 14:47 Flexible Fire - La Cumbre 14:46 C H I L L T R A X - Trans Europe Vocoder 14:43 Xixi Feat. Kwesi - Close To U 14:39 53 Thieves - Heights 14:35 Arto - Now You're Gone 14:31 Kelela - Enough For Love 14:25 Groove Armada - History (M3 And Bachelors Of Science Remix) 14:25 C H I L L T R A X - Escape 2 Music 14:22 Sum Wave - Milkyway 14:19 Jones Meadow & Clara Mendes - Em Baixo 14:15 Ben Bohmer Feat. Jonah - Home 14:11 Sons Of Maria - It Takes So Long 14:11 C H I L L T R A X - Valante Io Toh 14:07 Cannons - Tunnel Of You 14:02 Booka Shade & Satin Jackets - Fusion Royale 13:57 Trilucid - Cheyenne (Extended Sunset Mix) 13:53 Billie Eilish - Everything I Wanted (Aquadrop Remix) 13:52 C H I L L T R A X - Parents Magazine Seal 13:48 Two Lanes - Searching (Ct Fixup Mix) 13:45 Morcheeba - The Moon (Kutiman Remix - Version B) 13:41 Teemid - L.a. 13:37 Rocket Empire - Astoria 13:33 Disclosure Feat. London Grammar - Help Me Lose My Mind 13:33 C H I L L T R A X - Toh Dzihan 13:29 Vandelux - All I've Ever Known 13:25 Boerd Feat. Stella Explorer - Another Life 13:22 Vintage & Morelli - Once Upon A World 13:18 Everything But The Girl - Forever 13:14 Sound Quelle & Tailor - Where We Should Be 13:14 C H I L L T R A X - Backward Rvb Where World Comes 13:11 Finding Mero - In Loving Memories 13:07 Henry Green - Realign 13:04 Fløa (Floa) - Pictures Of You 13:00 Heard Right & Fløa - Enough 12:57 Emmit Fenn - --amman 12:57 C H I L L T R A X - Glitchy Toh 12:53 Diplo Feat. Rhye - Mmxx - Xii 12:49 Sebastian Davidson - Nomads 12:46 Blonde Maze - Daydream (Otherwise Fine Remix) 12:43 George Fitzgerald & Syml - Mother 12:38 Deep Forest - Sing With The Birds (Onuka Remix) 12:38 C H I L L T R A X - Magnifyingglasssogood4u 12:33 Max Cooper - A Model Of Reality (Tor Remix) 12:30 Solomon Grey - Home 12:26 Duckmaw - Distant Worlds 12:22 Kx5 Feat. Hayla - Escape (Chill Mix) 12:17 R Plus & Faithless Feat. Amelia Fox - It's Enough (The Last High) 12:17 C H I L L T R A X - Twcc High Standard Of Quality 12:13 Logic1000 - 21 12:10 Feiertag - Didn't Know Why (You Lost Your Soul) 12:05 Aparde - Know You 12:00 Zaven - Voliere Amplitude 11:57 53 Thieves - Waves 11:52 Dj San & Sebastian Moore - In Your Eyes 11:52 C H I L L T R A X - Chilltrax - Chill Out Piano 11:48 Jones Meadow - Paint 11:43 Eli & Fur - Better In The Dark 11:39 Little Dragon - Water 11:35 Jean Vayat & Evelynka - My Soul 11:32 Chill Cole - Liquid Life 11:26 Marsh Feat. Katherine Amy - Find Me 11:26 C H I L L T R A X - Tcc Warm And Tender Ocean 11:21 Arley & Sirolf - One Day 11:15 Mass Digital - Little Things 11:12 Tomb - Unbound 11:07 Zhu & Yuna - Sky Is Crying 11:07 C H I L L T R A X - Toh Freesound 11:04 Nuage Feat. Gus - The Place We Know 11:00 Flexible Fire - Amatista 10:55 Mango - Skyline 10:50 Northern Form - Mend 10:47 Elypsis - Open Your Eyes 10:47 C H I L L T R A X - Retsyn 10:43 Monolink - Turning Away (Parra For Cuva Remix) 10:38 Eelke Kleijn Feat. Diana Miro - You 10:32 Il:lo - Cynnes 10:29 Satin Jackets & Panama - The Future 10:23 Roisin Murphy - Incapable 10:22 C H I L L T R A X - The Chillout Channel Redux 10:19 Approaching Black - Sensitive 10:15 Alampa - Playoff 10:10 Baile & Haulm - Knows No End 10:04 Leaving Laurel - There Is Beauty When You Allow Yourself To See 10:04 C H I L L T R A X - Toh Cymbal Roll Bass 10:00 Flume Feat. Emma Louise - Hollow (Logic1000 Remix) 09:57 Lp Giobbi Feat. Caroline Byrne - Another Life 09:52 Sons Of Maria - Outbound 09:48 Washed Out - Too Late 09:48 C H I L L T R A X - Take Me Away! 09:44 Jan Blomqvist & Malou - Alone 09:41 Emmit Fenn - What Falling In Love Is For 09:36 Syml & Zero 7 - Symmetry (Zero 7 Remix) 09:33 Aftruu - Falling Asleep 09:28 Camelphat X Cristoph Feat. Jem Cooke - Breathe (Camelphat Just Chill Mix) 09:28 C H I L L T R A X - Toh Moon Boots 09:24 Morgin Madison & Ryan Lucian - From The Start (Mm Chill Remix) 09:18 Pilots Of Peace - Fallin 09:14 Heard Right & Oracle - There For You 09:11 Jones Meadow - Expect 09:11 C H I L L T R A X - Escape The Noise 09:06 Two Lanes - Movement 09:01 A.m.r & Lumynesynth - Unfinished 08:58 Elderbrook & Tourist - Howl (Chill Mix) 08:54 Sultan Shepard - Sirens 08:50 Farius - A Big Life (Sound Quelle Remix) 08:50 C H I L L T R A X - Slurry Toh 08:46 Edapollo Feat. Akacia - Run 08:43 Melosense - Nous 08:37 Shingo Nakamura - Come Closer 08:32 Alison Goldfrapp - The Beat Divine 08:28 Tensnake - Adams Hill 08:28 C H I L L T R A X - Something I Should Tell You 08:24 Kidnap & Pinkpirate - Things Change 08:20 Leisure - Slipping Away (Flight Facilities Remix) 08:15 Billion Watchers - Rainman 08:11 Alex Hook Feat. Rene - You Showed Me 08:06 Nicholas Gunn Feat. Chris Howard - Thought Of You 08:06 C H I L L T R A X - World Comes To Chilltrax.com 08:01 Vincenzo - You Knew 07:58 Afterlife - All I Wanted 07:53 Tsha - I Know 07:50 Dex 1200 - Ongea Nami 07:46 Nightcap - The Two Of Us (We Only Need) 07:42 Everything But The Girl - Caution To The Wind 07:42 C H I L L T R A X - Street Life Worlds Cc 07:37 Electronic Bodyguards - Stronger (Pete Herbert Remix) 07:33 Floa & Phonic Youth - Falling Away 07:29 Eli & Fur - You And I 07:24 Chris Malinchak - Saving My Love 07:21 Lar - Collide (Jody Wisternoff & James Grant Remix) 07:16 Rhye - Feel Your Weight (Poolside Remix) 07:16 C H I L L T R A X - Cleanliness Don't You Agree 07:12 Kx5 & Sofi Tukker - Sacrifice (St Mix) 07:08 Tennyson - Iron 07:05 Flexible Fire - Marea Turquesa 07:02 Kc Lights Feat. Leo Stannard - Cold Light (6am Remix) 07:01 C H I L L T R A X - Valante Io Toh 06:57 Booka Shade & Satin Jackets - Fusion Royale 06:53 Dreem - Miles Away 06:49 Above & Beyond & Marty Longstaff - Gratitude (Aname Pm Mix) 06:45 Reel People & Muhsinah - Something New (Kraak & Smaak Remix) 06:40 Eric Hilton - Artifact22 06:40 C H I L L T R A X - We Are The Music Makers 06:37 Jako Diaz & Leyet - Only You 06:31 Royksopp Feat. Pixx - How The Flowers Grow 06:26 Volen Sentir & Makebo - Into The Stars 06:23 Odesza Feat. Maro - Better Now 06:19 Zero 7 Feat. Danny Pratt - 400 Blows 06:19 C H I L L T R A X - E-chilled-music 06:16 Woven - Brushes 06:12 Jones Meadow & Clara Mendes - Em Baixo 06:09 53 Thieves - Two Days 06:05 Sons Of Maria - It Takes So Long 06:05 C H I L L T R A X - Toh Dzihan 06:02 Beacon - Pay My Debts 05:59 Fløa (Floa) - Pictures Of You 05:54 Leaving Laurel - The Family We Find 05:49 Nox Vahn & Marsh - Come Together 05:49 C H I L L T R A X - Jimpster 1 05:44 Two Lanes - Searching (Ct Fixup Mix) 05:41 Armin Van Buuren & Matoma Feat Teddy Swims - Easy To Love 05:37 Kidnap - Start Again (Kidnap Piano Mix) 05:32 Blank & Jones - Floatation 05:27 London Grammar - Sights (Tourist Version) 05:27 C H I L L T R A X - Glitchy Toh 05:22 Elderbrook - Wasted On You 05:19 Liz Cass - Blue 05:15 Shingo Nakamura - Focus 05:12 Everything But The Girl - Forever 05:08 Wassu & Mimi Page - Within Me 05:07 C H I L L T R A X - The Chillout Channel, Chilltrax 05:04 Finding Mero - In Loving Memories 05:01 Avira & Nicholas Gunn - Sensing You 04:57 Feiertag - Didn't Know Why (You Lost Your Soul) 04:53 Holen - Not Too Late 04:50 Leisure - Be With You 04:50 C H I L L T R A X - Toh Freesound 04:46 Indigo Eyes Feat. Kehina - All Over Again (Remix) 04:43 Chill Cole - Liquid Life 04:39 Jos & Eli & Eli & Fur - Riffs Of The Night 04:35 George Fitzgerald & Syml - Mother 04:31 A.m.r - Light-years From Here 04:31 C H I L L T R A X - Cool Refreshed Smooth As Can Be 04:25 Steven Weston Feat. Tae - Same Dream 04:20 Sumsuch Feat. Matty Eeles - Find Home (Vincenzo Remix) 04:16 Fakear - Crystal 04:12 Vandelux - Tulum 04:07 Ry X & Olafur Arnalds - Colorblind (Whomadewho Remix) 04:07 C H I L L T R A X - Escape 2 Music 04:03 Valante - Vana 03:59 Nuage Feat. Gus - The Place We Know 03:54 Royksopp - Beautiful Day Without You 03:50 Arto - Now You're Gone 03:47 Baynk Feat. Drama - 1 Chance 03:42 Cinnamon Chasers - Surviving The Fire 03:42 C H I L L T R A X - Be Svendsen World Comes 03:38 Sum Wave - Moments Of Sundown 03:35 Alampa - Playoff 03:31 Lliam And Latroit Feat. Brea - Someday (Latroit Edition) 03:27 Tep No - Say What You Wanted 03:22 Leaving Laurel - There Is Beauty When You Allow Yourself To See 03:19 Pablo Nouvelle Feat. Rio - Wish You Were Here 03:18 C H I L L T R A X - Magnifyingglasssogood4u 03:15 Xixi Feat. Kwesi - Close To U 03:11 Cannons - Fire For You 03:07 Heard Right & Fløa - Enough 03:03 Two Lanes & Panama - Rolling Back 03:03 C H I L L T R A X - Toh Cymbal Roll Bass 03:00 Lp Giobbi Feat. Caroline Byrne - Another Life 02:57 Rocket Empire - Lima 02:53 Sasha - Bygone 02:53 C H I L L T R A X - Fresh And Fascinating 02:49 Satin Jackets Feat. Tailor - Somewhere In Paradise 02:45 Lp Giobbi Feat. Dj Tennis & Joseph Ashworth - All In A Dream 02:42 Chris Malinchak - Happiness (Eternal Moment Mix) 02:38 Palladian - Zagara 02:32 Bob Moses - Tearing Me Up (Rac Mix) 02:32 C H I L L T R A X - Toh Moon Boots 02:27 Nicholas Gunn & Alina Renae - Angel Eyes 02:23 Running Touch - Why Do I 02:20 Giants' Nest - Storm Trap 02:16 Jan Blomqvist & Malou - Alone 02:12 Phello - Timelapse 02:11 C H I L L T R A X - Worldschilloutchannnel Orbit 02:08 Flexible Fire - Amatista 02:05 Catz 'n Dogz Feat. Jaw - Time 02:00 Alison Goldfrapp - The Beat Divine 01:55 Jones Meadow - Fences 01:51 Gold Lounge - Higher 01:51 C H I L L T R A X - Slurry Toh 01:47 Kaskade - Where Did You Go 01:43 Sebastian Davidson - Nomads 01:38 Nils Hoffmann Feat. Julia Church - 9 Days 01:34 Heard Right & Oracle - There For You 01:29 Toka Kakabadze - Urban 01:29 C H I L L T R A X - Take Me Away! 01:25 Vandelux - All I've Ever Known 01:22 Eli & Fur - Wild Skies 01:18 Farius - Coming Up (Hold On) (Dokho Remix) 01:15 Melosense - Can't Replace You 01:11 Khotin & Tess Roby - Fountain, Growth 01:11 C H I L L T R A X - Chill Out Chilltrax 01:07 Il:lo - List 01:04 Afterlife - All I Wanted 01:00 Drama - 3am 00:56 Duckmaw - Distant Worlds 00:51 Steven Weston Feat. Lapsley - Like I Used To 00:47 Elderbrook - The End 00:46 C H I L L T R A X - Ct The Backward Chillout Channel 00:42 Maxxim - Waterfalls 00:39 Cannons - Loving You 00:36 Feiertag Feat. Tessa Rose Jackson - Follow 00:32 Jimpster & Oliver Night - Ascension 00:28 Two Lanes - Movement 00:24 Washed Out - Far Away 00:24 C H I L L T R A X - Tcc Warm And Tender Ocean 00:20 Everything But The Girl - Run A Red Light 00:16 Sons Of Maria - Don't Tell Me I Can't Have It 00:13 Sum Wave - Milkyway 00:09 Avira & Nourey Feat. Tom Bailey - Favourite Game 00:09 C H I L L T R A X - Valante Io Toh 00:04 Booka Shade & Satin Jackets - Fusion Royale

#Chilltrax #Chillout #Lounge #Downtempo #Ambient #Trance #Deep House #2023 #June 2023

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luxielle · 3 years ago

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Mystictober Day 21: ZEN x MC, feat. @quirky-and-kind's Lea ^^

#mystictober2021 #mystic messenger #mysme #lux does art #mysme zen #mystic messenger zen #lazy happy fall cuties in love #hyun ryu #otp ❤️🤍#zen x lea

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little-butterfly-writes · 3 years ago

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The Mystic Dance

Invitation

Pretty In Pink (Saeyoung x Byeol) - @agent-bee

Eyes Full of Stars (Saeyoung x Reader) - @gureishi

To Be Alone With You (Jihyun x Reader) - @welookateachotherandlaugh

Sky and Blue (Zen x Lea) - @quirky-and-kind

Once Upon A Fantasy (Vanderwood x Ao) - @little-ideas

At First Sight (Jaehee x Layla) - @little-butterfly-writes

The Tree (Rika x Layla) - @little-butterfly-writes

#mystic messenger #mysmes #the mystic dance #the mint palace #mystic messenger zen #mystic messenger jihyun #mystic messenger jaehee #mystic messenger saeyoung #mystic messenger vanderwood

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gureishi · 3 years ago

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fell apart in the usual way

Saeyoung X Eunji (CMC) featuring Zen X Lea (CMC)

red universe | Lea | Saeyoung’s route, day 9

When Seven tells Eunji she should forget about him, she doesn’t break down.

She doesn’t cry when he raises his voice, and she’s silent and resolute as he builds himself a fortress of laptops and chip bags and tangled cables so she can’t come close to him.

She knows about losing things—considers herself an expert at keeping it together when everything around her is falling apart.

When her parents would fight, she’d hide in her room and line up her stuffed animals by size, and species, and color. She knew better than to come to them crying, pitiful, begging for attention—it was easier to stare at the ground and pretend she was someplace else.

Every now and then, no one would remember to pick her up from school. She’d watch the other forgotten children’s faces falling and feel proud of herself, because she was stronger than the rest of them. And when her parents finally split up and her mother dragged her halfway across the world, she didn’t put up a fight or whine or behave like a sullen preteen, even though she was one.

What was the point of being miserable? She never understood why someone would look at a house that’s burning and throw oil on the fire.

When things are bad, she thinks, her feelings are sure to make them worse.

So when Seven says he’ll disappear as soon as he’s certain she’s safe, she shakes her head and hides her face in her hair and lets him be. For hours that become endless days, he stares at his screens and she makes meals three times a day even though no one is eating them—and at night, she lays in the bed she’s grown to hate and pretends to sleep, the sound of his typing providing the scenery for her fevered not-quite-dreams.

She hears her own voice in the way he scolds her, and she’s angry—at herself, at her parents, at everyone who’s ever tried to love her. She’s not falling to pieces, and she isn’t letting him have his way.

She’s known from the moment she saw his face that they’re the same kind of lonely.

Eunji understands about hating the people who treat you with kindness, because being loved reminds you how little you deserve it. She tells Seven that she doesn’t believe him when he says he wants to go away—and tells him again, and one more time—and she watches his resolve start to waver.

It is only when his eyes have gone soft—when he’s held out a hand and said that he wants her, that he’s grateful, that he needs just a little bit more time—that the feelings she’s pushed down for days crash over her like a river right after a storm.

So she does the only thing she can think of: hides in the bathroom and turns on the shower and cocoons herself in towels and hugs her knees to her chest and sobs.

Eunji is an all-or-nothing cryer. If she is steadfast and silent when the world is burning, she is equally fragile as soon as she feels safe enough to fall apart. She doesn’t get gracefully teary-eyed like she’s seen some people do—instead, she cries with everything she has.

Eunji thinks of small feet in too-tight shoes and the sound of cars pulling into the parking lot—of peering through dry eyes into the distance to see if anyone has come for her.

It’s easy to be forgotten. Being wanted is what frightens her.

She cries like snow that comes too early in the year: harder and faster the longer she lets it go on, feeling numb, feeling nothing, feeling like losing herself. She is safest here, with the cold tile floor under her bare feet and the walls so close she could be underground. She wishes she could enclose herself in bulletproof glass so there would be nothing but her heart and the blood in her veins and her shirt against her skin.

Her body is the only thing that’s hers.

Her tears belong to her, but they also belong to Seven—and to his brother, who was torn from him—and to the friends he said he was going to leave behind, and the family he tries not to remember, and the parents she never understood how to love. They belong to the little girl who watched in silence as her parents screamed, and the woman who never picked up her phone, and the way Seven watched her when he thought she wasn’t looking: like he was already saying goodbye.

They belong to his sad eyes when he showed her the pictures of his twin (smiling—young for his age—golden—laughing).

How long has he been waiting for someone who’ll stay?

Eunji’s phone, which she’s tucked between her feet, buzzes violently. She means to ignore it, but she looks through blurry eyes and sees his name on the screen.

Hey, he says. When you get out of the shower, I have something to say.

Her stomach twists anxiously. She shouldn’t answer him—she’s supposed to be showering—but she is impatient, and desperate, and afraid.

Not actually in the shower, she says. Just listening to it.

And she waits, unsure what she’s hoping for. She’s a miserable little creature, she thinks—hiding on the bathroom floor in her pajamas—and she doesn’t need him to know she’s crying in secret.

There’s a small, selfish part of her that wants to find out what he’ll do if he sees.

She pictures him crouched in his corner (right where she left him), eyes darting between his phone and his laptop—agonizing, deliberating, desiring.

Eunji’s been in love twice, but neither of her partners ever saw her cry.

There’s a knock on the door, and she jumps—she couldn’t hear his footsteps over the sound of the shower (she never can, anyway).

“Eunji,” he calls. She can’t remember the last time he said her name. “Are you, um—can I…?”

“You wanna know if I’m naked?” She masks the sob in her voice with the artificial confidence that’s always charmed him.

Seven makes a strange sort of squeaking sound, and she wipes tears from her eyes with furious fingers.

“Are you naked?”

She couldn’t be any further from naked. She’s got a too-big sweatshirt on over her oldest pajamas, and there’s a towel around her shoulders and another across her knees. She gets cold when she’s sad—like feeling too much saps all the warmth from her skin—and even under all these layers, she’s still hollow.

“Come and find out,” she says. She thinks she does a pretty good job of sounding sure of herself.

This, she thinks, will certainly scare him off. For days now, he’s turned to face the wall (hood pulled low over his eyes, hands—for some reason—covering his ears) whenever she’s come out of the shower, as if he’s afraid of seeing her when she’s recently been naked.

So she is challenging him—or trying to frighten him—or wishing he’d wipe her tears.

He opens the door.

Eunji sees Seven through the steam: tousled hair, frantic eyes. He’s left behind his hoodie and his headphones: his armor, it seems, is off.

“Oh,” he says. “You’re…”

She gazes up at him, knowing just how she must look, and he’s hesitating—no, staring at her—no, crossing the room on quick, steady feet and sinking to the floor at her side.

“Hi,” she whispers. Now that she sees him, she’s crying again.

“God,” he mutters. “Oh god. You’re—why are you…?” He lifts a hand like he’s going to brush a tear from her cheek and freezes. The bravado of 707 is nowhere to be found—and neither is the cold resolve of the man who’s been living with her lately. This person—neither 707 nor Luciel, she thinks, but someone else entirely—takes in her tear-stained face with wide, timid eyes.

She’s not sure how to explain why she’s crying—doesn’t know how to express what she needs. She wants to take his beautiful, frightened face in both hands and kiss him till he sees stars.

She grabs the towel from her knees and hands it to him.

“First rule of the bathroom floor,” she says. “You have to wear a towel.”

He looks at her for a moment too long, a serious look on his face, and then he nods.

“You’re the boss,” he says. He swings the towel around his shoulders and twists the ends together, knotting it around his neck like a cape. She sort of laughs, but it sounds thick like syrup.

For a second, neither of them speaks. Eunji stares down at her own feet and worries the towel between her fingers and wishes he’d tear the words from her lips so she doesn’t have to figure out how to form them. He clears his throat.

“I’m sorry,” he says. “I never should have spoken to you the way I have been.”

Eunji shakes her head so hard her hair flies into her face. She doesn’t need another apology.

“You found out everything you ever believed was a lie,” she says slowly. “I don’t blame you for being angry.”

He grunts in frustration and she looks up at him, startled. He’s waging a whole war, she thinks, inside his mysterious mind.

“I was never angry at you,” he exclaims. He sounds miserable. “All I’ve wanted for the last nine days is to see your face from up close. I’d understand if you never want to be near me.”

She’s not enclosed in glass, she thinks—she’s made of it. She swears she hears the sound of shattering as she sobs silently, staring at him. There’s no gravity in this strange space: nothing but the sound of the shower and steam and her shaky heart.

He says her name again, and this time it sounds like a prayer. “I would do anything in the world,” he whispers, “for you.”

“Don’t need the world,” Eunji says. And she doesn’t: she’s never needed a whole lot—needs so much—needs nothing—needs him. “It wouldn’t be so bad—” (she breathes) “—to be held.”

“My god.” He opens his arms: face flushed, eyes wild. “Come here.”

The thought of touching him has driven her mad since the first time she saw him. He smells like sweet honey and chili spice and soda and the body wash they’ve apparently been sharing and she is crashing into him, cheek to his chest, arms weaving around his waist, hair falling everywhere and steam making her eyes sting.

He inhales sharply, like he’s seen a star fall. She knows the feeling.

For a moment, they are frozen. He doesn’t breathe. She hears his heart.

Then the pieces fall into place—like a lock clicking, a gate swinging open—and his arms are around her, hands in her hair, molding to her body like he’s been waiting to hold her all this time.

“Got you,” he says. “I’ve got you now.”

Eunji swears she can feel her skin buzzing as it comes into contact with his—even through his t-shirt and her pajamas and the towel cape that’s somehow gotten twisted up between them—and she’s crying all over his chest, and he tucks her hair behind her ear with such tenderness she feels she may fade away.

“I never meant to make you cry,” Seven says. “I’m so sorry, starshine.”

Something shifts in the fabric of time. Eunji sits up.

“What did you call me?”

He coughs, face flushing. He’s still got an arm around her waist and a finger to her cheek and the tips of his ears are as red as his hair.

“Um,” he says. “It’s something that I—I mean, I’ve been thinking—uh, not that I was thinking about—only, in my head—”

“Is that what you call me in your fantasies?” She’s got goosebumps, and the fluttering she’s been feeling in her chest for days has reached a fever pitch.

He swallows hard and looks at her. She’s never seen him like this before: his eyes are blazing; she feels like they might burn her if she stares too long.

She wouldn’t mind.

“I imagine myself falling through space a lot,” he says, his voice hoarse. “Lately I see myself plummeting through the emptiness, like always, but then all of a sudden something’s different.”

“What’s that?” She can count a million shades of gold in his big, beautiful eyes and he’s so close she can feel his breath on her neck.

“The stars,” he says. “They catch me.”

Everything Eunji wants is right in front of her now—and he told her never to dream about him, but he’s the only thing she thinks about when she can’t fall asleep. In her imagination, she sees him standing in the sunlight, beckoning her closer, smiling when she runs to his side.

Here, on the bathroom floor, his hands are rough on her skin.

“Oh my god,” she says. “Are you going to kiss me or aren’t you?”

For a second, Seven is struck silent. His body tenses like a tightly coiled spring: moments from pouncing (or running away).

But he’s been running forever, and he seems to have skidded to a stop in her arms.

“Oh,” he whispers. “Can I?”

And maybe you’re supposed to fall in love somewhere beautiful and kiss for the first time under a starry night sky, but Eunji doesn’t see it that way. She plucks his glasses from his face and folds them neatly on the cold tile floor and thinks, for one fleeting moment, that she’d follow this sweet, strange, lonely man to the ends of the earth.

“Hurry,” she says.

Seven is scared until he isn’t. His calloused hand cups her cheek and he shivers as he shuts his eyes—and she tastes him before he touches her, feeling the floor fall away.

His first kiss is a ghost, a whisper, a smoke signal.

“Hah,” he pants, pulling back, peeking at her through lidded eyes—cheeks flushed, hand dropping to her waist. “That’s—”

His second kiss is something else entirely.

She’s in control, and steady, and sure, and then all of a sudden she’s none of those things. His fingers are tangling in her sweatshirt and he’s kissing her wildly, fiercely—and he’s a little bit clumsy, a shade naive, but she’s never experienced anything like the way he wants her.

She buries her hands in his hair, too breathless to register that she’s touching it at last, and he makes a strangled sound against her lips. She’s dizzy, scrambling, towel falling from her shoulders, climbing into his lap and kissing him harder when she hears his breath hitch.

If keeping him at arm’s length was excruciating, kissing him is a different sort of pain: it’s as desperate as it is satisfying, as sharp as it is soft.

She takes his bottom lip between her teeth and feels his whole body shudder. The room is tilting sideways and her blood is singing in her veins and there’s a humming in her ears.

A loud, repetitive—

It’s her phone. Her phone is ringing.

Seven realizes it the same second she does, and he groans, grasping her hips with helpless hands.

“Don’t answer it,” he whispers. She giggles and presses a finger to his lips.

“We’re literally in an emergency situation right now,” Eunji murmurs, head swimming. “We have to—”

“Yeah, yeah.” He sighs and shuts his eyes and she takes him in: messy hair, pink cheeks, kissed lips.

“I’m gonna—” Eunji reaches for the phone—but she’s still in his lap and her legs are tangled around his waist, and he gets there faster.

“Eunji’s phone,” he says before he’s got it all the way to his ear. “She’s very very busy right now so you can just—”

“Seven?” Eunji’s close enough to hear the voice on the other end of the line clear as day: it’s Zen, and he sounds suspicious.

“Oh, uh.” Seven meets her eyes and grins wickedly. “Yeah, hi.”

She feels her heart make a perfect pirouette. It’s the first time she’s seen his smile for real: not in a picture, but up close and shining and real.

“Is something wrong with her?” Zen is asking. “Why are you picking up her phone?”

Eunji raises her eyebrows and holds out her hand. Seven bites her finger.

“She can’t talk,” he mumbles around the finger in his mouth. “She’s, um. Answering emails.”

Eunji can hear hushed voices and she’s certain Zen is consulting with Lea. Oh, how she wishes she could get Lea alone just long enough to describe the situation she’s in. She has a feeling her friend—her greatest cheerleader lately, the strongest advocate for her feelings—would be proud.

They could all use something to celebrate.

Swiftly, Eunji dips her head and presses her lips to the crook of Seven’s neck. He makes a sound like a small animal suddenly being lifted high in the air and she swipes the phone from his hand, winking as his eyes go wide.

“Hey, guys,” she chirps—knowing Lea is listening anyway, knowing she sounds breathless, knowing Seven’s about a second away from retaliating (god, she wishes he would). “How are you?”

It’s a legitimate question, and there’s a pause after she asks it. For a moment, the safe, steamy bathroom has felt like a haven, separate from all the frightening things they’re facing—but even in here, the world’s still moving forward.

“We’re okay,” Zen says quietly. “I called to check on you.”

Eunji feels like crying again.

It is too much for her one small body to bear, she thinks: the shock of discovering she’s been living under perilous circumstances, and the misery of being shut out by someone she’s only just begun to cherish, and the thrill of his breath on her neck, and the incredible kindness of new friends she’s never even met in person—the air is too thick, or maybe she’s just forgotten how to breathe.

Do these people know how little of their affection she deserves? Do they know that she’s careless, and easy to anger—that she’s hated everyone who’s ever been gentle to her and run at the first signs of softness?

She realizes she hasn’t said anything, and Seven’s watching her with worried eyes—and then she hears Lea’s voice through the phone.

“It’s okay,” Lea says, “to be scared.”

Oh, she is falling apart at the seams: her friends are too good, and Seven is too sweet, and she’s never coped well with sympathy. She shakes her head at Seven silently, unable to speak.

He seems to know it’s his turn to be strong.

He tightens his grip on her and takes the phone, and she lets her head fall to his shoulder.

“We are scared,” he says quietly—and it’s the first time she’s heard him admit this, and there’s such a sense of security in the softness of his voice. “I’m the reason things got this way, and I’m sorry that I lied about it. I don’t really have a great track record of thinking things through.”

“You’re not the only one who lied,” Zen says. Zen and Lea seem to be sharing the phone now—Eunji imagines them sitting on their bed, entwined together—and she’s soothed by the image of them staying so close.

Nothing is quite as frightening when you’re with the person you love.

“I know.” Seven pets her hair, parting her curls with his clever fingers, and she breathes in his scent and feels steadier. “I’m acting alone from now on instead of taking orders from anybody. And I swear I’m going to protect her with everything I have.”

There’s a pause, and then Zen chuckles.

“Wow,” he says. “You could still use a lesson or two, but that was kind of cool.”

The tension breaks. Eunji feels an enormous weight being lifted from her shoulders.

She twists her head sideways so she can be heard over the phone.

“If you think that was cool,” she purrs, “you should’ve seen what he was doing to me when we answered the phone.”

It’s a tease more than anything else, of course—but it gets just the reaction she hoped it would. Zen splutters and Lea squeals and she looks at Seven just in time to see his face going red again.

“What,” Zen is shouting, “was he doing to you when you answered the phone?!”

“See you!” Eunji sings, hanging up before the situation can escalate. Seven opens his mouth and then closes it, and she thinks proudly that she might have broken him at last.

“I’m dying,” he whispers weakly. She grins and kisses him, and he shudders when she shifts in his lap.

“You’ve got work to do,” she says. “Remember?”

He sighs heavily and strokes her cheek with a shaky hand.

“Will you stay with me?” he asks. And she knows he means while he’s working, but the look in his eyes says he means something more than that, too.

Eunji smiles at him: this stranger-turned-friend-turned-something-much-more-serious who’s promised to protect her.

“I will,” she says.

Eunji knows how to lose—to be lost—to forget—to be forgotten. Being wanted is harder; being found is frightening.

She looks at the beautiful boy with stars in his eyes and decides that it’s time she belonged to someone.

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