#yup imma bounce on that yea

[nathank77]

6/17/24

11:29 a.m

So I did sleep. I took 1 more mg of Melatonin right before I laid down. So 3mg in Total. I didn't sleep well obv I was off my circadian rhythm. I woke up prob once every hour and a half. Before falling asleep my hallucination was weird.

I had like mental pictures and then word hallucinations like, "put the cup over there." In a different voice like 3 different times.... but it wasn't exactly attached to the mental picture... the picture was gone and then the word hallucinations happened. Yup my brain is broken.

I got 5 hours of sleep. In Total. I woke up at 5:30 a.m. I tried to go back to sleep without the use of drugs bc I didn't want to sleep until like 12 or something and I laid there for a hour and gave up at 6:30 a.m.

I then hit the ground running. I went to Walmart. Grabbed a new lamp. Started laundry. Grabbed fancy work gloves for the attic and I got myself a new blanket and pillow top mattress cover which I'm washing right now.

I ended up ordering less on my credit line. I got another lamp but this one is a floor lamp. The lamp i got today was a desk lamp. My room only had one lamp. The overhead light stopped working years ago. My desk lamp is by my degree it's a little annoying cause it can't be by my tv bc of the reflection and the bulb is bigger than the shade of the lamp... but I pointed it towards the ceiling it's on my degree and makes it look flashy. And gives one corner of my room light. I'm using the other floor lamp in the opposite corner of my tv. At night I'll turn off like 2 of them. During the day I'll keep on all 3 to try to adjust my circadian rhythm. I'm excited to get the new lamp in the mail. I have exactly the right number of light bulbs in my junk draw.

I got like 11 storage bins all being delivered over this week. I'm excited. I already got them all planned out for my stuff. I won't be getting them right away though which is annoying but I can't do it all in one day anyways.

The gloves are too large so I bought the same pair in medium. I'll return the large ones this week once I get the medium ones.

I'm tired and my auditory hallucination is bouncing off the walls. It was really quiet the first few hours I enjoyed it.

I'm about to go up the attic and sort the boxes. Imma go through my clothes and put them in the boxes I emptied with my clothes that came from my old dresser and went to the attic and came back down here. I'm just going to sort them and get the boxes off the chest with my photo albums. I won't do too much up there without the storage bins I'm limited but with these gloves I can go through the bug shit draws.

By the end of the night I'll have my new bedding stuff on, the old spares in my blanket storage bin and I'm going to organize my desk lamp thing cause it had little compartments. I'm hoping I can get smaller bulbs so I can use it as a reading light or something sometimes if my tv is off.

I'm hoping I get a few of my storage bins today so I can organize.

I'm going to try to go to sleep at 10:30. I'll take my first mg at 10:30. Then if I'm not sleeping by like 12:30 I'm taking the second half and just raising my tolerance. I know I won't sleep well for a while bc I'm forcing my circadian rhythm which is why I'm mixing in Melatonin... I'm hoping it works. It's nice being awake when everyone else is. I can't believe it's 11:21 a.m and I've already did all this and I slept!

I am worried about sleep. I am worried about the weird word hallucinations... I am worried I'll have to raise my tolerance... I mean what am I supposed to do? Go back to fucking waking up at 4:30 p.m and falling asleep at 8 a.m it's fucking awful.

So yea I have a lot of anxiety. I'm just trying to stay busy. My hallucination makes me want to kill myself. Idk why it couldn't have stayed like this morning. It was an angel when I didn't turn on American dad and I was trying to sleep in silence. Just repeating my thoughts. And not being annoying. We have a deal when my eyes are closed it acts like an angel otherwise it can be fucking psychosis. It stood true to that today but I mean I still refuse to sleep in silence. I really thought I could fall back to sleep but I couldn't and I can't blame the hallucination despite it being an asshole now.

I got to call my dad later I'm anxious idk If I should after therapy or before. I want to get in the attic ASAP.

[stripper-patrick]

Back to you 🥡 Grayson Dolan

Warnings: angst, hurt, smut

Song: Breathless by Star Cast

Relationship: Grayson Dolan x black plus sized reader

It was the first time I had seen him in a year and a half. He was wearing a fitted tee with some dark jeans and boots. His large hands clad with a short blonde girl.

It broke my heart to say the least. When he looks up at me the blonde keeps going to the other clothes picking through and he just stares at me. I can see the pain in his eyes. All the memories we ever created together. It’s like they’re being rebranded in his face all over again.

I find a small smile and plaster it on my face before turning on my heel. I sip on my drink and walk through the aisles of target. I just moved into my new apartment and I’m looking for some accessories to design my new home.

“Y/N” my heart drops and I turn around meeting Grayson who’s only 2 feet in front of me.

“Hey” he smiles showcasing that little dimple.

“Hi nice to see you after a while” I mean that genuinely.

“Nice to see you too so what’s up”

“Nothing I just moved into my new apartment and I’m trying to spice it up a bit what about you? I see you have a girlfriend”

He looks back at her then back to me with a forced smile.

“Yea that’s Layla”

“She’s gorgeous” I whisper

“So you said you just moved into you apartment?” He changes the subject

“Yea it’s great right over near that Chinese restaurant we ate at all the time”

“Oh ok those are nice well don’t hesitate to call me if you need help I’d be happy to help” he smiles

“Gray lets go” his girlfriend squeaks

“Alright” he looks back at me “like I said don’t be afraid to call me”

“Thanks Gray” he leaves and I’m left with the whiff of his cologne. I grab some accessories for my new home and leave the store.

...

The last thing I need to put together is my bed and bed frame. I can’t pick that up my myself cause it’s heavy and I really don’t wanna break my nail. I grab my phone and scroll through my contacts. I click on ‘Grayson 🥴’ and press the call button placing the phone to my ear.

On the second ring I hear his deep voice.

“Hello”

“Hey Grayson it’s me Y/N”

“Hey” he perks up

“I was wondering if you could to help me with my bed frame and mattress. It’s too heavy for me by myself uh if your busy don’t worry about -“

“Please Y/N you know I got you send me your address and I’m on my way”

“Ok great thank you so much” I hang up and take a deep breath bracing myself. That’s the only left I have to do and I’m so glad he’s willing to come out here at 8 at night but what if we talk about the past and he tells me how in love he is with his girlfriend and it’ll just break my heart.

I sit down for a minute and just think until I hear a few knocks on the door.

I get up and open it seeing Grayson with a bag that says Thank You.

“I brought Chinese”

“You read my mind” I allow him in and we set on my couch with the Chinese food.

“How much do I owe you”

“Don’t worry about it”

“Gray are you sure”

“Yea were good” we sit down and eat in a comfortable silence. He breaks it.

“So how’ve you been since we last seen each other?”

You mean since we knew we were falling apart? Peachy.

“I’ve been ok what about you”

“Fine” he nods. We fall into a weird silence and I swallow thickly.

“So this mattress and bed frame?” I nod hopping up to show him. He follows me into my bedroom and I have have the bed frame sitting still in the box. We sit down crossing our knees and starting to build the bed.

I turn on some music and enjoy his company.

...

“I remember when I took you to my cousins wedding and you spilled red juice all over her dress” Grayson laughs “she looked like the Japanese flag”

I laugh uncontrollably at the memory “that was the day I wore your favorite dress”

“Yup that beige dress that came down to like here” he points to the middle of his chest “and the high thigh slit”

“I still have that dress”

“Do you?”

“Yea it might be a little tighter on me but I kept it”

“I still have that dark green velvet suit you like on me”

“Ugh that suit” I smile thinking about the night he wore it and I tore him up that night.

“We had sex like 4 or 5 times that night”

I think about it getting myself all riled up. He has a girlfriend what am I doing?

I change the subject real quick “the mattress is right out here”

I stand up and he watches me walk out the room. Soon after Grayson appears and we pick up the mattress laying over the boxspring. I open it from the plastic and let it unfold on the boxspring taking its form. I look at Grayson and smile.

“Thank you so much uh here” I go in my bag and hand him $40.

“No it’s fine”

“No please”

“Y/N I said no” his voice was so powerful and demanding.

“Well then how do you want me to repay you?” Big mistake.

“You don’t want me to answer that” his answer is full of lust.

“Why is that Grayson?” I challenge looking up at him. If anything else turned him on it was eye contact.

I don't want to hurt you

I just wanna blow your mind

Tonight imma leave you breathless

Breathless

He sighs and cups the side of my jaw getting fingers wrapped in my hair. Which isn’t mine but we won’t discuss that right now.

“You know the ways you can repay me Princess”

And I know I'm a rebel

Baby, hope that you don't mind

I just wanna leave you breathless

Breathless

And I oop- I haven’t been called Princess in a very long time- scratch that been called Princess AND FELT SOMETHING!

“God I’ve missed you” he leans down and presses his lips on mine pushing me back on the bed “I think since we just made this bed we gotta test how strong it is”

“I think your right” he kisses me again and I get so lost in it I didn’t realize he was taking off my clothes. My underwear are soiled.

“Your so wet for me and I haven’t even touched you yet” I moan as he touches my throbbing clit. His middle finger rubs small circles on it and I moan.

“Gray please don’t tease me”

“If I remember correctly the teasing turned you on” he kisses my neck and I wet my dry lips moaning.

“I think you’re ready for me princess” he pins my hands above my head and takes off his pants revealing his tight boxer briefs. He leans forward grinding himself against my bare pussy.

“Grayson” I whine

“My rules haven’t changed princess” he had a strict no whining policy simply because in the end I’d get what I want.

Finally he teases my entrance and pushes his girthy long dick inside of me and I arch my back.

Honey, don't worry

You are on your way to heaven

Just relax

“Sorry was I too rough”

“A little it’s been a while”

“I noticed your so tight” he smiles. His lips reconnect with mine and he begins to jut his forwards slowly creating the best torturous rhythm I’ve ever experienced.

“Grayson”

I don't want to hurt you

I just wanna blow your mind

“Tonight I’m gonna make you cum like never before” he always kept his word so I believe him when he says this.

Tonight imma leave you breathless

Breathless

I try to push my hips forward to meet his and get some faster rhythm going on but he stops altogether and sits on his knees. Grayson has fucked me like this one other time and I couldn’t walk for about a week.

He puts my legs on his shoulders and starts to drill me.

And I know I'm a rebel

Really hope that you don't mind

“You like that princess” my answer turns into a moan and I grab his hand wrapped around my thigh. My jaw drops as he finds my g-spot utterly destroying it.

I just wanna leave you breathless

Breathless

“Gray wait please slow down” I moan

“Take. This. Dick” my entire body is bouncing and my moans fill the room. I’m breathless just how he liked it.

“Fuck” I moan. My leg drops to the crease in his arm and he scoffs up further using my shoulders to pound into me deeper and harder.

“Gray I can’t take it anymore please”

“I love when you beg for me princess” he grunts. I clench myself around him and cry out when he rolls my hard nipples between his fingers. Everything just became electrified.

“Grayson fuck” I warn

“I got you princess cum for me come on” he locks me in place and my vision blurs as I scream out gripping the sheets and arching my back. My legs shake uncontrollably and I watch as a smirk spreads across his face.

Once I’m juiced out I push him off and lean down forcing his dick down my throat. I look up to see the look of bliss smeared across his face as he coats my throat with his children.

“Oh my god” he moans. He grabs a handful of my kinky curls and forces me down just a little bit more. I gag a little and he chuckles.

“You always knew how to take my dick princess” I come up and wipe my mouth. He kisses me and I come to my senses pushing him away.

“Oh my god we just had sex”

“Yea it was just as great as the other 50 million times even that shitty plane we did it on”

“Grayson you have a girlfri-“

“Y/N I miss you and I’m so glad you called me over and we did this. I don’t want her anymore”

“If you miss me so much then why did you break up with me”

“Cause I wasn’t straight with myself and it felt like we were drifting Y/N I need you to believe me this time when I say I need you. After we broke up I wasn’t ok and the only reason I even dated Layla was to fill the hole that you left and it didn’t work” he explains

I’m speechless.

He shakes his head and grabs my cheek kissing me again. This one wasn’t filled with lust. This was filled with love and passion. I could feel how bad he truly wanted me back.

I groan and push him off.

“Grayson once you get it together we’ll talk until then figure out your life”

“Can we at least be fuck buddies” I roll my eyes

“Yes Grayson”

He smiles and nods. I walk past him earning a swat to my booty.

“That’s for not calling me for so long”

“Boy please” I go to the bathroom and smile to myself.

[may85]

Title: Fire Safety Part 2

Character: Patrick Sullivan

Movie: The Accidental Husband

NOTE: If you have an idea as to where you’d like to see this go, don’t be afraid to drop a line!

Warnings: None. Fluff!

Photo/GIF credits go to the original maker/owner

For my Darlin’s! @ladylorelitany @magikat409

I smoothed out my purple plaid button down shirt with a sigh.

“You wook gorgeous Aunt Y/N!” Eleanor said happily from my bed.

She was dressing Mr. Floppy up for his own date with Barbie.

“Doesn’t Mr. Floppy wook hamsome?” she asked, turning the bunny towards me.

I smiled at her through the mirror, “Yea he does, Ellie,”

She bounced on the bed, giving the rabbit a hug.

The doorbell rang making Eleanor squeal, “I gots it!”

“Ellie, wait!”

Her giggles echoed down the hallway as she ran to the door.

I watched as she jumped up and turned the handle.

“Patwick!” she cheered, wrapping her arms around his leg.

“Hey Ellie!”

I came down the hall, pausing when I saw Patrick.

His smile widened when he looked up at me and I couldn’t help the deep blush that I felt heating up my cheeks.

“Hey Sweetheart,” he greeted.

“Hi,” my voice was barely a whisper.

Clearing my throat, I came closer, ready to grab Ellie who was still attached to Patrick’s leg.

Before I could reach her, he brought a bouquet of flowers from behind his back.

“For you,” he said.

I blinked, not expecting that at all. Even the other men that I had dated never brought me a single flower.

“Oh wow… Thank you,” bringing the mixed bouquet to my nose, I inhaled their fresh scent.

“No problem…. and for you!”

Patrick gave Ellie two daisies.

She gasped and took the flowers. Spinning around, she failed at whispering as she cupped her hand on the side of her mouth, “He’s defwinitely a keeper Aunt Y/N!”

Patrick blushed as he rubbed the back of his neck.

“Let him in, Ellie,” I laughed.

Taking my flowers to the kitchen for a vase, I heard Patrick and Ellie following me, “I’m just waiting for the sitter,”

Just as I said that, my cell rang.

“Hello? Oh? No, no, that’s fine… Alright Mrs. Grady… Yes Ma'am. You have a good night too,” I ended the call.

“Everything okay?” Patrick asked.

“Eh… the sitter isn’t coming. She’s sick. I’m sorry, Patrick.”

Ellie pouted, hugging her bunny.

Patrick perked up, picking Ellie up and resting her on his hip, “No worries Doll face! I get to take two lovely ladies out tonight!”

Ellie cheered, wriggling out of his grasp.

“Imma go get changed!”

When Ellie was in her room, Patrick came around the island and put his hands on my arms, “I don’t mind, so not a word,”

I laughed, smacking his arm in jest.

“You look great, by the way,” he said in all seriousness.

“You do to,” I replied, pushing my glasses up.

He surprised me when he leaned forward and gently kissed my cheek.

Immediately my eyes closed at the feel of his smooth lips.

“I’m weady!” Ellie yelled from her room.

I felt his breathy laugh against my face and I couldn’t help but to bite my lip.

Taking my hand, Patrick led us to the door where he helped us with our coats.

“Ready?” he asked.

We both nodded, following him out the door. °°°°°° Eleanor was enthralled with the movie that we were watching. We were the only ones in the theater and with this being her first film that she’d ever seen on the big screen, she was absolutely hypnotized.

Her eyes were wide with awe as the princess danced and sang with the live objects of the house.

I was in awe with Patrick. He had chosen the movie and even though it was geared towards kids, his choice didn’t feel forced.

I had tried to let Eleanor sit in between us, but she wasn’t having that. She did sit next to me though. She hugged Mr. Floppy, swaying in her seat to the music.

“You’re doing really great with her,” Patrick whispered in my ear.

Turning my head from the movie, I gave Patrick a smile, “Thank you.”

He grinned, putting his arm around my shoulders and pulling me to him. He pressed a soft kiss to my temple, then whispered in my ear once more, “Is this okay?”

Strangely enough, it was, “Yes,”

“Okay,” he said, giving me a squeeze.

During the rest of the film, Patrick held me close, occasionally resting his lips on my temple. I literally could not remember the last time that I had felt this comfortable with someone.

Once it ended, we gathered our things and put our coats back on.

“The pwince was so womantic!” Eleanor gushed.

I had been staring at Patrick, “Yes he was,”

He winked at me and I realized that I had said that out loud.

Eleanor wrapped a small hand around two of Patrick’s fingers, holding on tightly. He put an arm around me, holding me close as we began to walk down the sidewalk.

“How about some grub, ladies?”

We both agreed with Patrick, our tummies growling. °°°°°° Just as I was about to sit down next to Eleanor, she placed Mr. Floppy down, “Nu uh Aunt Y/N! This is a date and you sit with Patwick,”

Patrick laughed and I raised a brow at her bossy tone, “Is that so?”

Eleanor nodded her head, giving a toothless grin, “Yup!”

Shaking my head, I scooched in next to Patrick, close enough that our thighs were touching.

A young, skinny waitress came to the table, turning the flirt on when she saw Patrick. Both Eleanor and I rolled our eyes.

She completely ignored us, though. “What can I get you, sir?”

He caught on, but he was as smooth as ever. Looking over to Eleanor, he asked her, “What do you want to eat, Ellie Honey?”

Eleanor glared at the waitress, “Mac and cheese,”

Grabbing my hand and putting his other on my thigh, Patrick looked right at me, “What about you, baby?”

I blushed, “Um, double bacon burger, well done and fries,”

Giving my thigh a squeeze, he then looked at the waitress, “I’ll have the same,”

She jotted down our order and licked her lips at Patrick, “Be right out.”

“Wude!” Ellie scoffed.

I snorted and laughed, then looked at Patrick, “Baby, huh?”

He raised a brow, “Problem?”

I gave him a wink, “Not at all.”

He ran a finger over my jaw, “Good,”

Dinner was great and we were stuffed. Eleanor was ready for bed, her yawning and bleary eyes getting itchy.

As soon as we got home, Patrick helped me get Eleanor inside and into bed.

“Good night, Ellie,” he said, kissing her forehead.

“Night Patwick,”

She was out before I could even say good night.

“I had fun tonight,” I told him, once we were back in the living room.

“Me too,”

“Do you think… you would want to go out again?” I asked him, leaning against the wall near the door.

“Of course,” he replied, coming closer to me.

His hands went to my waist as he bit his bottom lip, “Would you mind if I kissed you?”

“Not at all,”

Cupping my cheek and pulling my body from the wall, he held me as his lips slowly and gently moved over mine.

His lips were firm as he pulled back and connected with slow caresses.

I moaned softly, my fingers threading into his hair.

His kisses were quiet, only a slight pecking sound when he would pull back. With his lips hovering just above mine, he whispered, “You’re something else, Y/N,”

“I can say the same about you,”

I felt his smile as he continued to kiss me. Patrick’s hold on me became firmer the more our kiss intensified.

I knew that when I moaned, that this needed to end before we slept together.

“Patrick,”

He pulled back one last time with a gasp, resting his forehead on mine, “I’m sorry,”

Our breaths mingled together, “Don’t be… I just don’t want to ruin this,”

He pushed some hair behind my ear, “Me either, Y/N.”

Patrick continued to whisper as did I; we didn’t want to bust our little bubble, “I better go,”

“Okay… Call me?”

His hand splayed over my neck, his thumb caressing my jaw, “I’ll stop by tomorrow if that’s alright?”

I smiled, “It is,”

“See you, Sweetheart,”

With one last, extremely soft peck, Patrick left, closing the door quietly behind him.

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