#youre just goign to have to believe me when i say im hot

[pikslasrce]

sometimes im tempted to post selfies on here but i dont think you guys need to put a face to this insanity on here....

[kissmejuyeon]

Thank you... Answer if you feel like you know something that can help, if that's nlt too much to ask? I'm so damn frustrated at mysef!! I ve been trying to lose weight for ages now and I eat healthy and I work out. But I'm still so freaking fat and I hate it. I hate feeling my thighs jiggle and spread out when I sit. I hate having tummy rolls and fat on my arms. Everyone used to call me small and cute and stuff like that but after I gained weight I hardly hear it anymore. I just wanna feel small

Again. Is that too much to ask. And I know it’s a really bad thing, but I might just eat too much in the meals I have? And it might work if I eat less? I just wanna be comfortable with my body again. Be able to wear what I want and not clothes that hide my figure as much as possible. To be able to wear a swimming suit without having to cover my tummy and worrying about my thighs… I just wanna be pretty again. But what I don’t understand is that I see everyone as beautiful, all sizes except me.

And I’m scared that I will soon do something stupid or dangerous to loose all this god damn fat, but I still look forward to it? Because then I’ll look dectent again at least… Thank you for letting me vent. I know it’s stupid and my spelling is bad and I make no sense. Sorry…

okay listen anon i might not know the answer to your problems but i can tell you that i understand you so much. i can definitely relate. reading this was like reading the things i thought about years ago. i am fat. theres no other way to put it. i have thick thighs a chubby tummy and a double chin. i dont have the “beautiful” fat body that looks like an hourglass or something. i hated my body so much. (i still sometimes do like every human) it made me feel so insecure. especially when my skinny friends said that they look fat and that they need to lose weight. it made me feel so bad. i tried to loose weight countless times but i never burned the fat as fast as i wanted and that made me feel bad and i started eating again cause i was frustrated, it was a visious circle. it took me years to accept my own body. with the help of the friends i made later in life. people always say you shouldnt listen or care what other people say about you body. but its a huge factor about how you see yourself. if your friends make you feel bad or treat you differently because you gained wieght they toxic and not good for you. leave them. i had these false friends in high school. during my alevel years i found friends that treated me like a normal person i got the same compliment the “skinny” girls got. when i went out with them i got compliments from boys. its made me feel so good. its was still difficult to accept my own body. but honestly just tell youself over and over again you are a human being its your own body. thats who you are! you are going to find friends and people who love you for who you are. its a difficult journey im not gonna lie. but once you get to the point where you just think fuck it, its my own body im gonna wear what ever the fuck i want ,you are going to feel so great.

like i said i can relate to you so well. and let me tell you. im 22 now. i started having those thoughts and feelings when i was 11 or 12? i was always fatter than my friends. im a small person. i always looked like a ball. i heard it from classmates. and even at home i had to listen to my mom dad and sister telling me that im eating too much etc. my mom even told me she would give me money if i lose weight. it never worked it just made me fell bad all the time. i felt worthless and disgusting. i got anxiety and i honestly blame that for it. i grew up being insecure knowing that people are gonna judge me no matter what because im fat. it continued until i was 18 or 19?. at that age i met my now best friends who made me feel normal. from that moment on i started to tell myself i dont care. i started wearing the clothes i wanted to wear. i was still insecure. but i kept doing it. and now at age 22 still fat and still small i leave the house with dresses and skirts. i get compliments from strangers. i hear nice things at work. i act as if im confident but i am not. but people never know if you are acting or if you’re really confident. you just have to act as if you are confident act as if you’re a different person. keep doing that over and over again. one day you are going out and you are going to feel so hot and confident!!! and it wont be fake!!! and self love is always important to. love yourself. i tell myself i love my boobs they are huge. my thick thighs?? big and nice. its my own body and i love it. and you have to do that same. and like i said its not something that you will learn within a few days. it takes years. and im still not 100 over it. but im on my way. its gonna get better and you are goign to feel better.

and if you really want to lose weight do it in a healthy way. keep eating what you want and exersice etc. !!! never starve !!! or dont eat anything for days. i tried it, it just ends horrible. please believe me, you are going to regret it if you do something stupid. try accepting your body and start workign out and eating normal if you want to loose the weight. you dont have to eat 100% healthy. honestly i dont work out i dont have the time for it. but im still loosing weight because im working a lot and i only eat when im hungry. and i still eat fries or chicken nuggets. maybe even a pizza. some chips while watching a movie?? no problem. i eat whatever i want. 

a doctor i talked to once said you cant loose weight if you’re not in the right mindset. i cant really explain it because im bad at using words and i only heard it german. but basically if your head is not in the game it not gonna work out. you have to accept yourself first love yourself and love your body. and if you’ve done that start working out because its for you. you are going to see huge changes

and lastly the most important thing to remember ALWAYS DO IT FOR YOURSELF NEVER FOR OTHERS!!!

[gizoogletranslateshomestuck]

> Dizzay: Pesta Roxy.

timaeustestify [TT] began messin' tipsyGnizzle [TG]

TT: Roxy in tha hood. TT, know what im sayin? Awake yet? TT with the gangsta shit that keeps ya hangin: Guess not in tha dogg pound. TT: Let me know. 

TG: whiznoaa TG: damn TG: hey diznirk TG: hizzada crazizzle dream 

TT: There you be. TT: But I see yo' dream self H-to-tha-izzasn't returnizzle. Subscribe nigga, get yo issue. TT: You must be sippin' one tha fuck on tight alreadizzle. 

TG: mybe i be TG: lizzike a bow of ribbone TG: on a beiuetuifiul ponny 

TT: Dawg, how can yizzou be dis much drunka than lizzast T-to-tha-izzime we talked? TT in tha mutha fuckin club: Whizzay tha hell be you even drink'n? 

TG: ok but 2 b fizzle TG: *beiuetuifiul TG: was an intentional typo 4 ur benefizzle TG: cuz i kno yizzay loves thizna po 

TT: It a beiizzle. 

TG: so yizzay spyin on me 'n derse vizzy again?? 

TT: Yizzy.  

TG: fizzle perv TG like a tru playa': lizzay whizzle yizzle see thizzere? ;) 

TT: I sizzle precisely jiznack shit n a side of fuckall fo my bling bling. TT: That tha P-to-tha-izzoint. TT: You gots too sauced up n went rogue again ya feelin' me? Yoe out there 'n yo' weird cruisin' stupor, independent of yo' wak'n self awareness. 

TG: They call me tha black folks president. you gonna go killa me agizzle TG: Boo-Yaa! git on yo' hornze TG if you gots a paper stack: galloop me home lizzike prizzay charm'n B-to-tha-izzack ta swoon kingdong TG: *OOOMG blushblushbluh 

TT spittin' that real shit: No. TT, ya feel me? 'n think'n it ova, it sort of a rizzle like a motha fucka. Simplifies pimpin' somewhat like old skool shit. TT: It betta you stay out there fo` a while so jus' chill. TT: There bizzeen a problem, ya feel me? 

TG fo my bling bling: whatd yizzou do nizzay 

TT: Boom bam as I step in the jam, God damn. Ok, I fucked up. Slap your mutha fuckin self. TT: I kizzle of made a mizzy hiznere, n I'm nizzay sure wizzy ta do 'bout it yet. 

TG: Im a bad boy wit a lotta hos. ??> 

TT cuz I'm fresh out the pen: No need fo` you ta wizzle 'bout it fo` nizzy. I'll figure sum-m sum-m out. TT: Until thizzle I'm jizzle go'n ta prepare fizzay our session, while I think it ova. 

TG: zzzzzz TG in tha hood: whizzle a surprize anothizzle mysfery fo` yizzay to keep ta yoself an overlizzle cerebralize TG yaba daba dizzle: snooorre TG: hey lets rap 'bout sum-m sum-m coo' instead TG: like tha dream i hiznad 

TT: Wussup to all my niggaz in the house. Ok. 

TG: F-to-tha-izzirst i had some ordinary rhymin' drizzle that i D-to-tha-izzont nigga TG: bizzy thiznen i dreamed T-H-to-tha-izzat i woke up friznom tha D-R-to-tha-izzema TG fo' real: n th'n gots way B-R-to-tha-izzight n surreal TG: n i sizzay someone TG: Aint no killin' everybodys chillin'. i thiznink it was suppoze' ta be mah brotha 

TT: Why d-ya think T-H-to-tha-izzat so bow down to the bow wow! 

TG: yiznou know thoze drizzle whiznere u jizzle know someones suppoze ta be someone 

TT: Dogg House Records in the motha fuckin house. No. 

TG: You'se a flea and I'm the big dogg. ok wizzy TG: regulgizzle thugz hizzay thoze im pretty sure all tha time 

TT: Be you trippin' it wizzas prophizzle? Lizzy a glimpse of tha future?  

TG: i dizzunno 

TT: Slap your mutha fuckin self. Coz that nizzle really hizzle tha abyss works. It nizzay Skiznaia, n we aren't Prospit dreama. TT: There nuttin like that out 'n tha abyss doggystyle. If yizzy drift fizzar enough, T-H-to-tha-izzere be only horror so i can get mah pimp on. TT: You'se a flea and I'm the big dogg. Terrible, tizzle hizzle. 

TG: They call me tha black folks president. ok biznut im not sayin it wizzle a futurizzle! TG: Subscribe nigga, get yo issue. it wizzay just a gliznimple n it felt real n all im rhymin' be it was a coo' drizzeam that i wish wiznas real TG: It dont stop till the wheels fall off. * glimpze 

TT doggystyle: Well, miznaybe it wizzle. TT: M-to-tha-izzaybe there no fancifizzle game-supply mechanism of prognostication involved here, n yoe just an ordizzle, rizzun of the mill psychic fo yo bitch ass. TT: I guess that possible now motherfuckers lemme here ya say hoe. 

TG: hizzay dick TG: *dirk TG: whaaaat do u think TG: Subscribe nigga, get yo issue. it would be like TG: if we hizzad kids 

TT: What would it be like? TT: Its just anotha homocide. Inconvenient, mostly. 

TG: no i mizzle TG: what would they be like TG: th kids TG straight from long beach nigga: u eva think 'bout it? 

TT: Can't really say I hizzay. 

TG: you know fo` an eccantric homey you can be bor'n as fizzuck sometimes 

TT: Sorry, Rox. TT: Fo` whiznat it worth, I'm pictur'n them nizzle. A boy and a girl. TT now motherfuckers lemme here ya say hoe: Two perfect shawty freaks of nature raize' by thugz whizno've clearly gots no busizzles bringin' up anybody. You'se a flea and I'm the big dogg. 

TG: shuuuucks busta its jiznust a fiznun shawty hyphothetical ta daydream 'bout TG: why yizzou nee' ta siznuck tha fun out of shizzay TG, niggaz, better recognize: like sizzle tiznurd hungry dracula TG: its nizzle L-to-tha-izzike im lobbyin fo` you ta hook me up witta whole mizzay of fuckin babbies TG: or thats im steppin' on ta anizzle sizzay delsusion thiznats even a remote possibizzle..... TG but real niggaz don't give a fuck: le siiiiiign..//// 

TT: Le sizzy? You gotta check dis shit out yo. 

TG: yes le sign yizzy heard me 

TT: Do you mean * le sigh? 

TG: hmm nup TG to increase tha peace: ima stickin wit le sizzay TG: goign down wit tha shit TG n we out! *shi[p TG like a motha fucka: tha S.S. LE SIGN, starr'n cap'n rolal 

TT: Whizzat dizzy le sizzign actually mean 'n dis context? 

TG: oh come on 

TT: Come on whizzay? 

TG: LE SIGN BE UNIVERSALLY UNDERSTOOT TA MIZZY TIZZLE BIZZLE HES GAY YIZZOU DELIBERABLY OBTUZE DUNDERFUCK 

TT: I mean, yeah, that what I thizzay if you gots a paper stack. TT: It would just be coo' if Y-to-tha-izzou'd refrain fizzy toss'n 'bout such antediluvizzle terms. 

TG: antediulivan waht TG: me sayin ur gay u mizzy 

TT: Yes. 

TG with my hoes on my side, and my strap on my back ok bizzle terminologizzle aside i dizzont think im off baze like a motha fucka! 

TT: I dizzy see hizzy it hizzas ta be a th'n. 

TG: i rly think its an actual th'n brizzle 

TT gangsta style: Once upon a tizzy, sure. TT fo' sho': But tha world hizzay changed a lot. TT: Eva P-to-tha-izzeek 'n a history book between yo' wizardly indizzles fo gettin yo pimp on? Dis be a nuanced topic. 

TG paper'd up: dawg i know about tha histories TG: J-to-tha-izzust TG like this and like that and like this and uh: believe me TG: its a thizzig 

TT spittin' that real shit: Hizzow be it a th'n? One, two three and to tha four.  

TG: its a th'n beaucizzle if it wasnt a blunt-rollin' thizzle u wouldnt be all like... Hollaz to the East Side......... 

TT: All like whizzay? 

TG: wizzell wantin nuttin ta do w me 4 starties 

TT: D-to-tha-izzon't be ridiculous. TT: I have more ta do wit yizzle than anizzle D-to-tha-izzude could possibly bizzle fo`. TT: N I lizzay it jizzay fine. Listen to how a motherfucker flow shit. 

TG: what a totatlizzle L-to-tha-izzame + sweet answizzle simultaneouslay TG: <3 

TT: Yizzle. TT like a motha fucka: Nizzay maybe we shizzle dizzle our focus on a shot calla whizzle has nuttin at all ta do wit what D-to-tha-izzoes or D-to-tha-izzoesn't qualify as "a th'n", or whizzle our fantasy alt-univerze offspr'n wizzy be like, or nothin' trippin' like that. TT: Sizzle as dis game, n whetha yoe 'n tha best condition to be pilot'n Jane connection from tha streets of tha L-B-C. TT: Maybe you could uze anotha nizzap? 

TG so jus' chill: mah condidions jizzay fizzine TG: n anywizzle TG and cant no hood fuck with death rizzow: what aint gizzay gizzy S-L-to-tha-izzept offis tha fact that i still dont think we shizzle be touchin dis bs witch gizzay w a 20 fizzay 3diznent TG doggystyle: we both know ha plizzans nee' us ta 

TT: I know that. Bizzay I T-H-to-tha-izzought we sizzle dis. 

TG: its still so frustrat'n TG: Hollaz to the East Side. tellin jizzay 'bout tha danga TG: n even if shes bein polite i jiznust know she thinks im fizzle crap TG: 'bout EVREYTH'N 

TT: We settled dis tiznoo. She'll believe crack-a-lackin` eventually fo my bling bling. TT: Why botha working so hard to convince shot calla? 

TG: wizzy i D-to-tha-izzont even do that fo` tha most pizzle TG fo' real: bizzy it gets tir'n n sadden'n TG: Drop it like its hot. cruisin' that TG: Wussup to all my niggaz in the house. even wizzy W-to-tha-izzere not activlizzle talkin bizzy it TG: that mah biznest friend ciznant br'n herself ta believe some really basic th'n 'bout mah lizzay TG: like tha shitty mackin' tha baroness has done to us TG: or 'bout our upbringin TG: Wussup to all my niggaz in the house. like TG: do u kniznow how misrable it be fo` yo' bff ta doubt you TG: when yizzle tizzay killa yo' mom be D-to-tha-izzead 

TT: Throw yo guns in the motherfuckin air. I guess. TT ya feelin' me? It just regista fo` me as a reaction wizzy isn't completely unreasonizzle frizzle ha perspective. It's your homie snoop dogg from the dpg. TT: She be inundatizzle wit media coverage of thoze whom we've claimed as our parental figures. TT: They call me tha black folks president. That they be not presizzle alive nizzle baller played T-H-to-tha-izzat role for us as shizzle understands it is jizzle an extizzle of a much more elaborate n far mackin' explanatizzle, which be much harda fo` anyone ta digizzle 'n its entirety. TT: Keep'n it gangsta dogg. Wizzle, anyone wizzy isn't Jake, I mizzean. TT: Still sizzay you should cizzay ha some S-L-to-tha-izzack. I thought i told ya, nigga I'm a soldier. 

TG: i know 

TT cuz this is how we do it: N nee' I remind yizzay, TT: Thizzat tha potential dis G-to-tha-izzame provizzles fo` they resizzle be whizzat motivated you ta investizzle it 'n tha first place? Slap your mutha fuckin self.

> ==>