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s3 episode 1 thoughts

wow… how much time has progressed… and to think, a mere two months ago, i barely knew these character’s names, let alone that they will likely stick with me for eternity...

let us begin. as we always must do.

okay, so i’m reading the episode description: scully is facing a possible dismissal!!! i know she broke rules but it was for FRIENDSHIP and LOVE! does that not count for anything anymore?!

(spooky noise) (dried up alien shot) (voice of disembodied narrative) last season on the X files…

(a recap of cig man burning things)

we open back in New Mexico, to Albert describing his relationship to memory and history: “memory is radiant and immutable, while history serves only those who seek to control it” <- banger line.

anyway. we see the smoldering ruins of that train car that was once full of aliens. but not a single mulder in sight…

cig man is breaking into the kind people’s houses!! he and his cronies are conducting violence… THEY HIT ALBERT IN THE HEAD NOOO??? HE IS A HERO... cig man, you are less than a mosquito to me

scully time!!! she’s on the scene… guess she didn’t get far back to DC. “where is he?” she asks, and they look at each other with concern in their eyes. oh, they don’t know...

eric walks into the room with a terribly beaten face... NOOO ERIC, THEY SHOULD HAVE NEVER DONE THIS TO YOU.

now scully is screaming for him on the cliffs whilst the smoke still billows from the train where he was last seen… no response… it is not looking good for our friend mulder!!

she finally tries to go home, and a helicopter is shining on scully. RIGHT on her. this is not good for driving. they run her off the road with no regard for anyone's safety??? could have caused a MASSIVE pileup.

anyway, they grab her and it’s upsetting, asking where the files are and she says in the trunk. do we believe her??? it’s a copy of some of them, but not the DAT, which i would guess means the original cassette tape... oh nooo i’m scared… i mean she couldn’t deny it, but it’s also not looking good for the secrets she was trying to keep. so, without the "DAT", they just leave.

back at the FBI, they are telling her she needs to take a leave of absence. she is looking at the ground and it is once again giving student in the principal’s office. NO PAY OR BENEFITS??? you can't do that... what if she needs to go to the doctor......

i guess she is a doctor but the point stands. you NEED insurance in these parts.

she gives them her badge and gun and says she thinks mulder is dead :( NOOOOO you cannot admit defeat

skinner says “don’t think this hasn’t been difficult for everyone” and she is holding back a very very very biting remark but actually manages to hold it back, so god only knows what she wanted to say. a stronger woman than i.

until she leaves the room, that is!!! skinner comes out to talk to her and OH SHE IS MAD!!

“what about the people who are poisoning agent mulder’s water? whose protocol was that? the men who killed agent mulder, the people who killed his father- they aren’t meant to be found”

“we will find them”

“with all due respect, sir, I think you overestimate your position in the chain of command” <- OHHHH TEA. she basically said, you're a liar working for liars and perpetuating lies. meanwhile WE'RE the only real bitches at the function and one of ‘em’s dead because of YOUR pet cigarette man. SICK!!!!! truly evil.

now she has to find some work to pay the bills skinner!!

(i don't think skinner is evil, i just think he's a dick sometimes and that pisses me off more than sheer evilness. EACH time i think i have him figured out. he does something that proves me wrong)

one last visit to mulder's office before she leaves. she's going to take the real files on the cassette and they are GONE??? to whom have they gone…..

back in new york city. it's a meeting of the minds, all the big names in the world of covering up the existence of aliens. cig man is saying everything is fine, mulder is dead, and all the files are back. ALLEGEDLY!! i believe him on no accounts.

GASP scully going to her mom’s house… she walked there barefoot at night because her shoes hurt her :(

“i’ve made a terrible mistake. dad would be so ashamed of me” NOOOOOOOOOOOO DON’T SAY THAT!!!

(i cannot speak to the moral character of her father but if it were me, i would say it was doing the Right thing that counts far more than following corrupt orders from a corrupt system. and this is further proof that she is one of those people who Has to do the right thing or the guilt will consume her... )

and she DID do the right thing!!!! she just doesn't have faith!!!! i'll cry!!!

buzzards back in New Mexico… oh........

HAND SPOTTED!! white man’s hand in the rocks. is it mulder smushed??????

IT IS!! albert and co are hauling him out of a hole, and he’s looking quite dead, but he seems to have hid in a cave with the aliens. good on him for finding a convenient hole to duck into.

they’re doing a ceremony to call the Holy People!!!! i hope it works because remember, the calusari said mulder knows the devil and that seems contradictory...

hopefully they were just lying.

scully back home. sleeping in bed. answering the door, for someone knocks.

it’s FROHIKE???? i cackled. WHY does he know where she lives! and also why is he here when she is in her robe! well. i guess mourning will have you up and about at odd hours.

he drank a whole bottle of what looks like vodka...? and described mulder as “a redwood among mere sprouts” i laughed... it's so genuine. we all know a frohike, for better or for worse.

he assumes that she will be next in line for hunting The Truth, to which she replies, “i’m soon to be out of a job”. but she's a doctor, so it is gonna be okay. maybe she can just leave the last few months off her resume and get letters of recommendation from her professors. doctors, high in demand.

"and like rats, they just scatter back into the woodpile” she says, when discussing how these secretive people pull the strings behind the curtains. i took note because this is a yeehaw-sounding saying.

i guess we don't ever learn where she grew up, because it probably wasn't in one place, with her dad in the navy... but still. such a phrase is giving some sort of appalachia.

frohike brings bad news: the thinker was killed EXECUTION STYLE and found in a landfill... this is soooo fucked up. she is shocked they would do something so stupid and i was like ??? but ohh she's talking about tracing the bullets!

(i only realized this much later. i won't lie)

back in New Mexico, albert is working overtime calling the Holy People to come help, and mulder's floating out in space as he contemplates leaving this plane…

people are surrounding him. perhaps the holy people or his ancestors??

but no, it is... DEEP THROAT??? I’VE MISSED YOU!!! it was nice to see him again, even for a brief moment in the astral plane.

he’s going on, very theatrically, about the absence of time in whatever it is inhabits after life: “i come to you, old friend, with the dull clarity of the dead, not to beckon you, but to feel the fire and intensity that still live in you…. there is truth here, if that is what you seek, but there is no justice or judgement, without which, truth is a vast, dead hallow” <- he has been reading Shakespeare in the afterlife

no i actually loved that line. it goes hard. "the dull clearity of the dead". i'm eating that arrangement of words up

cutscene: aliens being gassed and locked in the railroad car. that’s…. Horrific

(this scene takes mere seconds, and isn't addressed again in any real way in the episode, but holy. it was. unsettling. what did these bastards do to them....?)

back to the commune with the deceased. it's Bill! mr. mulder! he opens his eyes at his dad’s voice. his dad says he’s very sorry for lying about the whole alien thing, and says he is the memory; “if you were to die now, the truth would die, and only the lies survive us”. so no pressure whatsoever. /s

seemingly awake now, he asks if his sister is in the realm with the rest of those who have passed. and he learns she isn't there yet, so i'm pretty sure that makes up his mind, that he'll go back. but imagine if the answer was yes, she was there... do you think he would have still found the strength to return?

back in D.C., scully has to take the visitor’s entrance to the FBI :( but the security guard knows her!!! she is friendly in this way :) she beeps suspiciously... but he lets her though. i suspect that she might be hiding something... but what?

she's waiting for skinner. and ohhh skinner didn’t call her “agent” this time...ohhh the vibes are…….. not really vibing. it is uncomfortable.

she is bringing the news article to him and suggesting cross running the weapon that killed the thinker with the weapon that killed mulder’s dad to get some answers. this seems reasonable to me! he says she has been relieved of investigative duty and basically dismisses her. but she just wants to be helpful!!!! can you blame her??? she just wants to be HELPFUL, skinner, she wants her friend back and not dead. so please DON'T say something catty right now, i SWEAR.

SKINNER. I HATE YOU SOMETIMES. “ohhh the systems would have went off” so there is no need to cross reference the weapons. they’re killing people executioner style!!!! do you really think the people at the police department wouldn’t cover such a thing up?!?!? come ON let's use our heads!!!

he parrots her earlier line about him not having as much power as he thinks... ohhh you bitch. you should both be on the same team here and that team is "please let agent mulder be ALIVE"

he’s all “oh, you just wanna be helpful because you want your job back?” and she very firmly says NO. i just want answers. and honestly, she is handling this way better than i would be. because i would be biting and clawing skinner at this moment. to imply that she just wants her JOB back when she's trying to bring him information regarding a bunch of mysterious deaths, including that of her PARTNER?!?!?

so he says to bring him the cassette tape that she DOESN’T have or otherwise sit tight and let them do their job. and there is unbridled rage in her eyes but it somehow manages to not escape beyond body language and again, applause.

pause. i’m actually so pissed on scully's behalf right now. and i just KNOW filming these scenes had to be fun.

as always in skinner's office, Bill Clinton watches over everything. his eyes are cold and uncaring. like a god who has abandoned its creation.

the MINUTE she leaves his office, cig man enters... SICK!!!! he's asking about the tape that he earlier claimed to the squad in new york that he got back… “that’s unfortunate”, he says, when he learns she doesn't have it. did he PLANT IT ON HER?? is that what the beeping was? do cassettes beep on metal detectors? i had some as a kid, i just remember feelings of plastic when holding them <-op was NOT onto something here

upon leaving, she is confused about the thingy beeping again. “you wearing a necklace or something?”, asks the security man. “no, not today”, and...... OH.... THE VISUAL INDICATOR THAT SHE HAS LOST ALL FAITH IN THE FORM OF HER CROSS NECKLACE BEING ABSENT. AUGHHHH TEARING MY SHIRT. ripping my hair out in grief. but that leaves the real question: what is in there?

she goes to the doctor, who looks at her neck. SOMETHING IS IN HER SKIN??? embedded in there. oh... it’s scarred over and they’re gonna pull it out, and i'm thinking i might gag if they show it, but thankfully they cut then. WHAT DID THEY DO TO HER IN ALIEN LAND????

back to the New Mexico cam!!! mulder progress!! three days of chanting and he is asking for water!! good news.

back to D.C. no extraction scene visible, thank god. COMPUTER CHIP???? IN HER NECK??? did they microchip her... so they can track her location... or is it some sort of coded information... oh this is soooo evil

back talking with melissa!!!! my witchy best friend!!! melissa wants scully to unpack her memories, but can you blame her for NOT wanting to do that?? does reliving alien testing sound fun to you??? but, despite her reservations, she goes to a hypnotherapist anyway because she is a good sister and melissa played the "please? for me?" card

(damn, this show sure has a lot of hypnotherapy. it’s funny because i have never encountered it at all outside of this show. maybe it was the big thing at the time? and they wanted to be cool and trendy?)

but we’re back now, in repressed memory town, circa the Duane Barry era. regarding whoever was conducting the tests on her, she says she couldn’t resist them. hey what does THAT mean!!!

things look close to getting revealed when she says it’s time to go. like i said, i can imagine this is probably top ten worst sensations of all time.

so she drives back home and skinner is there??? HUH???? she looks sooooo gagged. and i was too.

(tell me why. oh god this is awful. tell me why my first reaction was “she must be going back to her mom's place... and he’s dating scully’s mom”) (cue the "i'm going to start dating her HARDER" scene from the office)

back in New Mexico. to end the ceremony, mulder must not do any work, change clothes, or bathe for 4 days. PLEASE DO THIS THING MY FRIEND. the boys give him a pouch for sunflower seeds, which he asked for during the worst of his fevers. the sunflower seeds... that when he heard them as a kid, reminded him he was not the last person in the universe... my sweet babygirl, who is a grown man breaking many many laws... glad to have you back in our world

albert shares that he went to the origin place, so overall, this mission seems to have been a success. so please, mulder, do NOT screw this up!!! sit in a hotel room and eat your seeds in your dirty clothes just do NOT break the rules of the ceremony that just saved your life.

scully calls skinner, asking why he was at her place, and he denies ever being at her apartment. BUT cig man is sitting right in front of him soooo it wouldn't have been a good time to talk anyway...

mulder is monologuing into the abyss, as he has found a way to infiltrate scully’s dreams!! very impressive!!

cutscene to his father’s his funeral. scully is there. because she is fundamentally good. she hasn’t met his mother before, right? i recall thinking earlier their first exchange might not go well, because of the whole sacrificed the “sister” for her in the hostage exchange deal thing...

but it actually goes as well as a first meeting a funeral can go. and without citing her prophetic dreams, scully tells her that she has a strong feeling he will be found. scully engaging in the supernatural...? are her sisters words ringing in her ear? or does she interpret a prophetic message dream as a message from the subconscious. i don't even think she knows.

meanwhile, a suspicious man watches this. he wants to talk to her away from the others. he makes some vague sort of reference to the UN league of alien safeguarding, and he says with confidence that mulder is dead.

AND THEN HE STARTS DESCRIBING HOW SHE WILL BE MURDERED???? okay could we GET any more unsettling. survey is saying no. anyway, she will be murdered with either with an unregistered weapon and people who will be out of the country right after the crime has been committed, or by someone she trusts visiting her house. uh oh… skinner looking sus

she asks why she is worth killing: "you want something they don’t- justice” hmm. many such cases in american history.

this guy claims to be tipping her off because his colleagues are acting “impulsively” and her death would just draw attention to them. i mean they have already killed like, 3 people if you count presumed dead mulder, but maybe one more would really push it over the edge?

mulder’s mom comes home. AND HE’S THERE!!!! in different clothes. 4 days had best have passed. i refuse to contemplate that he violated the terms of the ceremony.

okay, back from the dead, and he is interrogating his mom about his dad. she is not answering any questions- does she truly not remember or is she just deflecting... she wants to know what the deal is, and he grabs a gun and says it has to do with samantha. and leaves ominously. that man sure does want to make a dramatic exit.

missy wants to come over (scully calls her sister missy!), and she says to come over. but then someone immediately calls and hangs up- a universal sign of danger, as scully knows. she tries to call missy back, but she doesn't pick up the phone. so she calls back and she says she’ll go over to missy's place instead. the air is very very tense. something is about to go down. but what?

running to her car. and IT'S SKINNER? he says to get in the car. scully goes in anyway but is very clearly suspicious he’ll kill her. AND SHE PULLS THE GUN ON HIM WHEN THEY GET TO MULDER'S PLACE!

“don’t turn around, or I’ll blow your head off” TEAAA! let out some of that rage i was earlier commenting was so well managed.

“don’t think I won’t do it, you son of a bitch” “no, I believe you” <- LMAOOOO he knows she is NOT messing around. and he does everything she asks of him, even sitting on his hands.

NOOOOO MELISSA GOES TO SCULLY'S PLACE AND KRYCHEK SHOOTS HER????? WHAAAAAAAAAAT???? he looks down and realizes it isn't scully, so he tells his companion that they should just leave. absolutely useless flop of a man. how did he even get into the FBI. maybe they'll just take anyone.

back to mulder's place. skinner claims he has the tape, and that he took it from mulder's desk. then why would he have sent her on the fool's errand of trying to find it? and now they BOTH have guns drawn on each other… as someone approaches the door…. presumably mulder coming home???

OHHHHHH this is the first time i have wanted to drop absolutely EVERYTHING and go straight into the next episode, writeup be damned. AUGHHH. what about melissa!!!!!! please let her make it PLEASE I CAN’T WATCH SCULLY ENDURE THIS!!!! can you imagine if she walks in the door and sees her sister bleeding out... hopefully krychek was too much of a failure to even land a lethal wound.

and honestly, from the moment I laid eyes on Krychek way back in s2, so long ago, i KNEW that he was a fucking rat. like. evil evil evil. idk how they’re gonna try and make me like him again if they decide to keep him on as a recurring character, but i truly do NOT give a fuck about what sort of backstory they come up with for him. i’m choosing anger over healing here.

i’m that guy by the cork board pinning things with string and smoking a cigarette until all the things line up because truly WHAT is going on!!!!

really great episode; the pacing and suspense were fantastic, i feel pumped to start a new season, i have a million questions but in an exciting rather than an overwhelming way, skinner you are once again on thin ice!!!

#melissa you have to live it is not negotioable. i am no longer asking.#krychek you deserve every ounce of suffering you have so far been denied in your life due to your cherubic frat boy looks #may hell unleash upon him like the flooding of the yellow river #we are soooo back baby!!!!!!!!!#juni's x files liveblog #3x01 #the x files #txf

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tinytinybumblebee · 1 year ago

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Cans we get Toki Wartooth agere hcs? :3

Heck yes!!!!!

- just a little guuuy!! Mostly regresses anywhere between 1 to 4 years old♡

- still has a huge obsession with building model planes or anything that lets him use his hands and be creative! This is truly the easiest way to keep Toki from toddling around, hand him one of these bad boys

And you'll have the most still Toki. Though, make sure he doesn't have to leave his building unfinished, he will pout and fuss!

- Has the cutest covers for his insulin pump/dexcom (it has lil clowns and fishies!) It helps him feel less scared of having to do level checks (big Toki can do it like a champ! But, tiny Toki has a biiit of hesitancy)

- Will sleep in someone else's bed. It's that, or he'll be crying until Pickles or Skwis sleepily comes to him and falls asleep with him in Toki's bed xD The lil guy just really doesn't like sleeping alone, even with nightlights, white noise machine, he needs to know he's safe in someone else's arms ;w;

- Murderface tries to be the uber cool big brother who knows alllll the neat stories and tells Toki all his hairscheme ideas. Toki of course is just a lil guy and latches onto what Murderface says (of course, Nathan and Pickles have to step in like "Hooo-kay we are not letting Toki try out your latest invention, Murderface" xD)

- Toki, is definitely that baby brother who follows Skwis everywhere! Always wanting to join Skwis, very much a monkey see, monkey do. It annoys Skwis soooo much because he's got the baby chewing on his guitars and fancy blankets!! Pickles is just like, "Awe, he just likes ya Skwis, probably thinks you're real cool." (Which, flatters Skwis. So he guessssses he can stand this xD)

- Loooves to tell stories through his plushies (sometimes they're,,, incredibly graphic and gore filled, but hey, kid is very traumatized and is a death metal guitarist, what can you expect?)

- Definitely still believes in Santa, Easter Bunny, and all those folklore/holiday characters (if anyone tells him they're not real, he'll just pout and say "Proves it!!" Which, I mean, technically, you can't prove it either way, so, just let him have his fun)

- Wants to be held like 9/10 times, Nathan is the strongest, so you'll routinely see him just working on lyrics while Toki is hooked around him like a little kola on his mama ;w;

- Monster High dolls. He loves 'em and definitely would have a big collection of them!

#agere #age regression #sfw #fandom agere #mailbox #toki wartooth #metalocalypse

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5sosfanfictioncatalogue · 3 months ago

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top!ashton x bottom!luke Masterlist

and I’ll always let you (ao3) - mercutionotromeo E, 3k

Summary: Overhead, the speaker tells them it’s ten minutes to showtime. Luke freezes and gives Ashton a questioning look, but Ash just fits his mouth over the head of his cock again.

“Mm-mm. Not done with you.”

Luke cries out at the feeling of Ash’s tongue on him and grabs the edge of the makeup table to steady himself, his rings clinking against the smooth surface. Ash pulls off of him and looks up at the wrecked expression on Luke’s face. He has him right where he wants him.

better than anything you’ve tried (ao3) - mercutionotromeo E, 2k

Summary: “Good puppy. Want you to shake that pretty ass for me. Show me what I’m missing, hm? Show off for me.”

Ash bites his lip as he thinks about gripping Luke’s hips, about leaving nail marks on his ass, about slapping one of his soft thighs just to hear him squeak.

“Perfect. My perfect, pretty puppy. You want to touch yourself, puppy? Would that feel good?”

Court Five (ao3) - takemymoneycth E, 21k

Summary: A story in which a young college tennis player maybe likes his new coach a little too much.

Drumstick (ao3) - im_just_a_sucker_for_bromance E, 3k

Summary: When Michael left Luke tied to the bed, it was Ashton who came to the rescue. The conversation they had, turned into proving how good of a drummer Ashton was and in the end, Luke always got what he wanted.

Everything i didn’t say but i should (ao3) - RinasWonderland M, 4k

Summary: Luke is in Love with Ashton, Ashton is in Love with Luke. Neither of them knows, until one hot night.

First Time for Everything (ao3) - orphan_account N/R, 3k

Summary: The first time they decided to go all the way, Luke had felt his skin go red as Ashton had quickly pushed him inside of his own bedroom. They had just gotten back from their seventh date together, at a park near Luke’s house.

Height (ao3) - iCheeseYou (EHkook) M, 12k

Summary: “I may be shorter than you, but I most certainly do not bottom.”

Hot Dog With Mayonnaise (ao3) - im_just_a_sucker_for_bromance E, 3k

Summary: Ashton had taken it up to him to annoy his band mates after they called him annoying and he was quite successful because he could tell he had gotten on their nerves. When Calum, Luke and Michael were deciding to put an end to that madness, Luke voluntarily proposed to handle the situation, in his own personal ways.

In the Next Room (ao3) - valiantnerd (arareads) E, 28k

Summary: Ashton moves into an apartment with walls made of little more than cardboard and foreign playlists, develops a gigantic crush on Luke, and takes a hot second realizing what's right in front of him.

Is This a Game You're Playing? (ao3) - boomercal E, 2k

Summary: Luke thinks three rainchecks is two too many and decides a little flirting couldn't hurt anyone. Ashton decides differently.

i want to be loved by you (ao3) - lucasshem N/R, 4k

Summary: ashton always gets what he wants, and currently, he wants luke.

Let’s Be Alone Together (ao3) - antisocialhood E, 3k

Summary: He was the cliché, pampered blonde with a charming smile, bright blue eyes and long limbs that liked to wear panties and purple nail polish.

Life-Size Luke (ao3) - plushyluke E, 15k

Summary: ashton is a sex store employee when the new adult, collector dolls hit the shelves. he’s had enough of these “lukey dolls,” when one night everything changes, and his life becomes lukalicious.

“Looks Like Superbloom Merch” (ao3) - plushyluke luke/ashton E, 2k

Summary: Luke steals Ashton’s Superbloom t-shirt. Ashton fucks him in it.

New Romantics (ao3) - Honeyedlashton E, 7k

Summary: A Lashton story where a stressed out Ashton finds a real date on Grindr. And when he meets Luke the two proceed to live the night to the fullest...

ride 'em cowboy! (ao3) - Anonymous E, 2k

Summary: The only thing Luke hated about teaching was field trips. But after meeting a hot cowboy on a field trip to a farm, and later running into said hot cowboy again, he just might have a new appreciation for them.

scars on my body (yeah i love the pain) (ao3) - orphan_account N/R, 4k

Summary: :+: Ashton comes home from work with stress in his veins, and he can remember Luke telling him that he could be of use during this time, so he does what any sex-deprived man would, fucks the living daylight of him. :+:

Shots (ao3) - im_just_a_sucker_for_bromance E, 4k

Summary: Luke always loved teasing Ashton and that was what he had in mind but what he did not know was that Ashton was going to turn the situation around. The drummer had already planned on a little something and was only waiting for the right time to execute his plan. In the end, Luke got more shots than he had expected. It started with shots and ended with shots.

Snow in Love (ao3) - plushyluke E, 7k

Summary: “in that cold instant, ashton put his hands back on the steering wheel. watching him back out of the parking space was torment. luke felt like there was a beast inside of him, clawing and desperate to be set free. aching to get ashton alone. to spend a second with him uninterrupted.”

or ashton takes the 5sos boys on a snowy vacation, and luke is disappointed that it wasn’t an opportunity to hook up.

Stay here with me, I won’t tell a soul (ao3) - DefinitelyNotErin_x M, 4k

Summary: An angry confrontation between Ashton and Luke leads to more than either of them bargained for.

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mercenary-jake-muller · 4 years ago

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Jake Muller's Journal || Entry 01

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November 12, 2019

"I hate days like these.

These types of days where I don't have to do shit. Just sit around all day and not do a damn thing.

People say I should relax more and sure, I like to relax some days. Hell, I need to sometimes, but what I hate is having to relax or sit around for too long. I always gotta do something or I just don't feel right, you know? I always think if I stay in one place for too long then there's a chance I can get attacked and hit the dirt as a forever resting place. Maybe it's the merc in me makin' me feel this way... Always on edge. Always in danger.

Since I got nothin' to do, I guess I'll just keep writing in this journal.

God, I'm not really good at this shit--writing my thoughts down... Well whatever. Here goes nothing.

It's fuckin' cold outside. It's so cold that I could have freaking ice cycles comin' out my nose. While I was outside, my eye lashes were practically frozen together. I had bits of snowflakes all over me and my fingers were so cold that it hurt to move 'em when I needed to. Well, to be honest, the cold never really bothered me 'cause I grew up in it, yeah? Had no heating system when I was growing up. I only had my own body heat and one or two torn up blankets. When I was a little older, my mom would always try to make me get her blanket, too, but I would refuse 'cause I didn't want to make her freeze to death. I remember when I was real young, before she got sick, she would lie to me and tell me she didn't need any blankets to keep her warm. I'd always wake up in the middle of the night and check on her only to find her shakin' like a leaf, curled in her bed. I'd go grab all of my blankets and throw 'em on her and I wouldn't leave her side till she'd stop shakin'. Then I'd lay down on the floor and stay there with her during the rest of the night to make sure she didn't freeze anymore. I didn't mind being cold if it meant she would be warm enough to sleep. After all, she worked all day, everyday, and I would be at home most of the time.

I'm in some fancy hotel room. The place is pretty nice and has air conditioning and running electricity and honestly it's way too fancy for me. There was a fuckin' towel folded up as a penguin on my bed. Like the hell? Who the hell gives a shit about what their towel looks like? Just give it to me so I can use it to dry off. The walls are all a dark red, the floor is a pale, tanned colored carpet, and the doors are the same color as the carpet. There's three fancy paintings of flowers and some of the other buildings that can be found in the town hangin' up in the bedroom, bathroom, and small lounging area. The bed has tan bed sheets and pillow cases and the blanket is a dark red-- almost the same color as the walls. There's a television placed on the dresser across from the foot of my bed, but I'm not gonna bother watching it. Never liked watching television, anyway. There's a big window on the right side of my bed. The drapes are the same color as the walls and the glass on the outside has frost covering most of it.

I'm only stayin' in this place 'cause a lady I was working for told me she was gonna pay for my stay while I'm in this small town. I finished a job for her two days ago. Had to kill some high and mighty prick who thought he'd win a mayor election by sending BOW's out to terrorize the town. He thought he could win by sending out military personnel to dispose of the monsters and pretend that he was the good guy. I hate people like that, who pretend to be somethin' they aren't just to get something they want. I'm not sure when I'll be getting another job. That's why I'm not leaving yet. Hopefully I'll get one soon so I can get the hell outta here and start movin' again. These jobs take me all over the world and I think I enjoy seeing the sights, culture, and people as much as I like taking up assignments. I really love tryin' new food and drinks, like different types of coffee.

Damn, coffee sounds good right about now...

Just sat down on my bed and got me a cup of black coffee while I was up. Took a quick shower to warm me up, too, and I kinda felt bad messin' up the penguin towel. Wonder how long it took the staff to fold it like that? Well, whatever. I bet they already have tons of others made that way, too. They gotta wash and dry the towels anyway. Got my pajamas on, also. Just a pair of navy blue, cotton pants. I never wear a shirt cause it's just uncomfortable wearing one when I sleep. Doesn't matter how cold it is, I still get too hot and sweat like a dog.

What else to write...?

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Lookin' outside the window now as I gulp down my drink. It makes me warm up from the inside and so do a few memories. On days like these, where I don't have to do anything, all sorts of memories flood to the front of my mind. Good ones, bad ones...

All of 'em.

Used to, when I'd look out of a window while it was snowing, the snow would always remind me of my mom--and it still does, sometimes. Though, now when I see the snow... It reminds me of Sherry. It reminds me of the first day we met and how we had to survive together. I thought she was a preppy, know-it-all bitch who couldn't do a damn thing, but man, did she prove me wrong. She could beat the shit outta anyone and anything that got in her way and I bet she would have done the same to me if she had to.

I remember when Ustanak, the crazy fucker, had shot down our helicopter and we landed in the snow. Somehow, we had survived the fall even though our parachute had gotten torn by the metal debris. I had blacked out and woken up to Sherry laying on top of me. My brain woke up real quick when I had lifted my hand to find it was covered in blood and I hurriedly got myself out from under her. My heart was pounding rapidly against my chest and a cold sweat came over me as I began to panic when I saw she had a piece of metal sticking out of her back. On the inside, I was freaking out 'cause some chick I just met was about to die in front of me. I kept thinking how it should have been me who should have had the shrapnel lodged into my back. Not her. Not some innocent woman. I doubt she had done anything bad in her life, while I had done all kinds of horrible shit...

She surprised me when she told me to pull it out of her and I thought she was nuts when she just begged me to do it. So I did. I pulled the thing outta her, tossed it to the side, and as I was about to start ripping pieces of clothing to make some sort of bandage, I was shocked to find her skin and muscles pulling themselves back together.

I gotta admit, that shit freaked me the hell out.

After a while I got used to it. It was just part of her and something that helped formed her personality. I think she hated having it, though. Probably 'cause it reminded her of her parents and the shit she had to go through as a kid. I never asked her about it, though.

I hope she's doing okay these days. Hopefully she isn't doin' anything stupid or getting herself into trouble. It's been seven years since I've last seen or heard from her. ...I wonder if she even remembers me. Well if she doesn't then it won't bother me. I couldn't care less if she remembers me or not.

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F U C K !

I spilled my fuckin' coffee all over me and my journal-! Son of a fuckin' bitch! Damn this shit burns like he--

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The coffee has dried finally and now I can end this entry. God dammit. Didn't think I'd get so sidetracked while thinkin' about Supergirl. Spilled my own drink all over me and I had to change my pants. Now there's a big coffee stain over a few pages. Oh well. So long as I can still write in this thing. That's all that matters to me.

Well, the sun is goin' down and I think I'm gonna get some shut eye. Hopefully tomorrow I'll get a new client so I don't have to stay here and get stuck in my memories for too long.

Jake Muller"

《You find some extra writing on the back of the page. It appears to have been scribbled over by three continuous, messy lines.》

"I need to stop thinking about her. Need to stop worrying about her so much. I'm sure she's doin' fine and has some pretty boy helping her out and giving her everything she could wish for. You can't give her everything she wants and you sure as hell can't stay by her side cause you gotta work. You don't wanna be like dad and leave her alone for the rest of her life... Besides, you're not good enough for her. She needs someone better than you. Time to move on, Jake....Even if you can't stop thinking about her. Dammit...

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punkscowardschampions · 5 years ago

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Janis & Grace

Janis: Well, that was a laugh and a half Janis: do you actually want any drink or, anything else you can't get Grace: I'm not even going so no thanks Janis: Really Grace: they can drag me while I'm in the comfort of my room with my makeup fridge and hair wand just as easily Grace: I literally don't need to subject myself to camping Janis: Like you said, you actually wanted to go, they don't, you're really gonna bow out now Grace: & now I also don't obvs Janis: So you roll over again, yeah? Grace: excuse you Grace: I'm not sorry for not wanting to share a tent with Mia and Ella when they're like in love with each other or something Janis: 🙄 It's bullshit, Grace Janis: you aren't going to be in the bloody tent for any amount of time, it's a music festival, remember Grace: sure but I'm gonna have to be in the car forever and that's with you two so Janis: That's nice Janis: and it sounds like Asia might be too, or the other one Grace: yeah like you're so buzzing about it, babes Janis: I'll survive Janis: seriously, you can't not go, let them win Janis: that whole convo was depressing enough without her getting everything she wants, like Grace: I'm not you, I don't just do things cos other people don't want me to Janis: so spend another weekend moping when you could be doing something Grace: like she won't make sure I'm having the WORST time if I go Janis: like she doesn't make sure you're having the worst time always? Janis: fuck all different, is it Grace: it's not always like that Janis: sure Grace: it's not Grace: & it's your fault it is now Grace: idk why you had to start hanging out with us, you've sent her into the BIGGEST spiral literally ever Janis: yeah, would be my fault, 'course Janis: not obvious that she can't stand any of you unless you're doing exactly what she wants when she wants it Grace: it is your fault though! there's no way you wanna go to some lame music festival with any of us Grace: I'm not stupid Janis: What possible pleasure could I derive from any of this if not the joy of our company Janis: do tell Grace: 🙄🙄🙄 Janis: Seriously Janis: I'm not one of your friends, not that underhand and it's not that deep Grace: You're not being at all serious thanks Janis: how am I not Grace: Oh please Grace: literally not in the mood so Janis: yeah, I heard Janis: if you're so aggy she makes you look like a cunt, then stop playing into her hands every time Janis: she doesn't want to go, if you all jump ship, so can she Janis: it isn't difficult Grace: Duh Grace: but I'm the only one who isn't going so she has to Janis: Are you sure you're not stupid Janis: are you listening Grace: It's totally obvs that you think I am, babes Grace: we don't even need to do this Janis: do what Grace: have any kind of convo Janis: yeah, you left your manners at the door but since you've proved you're a total pussy in that convo it's falling a bit flat now Grace: okay Janis: Jesus, how are you such a doormat for someone when you're not even first choice Janis: sort it out Grace: Literally didn't ask for your sisterly advice Janis: well you need it Janis: state of that, abysmal, seriously Grace: can you just stop Janis: can you Janis: a better fucking question Grace: obvs not Janis: Christ Grace: It literally doesn't effect you if I do or don't go Grace: get over it Janis: it effects me you being a fucking joke Grace: no more than usual Janis: Fine Grace: 👋💜 then Janis: don't throw that at me Janis: not one of your 'mates' Grace: you wanted me to have some manners, hun Grace: but fine Janis: yeah, and that ain't it Janis: we've all seen how you use emojis Janis: passive aggression is still the latter, you're just being a wimp with it Grace: I'm not her, excuse you Grace: if I were, all this drama wouldn't be happening rn Janis: Don't pretend you mean half the shit you say Janis: your storytimes are more believable Grace: RUDE Janis: generous Grace: you're my sister, I mean what I say to you Janis: that's why you don't say shit Grace: ugh Janis: go on then, what are you gonna do with your weekend instead Grace: 🤷 boys have their uses Janis: yeah, that's a plan Grace: again, didn't ask Janis: no, I did, that's how a conversation works Janis: that's not even your idea, it's Asia's Janis: you're really going to her for the 🔥💡 are you Grace: 🙄🙄 Grace: cos going to the festival is such a 🔥💡 Janis: Yeah, that's why it's ticketed Janis: won't need to douche with bleach after either, best of both worlds Grace: EW Janis: yeah yeah Janis: are you really gonna leave Asia alone with those two Grace: UM you could read how quickly she turned on Hollie Grace: price of a spray tan and some acrylics Janis: She's thick Janis: you all want Mia to love you as bad as each other, at least being stupid is a valid excuse for that kind of behaviour Grace: me too, right? Janis: You going to say you don't? Grace: I'm not gay any more than you are, thank you Janis: 🙄🙄 Grace: I would love to know who she's planning to invite but not cos I'm 💔😍😍 Janis: I know Janis: but doubt it'll happen, or she has the bottle to Grace: you don't have any exes do you? Janis: loads Grace: I'm being serious Janis: so am I Grace: you are NOT Janis: and you'd know, how Janis: don't ask questions when you reckon you know the answers Grace: I'd know cos everyone else would if there were loads Grace: you'd be called everything I am, duh Janis: I'm better at keeping my life private Grace: well again, duh Janis: not hard Janis: so not 💔 Grace: I was just wondering if that was who she was bringing Grace: she's really as obsessed with you as you think any of us are about her Janis: I told you, I already know who it is Janis: and I don't need to think hard on that Grace: as if you're not gonna tell me who it is Janis: not anyone exciting Janis: or gonna happen, like I said Janis: now they've got Asia back, only need to win 'round whatserface too and the car is full again Grace: 🤷 Grace: maybe Ella's seat will be free for her mystery date, if Hollie spilt anything dramatic enough Janis: and lose her loyalest pet Janis: you're all just playing musical chairs Grace: it's happened before Janis: yeah, and like I said, musical chairs Janis: fuck all changes Janis: you're all still 'friends' whatever the dynamic you reckon Janis: her>you Grace: & like I've said repeatedly since you started hanging out with us why are you 'friends' with any of them now? Janis: why'd ya think Grace: why won't you just tell me? Janis: why would I Grace: UM maybe cos you've been shading me constantly for not standing up to them & you're inviting them all to festivals and joining us on sleepovers like they're your new besties Janis: come on, it ain't hard Grace: so say it Janis: it's different 'cos I don't care about them or what they've got to say Janis: and I'd tell 'em the same so you can go ahead if that's your plan or whatever Janis: like I said, not that deep Grace: I don't have a plan Grace: obvs I'm the only one who doesn't rn Janis: obviously Janis: have you ever met your mates Grace: Why can't you just go back to hating me and them from afar or whatever? Grace: you're ruining everything Janis: yeah Janis: you was well solid before this Janis: I didn't have to do shit, that's the truth Janis: I didn't say anything in that entire convo Grace: you literally know you don't have to Grace: she's mad at me for being your sister Grace: which I didn't even ask for Janis: 💔 Janis: such a good friend Janis: get a grip and say you aren't obsessed with her again, like Grace: forget it Janis: mhmm Grace: have fun at the stupid festival Janis: Honestly, Grace, grow up Grace: yeah cos game playing is SO mature Janis: Like you said, I literally don't have to Grace: No, you've just been telling me to instead Janis: 'cos what you're doing and always do now is??? Janis: you play to lose, that's the only difference Grace: I'm not playing is the difference Grace: like this is my actual life Janis: Hardly Grace: 👌👌 Janis: have fun dancing to Mia's beat, as always Grace: I'm literally not, thanks to you, babes Janis: bollocks aren't you Grace: lacking a colour co-ordinated 💅 rn so Janis: yeah, to punish you, so you do what she knows you'll do Janis: cry in your bedroom Janis: then she won't be feeling it, 'cos you and Holly are marding so the three amigos will doss about hers taking selfies instead Janis: I told you, it's fucking obvious what her plan was, and it'll be all your fault 'cos they were well up for it Grace: UGH Grace: I'm not stupid, okay? Grace: not THAT stupid anyway Grace: I know Janis: so do something about it Janis: or are you really that fucked up you can't wait to make it all up to them Grace: Shut up, no Janis: then come, convince your mate to come, and have a good time Janis: fucking hell, is it so hard Grace: It won't be a good time though, will it? Grace: it's fine for you, you won't be sharing a tent or anything else with her Grace: just your boyfriend Janis: yeah, 'cos as mentioned, love spending time with you lot Janis: do it to spite her, there's plenty of distraction Janis: not to mention plenty of tents in our loft if you literally can't stand the sight of her Grace: oh she'd love that, me covered in 🕷 Grace: if I go I obvs have to share a tent with her and be so unaffected duh Janis: bring good headphones Janis: decent shout anyway Grace: if Asia's bf decides to show up yeah Grace: UGH Janis: or Mia's Janis: #2s 😭 obvs Grace: well now I'm like so torn cos I want Ella to be 💔 but I don't want Mia to invite whoever the hell Grace: do I make sure the car is too full or not? 🤔🤔 Janis: not like she'd have him stay anyway Janis: probably come for the saturday night Janis: didn't like have any boys around her when she 😴 Janis: never mind one she's fucking/wants to Grace: PLEASE tell me who it is Janis: 😂 why does it matter who her latest fucktoy is Grace: cos she doesn't want me to know Janis: you think he's gonna be like well ugly then yeah Grace: you don't understand, she ALWAYS wants me to know Grace: so if she doesn't Grace: it's worse than ugly Janis: you'll see if she's not bullshitting, won't you Janis: tents aren't that private Grace: OMG Janis Grace: I'll come if you tell me Janis: 😏 you can't bribe me Janis: might be wrong, anyway but doubt it Grace: fine, I'll do everything I can while we're there to annoy Mia if you tell me Janis: swear on your life Grace: you don't place any value on my life, babes Grace: but I swear on the contents of my make up fridge that you're basically forcing me to leave behind, sure Janis: we aren't even getting into the stupidity of that rn Janis: do you see them keeping makeup in shops in fridges? no, you know why? 'cos you're gonna put it on your face, you donut Janis: [sends Harry's deets] Janis: obvs she wants to ride him too but Jim got into a fight with him so that's why she's being sly Grace: in shops they don't want it to have a long shelf life or work well cos then you'll buy more, DUH Grace: OMG I've literally hooked up with the other boy in his profile pic, that's so awkward Janis: Gross Grace: yeah he so was Grace: I see why she was encouraging me to now though Janis: Grosser still Janis: you know that's called prostitution, yeah Grace: excuse you Grace: he didn't even pay for my uber, thank you Janis: you don't get paid, your pimp does, idiot Grace: she's not my Grace: GROSS Janis: your friendship is so fucking twisted Grace: stop dragging me for like one second Grace: how recent of an ex of yours is he? Janis: it's only 50% you Janis: and what are you on about Grace: girl code Grace: even if you are only fake friends Janis: I don't need to invoke the sacred and ancient girl code, you're alright Grace: do you wanna ruin her life or just mine? 🙄🙄 Janis: I reckon she's frustrated enough Janis: I really don't care if she adds another body to her count, tbh Grace: your boyfriend obvs cares, unless he fought him for a different reason Grace: like his tragic pic captions Janis: could be Janis: very serious about that sort of thing Grace: hipsters always are, babes Janis: this from the girl who drafts all her posts so they really pop Janis: meant to be, clearly Grace: 🤫🤫🤫🤫 Janis: your #influencer secrets are safe with me Janis: mostly because idgaf Grace: ILY too hun Janis: yeah yeah Janis: if he does come, how can we fuck her over Janis: without 'girl code' Grace: I'd offer to hook up with him before she can but I'm not going anywhere you've ever Grace: I'd have to kms Janis: remember what we talked about Janis: prostitution is never the answer Janis: fuck it, I'll think of something Grace: he won't come Grace: I can tell by his feed Janis: meaning? Grace: I'm stupid but I understand boys Grace: the type he is and the type he isn't Janis: very philosophical, babe Janis: but I meant literally Grace: literally he's not gonna show up for her like that Janis: maybe not Grace: & if he knows you're there, which he can't not Janis: not everyone avoids me like the plague, cheers Grace: Duh, I mean if he showed up she can't be sure it's for her Grace: she'd hate that Janis: she'd put up with it to fuck me over though Grace: yeah but is he gonna put up with the possibility that barista boy wins another fight, I doubt it Janis: true Janis: 🤞 Grace: all he has is what he fronts, obvs Grace: it's a totally stupid risk and for what? you're not gonna hook up with him again Janis: he is totally stupid Janis: if his feed isn't giving that away 🔮 Grace: it is Grace: but like Grace: he won't come Janis: Poor Mia Grace: literally never say that again it's too weird Janis: but she'll be 💔 I'm not Grace: she'd need a 💜 Janis: same here Janis: 🤫🤫🤫🤫 Grace: Oh please Grace: you're so 😍😍😍 it's gross Janis: shut up or I'll bombard you with green emojis Grace: wtf was that Grace: 🙄 Janis: was amusing, give you that Janis: but don't reckon much to any of your debate skills Grace: thanks Grace: I swear Mia was a totally different person before Ella moved here, so not even fair that you get barista boy and we get her tbh Janis: that's what a 💀 pact will do to you Grace: it's not funny Janis: not gonna cry for every girl that wants to starve herself Grace: yeah you'd need emotions that aren't 😍🤤 & 😒😠 Janis: and why would I want that Grace: 🙄🤷 Janis: yeah, seems a right laugh Janis: get on it asap Grace: sure Janis: 👋 k, toodles Grace: ugh don't even Janis: 😂 Grace: Iggy's taking us Janis: ugh Janis: alright Grace: IKR but I'm so glad it's not dad Janis: have to hitchhike if it was Grace: we could casually leave all Mia's stuff behind if we were though 😂 Janis: still time Grace: & I obvs need the exercise cos I'm SO JEALOUS of how Ella looks Janis: wouldn't be enough even if the festival was in the south pole, babes Grace: okay thanks for joining in on giving me a freakout now that I am going Janis: shut up 🙄 Grace: yeah obvs have to go have that freakout sooo Janis: if you wanna look like you're dying, go 'head and start killing yourself Janis: nothing goals about it is there Grace: I don't have to wanna look like her to not wanna look like THIS Janis: like what Janis: a normal person Grace: like do not Janis: 🤷 Janis: whatever Grace: UM no we're not fake friends Grace: so you can stop Janis: I'm really not saying anything though Grace: 👌👌 Janis: see you tomorrow then Grace: yeah

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chocobo-sunshine · 8 years ago

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I'm surprised you haven't been flooded with requests because you're a good writer. But if this hasn't been done already, if the main four turned evil/against the Light, how would they be? Would they still be able to love, etc?

First of all, thank you so much for your request ~.You see, I started this blog just three days ago, and I’m not even sure on how should I run this little piece of my soul. I only had two requests, and that was because I asked for it — still, I’m so happy I did because, as I said, I love to write, but it feels so much better when I get to do it for others, in order for them to read that.I’d like to apologise once more for my mistakes and repetitions, for English is not my first language.Thank you, again, I hope I don’t disappoint you in this. ♥(It took so long I didn’t post anything else in my blog today, I’m really so sorry. ;;I hope you like it, even though this is EXTREMELY harsh, I believe. Feel free to say to me “That sucks!”, ‘cause it really does.)

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• PromptoI think he would be the most likely to fall in darkness. He has suffered so much in his life, all that pain and loneliness, but I feel he was at the limit of endurance. What if his heart stumbled for a moment too long? What if, in the moment where he was the most vulnerable, he decided to stop fighting and re-joined what was once fated to be his destiny?

He would succumb to his own mind tricking him, making him join the forces of Nifleheim as a Magitrooper, as he was once created for. He would be the most powerful of all those soulless robots, still carrying a sparkle of conscience within him, the one thing that makes him the most dangerous. For he was once human, he knows how to make them suffer, and cry, and scream, all under the freezing cold blue gaze of his eyes.

This would not be the real Prompto, though. It would be just as if he was trapped in a dark and cold cage, as if he found shelter in his own suffering. His mind would be quite entirely sealed away, letting his body and actions completely controllable. A puppet slipped in the grip of the wrong side of the chessboard.

Though he seems to have abandoned all trace of humanity, his heart would still be the one of the cheerful guy who smiled at his dark life, bearing it all without complaining. The strength deep inside him would never abandon him, or betray him. Just as his friends.

They would never cease to search for him, for their joyful Chocobo lover. They know they have to be four, the four of them, to be complete. Even when his actions began to slowly reveal his identity, they would never stop to care for him.

I believe Prompto’s heart would continue to love, if allowed to. And I believe his friends, his dearly beloved friends, would come up with a solution to bring him back, because that’s what, deep inside, Prompto wishes the most: his wrecked heart just needs to feel the joy of the sun again.

• IgnisThe gentle and clear-minded Ignis would not have turned against Light in his past, never. He was the most loyal, faithful to Noctis’s cause, and ready to give all he has to fight for it. Until the day he loses his sight.

Even if he never speak about it, even if he never, never, complains about it, it must be so hard for him. It must be difficult to rely only on his other senses when sight was his favourite one, it must be so painful to be forced to abandon the crystal clear sense of him, it must be so wrecking to feel to be a burden for everyone else, causing them so much trouble. It could have destroyed his mind.

The deep depression in which he fell when he realises he will not be the same again is nothing to be taken lightly. He is proud of what he did to fulfil his duty and let Noctis go on with his journey, but all that darkness around him is just too much. Not even his friends’ words can help him, nor the last glimmer of hope inside him can relieve his pain, and it just fades away.

His bad condition, though, never lets him go. He would just abandon the group, at some point, letting himself rest somewhere far from all kind of human contact.

He might be approached by Ardyn while living in his own suffering, and offered a brand new pair of fully functioning eyes. What does he have to lose, now?

Without anyone knowing it, or even suspect it, he would follow him, and get his new Magitek eyes — a dark crimson colour, but cloudy, reflecting his hollow soul.

He would start working for him. Ardyn surely knows how to talk to people, even more how to evaluate those whom he needs. Ignis, or what’s left of him, would just accept it, as he accept passively everything that happens at this point.

Not even when his life companions, always concerned for his condition, find him in Zagnautus, he turns back. He’s changed now, emptied from deep inside. He would never return the same again.

• GladiolusWhen he left the group to find a new strength, nobody ever thought he wouldn’t come back. Not the way he did, at least.

He never came back to his friends. They didn’t even try to contact him. But why would they? Gladio was the first one to leave, after all.

When Gladiolus, the ever courageous and fierce big guy, intended to protect the Prince, but also his friends, felt insecure and worthless for the first time in his life, he decided to leave the others, in order to became even stronger, and be able by then to protect his family.

Still, it felt strange. It was a brand new sensation for him, a horrendous sensation. He tried to get rid of it, fighting back the urge to scream and run away from everything, slaying every creature that happened to be in a bad place in the worst of times.

The irreparable happened when, travelling alone, he pushed himself nearly at the end of the known world. Nobody knows what occurred back then, but sure is that Gladio faced an incredibly strong and relentless opponent, who left tremendous scars painted on his whole body. He even nearly lose an arm for that fight, and only the Six know how he managed to stay alive at that juncture.

He prayed the Gods, as he never did before, but found himself neglected and abandoned. Nobody ever answered his angered screaming calls.

Once recovered, in the urge of becoming stronger, of proving his worth to the world, he lost sight of what was his first purpose. He became like a wild animal, careless of any living form. Only through slayer, he would relieve his anger, and that same anger pushed him even far beyond humanity, making him kill a hunter in his mission. He laughed on how easy it had been.

Darkness inside him started to take over him, and he became a true beast.

A true Daemon.

He now ravages the whole Eos, sowing dread and horror wherever he pass. The world now surely knows his strength.

• NoctisHe starts feeling himself falling when Luna dies.

He could bear the loss of his dad, his town, all he has known. He really could, he managed to. But when he hears Ignis stating her departure, he can’t help but feeling himself cracking. Literally.

Nothing is the same from now on, his thoughts constantly directed to the things he lost, more than those things he needs to take back.

He would continue on his journey, though, but he keeps failing. Ignis’s ruined, because he failed; Prompto’s lost, because he failed; Gladio’s in anger, of course.

Why would anyone have all those high expectation for him? He was chosen by the Crystal, yes, but was he really the Prince of Light that everyone awaited? “All this journey is just a swirl into pain”, he thinks, but he has to go on. At least, to regain what’s his.

… Even if not in the right way.

He’s determined to let it all come to an end, but he doesn’t believe in the Six nor in the Crystal anymore. He just loses faith in them, it’s not something that can be explained. Everything that happened to him conducted him not in gaining strength, but in accumulating regret and sorrow.

When it comes to take back the throne, he does defeat Ardyn, but… He just can’t feel like bringing back the dawn. Actually, there’s barely no one to enjoy it, so instead of dying, why don’t just live his life as the King of the Eternal Night?

OH EM GEE This tourned out so much longer then expected

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Rio & Buster

Rio: Do you think I need to report or tip the deliveryman for taking advantage of the unlocked front door? Rio: can't decide Buster: Are you sure it was unlocked? Rio: Well I was sure I locked it actually but apparently not Rio: Indie also swears she didn't forget so must've been me Buster: Unless she swore on her stash there's no reason to take it as gospel, babe Rio: True Rio: thanks anyway 😚 they look really pretty in the kitchen window Buster: Hold on, I didn't send you anything Buster: What kind of delivery was it? Rio: Yeah, tbh, I didn't think it was you Rio: but I was hoping Rio: [the picture] Rio: they look kinda cheap Rio: cannot work out who they're from Buster: Is the address right? Maybe they're for next door but yours was open Buster: Fuck it, throw them out and I'll replace them for you Rio: There isn't one, there's like nothing Rio: Maybe Drew's planning to give 'em to someone Buster: Ask him Buster: Could also be one of Indie's friends, you said they were cheap, like Rio: Awh, how sweet Rio: yeah, I'll ask Rio: how are you anyway? Buster: Better before I was worried about your home security Rio: Don't be Rio: You've never forget to lock up before? Rio: Be Drew that'd be 😥 Buster: Course not Buster: My parents would kill me Rio: Guess you have more stuff to steal Rio: luckily we've just been gifted something so that's as good as you can hope I suppose Buster: No bullshit, are you okay? Rio: It just shook me up a bit Rio: but now I've had time to calm down Buster: You can stay here any time and for any reason Buster: You know that Rio: I know Rio: I promise I don't need that though Rio: even though I miss you Rio: wish you were here Buster: I miss you too Buster: I'll come and see you this weekend Buster: Move some shit around Rio: Can you? Rio: don't if you can't Buster: I can Buster: And I want to Rio: I wish they were from you Rio: not an unsubtle hint Buster: I don't need any hints Buster: I just ordered some Buster: But we can track the delivery on these, like Rio: I love you Rio: see who gets here first, you or the flowers Buster: I love you Buster: But they better or else we are gonna have to have a word with whoever the fuck delivers shit to your place Rio: 😂 Rio: its not quite that rough that the postie throws it and runs Buster: Says you Rio: What does that mean? 😏 Buster: It means I've only got your word for it since I can't exactly forgo the hotel and sleep over Rio: You'd prefer your hotel, I'm not gonna oversell it that hard, like Buster: I ain't gonna deny that either Buster: Unless you stayed there and left me alone at the hotel Rio: That just ain't gonna happen Rio: never ever Rio: least no one here is really keeping that close a check on where I am Rio: much easier Buster: Yeah fuck knows where I'm gonna say I am if anyone asks Buster: I'll obviously think of something as per but the standard excuses are gonna start sounding like they are exactly that one of these days Rio: I know Rio: be easier if visiting your sister was a little more in question Rio: but that would require actually doing that so Buster: As much as I love you, babe Rio: I know Rio: she's settled well though Buster: No need to try and make any friends when she's got Junior, is there? Buster: He more or less guarantees her an easier life Rio: Alright for some Rio: lucky he's such a nerd they let him skip Buster: Exactly Rio: Why you gotta be so overachieving, huh Rio: I'm so bored without you Buster: I didn't get put forward a year, I'm clearly not working hard enough actually Rio: Nah, you just don't have crazy genius brain Rio: which I think is probably a good thing Rio: and your school would never, doing everything by the 100 year old book Buster: Cheers Buster: For the compliment and the reminder Rio: You know you're still going to get everything you want Buster: Course I am Buster: I've earned it despite my lack of a genius level IQ Rio: Are you mad I called you not a genius? Buster: Like you said, it's a good thing Buster: Fuck being a weirdo Rio: Bit rude Buster: Come on Rio: You don't need to call anyone a weirdo if you're not mad Buster: You know what I mean Buster: I'm perfect as I am Rio: Okay Buster: Don't get mad Buster: Just 'cause I ain't Rio: 🙄 I'm not Rio: shh Buster: Convincing Rio: Well I will be if you keep going on Buster: Behave Rio: Come over and make me Mr. Perfect 😏 Buster: Friday afternoon Buster: Soon as school's over and done with Rio: 😾 I guess I'll behave then then Buster: Are you gonna be perfect? Rio: Aren't I always? 😇 Buster: You know you are Buster: But you also know I wanna hear you promise Rio: I promise I'll be perfect for you Buster: Good girl Rio: Buster Buster: Rio Rio: You're so rude Rio: distracting me Buster: What are you doing that needs your full attention? Rio: I'm trying to cook Buster: I'll leave you to focus then, yeah? Buster: Wouldn't wanna be even ruder or anything Rio: Don't you dare Buster: You know I always dare Rio: Oh, so we're playing now? Buster: Yeah Rio: And you aren't playing nice Buster: I didn't make any promises to be Rio: Me either Rio: 'til Friday Buster: You can't help yourself though Buster: You're an angel Rio: For my sins Rio: and yours Buster: What sins are those? Rio: If I need to remind you, then its really been way too long since we last did a visit Buster: Or I need to remind you how heavenly everything we've ever done together is Rio: I wouldn't mind that reminder Buster: Call me Rio: [does] Buster: Tell me the kitchen ain't on fire Rio: It ain't Rio: Dinner is gonna be late Rio: but we'll all survive Buster: Well I'm not sorry about that Buster: I've gotta wait til Friday to have dinner with you Rio: I can't wait to cook for you Buster: Don't make me miss you more Rio: You wait 'til I have my own place proper Rio: treat you like such a 👑 all day every day Buster: I'm not sure I can wait, baby Buster: Jesus Rio: Next time your parents are away, tell me and I'll get the next flight Rio: never guaranteeing a free house here but we can play then Buster: Hold on, I'll check the calendar Buster: [a date] Rio: It's done Buster: Easily Rio: then when you go uni we can be together all the time Buster: Every day Rio: Can't we just be 18 now? Buster: I swear I feel older than that already Rio: Me too Rio: its crazy we've been doing all this over 2 years now Rio: never mind everything else Buster: Yeah Buster: Looking at their calendar only proves that my parents treat me like I'm older when it suits 'em Rio: Good for parties Rio: good for me and you Rio: but it must feel so big when its just you in that house Rio: my poor baby Buster: Technically not good enough though 'cause I can't move out or change schools Buster: But I ain't complaining Buster: Especially when I've got you to keep me company if it gets lonely Buster: Just one call away, like Buster: And like you said, the parties and visits mean I rarely am alone anyway Buster: We'd definitely have gotten closer to getting caught if I had different parents as well Rio: It won't last forever, even if it feels like it Rio: best place for you to be right now Rio: and I'll always be here Rio: no matter what Rio: sometimes I forget no one knows Rio: when I'm talking to you Rio: but then its painfully obvious again when we have to hide it Buster: I know Buster: Me too Buster: But that doesn't have to be forever either Buster: We can tell 'em when we're older Rio: We'll have to Rio: I can't just suddenly decide I wanna move to America when you happen to be going too Buster: And when I propose, you won't be able to hide a diamond that big Rio: You can't just say things like that Buster: Don't you wanna marry me? Rio: Of course I do Buster: Good Rio: You really want to marry me Rio: and be with me forever Buster: Of course I do Rio: Buster, I love you so much Rio: how are you real Buster: I could ask you the same question Buster: But I reckon whatever you think makes me unreal does the same to you Rio: You're just Rio: I'm just so glad you're in this as much as I am Rio: we want the same things Buster: I've never half arsed anything in my life, I'm not about to start with the most important part of it Rio: That's why I love you Rio: you're so dedicated and passionate and Rio: fuck Buster: It's for you as much as it is me Buster: I ain't forgotten the future you want Buster: I'm gonna give you everything Rio: Just marry me now Rio: Jesus Buster: Not until you can openly wear the ring every single day Rio: Okay Rio: deal Buster: I'll get you something else to wear in the meanwhile Buster: A ring that's not so obvious Rio: Baby Buster: I fucking love you Buster: There needs to be another word for it that's more descriptive or whatever Buster: Just more everything Rio: I get it Rio: I get you, you get me Rio: There's nothing I wanna do where I don't want you with me Rio: other people don't even register, never mind compare Buster: I feel that too Buster: Since I was a kid Rio: No one else could hold my attention like you Buster: 'Cause there's nobody else like me Rio: Not even close Buster: You won't ever regret choosing me Buster: I'll make sure you don't Rio: I know Rio: but it was never a choice really Rio: not in a bad way just in a Rio: I don't even know Rio: like we was meant to be from the start Buster: I know Buster: Like you said, we're the same in that and loads of other shit Rio: Plus you're the hottest boy to ever walk the planet so obviously, you're mine 😋 Buster: Yeah, that too, like Buster: But even if you weren't the most beautiful girl I've ever seen, I'd still want you to be mine Buster: 'Cause you're the best in so many other ways as well Buster: And I'll never be over how perfect you are or what you make me feel like Rio: Stop being perfect and sincere when I'm just trying to live over here Buster: We've established I can't Buster: Or won't Rio: How do you do that Rio: cheer me up Rio: make me forget Buster: 'Cause I always get what I want Buster: And I want that for you Rio: You're the best Buster: I know Buster: So I deserve you Rio: What do you wanna do when you're here? Rio: Aside from have me be perfect, obviously Buster: We need to get you a ring, of course Buster: Unless you want me to surprise you with it Rio: 😁😁😁 Buster: If that's what you actually look like, show me Rio: [the most excited selfie] Buster: Baby Rio: Daddy Rio: tbh Buster: Tell me what you wanna do when I'm there Buster: Aside from saying that again, obviously Rio: 😏 and again and again Rio: Hmm Rio: just be with you Rio: I don't care what we're doing, as long as its what we wanna do Rio: makes a change from my routine Buster: Well that's the least I can do Buster: Don't worry Rio: I'm never worried Rio: not when I'm with you Buster: Good Buster: You're safe with me Buster: Even if you forget to lock every door Rio: I won't Rio: I'm not a total idiot Buster: I know how smart you are, babe Rio: 🙄 Buster: Don't Buster: I'm serious Rio: Its whatever Rio: I don't need to be smart Rio: just work it Buster: You are though regardless Rio: Whatever you say, babe Buster: You gonna listen to whatever I say? Rio: 🙉🤭 Buster: Alright then Rio: Awh, you mad at me? Buster: Is that what you're trying to do? Rio: Maybe Rio: has it worked? Buster: Try harder Rio: 😤😠💪 Buster: Come on Rio: . Rio: That's me not replying, 'cos nothing makes you madder than being ignored Buster: Well played Rio: Thank you Rio: If I do it for real will you call me again? Buster: How could I resist? Rio: Don't Rio: only me who's gotta resist talking to you Rio: which is really really hard Buster: I'll make your efforts feel worth it Rio: 😣 Buster: I promise Rio: Okay Rio: I can do it Buster: Prove it Buster: [calls]

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Rio & Buster

Rio: Your lot is doing Summer in Dublin then Buster: Yeah Buster: As standard Rio: Yeah Rio: thought with the move you might not Buster: You thought wrong then Rio: alright Rio: how are you? Buster: Don't Rio: It matters Buster: It didn't last week or whenever the fuck you last spoke to me Rio: Don't need me to tell you things have changed though Buster: But here you are, spelling it out for me, babe Buster: So cheers Rio: that's not what I'm trying to do Buster: What are you trying to do? Rio: ask you how you're doing Rio: to give you a chance to talk, if you wanted it Buster: Well now you have, guess that means we're done Rio: You don't wanna talk about it Buster: Talk about what? Rio: The baby Rio: your brother Buster: I ain't got a brother Rio: You were going to Buster: I'm gonna do loads of things, you don't wanna hear about any of 'em Rio: Go on Rio: try me Buster: I ain't some cunt that's all talk, you can see for yourself if you're around this summer Rio: yeah? Buster: There's not gonna be much in the way of parental supervision, like Buster: Gotta make the most of that Rio: Makes sense Buster: I'll take that Rio: Fair Rio: have you seen your new house, what's it like Buster: Big Rio: Descriptive Rio: send me a link or something Buster: You can just say you wanna see my room Rio: You're stupid Rio: suppose you've already claimed the biggest one Buster: 'Course 'cause I ain't stupid Rio: Lucky you Rio: I always have to share with at least one other person Buster: I don't even have to share a bathroom with Nance, we've both got our own Buster: Perks of being the only kids who made it this far, like Rio: It's something, yeah? Buster: It's everything Buster: My status as fave remains intact, every day you've got siblings coming for yours Buster: Can't catch a break, can you, Cavante? Always the unlucky one Buster: [does send her a link for that brag] Rio: I'm glad Rio: and it is big Rio: looks nice Buster: I wasn't lying Buster: I don't need to Rio: Didn't think you were Rio: just surprised Buster: What's surprising? Rio: All the stuff you'll have to buy to fill it Buster: Couple of shopping trips'll sort it Buster: You know what it's like once you start Rio: Yeah Rio: be fun to do Buster: If I didn't know you better I'd reckon you were angling for an invite Rio: Yeah right Rio: for Nancy's room, maybe Buster: You having this same convo with her? No doubt she'll let you hit the shops with her Rio: Not currently Rio: keep it in mind though Buster: Come on, what's she saying? Buster: You can tell me Rio: I ain't Rio: why would I say otherwise if I was Buster: Why would you be checking on me and not her? Buster: Giving yourself away there, babe Rio: Plenty of reasons Buster: Nah, just the one Rio: You reckon? Buster: I know Buster: Like I said, she's no competition Buster: I'm easily everyone in this fam's fave and that includes you Rio: Let's not get carried away Rio: I'm just being nice Buster: Fuck that, you feel sorry for me Buster: Don't get carried away with that shit Buster: In fact, don't bother with it in the first place Rio: No, I'm sorry something really shit happened to you and your family Rio: that's not the same thing Buster: Nothing happened to me, write in a card to my mum and dad if it'll make you feel better Rio: well it did Rio: but you can ignore it if you want Buster: And what the fuck would you even know about what did or didn't happen anyway Rio: the baby died Buster: Yeah and I mean, who have you ever lost? Buster: You don't know fuck all Rio: I didn't say I got it Buster: Good 'cause you clearly don't Buster: He can't have died if he never took a breath, can he? He wasn't alive Rio: Alright Buster: My dad already sorted me a boxing club before this so I will be Buster: Can't and won't speak for the rest, like I said, you'll have to hit them up to hear that Rio: That's good Rio: I will do Rio: Nance, obviously Rio: not your parents Buster: They're fair game as long as you ain't expecting anything back Buster: Nothing personal, obviously Rio: I'm not going to bother them Rio: not a total idiot Buster: Just me then Buster: You're really proving me right about how special I am Buster: Even if you ain't more excited about the Chelsea champ I'm about to become Rio: I don't think living in the postcode is a requirement Rio: or will do you any favours but you know Rio: all the best players get discovered when they're kids don't they Buster: I reckoned it had a nice ring to it, that's all Buster: Yeah, that's why I'm telling you to watch this space Buster: You can say you knew me when Rio: Gee, thanks Rio: I'll be too busy living my best life but if I'm asked, like Buster: You're never gonna come watch me? Rio: That depends, obviously Buster: I'll obviously win if that's what you're worried about Buster: No need to drown our sorrows Rio: Wasn't Rio: though I'm glad I won't have to see you vom again Rio: depends who my mega rich husband plays for Rio: got to be loyal, like Buster: Yeah, to me Buster: Blood's thicker than his wage packet Rio: Now it is, suddenly Buster: What's that meant to mean? Rio: Well you're telling me to piss off right now but in the future I've gotta ditch my husband for you, yeah? Buster: Yeah, 'cause I ain't said anything of the sort Buster: What I've actually said is I'll see you around this summer Rio: It was implied Buster: Why, 'cause I don't wanna be the guest of honour at some pity party you're trying to throw me? Buster: Don't be a baby Rio: It's not a pity party, you said you're alright and I said the same back Rio: was just asking, weren't I Buster: Of all the shit you could ask me Rio: What do you want to be asked then Buster: When have I ever made life that easy for you? Buster: I know we haven't talked for ages but come on Rio: Again, now you admit it weren't a week, like Rio: just come out and say you wanna keep chatting longer tbh Buster: You first Buster: I wasn't the one who started this convo Buster: You can just say you miss me, babe Rio: Why would I say a thing like that Buster: 'Cause it's true Rio: yeah, 'course Rio: 🙄 Buster: Yeah, 'course Buster: But you can ignore it if you want Rio: Shut up Buster: Make me Rio: Could, easily Rio: but as I'm being nice, despite how hard you like to make it Buster: Do it then Buster: Nobody asked you to be nice Buster: It's boring Rio: Not here to entertain you Rio: or tarnish my 😇 soul thank you Buster: If you're not gonna distract me, what's the point? Buster: There's a long line of cunts waiting to be sorry for my loss Rio: Not what I was offering Rio: was to talk, properly Rio: how many cunts have tried that yet Buster: They know better than to try anything with me, why don't you? Rio: 'cos I know AND do better Rio: obviously Buster: Yeah? Buster: Prove it Rio: to you? Buster: Obviously Rio: Like I said, easy Buster: Like I said, do it then Rio: What do you think I'm gonna do here and now Rio: wait and see, weren't it? Buster: You're not gonna do anything 'cause you're full of shit clearly Buster: My first instinct of you knowing fuck all was right is all we've proved Rio: I'm here doing shit still Rio: but forcing you to have any kind of actual conversation would be counterproductive Rio: even if I could, I won't Buster: What do you want me to say? Buster: I'd love to know what you think an actual conversation about any of this shit would look like Buster: I'm not a little fucking girl Rio: Didn't say you were Rio: and as long as you're saying what you want to say Rio: fine by me Buster: I'm not gonna say shit I don't want to Buster: Why would I? Rio: Loads of reasons people do Rio: but you don't need to Buster: What do I need to do then? Buster: Come on Rio: What's right for you Rio: for now Rio: like I said, you wanna forget about it or pretend, then have a go Buster: Cheers for the permission Rio: It ain't Rio: isn't what I'd recommend or anything but you gotta do what you gotta do Buster: Like I said, who died and made you the expert? Rio: Why are you assuming I'm right and you're wrong Rio: unless you've got doubts, I ain't putting them there Buster: Shut up Rio: Fine Buster: Don't fine me Buster: Fuck you Rio: You want me to say no, I won't shut up Rio: what Buster: Get out of my head Rio: You wanna be alone in it Buster: I am Rio: you don't have to be Buster: Yeah I do Rio: why? Buster: What do you mean why? Buster: It's already happened, no takebacks Rio: 'course there is Buster: You don't get it so get out Rio: I know your parents are Rio: you can't get them right now Rio: but there are other people too Buster: What do I need other people for? Buster: What can they do? Rio: Make it so you aren't alone Buster: Bullshit Rio: they can try Buster: There's no fixing this Buster: It's done Rio: no, of course not Rio: it'll always be there Rio: but pretending it don't matter isn't the only way you can feel alright about it Buster: I already told you, it don't matter to me Buster: If you want someone to be gutted that they ain't gotta spend their time covered in baby shit or years looking out for another person that ain't me Rio: Then there's nothing I can say but fine Rio: what else can I say to that Buster: It ain't stopped you so far Rio: I'll give up and you can be happy about that and all Rio: you're welcome, like Buster: Good Buster: Don't take your bullshit to Nance either, yeah? Buster: She's fine too Rio: I can talk to her if I want Buster: I'm telling you, you can't Buster: So you can't Rio: You can't tell me what to do, is right Buster: I just did Rio: Well sorry to burst your bubble but I won't be listening Buster: Leave her alone or you'll be sorry, like Rio: Oh, shut up, Buster Rio: anyone normal would appreciate the concern, so she'll be fine Buster: She's already fine Buster: and there's fuck all she needs from you even if she wasn't Rio: I can still tell her I'm here if she does need me Rio: you can't stop me, or make out like that's a fucked up thing to do Buster: Upsetting her by bringing all this up is a fucked up thing to do Rio: It only just fucking happened Rio: she'll be upset regardless Rio: and knowing we all give a shit how she feels might bring a tiny bit of comfort if nothing else Buster: She's got me to give a shit how she feels Buster: She doesn't need family members who only come out the woodwork for drama or whatever the fuck Rio: So you're gonna stop her having anyone else, just because you don't want 'em Rio: you don't own her, she can tell me as much herself as and when Rio: and that's not me, fuck you Buster: Who the fuck else are you? Like I said when you first started trying this bullshit, you didn't give a fuck about how we were before this Rio: I talk to her all the time Rio: I don't talk to you because this is about how it goes Buster: We both know why you don't talk to me Buster: If you so badly want me to stop pretending, try it yourself Rio: We don't need to talk about that Rio: was ages ago Buster: Well, in that case, I can't wait for this to have happened ages ago if it means we'll have no reason to talk again Rio: Give it time Buster: Anything else? Buster: You got any other bullshit our parents normally say that you wanna recycle or are you finally running out now Rio: Like yours have, yeah? Buster: Probably not a good time for you to try and slag mine off to be honest, babe Rio: It's not as if they and you don't have bigger problems so not really Buster: Bigger problems than a dead kid? How do you reckon? Rio: Bigger problems than me 'slagging them off' Buster: I see what you're trying to do with it though, normally that'd work on me Buster: Give it time Rio: and that's the least of my concerns but 👍 Buster: You started this convo to get me to talk so it obviously isn't Buster: And really you should take any way in Buster: Whatever you can get, like Rio: Not a therapist Rio: that's what they do Rio: I said you can bullshit for yourself, not that I need to hear it Buster: Stop acting like one then Buster: Jesus, you used to be more fun than this Rio: Not in the mood Rio: funnily enough Buster: Yeah, well funnily enough I'm not in the mood to sit here and talk about how shit everything is Rio: 'cos if you ignore it hard enough it'll stop being shit Rio: solid theory, probably Buster: You ever seen your dad cry? I'm fairly confident he wanted me to ignore that 'cause of how hard he tried to act like he wasn't Rio: It must be shit being a dad Rio: you have to be the strong one for everyone else too, regardless Buster: That's being a man, whether you have kids or not Rio: But you're only doing it for yourself, if you ain't got them Rio: or at least a wife or whatever Buster: That'd make it harder wouldn't it? Just doing it for yourself, on your own with no fallback Buster: Gotta be easier if you're a dad and can focus on what everyone else needs Rio: Yeah Rio: but technically, you wouldn't have to, if no one is looking Buster: You would if you didn't wanna be a pussy Buster: 'Cause what kind of life is that Rio: You can be upset by shit and still not let it eat you up Rio: do something about it, you know Rio: not one extreme or the other Buster: If it's not an extreme thing, maybe Buster: Like some cunt cutting you off in traffic or whatever Rio: because there's nothing you can do about this Rio: 'cept just Rio: live through it and with it Buster: You're not as stupid as you've been acting this whole time then Buster: Good to know Rio: I've not been acting nothing Rio: wanting to say the right thing and being able to are two different things Buster: So say you don't know Rio: Oh yeah, Hi, I don't know what to say Rio: that's less useful than having a go Buster: It'd be better than acting like you're got all the answers when you don't Buster: And trying to give 'em to me Rio: That's not what I was trying to do Buster: Could've fooled me, like Buster: Every cunt thinks they know how I feel or are trying to tell me how I should Rio: I was just trying to ask Rio: I said Rio: you'll do what you gotta, you're not a total idiot all the time Buster: I'm surprised you remember what I'm like Buster: It's been ages Rio: say it's been that long is a bit dramatic though Buster: Aren't I allowed to be dramatic though? Buster: Unfair if not Rio: I remember you don't have much interest in what you are and aren't allowed to do anyway so Rio: doesn't matter Buster: It won't matter if I have a drink then Buster: So long as I remember brandy's shit Rio: what are you going to have Buster: Whatever else I can find Buster: Shame you ain't here to help me look or keep a look out Rio: flattered you trust me with either, like Buster: You were always good for either Buster: Unlike Nance Rio: all got to have our uses Rio: I won't talk to her, if you really think it'll upset her too much Buster: Like you said, she'll be upset if you do or don't Buster: That's not the problem Rio: Yeah Rio: goes without saying Rio: and it's probably just another stupid thing to say Rio: but I'm sorry Buster: You didn't kill him Buster: And you'd probably make her feel better or some shit Rio: Alright Rio: it won't be like this Rio: probably Rio: she's not as much of a twat as you, like Buster: Cheers Buster: All gotta have our uses, babe Buster: Mine just happens to be winding you up Rio: You do it well Buster: 'Course Buster: I do everything well Buster: It's why I'm the fave Rio: So you keep saying Buster: Until you at least try and argue back, I've gotta Rio: can't deny facts, don't need to argue them Rio: 👸 me Buster: Princesses are shit, why would you wanna be like that? Rio: How are they shit? Buster: What else would you call waiting around to be saved and kissed and all that bullshit? Rio: they aren't even like that anymore Rio: and better than being a 🤴 Rio: they barely had names, nevermind stories beyond showing up at the end when all the shit had settled down Buster: I'm just saying, if you want something fucking get it Buster: And who cares about a name if you can have a ⚔ Rio: maybe they wanna be kissed and saved, they get that Buster: Shit thing to want Buster: If you can have anything Rio: Yeah, a sword is well better Buster: A fight is Rio: 🙄😏 Buster: You should have a go Buster: You'd like it Rio: I'm not getting lumpy ears and a wonky nose, thanks Buster: Learn to block and keep your guard up then Buster: It ain't difficult Rio: I'll leave it to you, still Buster: I didn't wanna teach you anyway Rio: you didn't offer Buster: You saying you'd change your mind if I did offer? Rio: Summer is long Rio: have to find shit to do Buster: Alright then Buster: I'll show you how to save yourself, princess Rio: Alright Rio: no ⚔s Buster: I don't need 'em so neither will you after I'm done teaching you what I know Rio: You're on, McKenna Buster: I'm always on, babe Buster: Too much to do to switch off Rio: Really Rio: like what Buster: Like becoming more famous than your future first husband Rio: That's so rude 😒😂 Buster: It's rude that I've gotta go that hard to get your attention Buster: You could just cheer for me Rio: Not enough that all the Chelsea supporters will be, nah Buster: There's no such thing as enough Buster: It's gotta be all or nothing Rio: Never gonna please everyone Buster: I will everyone who's watching Rio: 👌 Buster: You'll see if you're there Buster: Just that good Rio: If you're even half as good as you brag, sure it'll be impressive Buster: 😒😂 Rio: Guess I'll see you around then Buster: Yeah Rio: Really Rio: not gonna hit me with a final 'hope not'? Buster: I wouldn't have said it first if I was gonna Rio: just not wanting to speak to me ever again, like Rio: okay Buster: I'm replying now Buster: If I didn't want to, I'd just be reading Rio: not gonna talk to myself am I Buster: I don't know Rio: 🙄 Rude Rio: you aren't the only one with things to do Buster: Well, I'm off the to-do-list now, yeah? Buster: Good deed done Buster: Not that leaving me to drink alone qualifies, like Rio: Reckoned that was what you wanted so, does Rio: 'Well, in that case, I can't wait for this to have happened ages ago if it means we'll have no reason to talk again' is a decent enough hint, like Buster: Rio Rio: Yeah? Buster: I don't know Buster: Forget it Rio: why Buster: What? Rio: why do we have to forget it Buster: Life's a headfuck right now Buster: If you really need a why Rio: yeah Rio: it is and I do Buster: Or we can say that once I've got this drink down me I'll likely forget loads anyway Buster: And I'll definitely chat more bullshit than I already have Rio: Might not be the sensible thing to do, or right or Rio: whatever Rio: but its probably the only so Rio: go ahead Buster: When have I ever done the sensible or right thing? You've got the wrong twin Rio: Easy mistake to make Buster: That's well offensive Buster: Worse than the taste of this Rio: plug your nose Buster: You should've given me those instructions when I wiped the thick layer of dust off the bottle, but cheers Buster: Worked out why it was still there though, ain't we Rio: 😷 Rio: you know the drill Rio: just pretend its medicine and get it down Buster: Easy enough when it tastes like it is Rio: bottoms up, boy Rio: I'd say I'd virtually join you but not anywhere long enough for shit to collect dust so Buster: How many 🎄🎁s do you reckon it's been in the cupboard? Rio: Probably since before we were born, like all things we're meant to forget about 🙄 Buster: How am I meant to forget about him? Rio: I don't know Rio: do you want to Buster: Maybe Buster: I think my mum and dad want me to Rio: Yeah? Rio: Maybe they're just not ready to talk about it yet, like Buster: Like you said, it's what this family does Buster: Loads of things we're meant to pretend never happened Rio: Has it ever actually worked, though Rio: we all still remember it, we're just meant to shut up about it Buster: Ask me in the future Buster: We can find out if it works or not Rio: Alright Rio: remind me in however many years Buster: Alright Buster: Since you've reminded me to remind you Buster: Do you reckon I'll always feel like this? Rio: I don't think anything stays the same forever Rio: so you've got a good chance that no, you won't Rio: sometimes better, sometimes worse Buster: Do you really not? Rio: Yeah Rio: everything is always different for me Rio: new countries, new siblings, whatever Rio: might be nice if some things stayed but Rio: I don't think so Buster: I think it's a pretty safe bet that I'll think brandy tastes like shit forever Buster: And whatever this I've got now is Buster: No chance of any new siblings for me either Rio: Well, that's true Rio: maybe some things can and do stay then, for good and bad, just like change Rio: You don't think they will Buster: What do you want to stay? Rio: You mean aside from being favourite? Buster: That's a given, so what else? Rio: Hmm Rio: give me a second to think, like Buster: Come on, you have to know what you want Rio: To happen in the future, yeah Rio: but you're talking about staying Rio: me in 5, 10 years might not appreciate what she gets stuck with if you rush me Buster: Fuck it, I won't tell her Rio: be a waste of time travel if you did Buster: Exactly Buster: So you can just tell me Rio: I don't know, ugh! Rio: Just everyone else to stay Rio: really Rio: what else? Buster: It's shit that I don't get to Rio: to stay? Buster: Yeah Buster: I like being in Dublin Rio: You'll probably like London Rio: loads to do Buster: 'Course Rio: but I get it Rio: it's home, even though it ain't Buster: It's home 'cause granddad's there Buster: So he ain't allowed to die Rio: Should be good Rio: some perks to starting young, right Buster: I don't know, age obviously wasn't a factor for the baby Rio: I know Rio: but the baby was just Rio: it's not fair Buster: You're not allowed either, okay? Buster: So don't Rio: I won't Rio: promise Buster: Good Rio: No one else is gonna die Buster: Ever? Rio: Well, I probably won't be the first to go so I won't promise that Rio: but not for a really really long time Rio: 'til they're old, when you're meant to Buster: Okay Rio: okay Buster: I feel like when you're really really fucking hungry, you know? Buster: Except I'm not Rio: yeah Rio: like an actual ache Buster: If I drink all of this it'll go away, yeah? That's why the pub's always rammed, like Rio: Like you said, you'll forget Rio: for as long as it lasts Buster: I did say that Rio: I remember Rio: not got a drink, me Buster: You're gonna have one with me when I'm back though, ain't you? Rio: if we can get something better than brandy, sure Buster: That won't be hard Rio: easier than getting everyone to leave us alone Buster: I can do it Buster: Everyone fucks off when I'm angry Rio: just don't have a go at me then Buster: Don't be a baby Rio: 🙄 I'm not but you wanna not drink alone don't you Rio: that's the plan Buster: Fine, I won't have a go at you then Rio: 👍 Rio: you probably will but you know Buster: I give you my word Rio: You're funny Buster: I'm serious Rio: still Rio: talking like a 🤴 all of a sudden Buster: I am a 🤴 Rio: Okay, your highness 😏 Buster: 😏 Buster: I won't get used to you calling me that since you ain't the one who promised not to have a go at me Rio: We don't ever play that nice Rio: you wouldn't like it if I did Buster: Have you played truth or dare since? Rio: have you? Buster: I asked you first Rio: fine Rio: not very noble of you but Rio: few times, yeah Buster: What's a few? Rio: I dunno Rio: a go-to at sleepovers and stuff, ain't it Buster: Not for lads Rio: Obvs Rio: boys are less nosy than girls Buster: They don't need to be Buster: Lads tell each other shit if it's worth saying Rio: so do girls Rio: usually the person who suggests it is just waiting for the right 'truth' like Buster: Girls reckon everything's worth saying Buster: But yeah lads are just waiting for the right dare Rio: Yeah, your sister is well chatty 🙄 Buster: She's not like a girl girl Buster: Don't be weird Rio: she's not a boy is she Buster: You know what I mean Rio: it's not weird Rio: or what am I not a girl too Buster: You're not my sister Buster: And you're actually well chatty Rio: ha ha Rio: and still related though Buster: I ain't forgotten Rio: Good Rio: would have to tell someone if you were that gone, like Buster: You reckon you can get away with snitching on me again now, after the brandy? That's brave Rio: 'cos I am Rio: but not a snitch Rio: just not going to let you die either Buster: I didn't then Buster: And this time I'm well older Rio: good, then I won't need to, will I Buster: Nah Buster: You will need to show me how brave you really are though Rio: ? Rio: How Buster: Good question Rio: answer it then Buster: You're there and I'm here so I'm thinking Rio: 🤔 Buster: I'd dare you again but I have no way of checking if you properly did it Rio: depending, can send 📹📷🎙 Buster: Yeah? Rio: if you're serious Rio: why not Buster: Alright Buster: [future Jen insert a dare here that goes too hard for being 10 because you were thwarted very hard in your search] Rio: [let us assume it happened 'cos very unlikely she'd nope out] Rio: See? Told you Buster: Yeah, well I wasn't gonna hit you and teach you how to if you were a gonna be a little girl about it, was I? Buster: That'd be stupid and I ain't Rio: You know me Rio: like it or not Buster: But it's been ages Buster: Like it or not Rio: Well I've not changed for the worse Rio: I'm not stupid either, thanks Buster: Now I know that Buster: Don't you wanna ask me? Rio: You drunk enough to start telling the truth? Buster: Not a liar anyway Rio: I know Rio: Okay Rio: Do you miss us Buster: Depends who you mean Buster: I don't miss all your little brothers and sisters trying to tag along with us Buster: But I do miss you Rio: That's fair Buster: No it ain't Rio: it'd be good if you lived in Dublin Rio: everyone else does Rio: basically Buster: I know Rio: parents always do what they wanna though Buster: They didn't even ask us where we wanted to move Buster: Why can't I have a say, like? Rio: Think they know what's best Rio: even when there's fuck loads to show they don't Buster: They'll probably break up and then I'll have even more houses to live in Rio: You think so? Buster: None of my mates parents are still together and nothing this shit happened to cause it Rio: Suppose so Rio: you parents are different though Rio: no offense Buster: What the fuck does that mean? Rio: You know Rio: been together forever Rio: more to throw away than most, isn't it Buster: They had to throw him away, that's a lot too Rio: Yeah Rio: but your mum wouldn't have anyone Rio: well, Ro but Buster: Don't Rio: I'm just saying Rio: I don't think you have to worry about that Buster: And I'm saying my mum doesn't need anyone, she's literally the strongest person ever Buster: And you don't know what I have to worry about or not Rio: Alright Buster: Shut up Rio: I have Buster: I know you Buster: I know you haven't Rio: You're right that I don't know Rio: but if it's not comforting to say I don't think so then it ain't, not gonna force you to believe me Buster: It ain't your job to comfort me Rio: No Rio: just the right thing to do Rio: anyone would try Buster: Why do you have to do the right thing? Buster: Everything's wrong anyway Rio: that's easy then Rio: so one thing isn't Buster: If that makes you feel better Rio: Nothing is gonna make you feel better, yeah? Rio: maybe the drink, for a bit Rio: so why would I be thinking I could Buster: Why do you? Rio: I don't Buster: Then what's the point? Buster: I don't even know where you are, there's so much shit you could doing that ain't this Buster: Why do you wanna be here? Rio: Make myself feel better, like you said Rio: good deeds, whatever else Rio: go with that, if you like Buster: Or you could go with a truth Buster: Even though we ain't still playing Rio: 'cos he was your brother Rio: so he was my cousin Rio: and even if I get it wrong, then you can be angry at me Rio: which will feel better than being angry at the world Buster: What's it feel like from over there? Rio: just Rio: useless Rio: makes you feel useless Buster: Yeah Buster: I feel useless too Buster: Nance really wants to talk about him but there's nothing to say Buster: He didn't get to do anything Rio: Yeah Rio: maybe you can just listen Buster: I can't Buster: I just get angry Buster: that she's sad and there's no way to stop it Buster: And then she gets angry at me back, 'cause I'm not sad Rio: she might rather be angry Rio: I don't know Buster: Me either Rio: It's really shit Buster: You won't miss me now even if you did before Rio: Why not Rio: none of this is your fault Buster: Like you said, it's really shit, so none of my mates call for me or ask me to play footie in case I lose it and hit 'em Rio: when you go boxing, you can get that out there Rio: then they will Buster: It don't matter, we're moving Buster: I'll have new ones Buster: Ones who don't know Rio: Be easier Buster: Yeah Rio: Do you want me to not bring it up again then Buster: Be easier Buster: So you just said Rio: If you always want easier Buster: I'm not a pussy Buster: I can handle anything you wanna throw at me Buster: Same goes for anyone else Rio: I didn't say that Rio: know you can Rio: why I'm asking Buster: You can say what you want then Rio: Okay Rio: I will then Buster: Good Rio: I do, you know Buster: What? Rio: Miss you lot, too Buster: It'll be summer soon Rio: I know Rio: I think we'll be back for good anyway Buster: You reckon your mum and dad can stay in one place for good? Rio: It's getting really stupid now Buster: Yeah Buster: You sound like a 🤖 all the languages you know Rio: Oh thanks Buster: You're welcome, babe Rio: 🙄 Buster: It's a compliment, like Buster: 🤖 are better than 👸 Rio: It is not Buster: Come on Rio: I don't wanna be a robot Buster: I don't want you to be a princess Buster: I can't be fighting off all those 🤴 all the time Buster: Very busy Rio: You won't need to Rio: not when you teach me how to punch Buster: If you want to punch 'em all I won't need to Buster: But you might not Rio: What's that supposed to mean Buster: You know what I mean Buster: 💃👠🎉 all that 👸 shit Rio: Why don't you want me to have all that 👸 shit Rio: bit mean Buster: I do but like you said Buster: 🤴s ain't shit themselves Rio: I'll manage Rio: there's gotta be something between 🤖 and 👸 Buster: 🐸💋 ain't a problem for robots though Rio: Nothing is Rio: they're not real Buster: 'Course they are Rio: not human Rio: no emotions, nothing Rio: what's the point Buster: I don't know Buster: It sounds alright Rio: you can take it then Buster: You still gonna hang out with 🤖 me? Rio: give it a shot, like Rio: might get bored Buster: Nah Buster: I could never be boring Rio: 😏 Buster: You know it's true Rio: Alright Rio: give you that Buster: I'll take it Buster: If that's the best you can do Rio: You really want me to sit here and compliment you Rio: idiot Buster: One way to distract me Buster: But if you've got any better ideas, I'm listening Rio: Buster Buster: Yeah? Rio: never mind Rio: I'll think of something Buster: I told you, you can say what you want Rio: you can say that, like Buster: I did Buster: Twice now Rio: you know what I'm saying though Buster: Just tell me Rio: can you just Buster: Stop? Nah I can't Rio: be easier, remember Buster: I don't want or need easier, remember Rio: it won't make this better though Rio: I don't wanna make it worse Buster: You reckon you can? Rio: could always be worse, like Rio: doesn't need to be a challenge though Buster: Don't be a pussy, Rio Rio: Don't call me a pussy Buster: Don't be one Rio: I'm not Buster: I don't feel anything Buster: It don't matter what you say Rio: then I don't need to say anything Rio: I said, it don't matter either Buster: Whatever Buster: I take it back, you ain't brave Rio: Fuck off Buster: You fuck off Rio: Fine Rio: be like that Buster: It ain't me Rio: yeah s'all my fault init Buster: Yeah Rio: 👍 great Rio: whatever then Buster: You're winding me up Rio: 'cos why Rio: you won't drop it Rio: not me Buster: I can't win with you Buster: It's my fault when we don't talk and it's my fault for having a go now Rio: Guess we just shouldn't then Buster: Jesus Rio: Well when we do we're just reminded why we don't right Rio: cut out the middleman Buster: You're lucky you ain't a lad Buster: I'd have to beat the shit out of you Rio: Lovely Rio: well mature Buster: Like the silent treatment then Rio: Not what I'm suggesting or doing Buster: You just did suggest it Rio: I'm not gonna blank you Rio: I mean actual talking Buster: I know what you mean Rio: Then don't be so extra Buster: Don't tell me what to do Rio: How about you don't threaten to beat me up, let's start there yeah Buster: You're being stupid now Rio: You're the one that said it Buster: 'Cause you won't talk to me Buster: It's not fair Rio: I'm fucking trying Rio: it's just Rio: awkward Buster: Fuck awkward Buster: Everything's shit Rio: alright so it's an understatement Rio: it can be both Buster: I'm saying I don't care if it's awkward Buster: We could both die tomorrow, like Rio: Could not too Rio: then everything will still be shit with more on top Buster: Fine, fuck off then Rio: Stop telling me to fuck off Buster: Do it and I won't have to Buster: I'm not trying to make things worse for you Rio: I'm not scared of you Buster: I don't want you to be scared of me Rio: Well I'm not so don't worry Buster: I'm not Rio: Problem solved then Buster: Yeah Buster: That one's over and done with Buster: Cheers Rio: So welcome Buster: Good, we're done here then Rio: Stop it Buster: Nah Buster: You don't wanna talk Buster: What else are we gonna do? Rio: I do wanna talk to you but I don't know why because you're so annoying Rio: alright Buster: Less annoying drunk than the one who almost puked all over you Rio: Hmm Rio: Debatable Rio: he was kinda cute and helpless like Buster: He was a little kid Rio: What are you now then Buster: I'm not a kid Buster: And I can handle my drink now Rio: Good to know Buster: I'm not gonna make a twat out of myself or you at the pub, don't worry Rio: that's not what I care about Buster: Alright Rio: I'm not that much of a bitch, you know Buster: It don't make you a bitch to give a shit about what people think of you Buster: Reputations are important, like Rio: Not to me Buster: Why not? Rio: Why would it Rio: I know who I am, the right people get it Rio: I'm not gonna try to convince anyone of anything Rio: just don't need to Buster: How do you know the right people get it? Rio: 'Cos I am the right people Rio: if you don't fuck with me then you ain't Buster: 😏 Rio: I'm serious Rio: and right, you know I am Buster: Yeah Buster: I like it Rio: really Buster: It's the most sense you've made since you started talking to me Buster: You sound like you Rio: I was just trying to be Rio: idk, not an adult 'cos they get it wrong too Rio: it's like you with Nance, yeah Rio: just wanna fix it but no one can so Buster: Just be you Rio: Okay Rio: that I can do Buster: Good Rio: I can't wait to come back Buster: Me either Buster: Cambs is really boring Rio: we'll make summer as good as we can Buster: You swear? Rio: 'course I do Rio: I'm me, you're you Buster: I really do miss you Buster: You know Rio: I know Buster: I'm sorry Buster: For being a twat for ages Rio: it's alright Rio: that's just you too, like Buster: I'm being serious Rio: Yeah Rio: I know why Rio: you kinda had to Buster: Nobody tells me what to do Rio: Nobody was Rio: just made sense, right Buster: But nothing makes sense any more Buster: And I wish you were here Rio: I'm here Rio: you can call me if you want Rio: how much of that stuff have you got through? Buster: You're not like properly here though Rio: Soon Rio: really soon Buster: I'm tired Rio: You should get some rest Rio: sleep on your side though Buster: But I don't wanna go Rio: I'll keep talking to you until you fall asleep Buster: Okay Buster: Tell me what you've been doing Buster: What I've missed Rio: Alright Rio: should send you to sleep Rio: usual, school, helping with the kids Rio: all that boring shit Buster: 😂 That's not why I asked Buster: And I don't reckon you can ever be boring either Rio: My life can be but yeah Rio: not me Buster: Mine too but probably not in London Rio: You excited about it then Buster: Yeah Buster: No Buster: I don't know Rio: it's usually both Rio: I've been enough places to actually know Buster: Nance needs me to be excited 'cause she ain't Rio: she'll be scared Rio: Junie always is Buster: She likes it here, going round on her bike taking pictures of shit Rio: She'll settle into it Rio: she can do that stuff there too Buster: She'll have to Buster: It's where we're going Buster: And mum and dad will be even more determined to make a go of things now than they usually are Rio: Exactly Rio: like you said Rio: we don't get any say in it either way Buster: Where would you go if you did? Rio: Right now? Rio: Home Rio: it's too much with no one to help out around Rio: 6 of them are under 5 Rio: it's just Buster: You wanna throw 'em at Nan Rio: I don't want them learning languages they won't need by the time they can speak in full sentences because we'll be gone again Rio: or making friends they'll have to say goodbye to in a few months, a year, tops Rio: I want an actual home, a house Buster: You said you're coming back for good though, yeah? Buster: So it won't be like that Rio: I hope so Rio: they've talked about it a bit Buster: Your mum and dad might listen if you say some of this shit Buster: They ain't like mine Rio: Aren't they Buster: Not exactly Rio: you ask nan Rio: my mum has never listened Buster: To her Buster: But we're talking about her listening to you Buster: Or your dad if she won't Rio: They've always done and gone where they want and dragged us along Rio: it's just how it is Buster: You're not a little kid now though Rio: I guess Buster: Whatever, I'm just trying to help Buster: Forget it, like Rio: Don't be moody, I'm not having a go am I Buster: Me either Buster: I don't want you to be sad, that's all Rio: I'm alright, I get by Rio: it's all the others Rio: but if we left now, Pablo down wouldn't remember any of it Rio: better than none, right? Buster: Yeah Buster: Alright odds Rio: less than half but Rio: I'll take it Buster: They'll remember it differently from you anyway, that'll affect the odds too Buster: Shit never seems as bad when you're younger Buster: I remember you liked travelling when you were Buster: Always showing off to me about something back then Rio: I weren't even 3 when we left, Junior was only just 2 Rio: Edie a literal newborn Rio: you don't know any better Rio: think it's normal Rio: not realize what you're missing out on Buster: I'm just saying you probably won't have to worry as much as you are Rio: Maybe Buster: Don't be moody with me now, like Rio: I'm not Rio: just thinking Buster: What? Rio: What it'd be like to be from a normal fucking family Rio: we'll never know Buster: I'd ask my mates if I make any with normal families in London Buster: You ask yours when you come back home Rio: That's definitely weirdo behaviour Buster: Have some subtlety about it, obviously Rio: What would you know about subtlety, McKenna Buster: Fuck you, I know loads about it Rio: 😂 Rio: nothing about jokes though Buster: More than you, I reckon Rio: Alright Rio: no proof of that ever but sure Buster: 'Cause I don't have to prove anything to you, Cavante Rio: Don't have to, nah Buster: There's nothing I can't do so they're nothing to prove Buster: there's* Buster: End of Rio: As long as you believe that Rio: that's what matters Buster: Shut up Buster: Don't take the piss out of me Rio: I'm not Rio: I mean it Rio: it doesn't matter what I think of you or you of me Buster: 'Course it does Rio: Why does it Buster: What do you mean why? Buster: You know it matters Rio: But I still don't get why Buster: You matter to me so it matters what you think Rio: Yeah Rio: right now at least Buster: Nah, always Rio: You're drunk and meant to be sleeping Buster: You're not my mum Rio: Well done Rio: 10/10 observation that Buster: Stop telling me what to do Rio: I never Rio: you said you were tired Buster: That don't mean I wanna sleep Buster: I never said I did Rio: All I'm saying is you won't remember saying none of this so you don't have to Buster: If I don't remember why would I care? Rio: 'cos I will Rio: and you'll have to deny it or whatever the fuck Buster: Not if you don't bring it up Buster: Can't I trust you any more? Rio: 'course I'm not going to bring it up Rio: but I'd rather not be told bullshit with you insisting its real when you won't acknowledge it later so Rio: its all the same to you it doesn't matter then Buster: I'm not a bullshitter Rio: No but drunk people always chat it Rio: not your fault Buster: I'm still me Rio: I know you are Buster: I'm not gone 'cause this drink is going Buster: What do you reckon I'm gonna do? Buster: Or say, whatever Rio: Everything is fucked, yeah Rio: my head and all, I can only imagine for you Rio: you know what I'm getting at, do I have to say it, like Buster: Don't imagine it, don't even try to Buster: It's horrible Buster: But don't worry either, I've got nothing to lose right now except you and Nance Buster: So I won't do it Buster: Say it Buster: Any of that Rio: I'm just so sorry, Buster Buster: Yeah Buster: Everyone is Rio: I wish I could make it all go away Rio: go back and change it Rio: it's unfair and it always will be Buster: Can we talk about something else? Rio: Yeah, of course Rio: anything Buster: Tell me what summer is gonna be like Rio: Freedom Rio: we can do whatever we like, whenever Rio: we'll go to the pub and we can have loads of BBQs and go beach and its granddad's birthday Buster: Oh shit we need to get him a present Rio: We can do that when you're back Rio: get him his favourite present of all of 'em, obviously Buster: Yeah Buster: So we can stay his faves Rio: Exactly Rio: it'll be like when we were little again Rio: but better Buster: We have to make sure Nance is alright Buster: Even if she won't come Rio: Of course Rio: you always look out for her Buster: You have to help me though Buster: If she won't let me Rio: I will Rio: I like Nance too, like Buster: Not as much as you like me though Rio: Not a competition 😏 Buster: It is Rio: I'm not gonna tell you you've won Buster: You don't have to, I know Rio: Shut up you Buster: You can't make me Rio: Hmpf Buster: I will if you really want me to Rio: It doesn't actually bother me Rio: for now, anyway Buster: I'll piss you off more face to face, that's what you're saying Rio: Probably true, for both of us Rio: but nah Rio: I mean it's nice to be able to say even a tiny bit of it Buster: Yeah, it is Rio: One of the reasons they do it Rio: get wrecked, I mean Buster: You're not Buster: So maybe we don't have to be Buster: To properly talk Buster: If we wanna Rio: I could have this all deleted before you weren't though Rio: it's freedom, isn't it Rio: we don't have that much day to day Buster: I know Buster: That's why I was trying to give you it Buster: To say what you wanna say or whatever Rio: Yeah Rio: I know Rio: but like you said, I'd probably need to catch up before I could Rio: still Rio: it's good to talk to you again Buster: And like you said, summer's long Buster: You'll probably have a fair chance Buster: To both get drunk and to talk to me more Buster: Just take 'em Rio: Alright Buster: Good Rio: feels longer than it's probably been Rio: seeing you all Buster: It has been ages though Buster: Especially 'cause I was trying not to see you when I had to Rio: That'll be why Rio: it's boring, not hanging with you at family things Buster: Well yeah, I'm the most fun Buster: 👸s shouldn't have to mix their own drinks Buster: Or steal 'em Rio: aren't I a 🤖 Buster: Not if you don't wanna be Rio: I'll let you know if I settle on a career option, like Buster: I'm just saying, you can be who you want with me Rio: You too Rio: whoever you need to be Buster: What's wrong with who I am? Rio: Nothing Rio: 🤴 you Buster: Then why would I ever need to be anyone different? Rio: Sometimes it's good to be wrong Rio: only if you need to, I said Buster: Fuck that Buster: It's good to be right Rio: then just be you Rio: don't bother me Buster: 'Course not Buster: You like me Rio: Easily go off you if you're gonna be annoying about it, like Buster: Not easily Rio: Oh my god Rio: 😂 Buster: Rio Rio: Yeah? Buster: If he didn't die Buster: Would you just have never spoken to me again ever? Rio: Of course not Rio: it's silly Rio: not talking because of things that happened in the past Rio: shit like this just makes you realize that but we would've got there ourselves eventually, I reckon Buster: It's not stupid if you still feel the same about things as you did then Rio: We should still Rio: idk Rio: work through it, do something Rio: you can't ignore shit forever and hope it goes away Buster: I'm not a problem for you to solve Buster: Like maths homework Rio: Not you Rio: the problem Rio: between us Buster: There ain't an us without me and you Buster: You can't separate it out Rio: it's 50/50 though Rio: don't make it sound like I'm putting it all on you Buster: It was my dare, I took it Rio: but if you think I'm like Rio: angry at you for doing it Rio: I ain't Rio: we can forget it and just move on Buster: Can we? Rio: If we choose Rio: we can do anything we want, right? Buster: Do you want to? Rio: I told you, I wanna talk to you again Buster: Okay Rio: Okay Rio: so we're good Buster: Yeah Rio: Good Buster: I don't feel it right now though Buster: I should have quit this bottle while I was ahead, like Rio: Oh no Rio: should eat Rio: and drink loads of water Buster: I'm not hungry Buster: You wouldn't be either if your weird aunt did the food shop Rio: 😬 Rio: order takeaway Rio: make her pay when it gets there Buster: And if she comes to question me, I'm clearly wasted ain't I Rio: True Rio: she'd definitely snitch Buster: I just need to be sick, don't I? I'll ask her how she does it Rio: Ha Rio: probably don't Rio: it'll be easy, if you're that drunk Buster: I don't know how drunk I am Rio: I reckon you're good Rio: just try to get to the bathroom too fast and you should find out Buster: Wait til you know how to knock me out before you start thinking about me ending up on the floor Rio: You'll be fine Rio: don't be a baby Buster: I always am Buster: Don't worry about me Rio: Don't tell me what to do, like Buster: Do as you're told then, babe Rio: save that kinda talk for your first wife 😂 Rio: cheek Buster: What would I wanna get married for? Rio: Party Rio: presents Buster: I can do all that anyway without having to share the party or give her half the presents Rio: get a prenup then Rio: and you share a birthday so you're used to it Buster: Exactly, used to how shit it is Rio: and it's halloween Rio: poor boy Buster: Shut up Rio: Should've waited in your mum like you were meant to Buster: I keep telling you, I'm very busy Rio: You're funny Rio: you just didn't wanna be younger than me Buster: 'Course I fucking didn't Rio: You're still more immature so it doesn't matter Buster: I am not Buster: I just wouldn't wanna be younger and still taller than you, you'd be well embarrassed, like Rio: Just 'cos your dad is half-giant Rio: if he didn't look like him, I'd say he weren't grandas tbh Buster: He don't look that much like him Rio: Hmm Rio: more than he does nan but that doesn't mean much Buster: Your mum is the only one who looks anything like nan Rio: Poor nan Rio: bet she was gutted Buster: You look like your mum too Buster: More than I look like mine Rio: You do look like her though Rio: Nancy is like an exact mix it's a little weird Buster: She'll love it when she hears that Buster: I better remember it Rio: 🙄 Rio: just forget I said it, I wasn't trying to be mean Buster: It's only mean 'cause she wants to look exactly like mum Rio: your mum and auntie are like tiny Rio: it'd give anyone a complex Buster: You reckon she has one? Rio: No Rio: not like a serious one Rio: girls always think about stuff like that though Buster: Do you? Rio: being told I look like my ma therefore nan was a bit rude but I'll survive Rio: its like if you were really scrawny though, you'd compare yourself to your dad even though that's stupid and you can't help it, like Buster: I didn't mean it like that though Buster: You're like really pretty, you know Rio: oh so now you fancy my mum Rio: great 😏 Buster: She's too old and she has too many kids Rio: and your auntie, obviously Buster: I was obviously putting that aside Rio: I'm just joking Buster: I'm just saying, if I didn't know her she'd still be too old and have too many kids Buster: But you'd still be pretty Rio: Thanks Rio: I'll put off the kids longer than she did then Buster: I don't know why you'd wanna bother ever Rio: I don't know Rio: not actually decided Buster: It'd be weird if you already had your heart set on it Buster: Especially after growing up in this family Rio: You've already got your heart set on not, obvs so Rio: mine was pregnant with me just after her 15th, like Rio: 5 years isn't that long if I wanted to follow in her footsteps Buster: I feel like it's stupid Buster: But I've made stupid decisions before Rio: There's worse Buster: Obviously Rio: anyway, if you're not getting a wife you can just pretend it isn't yours Rio: easy Buster: Nan and granddad ain't married but he'd be dead if he tried that Rio: because they are Rio: all but the paperwork Rio: long term partner is no different really Buster: Maybe I'll follow in their footsteps with that then Rio: 🤷 Rio: no one will be buying you a toaster then Buster: I can buy my own Buster: Better taste than that lot have got anyway Rio: exchange it for cash if you're that concerned Buster: I won't be that strapped for any but cheers Rio: free money is free money Rio: idk why you're acting too good for it Buster: Taking it off 'em when I don't need it is unfair Rio: awh Rio: sucha 🤴 Buster: Stop taking the piss out of me Rio: What? It's cute Buster: We're supposed to be moving on and getting on so don't wind me up Rio: and I'm allowed to be who I want so don't tell me what to do Rio: it isn't as if either of us are or aren't having a wedding any time soon so don't take it so seriously Buster: Whatever Buster: If hard work is what you wanna be, like Rio: If you can't hack it Buster: 😂 If I can't hack it then what? Rio: Your loss and your problem Buster: It's neither Buster: There's nothing I can't handle, I already told you Rio: Alright then Rio: no need to pout Buster: I'm not a girl Rio: Really? Rio: I had no idea Buster: Hilarious Rio: I know, been said Buster: Language barrier, was there? Rio: Ha ha Rio: but you aren't funny so Buster: You just like to keep changing your mind Rio: girl's prerogative Rio: keep up Buster: Easily Rio: We shall see Rio: soon, yeah Buster: I'll show you any time, babe Rio: careful, could hold you to that Buster: Go ahead Rio: I'll play fair and not Rio: you are totally pissed Buster: I could keep up with you pissed and with both hands tied behind my back Rio: that's a new drinking game Buster: If you like Rio: what use would you be at getting me drinks with your hands tied? Rio: 👸 and that Buster: Use my mouth Rio: 😏 Rio: be a sight Rio: look forward to it then Buster: Soon then Rio: yeah Rio: bed now though Rio: taking the piss Buster: You are Buster: You said you'd talk to me til I fell asleep Rio: Meant to listen and shh Rio: so chatty, boy Buster: You wanted to keep talking Buster: But fine Buster: Change your mind, princess Rio: I do but Rio: wanna see you more Rio: obvs Rio: gotta make it be here faster Buster: [sends a cute little drunk selfie like you can see me now] Buster: Goodnight then Rio: Oh Rio: tuck yourself in properly then Buster: Really? Rio: Yeah Rio: get comfy Buster: Okay Rio: Show me Buster: [does] Rio: Good Rio: now you're ready Rio: Night, Buster Buster: Wait Buster: What about you? Rio: you want me to go sleep with you Rio: okay, hold on Buster: I'm older I can't go to sleep before you Rio: alright, you look out for me too Rio: that's fair Rio: [sends her own cute not drunk selfie like ready] Buster: That's unfair Rio: What? Buster: You're even prettier than I remember Rio: You need to stop being cute and settle down Buster: I'm going, I swear Rio: I'll miss you Buster: I already miss you Buster: Can I call you if I can't sleep? Rio: Of course Rio: tell you a story if you like Buster: About 👸s and 🤴s yeah? Rio: Only the best kind Rio: plenty of ⚔s Buster: But they get to be together at the end Buster: And nobody dies Rio: Happy endings only Rio: I swear Buster: Alright Rio: You can call me now Rio: if you like Buster: Only if you don't get mad at me for staying up Buster: At least til the end of the story Rio: You've gotta Rio: for the final 🥊 and the 💋 Buster: [does call her and it'd be so cute and they'd fall asleep together like they always do in the future]

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Janis & Jimmy

Janis: do you want me to do it all or Janis: [is Irish work, thus easy for her and like ??? for him] Jimmy: 👍 Jimmy: [is literally just doodling like the angsty art hoe he is] Janis: [does it 'cos you know when teachers pair you up for stupid worksheets and you're like what is the point we can do this alone tbh, also does pronounciation guide for him 'cos trying to keep busy but also cares] Jimmy: tah Janis: nbd Janis: we're meant to have a convo now so Janis: least pretend yeah Jimmy: no point, he can recognise my accent miles off Jimmy: I'd actually have to do it Janis: oh, true Janis: just wait and see if he's arsed then, I guess Jimmy: 👌 Janis: what did you do last week Jimmy: fuck knows in this class Jimmy: ain't followed a sec since I got here Janis: it's stupid they make you take it Janis: never going to use it, we won't even Jimmy: they'll look stupid when I drag down the average Jimmy: un🍀 Janis: sister's friend bigfoots in this class so we had no hope anyway Jimmy: 🤞 I won't have to sit through too many more of 'em Janis: yeah? Jimmy: always the #dream Janis: oh Janis: 'course Jimmy: [goes back to doodling] Janis: [leaves it a while, tapping her pen on the table 'til the teacher tells her to stop 'cos always a thing] Jimmy: [is chewing on his pen cos always a thing like you gonna get ink in your mouth boy] Janis: did I miss anything, like Jimmy: like? Janis: there's always some melodrama in this place Jimmy: there's your answer then Janis: 👌 Janis: cool Jimmy: 👍 Janis: I ha Janis: sorry, ddin't mean to hit send Janis: [you know when you deleting and you accidentally do, such a thing] Jimmy: like you said, nbd Janis: yeah well Jimmy: ? Janis: don't you even care a bit what I was going to say now Jimmy: nah Janis: okay Jimmy: unless you wanna liven up this class with the fake break up we never had Jimmy: probably bit late though Jimmy: 💔💔 Janis: stop Jimmy: [stops by just ignoring her & defacing the worksheet with 🎨] Janis: [snatches it and rips it up, says 'it was real for me' out loud before being sent out by the teach, everyone like 'oooh!' and #living] Jimmy: too real for you Jimmy: I got that Jimmy: 🎻🎻🎻🎻 Janis: [in seclusion after shotuing at the chill teacher like soz sir] Janis: fuck you Jimmy: fuck me 'cause you're a massive dickhead, alright Jimmy: always is Janis: no fuck you for saying it isn't real Jimmy: I didn't Jimmy: but could've Jimmy: should've Janis: no you shouldn't Janis: don't lie Jimmy: don't fuck off for ages then come back & tell me what I should do Janis: lying ain't gonna make you feel better about it Jimmy: nowt will Jimmy: so who cares Janis: me Jimmy: tweet it, babe Jimmy: or better yet send some more snaps & forget about it Janis: go on Jimmy: I ain't the one trying to go anywhere Jimmy: nowhere to go Janis: I mean keep going Janis: giving you the option, you said Jimmy: I know what you meant, I ain't that thick, remember, just northern Janis: do it then Jimmy: stop telling what to do Jimmy: who the fuck are you Janis: exactly Jimmy: exactly Jimmy: leave it out Janis: it'll make you feel better Jimmy: nowt will Jimmy: already said that Jimmy: I know you're probably chatting to loads of lads right now but try & keep up Janis: you haven't even got started yet, come on, what else Jimmy: piss off, Janis Janis: again, yeah? maybe Jimmy: 👍 Janis: is that the best you can do? don't be a pussy Jimmy: 🙄 Jimmy: my dad's got better insults than you Jimmy: don't bother Janis: I ain't, this is about you Jimmy: no it ain't Jimmy: it's nowt to do with me Jimmy: if it were we wouldn't be chatting Janis: you need to say it Jimmy: you need to Jimmy: so go on Jimmy: if you're so desperate Janis: nah, it has to be you Jimmy: 💔 gutted Janis: Fucking do it, I did my part Jimmy: deal's off Jimmy: don't have to do nowt for you Janis: that's all I needed you to say Janis: needed to know Jimmy: it's top that you got what you need Jimmy: 💕 Janis: don't worry, everyone will know it was my fault Janis: not like they ever wanted anything less Jimmy: yeah 'cause I really give a fuck Jimmy: what everyone knows or thinks Janis: yeah you don't give a fuck about anything, that's your thing Janis: say you never did and it's back to how it was Jimmy: I gave a fuck about you Jimmy: & enough of a fuck about my brother & sister not to chase after you Jimmy: but go on Janis: who am I gonna tell? Jimmy: I don't care Jimmy: I'm telling you 'cause you've forgotten who I am in a week Janis: No I haven't Jimmy: then you're just trying to hurt me, alright Jimmy: go on with that too Janis: that's the opposite of what I'm trying to do, I'm trying to make this easier Janis: the more you hate me the better it'll be Jimmy: that's your thing, yeah Jimmy: tah so much Janis: didn't say i was fucking good at it Jimmy: good job Jimmy: I can't fake that I agree Janis: why are you faking anything Janis: love me or hate me, we're past that shit Jimmy: habit I suppose Janis: well stop Jimmy: make me Jimmy: you don't get to do this Janis: what don't I get to do Jimmy: how I handle shit is up to me Janis: you ain't Jimmy: 🎻🎻🎻 Jimmy: I'll run away next week Jimmy: hang on, I can't Jimmy: 💔💔 Janis: I didn't Janis: I told you Jimmy: fuck you Jimmy: I don't wanna hear it Janis: tough Jimmy: what are you gonna do? shout at me like you did sir? Jimmy: 🙄 Janis: maybe Jimmy: go on then Jimmy: never get enough of that Jimmy: you & my dad can do a rota Janis: yeah I'm your Dad Janis: you wish Jimmy: 👍 Jimmy: dream come true that Janis: you're welcome Jimmy: yeah Janis: what do I do now Jimmy: what are you asking me for? Janis: you've had your heart broken before yeah Janis: i don't know anyone else who has Jimmy: & I told you nowt helps Janis: I ain't asking for it to stop but what do I do Jimmy: do what you like Jimmy: it don't matter Janis: good one Jimmy: you told me not to lie Jimmy: there it is Janis: i know but it doesn't stop it being bullshit Jimmy: everything's bollocks Jimmy: nowt's gonna change nowt Janis: not true Jimmy: shout at another teacher Jimmy: me Jimmy: fuck off again Jimmy: it don't matter Jimmy: you're still gonna feel how you do Janis: if you could stay gone, i think it'd work Janis: but you never can Jimmy: I'm counting down the days Jimmy: I'll let you know Janis: you're not gone, you can't Janis: i can't either Janis: one per family i dunno Jimmy: not yet, like I said 🤞 Jimmy: soon Jimmy: & I'll let you know how it works out Janis: nah Janis: I don't mean from here, from me Janis: and you won't Jimmy: we'll see Jimmy: or I will & you won't see me, like Jimmy: sorta the point Janis: is that easier Jimmy: nowt's easy Jimmy: how many times Janis: that's not true Janis: it was easy Janis: before Jimmy: for what like a week? Jimmy: don't count Janis: not then Janis: before you Jimmy: soz Jimmy: I didn't ask to show up either Janis: no you're not Jimmy: I just said so Jimmy: very sorry to be in this shithole actually Janis: poor you Jimmy: tah Jimmy: don't worry I'll 🎨 about it Janis: worry, about you, why would I do that? Janis: all fake this, so you say Janis: thank god Jimmy: 👍 Janis: I just wanted Janis: who cares, right Jimmy: right Janis: 👍 Jimmy: 👌 Janis: I wish I hated you Jimmy: likewise Jimmy: but wishing is bollocks anyway Jimmy: never once got nowt I tried for Jimmy: 💔🎻💔 Janis: I can easily make that happen for you Jimmy: you can't Jimmy: & like I said, you don't get to Janis: yes I can Jimmy: no Janis: yes Jimmy: shut up Janis: make me Jimmy: you're in seclusion Jimmy: so unlikely Janis: like you'd do anything if you were here Jimmy: like you'd make that challenge if I were Janis: yes I would Janis: I've been telling you, do something Jimmy: just Jimmy: let me feel how I fucking do, alright Janis: not stopping you Jimmy: but stop Jimmy: this Janis: why, you really wanna be in there with all them Janis: get kicked out Jimmy: they ain't gonna put me with you if I do Janis: excuses Jimmy: no but why would I bother? Janis: like it's difficult Jimmy: like it matters Janis: whatever Jimmy: I don't care about any of this Jimmy: don't you get that Janis: prove it then Jimmy: & do what Jimmy: bust you out & then Jimmy: ? Janis: show me how little you care Jimmy: alright fine Janis: cool Jimmy: [literally can't reply cos leaving class to bust into seclusion & kiss her really angrily & passionately & just like ILY & miss you so SOMEONE FILM THIS ON YOUR PHONE SO EVERYONE KNOWS]

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Chloé & Buster

Chloé: You coming to Abi's party tonight? Buster: No Chloé: Why not! Gonna be such a laugh Buster: It's not really any of your business, is it, Chlo, but let's be honest even if I was in the country, we both know it wouldn't be a laugh Buster: Abi's probably fucked up already Buster: And that's only one of the reasons why it's a no Chloé: Ooh, someone's moody! Chloé: Unlucky you're out of town babes 😂 Chloé: Family time, is it? Yawn Buster: Fuck off, Chlo Buster: There are other things to do besides annoying my sister, you should try it Chloé: Not in her inbox, am I? Chloé: 😷 Chloé: As if you're doing anything worth talking about Buster: Neither am I so how in the hell would I know, like? Buster: Why do you care so much still what I'm doing? Buster: Sort it out, babe. The who ain't you, but there's plenty of lads in your postcode who would Chloé: Just inviting you to a bash don't get wild about it Chloé: Never see you out these days, not YOUR postcode anymore, no? Chloé: Fake girlfriend still, is it? 💔 Buster: And why do you reckon that is, babe? Buster: Fault's yours not mine. Stop inviting me out, yeah? I'm not here for it. Or you Buster: I'm not sorry I'm busy with my actual girlfriend Chloé: What have I done! Chloé: Nothing but nice to you, and your sister, for that matter Buster: If that's what you think I ain't got the time to change your mind Buster: Nor write you a list, like Chloé: 🙄 The theatrics! Chloé: So, what's she like then? Must be something if you're willing to leave here for it Buster: Draw your own conclusions Buster: I'm not talking about her to you Chloé: Cute 💘 Chloé: Though you don't need to talk that game to me Chloé: Might be able to convince a girl outside the postcode that you're #loyal babes but no need or way that'll wash with me 😏 Buster: Shut up Buster: Maybe the reason I had to go out of the postcode was less to do with me and more about the type of girl there, you ever thought on that? Chloé: Omg Chloé: Admitting you can't handle us? Buster: You wish Buster: It wasn't a compliment, babe Chloé: Whatevs Chloé: You're looking good anyway Buster: Course I am Buster: Is there anything else I can actually do for you or what? 'Cause there's plenty my girlfriend can do for me if we're done here Chloé: If you wanna make me jealous Chloé: so many better ways to go about it Buster: Please Buster: Don't flatter yourself, honestly Chloé: Who's this??? Chloé: [Rio's post] Buster: Your subtlety is astounding Buster: Your sleuthing needs some work though, clearly Chloé: It's on my feed, I ain't ashamed Buster: Give it a double tap and move on, babe Chloé: Yeah, don't think she's your type Chloé: Maybe your sister's, she's always commenting hmm Buster: Like you know anything about mine or my sister's type of girl Chloé: Getting warmer, am I? Buster: In the sense you're getting more desperate, yeah Buster: If this turns you on that's an issue for you to worry about, not me Chloé: Please Chloé: it's fun isn't it Buster: No Buster: If I tell you who she is will you go away? Chloé: Sure! Buster: She's one of my many cousins, alright Chloé: Oh Chloé: That explains it Chloé: Disappointing but don't need to tell you that Buster: Off you go then Chloé: No Chloé: I thougt you were going to tell me who your girlfriend is Buster: Why the fuck would I do that? Chloé: Why would I care who your skanky cousin is? Buster: 'Cause you're obsessed with me apparently Buster: And don't call her that Chloé: Like you care babes Buster: I obviously do or else I wouldn't waste my breath telling you to shut up Chloé: You've said worse about all of 'em Chloé: Oh my Gosh Chloé: Just realised who she is Buster: I can whatever I want. Who the fuck are you? Buster: Congrats Chloé: She is, isn't she? Chloé: The one everyone's slept with Chloé: How shaming Buster: It'd sound more sincere if you hadn't slept with most of Chelsea, babe Buster: One rule for you, yeah? Chloé: I live here, I didn't fly in for the experience Chloé: Why was she even here? Buster: Maybe if you upped your own game the lads wouldn't need her to fly in Chloé: How can you talk about your own family like that you sicko Buster: 😂 Buster: You do have a moral code of some sort then? Buster: Take it up with your boy besties, they're the ones who like to chat about it Chloé: More than you do, clearly Chloé: Doesn't that just make you want to die? How mortifying Buster: It makes me wanna kill them Buster: Thanks for asking Chloé: As if you're any better 😂 Buster: I don't sleep with any girls they care about, do I? Chloé: Yeah right Chloé: Family man now, are you babes? Chloé: Take it up with her if you're so close now Buster: Whatever, Chlo Chloé: More touchy about this than you were with your own sister Chloé: Guess there was no risk of all your mates getting on her Buster: Exactly Buster: And you've missed your chance too so no worries there Chloé: You're so vile Buster: Like you'd be above fucking my sister? Okay babe Chloé: 🤢 Chloé: I'd sooner drink bleach Chloé: thank you Buster: I'm sure she would too Buster: Shame there was none in my glass that night at the party, like Chloé: Sorry to disappoint whatever incest kink you've got going on Chloé: but nah babes Buster: Why? You ain't been sorry about being a let down in any other way Chloé: Shut up Chloé: I was wasted and you're not giving a second chance Buster: If it was only how unfuckable you are, I'd let you off Chloé: You certainly managed Chloé: Trust me Buster: As I've only got your word on it, I have to Chloé: How else do you expect me to prove it? Chloé: DNA test? Buster: I don't care Buster: It happened and it ain't again. End of story Chloé: Whatever you say Buster: There ain't nothing else to say Buster: Unless you've got something you desperately wanna add? Chloé: Just talking to James Chloé: he reckons you're well weird about your cousin Buster: Says the lad who told me in graphic detail what fucking her was like? Okay Chloé: Didn't do it for you? Chloé: Poor boy 😂 Buster: But I'm the vile one, sure Chlo Chloé: Calm down, it's only bants Chloé: You're sooooo serious now Buster: Serious about how much I want you to fuck off out of my inbox Chloé: Can't handle it now or what? Chloé: There's a reason, I know Buster: I ain't never wanted to handle you, babe Chloé: Obvs not Chloé: not related to you am I Chloé: how country 😂 Buster: Fuck off Buster: Excuse me if you slagging off my family isn't a huge turn on for me, like Chloé: Why's it matter Chloé: Not gonna say it to their face am I Buster: You literally did say shit to my sister though Buster: Already forgotten or what? Chloé: No I never Chloé: Mads tagged her Chloé: then everyone else did Chloé: it wasn't me Buster: Back in the day in was all you though Chloé: She say that did she? Chloé: I was the only one who even tried to be her friend Chloé: not my fault she was in love with me Buster: Bullshit Buster: You ain't her type either, babe Buster: Get over yourself Chloé: Hmm not how I remember it Chloé: not like you were paying any attention so what would you know tbh Buster: I've heard it from her now Buster: Not just in Dublin seeing my girlfriend, as you've already worked out Chloé: Thrilled for you both, I'm sure Buster: Act like it then Buster: Leave me alone Buster: And it goes without saying, my sister as well Chloé: Well you see I can't Chloé: Hate to burst your bubble, of course Buster: Yeah you can Chloé: I really can't Chloé: As fun as this has been I have some news Buster: Go on then Buster: Sooner you've said it, sooner you can go Chloé: Ha Chloé: I'm pregnant Buster: What the fuck, Chlo? Even for you that's low Buster: Still going to Abi's party though, yeah? Buster: Bullshit Chloé: God, I can still have fun and A GLASS Chloé: beside the point Chloé: [pics of tests] Buster: Well yeah, you can do whatever you want until you prove it's my kid Chloé: How do you expect me to do that Chloé: and I know it's yours, thank you very much Buster: You might, but I don't Buster: And forgive me if I don't automatically take your word for it after all the shit you've said and done, like Chloé: Well if you weren't being so difficult Buster: Me? Buster: Fuck that Buster: Get a prenatal DNA and get back to me or wait until the kid is born, do it and get back to me Chloé: Wow Chloé: Class act Chloé: That's going to require a bit of cooperation, babes Buster: All you need is a blood sample or mouth swab Buster: I'll give you either Chloé: Done this before, have you? Chloé: Jesus Christ Chloé: it's a child, your child Buster: Not as far I know yet Buster: You having this convo with James and the rest of them too, are you? Chloé: Fuck off Chloé: No Chloé: and don't you dare tell ANYONE Buster: Like I want them knowing about it Buster: Whether it's my kid or not Buster: I've gotta tell my parents though so Chloé: You can tell them Chloé: Mine don't know yet Buster: You should tell them too Chloé: Will you tell them with me? Buster: Okay Chloé: Yay good Chloé: When are you back? Buster: I was gonna skip school but Buster: When were you planning on telling them? Chloé: I don't know, doesn't matter Buster: Of course it does Buster: You need to decide what you're gonna do Buster: They can help you Chloé: What? Chloé: I know what I'm doing Chloé: I've already been shopping with the girls Buster: I thought you didn't want anyone to know? Chloé: I don't want YOU telling people it could be anyone else's Chloé: when it couldn't, how rude Buster: So you've told your friends but not your parents? Buster: Come on, Chlo Buster: Have you even been to the doctors or anything? Chloé: Yeah they'll just fuss and wanna know things Chloé: how cringe Chloé: No point yet Chloé: I think Chloé: it's like 12 weeks scan, yeah? Buster: You can get DNA done at 9 weeks Buster: I've just looked it up Chloé: How long's it been? Buster: If you don't know that how are you so sure it's my kid? Chloé: I haven't slept with anyone else for ages Chloé: if you must know Buster: It is kind of worth knowing, yeah Buster: Fuck's sake Chloé: Don't be funny with me Chloé: I just know alright Buster: Don't tell me how to be Buster: I asked you after if you needed me to take you to the pill and you said no Chloé: Well I thought I was fine, obviously Buster: Well, now neither of us are, obviously Chloé: I'm good Chloé: Drama Chloé: It'll be nice, if you let it Buster: Nice? Buster: Grow up, Chlo Chloé: Well I'm not getting rid of it Chloé: you've done it now, deal with it Buster: Like I said, when you prove to me that it's my baby, I will Chloé: Fine, I will Chloé: you'll see Chloé: anyway, I'm going out, gotta get my nails done for tonight Buster: I'm glad you've got your priorities in order, babe Buster: Jesus Christ Chloé: What? Chloé: I can't do anything, I told you I've got loads of stuff for it Chloé: keeping it at Lindseys Buster: Don't go the party Buster: That's what you could do Chloé: I'm not going to sit at home on a saturday night Chloé: i'm not 40 Buster: Clearly. 40 year old's don't tend to get knocked up accidentally as a rule Chloé: Menopause'll do that to you babe Buster: That's not the point Buster: We need to talk about this you can't just ruin my life and then go do a toast with your friends Chloé: Me ruin yours? I didn't impregnate myself Buster: You're ruining your own by not thinking this through Chloé: I'm not a baby killer Chloé: sorry about it Buster: I don't even have words for how stupid that sounds Chloé: I can't believe you're trying to make me get an abortion Buster: I'm not trying to make you do anything except use your brain Buster: What about uni? Are you still gonna go or what? Buster: Are you gonna get your own place or stay with your mum and dad? Chloé: Wow, 20 questions! Buster: This isn't a game Buster: Fucking hell Chloé: I'm having a baby Chloé: that's my plan Buster: And then what? Chloé: Be a mum? Buster: You know how hard that's gonna be, yeah? Chloé: I think I'll manage babe Chloé: I'm not an idiot Buster: You're an idiot if you think it's easy Chloé: How hard can it be Buster: Very Buster: Babies can't do fuck all and kids aren't much better Chloé: Yeah, I know how to feed it and change it Chloé: Abi's got a baby sister she's so cute Buster: Good for her Buster: I bet she ain't doing the night feeds while her parents sleep, is she Chloé: Whatever Buster: Don't fucking whatever me, Chlo Chloé: Don't you talk to me like that Buster: I can't talk to you right now if you're gonna be like this Chloé: That's good because you're making me late Buster: Fine Buster: Bye then Chloé: 👋

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