#you; its so heartwarming to see you continue to flourish in the face of adversity

[monpalace]

i have no appropriate reaction image to convey my emotion to this so im instead going to make you imagine im chewing on you like a chewtoy 😭

im sorry if im not very articulated or something sounds wrong but i am very emotional rn

WAUGHH I MISS TALKING TO YOU TO!!!! im just,, very very very socially awkward and am terrible at starting conversation so im so sorry for the way i just dropped off the face of the earth/ignored you, it wasn't intentional i was just seeing you interact with other people and didnt wanna interrupt iykwim 😭

i see you in my notifs (whether it be a reblog or original post or wtv) and just wanna throttle you (affectionately) to see how you're doing and if you have any brainworms you wanna share

i def miss getting your stories and i miss sending them into your inbox even more! i have like. an entire folder in my notes dedicated to snippets/ideas i wanted to send you but never finished because i was super nervous

i don't recall a single breakdown i did where i didn't sound a little bit stupid and said a whole lot of nothing/ran myself in 20 million circles so ty 😭

AND THANK YOU FOR THE ART AND OC COMPLIMENTS (do not encourage me i go on long tangent with no rhyme, reason, or overall idea of what in talking about and that is a dangerous game)‼️‼️‼️ i see how your progressing with digital art and i just wanna tear into it with my teeth and rip it apart like a rabid dog because it looks so good

i am still very much in loz its just that the twst hyperfixation came back and they're fighting for top pedestal in my brain, so im sorry if it seems like i pushed loz like. way back in last place,, i just don't have anything to say about it because my imagination has been running on empty for everything </3

(you and recent posts about fd have ruined me into thinking about him again. im giving you the meanest glare known to man.)

anyways im grabbing you by your cheeks and planting the biggest kiss on your forehead in an annoying aunt/older sister/wtv kind of way 🩶🩶🩶

(also if by new moots you mean billy and kupoh, those are my irls 😭 they haunt me everywhere i go. i am so sorry for any interaction you've seen me have with them. in the most corporate but funny way of my saying this; i promise they don't represent who i am as an individual 😭)

UHM! HI this is just gonna be me rambling about some of my mutuals cause I cherish them all and everything they've done for me

no i will not be tagging them, the tumblr gods will decide if they find this or not

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Cal, gods I have so much to say about them but they could honestly be their own post by themselves /pos. I -genuinely- wouldn't be here today if it wasnt for them, so many times have they unknowingly helped me out of horrible places in my life, and I could never put my love for them into words no matter how many poems i write in their honour. They are one of the best friends ive ever had in my life, they are the most genuine, selfless, precious people ive had the pleasure of knowing.

Maj- oh i miss talking to him so much you dont understand!!! I love love loved sending them silly stories in her askbox, their way of thinking and breaking down stories were the most delicious things! Not only that but the art??? Their ocs always enticed me and i would willing sit down and listen to them talk about them for hours if i could. They are FUCKING HALRIOUS TOO!!! They've -without even trying- have given me so many belly laughs when i needed that the most.

But i seem them in their new fandom with other moots and im so happy shes having fun /gen

GASP! MY SPOUSE!!! Fir! UGH i love them so much /p They are so encouraging, and they help me so much when it comes to stories and figuring stuff out- and they WROTE SO MUCH FOR ME???? IM SO GREATFUL FOR EVERYTHING THEY'VE MADE AND DONE FOR ME AND I WISH I COULD REPAY IT BACK 10 FOLDS! I feel so free when speaking with them, like im able to be a part of me where i cant with others and its- its so relieving.

Vaati- a genuine inspiration. I was a HUGE fan of his shifting sands series when I found it on instagram and when i say HE MOVED TO TUMBLR?! I WAS FUCKING ESTATIC!!!! Also very worried that his art got stolen but it was clear it wasnt- ANYWAYS! When I first found him, i was so ready to just give up on art -before my digital art era- because when i stared at my art all i saw was bland strokes of a pencil that could never be compared to what others had made, but when I found his comic that was FULLY TRADTIONAL I was stunned. I showed it to everyone I knew, whether they knew loz/lu or not, i needed them to see the talent and beauty I found. And he was the beginning of me starting to relearn to love traditional art again, and how much more beautiful it was to me compared to any digital piece

ARIA!!! I was in awe of her cute style- and i saw her make art for Sacred realm and i was HOOKED! Genuinely, I was like 'oop- have to be friends with her now' and though we dont talk that much, im constantly impressed with her growth even when she thinks its trash. That girl has SO much potential, and im estatic to see what she does with it. OH AND THE ART SHES MADE FOR FAROLA?! **MWAH!!!** Honestly she made me love Farola again-

Major, an unrated GEM, one of the most encouraging, heartfelt and creative person ive met on this site. She is, and will always be, someone I look to when I need a push or when im unsure about doing something (like this!) cause I know that she will never cease her amazing ability to encourage and inspire those around her.

Finky and Isa- some of the most iconic styles ive seen, its amazing to see them grow and keep their styles while still improving. AND THE AMOUNT OF ART AND IDEAS THEY MAKE??? Im stunned by how quick they are able to make their art and STILL HAVE IT BE AMAZING QUAILTY?! Witch craft I tell you!

Shade and Mossy, two people I sadly dont talk to much anymore, but were apart of one of the most important parts of my life so far. Both were such positive lights that kept pushing even when they got pulled back by others. Idk if its their stubbornness or determination that keeps them going, but whatever they have, I want it!