#you know his ass aint driving its gunna be you

[artvomit]

[ask-teamplayer]

what do you guys all think of fate?

DARIN: not gunna lie sometime it b like

DARIN: ALL HAIL OUR GREAT FOREVER LEADER

DARIN: i aint know SHIT abt communism but we livin close to it with that guy

DARIN: that cute ass guy...

DARIN: cute as in cutie but also cute ass

DARIN: hes got a really cute ass im sayin

SETH: yeah, hes really hard to like... dislike!

SETH: he just worms his way under your skin and you cant even be mad at the little guy. hes just so charming and funny!

SETH: ive known him since i was young, so i have the best word here. how can you not fall in love with him a little??? bro love i mean. you know. how can you not just wanna wrap him up in a blanket??

NAHLA: Neeeerrrrdsss.

NAHLA: He is so full of bullshit, and honestly it's kind of crazy you think he's some kind of powerful leader type! He only breaks up fights because you're weak for him. So weaakk.

NAHLA: He is fun to prank. I will give you that and that only! It's funny to see him go on his little fits! Maybe that "small people are closer to hell" thing had some truth to it! Haha.

SETH: sure, nahla...

RONIN: yeah, f's probably the reason im friends with any of you stupid fucking people. he deserves some credit for that.

VERA: Hey now

RONIN: shit. except you, v. i dont know if we wouldve met without his divine intervention but i never wouldve hated you.

RONIN: we've got a trio thing going on with the guy, if you havent noticed, anon. he just forces us introverts to talk to each other, so i guess thats one thing he succeeded on.

CORA: I swear hearing the friend group discuss Fate without him in the room is always interesting. It's like he's some kind of friendship zeitgeist. Whenever he's in the room he's the center of attention, whenever he's out of it he's the center of discussion.

CORA: Somehow, every topic of colloquy we as a group have circles around to that boy and his many complexities. I enjoy his presence and participate in many philosophical discussions with him, but I'm more interested in the impact he leaves.

CORA: Every boy I am mutually friends with never shuts the fuck up about him. Even the straightest of macho men I have spoken with who accept his identity. It's quite humorous and frustrating.

LILY: hes silly :P

CORA: That as well...

ENZO: honestly its hard to tell if some of yall are too harsh on him except nahla in which case its really fuckin obvious and you gotta learn some empathy but whatever im not your dad

ENZO: dudes a goddamn sweetie pie but also a little asshole he balances it

ENZO: like the second i get uncomfortable he descends upon me like a shark smelling blood in the water to pamper me like im a fuckin handbag dog and hand out food and reassurances and sort the shit out he literally will just not let me be anxious ever no matter the circumstances

ENZO: he brings fuckin FANNY PACKS sometimes when we re out of school like he is THAT GUY

ENZO: i dont even think he knows half of what he does to me cause he drives me crazy lmao

CORA: As I said: Never shuts the fuck up about him. Homo-erotically crazy about this boy.

CORA: It's fascinating.

ENZO: yo cora i get its like your thing but can you interrogate me about my nonexistent sexuality issues a lil less cause i can fuckin hear you and its not all that polite

ENZO: im from the south i can make jokes like i ever experienced politeness in my life bro! shut up i literally just like the guy cause hes nice im not in the mood today

FATE: Sorry, bathroom break.

FATE: What are we talking about?

ENZO: NOTHING

CORA: Don't worry your pretty little head about it.

FATE: Cool.

[effervescentmind]

Entry 13: 6/14/19 @3:57 p.m.

I’m once again on the patio at work.

So some things have happened since the last time I wrote. A few days ago, I was at work and greeted a table. The Wife was there first and I guess her husband was parking the car. Anyway, I introduce myself to her and in the middle of getting her drink order, a man puts his arm around my waist and squeezes me against his body from behind. “Hi, how are ya!?” says the smiling man next to me. “Well, that wasnt creepy”, his wife says irritated. I didnt speak, just went to grab the drinks and gave them to a coworker. I asked him to please take my table, that I was uncomfortable with them. He agreed and I continued to care for the rest of my section. I ended up telling my manager and he told me to just get him if anything else happens. Nothing did but later on I was standing in the front, talking with the hostesses and I saw the man walk out the door. His wife was on her way out too and I just felt the need to say something. “ Excuse me ma’am. I think your husband owes me an apology, he made me very uncomfortable’. “I already yelled at him but if you want me to go get him and fucking give you a fucking apology then I’ll fucking do it. Jesus fucking christ!”, she yelled as she rushed out after her husband. I was so angry that I went to the back and refused them when they came inside. She was up there yelling at the hostesses because I refused to come out and demanded that I come up for my apology. I didnt, told the girls to tell her to leave. She did but not after letting everyone know that they were never coming back again. I told my manager what happened and he was more upset that I didnt come get him and started arguing with me about it. He made it about himself because he wanted to yell at them. I hate him, he always wants to be in the middle of drama and hes unprofessional and belittling. I cant believe that I had just been sexual harrassed and he was angry with me because I felt the need to say something. I HAVE A RIGHT TO TALK IF I WANT TO!!! I’M THE FUCKING VICTIM DAMMIT!!!! And didnt I get you from the beginning?? Why didnt you go talk to the table after that?? Smh, I hate him. He also tried to make me feel bad and make a passive-aggressive, half threat about the possibility of corporate recieveing an email from the guests. Like why the fuck is that even a valid argument?? I am the one that was assaulted and we have it on video. Do you honestly think that corporate would fire me for that?? Fuck no! Unless they want a court case on their hands which I would GLADLY go through the trouble of doing. Its just insane that I felt uncomfortable and violated at work and I dont even get any fucking help from management. 

Later on that night, I went home and got ready to hangout with a guy I met and chilled with the night before. He was my lyft driver and really cool but that was short lived. We ended up having sex and he came in me without permission. When I asked him if he had, he said yes and then I got angry with him. I expressed my feelings and how stupid he was and he told me not to worry because he “takes care of all his kids” like???? BITCH I DONT WANT KIDS!!! This wasnt discussed like????? He laughed and argued back a little. “You didn’t even ask me if I was on birth control!”. “ Are you?” I glared at him, “ Don’t fucking ask me now dumbass, buy me a plan b wtf.”. He asked how much, “I don’t know, between 40 and 50 dollars”. “Hell fuck that. Nah. Not doing that sorry.”. I started arguing and he stopped me and said he would do it. Then we laid there in silence. “So you gunna be mad all night cuz I aint tryna be quiet like this all night. Like when you gunna stop being mad”. He was chuckling at me again…I stayed quiet but was cursing him out in my head. I was in disbelief that he was not understanding the level of violation he just put me through and that he had the audacity to tell me to get over it. I was on birth control but he didnt know that and that was a risk that I didnt appreciate. A selfish, stupid risk. Ugh, he made me sick. Such trash. I was going to make him give me 50 for the plan b I didnt need but fuck that. I wanted him out of my bed. I wanted him out of my fucking apartment! “I’m going to get the pill myself”, “ Oh, ok good”. What a piece of shit…he really is a fucking bum. He cant afford to get me a plan b but he can take care of my baby? Smh, such a garbage broke little bitch! “ Yeah, Imma get it and you need to go.” “Oh, for sure” he jumps up, gets dressed and goes to the living room. I put on my clothes, follow and watch him pack. He then angrily asks me if he can have his 20 dollars (I asked him to bring me a little bag of weed and I would pay him for it) and I told him that I had to get the pill and that was the least he could do. With added aggression, “So you keeping the weed or the twenty?”. I wanted to punch him in the face, Man he was a piece of shit. “Take you’re petty ass twenty and leave you broke ass nigga.”. He started arguing about leaving and I told him to get the fuck out that he doesnt get away with violating people and closed the door behind him. 

So, I’ve decided to refrain from boys for a while. I’ve tried to find a fwb but the guys I’ve met have been pathetic and aggrivating, broke bitches and I just don’t have the time or enegry for it. I’ve had two ask me for money like?? Hell nah bye!!!!!!! Ugh, I’m really done. Deleted the dating apps I had and everything. Just going to concentrate on my life, betterment and school. I can’t be living here in Texas longer than I want to and I can’t be stuck at this bullshit ass job that wears me out and doesnt pay enough. I gotta do better and be better. I deserve BETTERRRRRR!!!!

In other news, i paid off my Dade county court fee and turned in all the necessary documents and whatnot. Soon I will have my license back and be able to drive legally and with peace of mind. So, thats something to look forward too :) I also will be starting my one year of classes in September. Things are slowly falling into place and I can only continue to go up from here. 

[survivormuxloe]

Episode 15: “i didnt control this game 4 a goat to win” - Scott

So the reward challenge has been revealed. A little bit nervous tbh. However I do have a plan, I’d probably call Danielle. Because I feel she would have the best read on how the jury is feeling. She has sat there for the longest time. So her views are most likely the views of most people. So having her knowledge of the jury will be useful. First I have to win this challenge which I think I’m capable of winning, so fingers crossed I can win this.

THE CAT IS FINALLY OUT OF THE BAG HOLYYY LMAAAOOAO

i finally got to play it.. it didnt do anything. but. it secured me f4 just incase anything did happen!! LAMJFNFHBG. ugh. i love it tho... everyone takes me to the end i think which makes me lowkey queef LMAOAOAOOA :):)

hope yall r proud of meeeee :flushed:

I MADE FINAL 4. I’m so shocked and happy with myself. I broke my personal placement record and it’s so exciting. Unfortunately though I get to move past a milestone at the expense of losing a close ally. I got past eighth but Jones got eliminated. I get past my record but then Tobi gets idoled out. I’m so depressed but it just makes me want to win for them. I’m hearing that it’s a final 2 but it isn’t confirmed. So now I’m thinking who do I want to be sitting in a final 2 with. None of them honestly, they’ve all played great games. But I especially don’t want to sit next to Ryan. He’s done so well in this game and he made a succesful idol play. It would look like if a genius hacker were to sit next to an enthusiastic toddler.

It sucks cus nobody’s said anything since the vote and I really wanna talk to someone because bitch I’m in the top 4 let’s celebrate. I see Tobi online and its like fuCK I CANT CELEBRATE WITH HIM EITHER CUS HES GONE NOW.

its so hard telling eveeryone that im winning

we have a reward challenge on day 36 so i think that means we have a final 3 yayyyy whew. and the reward is the power call w one juror for 10 mins... which makes me kinda anxious ngl so i'm not even sure if i want to win this... but the challenge is Casanova and that is like one the flash games i'm really good at if i need to be so hmmm I'm wondering if i should beast it or not. i think winning it and having the courage to talk to one of them could be a big boost to my game so like... i'm thinking maybe i should just nut up and go for it hm

So I won reward fuck yeah.

This will give me the chance too see how the jury is thinking at the moment.

But with this immunity I am fuckin scared. Cards being stacked into tower formation. Honestly fuck that. I’ve been practicing and am getting there but I need to do this to make sure I have a chance of winning.

it feels so weird bc theres so little to say in confessionals now LOL!

uhm. just hopin for mo not to win ig. :)

So just had a call win Dani. Apparently I have close to 0% chance at winning. Which tbh I’m surprised about. Mo has the best chance? Idk like I want to believe her but it sounds fishy. I just need to feel out and go with Dani it trust my gut.

Rhys won his third immunity which is intimidating but then again he was only participating against me. Reminder I was trying to set up a card house with a tremor, due to my meds my hands shake. BUT I refused to give up and I’m still proud of myself because I know I did the best that I could.

I think this might be the round I’m eliminated. I hope not but apparently Rhys used his Jury call on Dani and Dani said he had the lowest chance of winning and I had the highest chance. Which first of all, REALLY???? ME???? Like thank you but, what? Second of all I need to play very passive right now in hopes that Rhys will stick with his original plan of voting Scott. Tomorrow it’s going to be me or Scott.

i feel bad for abstaining in the final 4 immunity but hnnng i really cant fux with these live challenges so rip. i feel like there's a good chance the jury looks down on my game bc this is like the 3rd challenge i've sat out of hnnng. but i'm glad Rhys won instead of Mo woo for that. it's seeming like it's gonna be a final 2 after all so womp. according to Mo, Rhys says he's voting for either him or Scott so ig I'm sitting in a good spot... although is it bad i was hoping to get another vote to rack up more than 11 overall? lol whatever so yay. i don't have high hopes of winning this game but regardless i'm happy i was able to survive all this time especially w my bae scott <3

Ok so I have a lot of hope right now. I’ll share the messages I sent Rhys because they’ll explain why I’m hopeful. “I just got some info This vote is either going to end in a fire making challenge between Scott and I or with me going home Cus Ryan just said him and Scott have had a tight Final 2 since the beginning so he can’t vote Scott (If you don’t believe me I’m sure he’ll tell you himself if you ask) So I respect your decision of voting for me if you do but I’d be insanely grateful if I was given the opportunity of a fire making challenge I see it like this. If I get to stay, then it’s us two vs Ryan or Scott because I think both Ryan and Scott have played insanely good games So we would have a higher chance of winning immunity But if it’s Scott, Ryan and you in the final three then it’s 1/3 odds. Where as if I stayed it would be 2/3 and if I somehow miraculously won individual immunity I’d take you to the end. It would be the smartest decision for me after hearing what Dani said But then if you win you can take Ryan with you to the end and I’ll end up 3rd Since Ryan and Scott have their final 2 thing” and Rhys agreed to it so tomorrow is going to be a firemaking challenge between me and Scott.

rhys is actually driving me fucking crazy lol... like. its right to vote me out yes. but his reasoning is so FUCKING DUMB. HE GENIUNELY HAS CONVINCED HIMSELF THAT THE JUROR HE CHOSE TO TALK TO LIED TO HIM. LIKE. RLY BITCH? im not getting 4th off of the back of ur fucking goaty ass losing to mo @ ftc ew lmao..

actually ya im not done like rhys is geniunely losing against anyone left for good reason hes been a goat this entire game and thats the entire fucking tea LAMJFBHFG.

i just dont want mo to win... imagine someone who voted wrong like 7/9 times in merge winning. fucking ew. if i leave ryan better win ftc bc hes the only good winner left if i leave like fr. i didnt control this game 4 a goat to win.. LAMNFNFG just ew ew ew ew ew ew..

im not going down tho america... ill pull every trick out of the bag if i have to. if i gotta lie to get a 2-1-1 vote i will. i aint bothered. id rather get 3rd knowing i was gunna win than fucking 4th. i aint knife!!

So like i Won immunity again which is insane. 3rd immunity.

I’ve been thinking about my call with Dani. I realised that if she telling the truth I have no chance. So might as well assume she is lying and have a chance. So I’m being optimistic.

So taking Scott out is my best choice right now. He may have bad jury management but he had played the best game. So I’m voting with Mo against Scott. Realistically Scott is probably going to win. But that gives me a possible vote on the jury.

I told scott that I’m Voting him as there isn’t any point in lying but he is working to stay. But like he needs to go. I can’t fuck up and have him win immunity. So yeah my game could be a shit show it could be nothing I don’t know. Wish me luck I guess.

I’m like legit so sad rn. I know I’ve had literally no chance at winning this game. So I’ve been optimistic trying to take the best road. Which in my mind is voting Scott out. I told him because he like legit my best friend I’ve made in this game and In a lot of games recently.

Now he hates me and has been really aggressive with trying to get me to stay.  Like I’ve told him my reasoning and he just still thinks I’m being stupid. Like yeah I just hate this. Can’t wait for tribal for him to attack me more.

Rhys gettin a lil brave this round after being asleep the whole merge omg. Whatever he heard from Danielle has seriously gone to his head and he's now considering going to the end with Mo ???? i have to laugh... i dont think him tying the vote and making me or Scott firemake is a terrible idea at all, but honey pls dont make me have to vote Mo to win this game flkadsas. It will be such a travesty if Scott and I go out 4th and 3rd god i dont even wanna think about that

god I really didn't expect this jury reward thing to have an actual impact on things??? ugh lol. Rhys a mess PERIODTTTTTT

After a 2-2 vote resulting in a firemaking challenge, Mo loses and gets 4th place.