#you guys can just have yhe stuff i wrot in my notes app at 7 on the car ride to school

[pookapufferfish]

Honestly I think the wisest phrases, the stuff that changes someone's whole perspective, are said offhand with no thought. Two friends sharing tales one afternoon while gaming, a person helping someone out of a bad place in messages, a random comment on an artwork from years ago, that one fanfic you read while figuring yourself out. There will always be something that means so much to someone. A phrase that could change someone's entire worldview could be something another person sees as gibberish.

I figured out my gender identity through fan fiction. not even the most grand fics with gender as a core component. But stuff like creepypasta fanfics on watpad and silly werewolf aus or bad x reader fics. I even wrote stuff. And while I don't write much anymore (I try but it isn't as natural to me as drawing is) I still find it fun to think that those authors will never know how much they changed me as a person.

Some friends changed how I feel about affection and nicknames. I found out I am a sucker for pet names from friends because my friends would call me pet names. And to them it is a silly thing. But to me it really means a lot. Each time a nickname is used or made for me I feel more confident in myself, more secure in my identity. They have changed me without even trying.

Some songs even changed how I feel, but I think I am rambling a lot now. Random Ray being poetic and philosophical at 7am running on 4 hours of sleep. But yeah...

I just think it is rather nice to share my ideas knowing that maybe out there I am helping someone. Even if it is just a little bit.