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dadkisser15 · 6 months ago

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Im craving this boy in so many ways

I wanna feel him so bad and just hold him close. My head is aching and I feel like the only thing that could soothe this ache is the sound of his intensely sweet voice, his precious laugh and how I would do almost anything right now to just hear him. It makes me almost emotional how much I miss it, maybe it’s the fact that I’m a little tired and probably going to be menstruating soon but even if those things weren’t in the picture I’d still be feeling this way! I’m probably just being dramatic but god it feels like it’s been ages, like literal fucking decades and I just need him. I don’t wanna bother him or anything with my whining because I feel as if it’s staring to get annoying but sometimes I really cannot help myself, I’m a very expressive person in so many ways and I also don’t like lying so when I do It’s kind of obvious that I am; so I can’t lie to myself and just PUSH this feeling inside of me and just not do anything about it!!!!!!!! Oh, which reminds me I was overthinking so bad earlier while I was just playing some stupid game and well firstly, the overthinking stunted my performance greatly and it just made me really sad. I wont write out what I was thinking of but I’m still kinda worried about it I’m trying really hard to just brush it off because it isn’t like a big deal but I’m a jealous girl and this is eating me up. Like, I can’t really complain to anyone about it because in my opinion the problem is so minuscule that it would make me appear as just CRAZY or just super dramatic which I know I am but I don’t wanna FEED into that ! I wish I didn’t feel this way at all because it doesn’t feel normal, well it’s the norm for me but I know this isn’t a normal thing. Am I suffering from some sort of mental illness? Oh, we will never know. All I know is jealousy isn’t a pretty look yet I wear it constantly, can I help myself? No, I cannot. Sadly, I cannot be nonchalant and just not care about stuff because I care about everything and more. I wonder if he ever feels like this, probably not because I don’t think he HAS things to be jealous of ! (I have like no fucking friends) He’d probably claim that I wouldn’t either but ☹️😭 oh gusy I can’t even ufkcing say it I wanna cry

LIKE DO YOU SEE THIS I DIDNT even write it out or anything but thinking about it is bringing me to tears. WHY AM I SO DRAMATIC 😭!!!! Like what is wrong with me, I wish my brain was like a sponge so I could squish all of this feeling out and just be a clean sponge again because I hate this feeling so much, Ihate jealousy it is literally the worst feeling EVER. In my stupid what if scenario I made up in my head earlier while overthinking I was like, “oh, if this happens I could just pretend like everything is okay and act like how i normally act!” And yeah I can do that but it’ll make things hard for me, when I get upset about something i usually just cannot stop thinking about it so the longer I pretend everything is just fine and dandy the harder it is for me to eat, sleep or just feel like doing stuff that I’m supposed to be doing. I just think about this often, why do people lie about unnecessary things? I don’t understand what’s the point!!! It just annoys me when I’m painfully aware of something but I have to pretend as if I’m ignorant to the truth, it really just upsets me. I feel like I’m going to cry right now because I’m thinking about this stupid thing again OH AND GREAT I AM CRYING!!!!

I feel like all of this worry and anxiety is also just tied down to the fact that I am so incredibly insecure about myself. I constantly tell myself not to compare myself to others and I even give that advice to others but I do it so often, I do it to the point I feel sick of myself and just everything about me. Why can I not follow my own advice and why do I put myself in positions where I can compare myself? I don’t know, it’s not like doing those things will better myself. Maybe motivate but there’s better ways to do that. Envy is not a great way to motivate yourself, it makes me feel sick. Sorry, tumblr for my self deprecating tangent but I’m just writing what comes to mind and I guess that right now I’m just really feeling it, I feel like need to be reassured but who’s going to reassure me ? What do I even need reassurance for?!! That I don’t even know either but I crave comfort and reassurance and it makes me sad knowing I don’t know who to rely on for things like that. I think I’m a bad person for feeling this way, for feeling envious of some girl who could literally care less. It probably means nothing yet I am so jealous and I’m overthinking about it. It makes me mad that I’m so worried over some random when they’re literally happily living their life like what the fuck is wrong with me. Genuinely.!! I want to just extract this from my mind and forget about it and I wish I wasn’t so curious at times because I’d be better off just being oblivious.

Guys I’m probably going to cry myself to sleep over some dumb shit again so I’m done writing 😜

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zuffer-weird-girl · 5 years ago

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NSFW alert, if you're under age don't read it. Please.

Also. This one is surely going to be messy since you gusy know im not used to writing those type of things. And Kai might sound a bit out of character so I hope you all forgive me for my errors.

Btw im doing S/o as a female and a virgin... sorry it was what came into my mind ;-;

Those... books.

Were the absolute incarnation of sin itself. And the worst? He despised himself for feeling hot and bothered with the information his eyes landed on... specially when his mind betrayed him when thoughts of you appeared on his head.

Usually he would just scoff and return his attention to where it was before... but he couldn't.

Bejng a virgin it wasn't the wortest things. It really wasn't. It just meant you didn't got sexually involved with anyone and it didn't contract any filth. That was about it. Besides... all his damn life he didn't found a... reason to do it.

That was before you appeared of course... fucking up with mind all the damn time.

Whenever you bended to pick something, whenver you innocently bitted on your bottom lip or even the ficking jiggle your hips did it drived him completely insane...

His instincts were getting the better of him sometimes and he wanted to crawl on hell qhen the thoughts of just... needing to grab your butt just to feel it were too fucking strong.

He hated himself. That was it. He hated himself.

He was at least expecting to break after he would ask your hand in marriage or not at all at least. Bit yet here he was... looking at every exam of yours that he forced you to take to certified himself you didn't carried any of those diceases.

You didn't. Which was a relief. But his problem now was reading the every female biology and anatomy to understand what the fuck he should even do in the first place instead of just shoving his... god he cant even think of it.

Advice? No fucking way. The last time he asked Pops for some advice he lived on a total nightmare for WEEKS. FREAKING WEEKS.

Now... the sound of the water drops stopping made his breath catch on his throat as he looked from the coner of his eyes up at his bathroom door.

Just fucking breath. Is just your angel. Nothing too extraor- Oh fuck you're wrapped on a towel.

"Did as you told little germophobic." You giggled before widening your eyes at noticing he was actually... there. Sitting on the bed as his monotmous eyes scanned your body.

"U-uh-!" You yelped before going to shove your self on the bathroom again before hsi voice manifested.

"Don't." He commanded, immediately making you stop on your track as you gulped. You heard his steps and the sound of the book he was reading being placed down on somewhere.

You stopped breathjng the moment you felt him being just mere inches away from you, howering over your form like a predator would do to their prey.

You gagged when you felt a covered hand awkwardly yet smoothly tracing up and dow your waist while the other grabbed slightly on the hem of the towel you were using to cover your shame.

"I just checked the exams... I knew it someway you were pure." He leaned a bit to whisper huskily on your left ear, warm breath spreading through your skin even despite having his casual black mask on his face, sending heated shills to your body but specially in your core. "I just needed to make sure of it. Such a precious and clean thing aren't you?"

Oh god he was doing it right? By the way your breath hitched he guessed so...

"U-uh.." you smiled in nervousness while turning to face him.. kinda, you looked more into his neck than anything fur to your embarrassment "K-Kai? Is s-something wrong?"

"Nof exactly. But yet, yes." He growled the last part, his hand moved into their own and grabbed the slightest yet the gentlest way he could manage at the hem of your towel again... close to just taking it off to satisfy his curiosity.

"What-"

"I... (Y/n). You always managed to break me in some ways. But this is just... way too much." He tilted your chin up with his free hand to look at those golden eyes that left your legs trembling a bit, before he lowered his mask down to place a heated kiss on your lips.

Despite your gasp, which the bastard took advantage to shove his tongue to taste your mouth mind you, you moaned at the intensity and strenght he put on that one in especific... Kai was always passionate on whatever he did, but god... those type of kisses you sweared you never tasted before.

Although you let out a embarrased yelp when you accidentaly in the middle of the heat tlet the towel slip through your fingers.

"K-KAI PLEASE DON'T LO-" you gasped a bit whem his strong hand grabbed your wrist to prevent that you rolled the towel up again to cover your breast... him just staring at it with wide eyes.

He didn't sayed a word... instead prefered to hesitantly and yet softly graze his finger tips on the flesh of your skin to let the towel fall on the floor without a care... revealing you to him for once and all.

"You're not a angel." He sayed in complete awe as you looked at everywhere but his eyes, trying miserably to cover you with your free hand before Chisaki grabbed the other as well. "You're... a godness."

"E-eh?" You blushed crinsom red at his words.

"So... beautiful." He muttered mostly in disbelief, lowering his face to yours as he was inspecting something before he hesitantly went to test your sensitivity on the neck... aiming right on the spot he wanted to nibbled on... emiting a rather erotic moan of yours. "I can not believe that just a work of art is right in front of my own eyes." He sayed between kisses and love bites... turning around just a bit to test what he had herd and read on and vited again with a rather harsh but delicious suck on the flesh of your neck.

The way you moaned his name out loud made him shiver. He wanted it to hear it again but... a bit more louder. Alrhough you just had to ruin it wwitha gently shove of your palm at his clothed chest, making him growl in dissaproval but yet complied to your pleas... maybe he had scared you a bit.

"K-Kai. I.... is this wh-what I-"

"I can't hold it. You drive me crazy." He went to your face, almost touching foreheads as he growled "And a man has their wishes."

No way in hell he would tell you he was a virgin. He didn't saw a problem but yet the society made fun of those who didn't losed it by their tenager years... so he couldn't just risk it... even despite having the urge of vomit of thinking that you woud stay with someone other than him.

"Is just that... oh god. How do I p-put it..?" You almost whimpered and that mad ehim retreat a bit back, worry on his usual cold and unforgiving eyes.

"Apologies. Guess I was too bold. If you don't wish to have those activities with-"

"I-Is not that!" You cried desperately, remembering all those noghts and times where you had dirty thoughts of your boyfriend... blushing furiously at imagining things that crossed your mind about Chisaki... god you were going to hell "Is j-just that... I never t-took you to have interest o-on that in specific... and... w-well... I have little experience with that."

He arched one eyebrow at that before threating to ask how much did you knew it about it...

"N-none... at all." You sayed in utterly embarrassment while his eyes shined a bit at that.

He was your first. And by hell he was going to be your fucking last.

"Why the shame on admitting such a thing?" He asked monoustly, but the way he touched your side while with his other hand carresed your cheek was just so... lovely "Is just measn that you're way pure than I thought you were. Just absolutely perfect to my eyes." He whispered while you sigjed shakily.

"What if I dont just make you feel it-?" Hs grabbed your hand and kissed slightly, still close to your face.

"You make me feel more like a human each day that passes... so imagine when it comes-" he slided your hand with his thorigh his toned chest to his manhood, only stopping there while growing a bit at the contact of your hand and his clothed member while you gasped in utterly shock at the harshness of that bulge "Carnal desires?" He growled while you internally stareted to scream.

You just felt Chisaki's hard on, whixh you caused, and didn't died. You were in heaven or dreaming..?

"(Y/n). You want this?" He asked, smirking devilish when you nodded your head, still with wide eyes at feeling his bulge. "Good girl." He groaned while pushing you a bit until the back of your knees hitted the matress... yelping a bit when you fell on the bed. "No one is around. They're gone... is just you and me." He whispered while spresding one leg of yours open while he made his way to look down at you "Is still hard to come to think that I am about to... just become one with such a angel like yourself. I ask you to trust me my love." He sayed, a bit of hesitation on his voice because he KNEW that he didn't had a clue of what the fuck is happening... merely following what he read and what his inner instincts told him to do.

Although... the way you looked up at him but instead with worried and fearful eyes... he saw the soft and adoring (E/c) orbs that he fell for so hard while you nodded with a sweet smile, sweet and warm hands cupping his cheeks lovingly, stroking them with such care and love that made him let out a accidental shaky breath.

"Kai? You're-" you didn't got to finish since he smoothly placed his lips over yours again, groaning when he felt that wet muscle of yours coming in contact with his again.

Slowly yet carefully, one gloved hand of his traced circles on your thigh to smoothly come in contact with your sex, him breaking away from the kiss after he swallowed merciless your shocked gasp. Staring down at you with those amber orbs he only asked through his look if he could still go forward, which you immediately nodded... sighing at feeling the latex come in contact with the deepest and secret part of yourself.

He widened his eyes a bit... how the hell he didn't felt disgusted it was a miracle, your wetnesss and how your walls tighten around his index finger while he trusted slowly were simply...fascinating. Out of curiosity, he inserted his middle finger, grinning in smugness at the surprised yet sinful moan you let out before you tried to muffle them with with bitting on your hand.

"I told you no one is here." He sayed normally, the thristing of his finger never stopping as he added a third one while he towered over you "I can only see that I am pleasuring my little darling if I hear her... Isn't that right (Y/n)?" He asked sarcastically before sinking his teeth on the crook of your neck again, adoring seing the marks alaready appearing and hearing so close the pleased sinful sounds coming out of your plumpy lips as he captured your wrist with his hands to prevent you to muffle your screams of pleasure.

"F-faste-" you moaned deeply when he curled hsi fingers exactly on that spot.

"Eager aren't we?" He smirked in your skin, feeling your extremely wetness in his covered fingers while you moaned lpuder and louder... indicating him that you had your first orgasm.

He retreated from you as he took his hand back to examinate

"Would you look at that? A simple touch that can cause such a mess..." he growled while his eyes darkened a bit as you still tried to catch your breath.

You tried to get up to retribuit the favor, but he only pushed you back gently as before he slowly discarded his own clothes... getting completly bare in your front... You stared in awe at your boyfriend, if he had called you a godness minutes before he was a...

"Freaking greek god..." you muttered while he arched one eyebrow at you as he picked the condom he was guarding on his nightstand.

The bit of insecurity he had a bit while taking off his clothes was completly gone as he saw the way you stared at him, completly shocked yet so in love... he smirked at that before retreading to his stoic expression when he saw that your eyes had shifted to his lowest area.

"Kai... holy shit." You muttered more in shock and in slightly worry... he was fucking thick. The veins showed in all their glowry while his hard on showed that he was way bigger tha you thought he was... "T-that's n-not going to-"

"You worry too much." He scoffed before shoving you back to bed while he howevered between your legs, anxious as hell bit damn well on not showing it.

You were the best on making the deelest part of him coming out...

He left his guard fall a bit as he stared in worry that he was at least going into the right one... before he looked up at your worried and nervous expression when you felt the tip.

"... (Y/n)." He cupped your cheek and touched foreheads with you, not wanting to express his cringe when he felt the sweat of yours coming in contact with his skin "I will go slow... the last thing I want is to hurt you my angel, you know me, dont just play dumb." He half smiled a bit at your deep breath before you looked up at him with at least a bit more relief in your eyes.

"I know..." you shifted a bit before gasping when both of you felt the tip pressing against that barrier... he looked at you while holding one bare hand of his along with yours while the other propped himself up a bit.

He knew that no matter how much he tried, he wasn't going to soare the pain you would feel.. so he looked at you before pressing his lips on the middle of your eyebrows with a 'Focus on me.' Making you abit more at ease before he thrusted his whole member inside you.

You let out a painful scream while he took a shaky breath at the new feeling... by lord you were too tight! Squezzing around hin so merciless and yet so fucking enjoyable for him. He kept pressing his lips against your face, wiping your tears away with his hands... worried yet so fucking pleased... why he hadn't tried this earlier with you?

"You did good." He said after retreading his lips to press them again on your lips instead "Good angel... you're incredible. My angel, my precious (Y/n)." You whimpered a jt before easily getting used to his side, wrapping your arms weakly, thankfully Chisaki helped you out for once, around his neck... forehead connected as you gave him a signal for him to finally move... sensing his exciment and anxious inside you.

His first thrusts were slow yet powerful, sliping until the point of his tip to slam it back with easeness inside you. While your moans were sometimes high leatched as you grabbed for dear life onto his back, his grunts were so low and sometimez he would let out a swear, hands grapping almost harshly on your thigh as your hips encoutered in each other in synchrony.

"T-To.. think-!" He let out a curse as his speed increase a bit, your moans louder and louder om his ear "I would be raveshing a angel like youserlf for my first time, is actually-"he let out a low moan when you squeezed tighter, begging him to go faster "S-Sems like a fucking dream that I would never reach."

You stopped to think a moment when you heard his words before gasping moaning at feeling his mouth circling around one of your nipples, one hand still firmly prssed on your thigj while the other pinched and played with the lonely nipple.

"God you make me so-" he sucked a bit on them before retreading back to take his brwath again "So alive.. my (Y/n)... you're mine for life..." he lowered his head again as his thrist became more powerful and yet more intensly lovingly.

You opned your eyes between your moans in worry at seing that some drops of water were falling in your face, mixing a bit with your own tears of pleasure... widening a bit your eyes you saw that the intesity of you guys first time was so strong... that even made your stoic face boyfriend jaw's tightened and one ir two tears escaped down his face.

"Tell me." He growled before he finally hitted mercilless your G-spot, making your eyes roll to the back of your head in pleasure "You're mine right? So then say it-" he cursed loud enough after he noticed your walls toghtening even more, indicating him another one of your orgasm "no. Scream it. Scream the name that can make you feel like you make me. Come on-" his thrusts almost made you sink and yet jump out of the bed as he pounded into you eith so much force...

"K-kai-!"

"You call that loud? You can do bette-" he holded himself back to not just burst... he wanted you to break first then him.

"Kai!" You shouted while digging your nails on his muscled back.

"Come on!" He zhouted almost in irritation as his increased the strenght of his thrusts.

"KAI GOD IM-" you spasmed beneath him... finally reaching your climax as your arms gave out.

"F-Fuck (Y/n)..!" He grunted before releasing his own load after so long... he gasped and cringed a bit at feeling his fluids hit the condom and splash around his member as he fell a bit on your shoulder...

His hand still was connected with yours...before he only got up to touch foreheads along with yours, breaths hitting each others faces as his other hand came to carress your face.

"You... made me fall for you. And here I am looking at you that just fell for me as well..." he opened his eyes when you shakily reached his face, cringing when he felt you wipe away the rest of his tears away.

"You..." you breath in, with a smile despite being so tired "You make me so happy and full... Chisaki Kai."

He widened his eyes a bit before scoffing slightly, pressing without a care his lips against your forehead and then your lips "I should be the one saying that idiot." You giggled heartly while he chuckled, easing his way out of you to throw away the hint of you guys sin away.

"Come. We need to take a shower immediately after this." He grunted while trembling standing up, aighing a bit when he got the control back but arched one eyebrow of his at seing you didn't had moved a muscle.

"Kai..." you whined while he only made a hum sound, telling you silently to continue "I can't move my legs..."

"Oh."

He couldn't hide the smug smile while he took you in his arms to carry you to the bathroom...

He quite enjoyed this thing way too much than he expected...

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agentduckorico · 7 years ago

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here have a list of some of my favorite twrp blogs because im Really Feeling It right now

@interstellar-slutstrut my partner in crime, probably the reason i started TWHP i think? We’re always on the same wavelength and is the BEST RPER he has a life and he’s 3 hours behind me so he doesn’t always reply buT WHEN HE DOES. GODDAMN. GOOD SHIT. With whom i have basically solidified a lot of my headcanons

@havvehoagie first twrp friend!!! lvoely bean holds a special place in my cold dead heart

@chaoticmindelectric GREAT ART HOLY SHIT. Beautiful glowy lighting!!! Gorgeous lining! AMAZING!!

@captainsaltypear Havve stan. Probably the only TWRP fan from Singapore. Somehow shares my goddamn name. SAME MOOD? SAME MOOD!!

@karaizawa Would Actually Die for Sung (honestly same tho), really cute blocky sharp art!!! I love!! Amazing Sung headcanon I love!!! The only person I’ve met who actually likes Sung’s stache other than Sung himself

@glowbos Has somehow been to like a thousand TWRP concerts (im fuckin jealous), is always making food when in vc, PRETTY HAIR PRETTY HUMAN, the Adult of one of the twrp servers, I once entered voice chat to hear Addy cooking and complaining about Phobos having no ass and honestly that’s all u really need to know. A slut for space.

@literallythecheshirecat/ @galacticvegetable THE CUTEST MEOUCH ART I HAVE EVER SEEN GODDAMN, actually has facecanons for Sung’s moms and therefore is better than me in every way, ANOTHER CUTE SUNG, yall haven’t seen veggie’s havve facecanon but i have and its beautiful, CUTE BUNNY PHOBOS I LOVE

@jhobos Will absolutely kick Sung’s ass i believe in u em, Eye Makeup Deity, Alpha Sung, a beautiful human who imo rocks Sung’s outfit better than that weird Canadian dude with the stache

@nonbinaryphobos ADORABLE ART, otomotobos, the cutest coloring and highlights I’ve seen, i dont even know how to describe it other than “cute”

@deadymcdead S L E N D E R H A V V E, you can absolutely count on deady to add cute lil tags to shit, crosshatching, actually gives Havve’s mask three dimensions and is therefore better than me in every way, i like to go thru Deady’s blog to look at art and tags u should try it sometime

@bajilliancomedy TUPPERWARE SHITPOST PARTY, always good to test angst against, if i need a specific twrp photo you’ve got it, gr8 twrp aesthetic blog, it’s a fuckiNG REMOTE JILL YOU HOOLIGAN

@rhombustron MY PARTNER IN TWANGST, at least like a third of my main headcanons for twrp come from ford, ALSO A GOOD ARTIST like goddamn homie ur Sung is super cute and I absolutely love him! THAT GOOD HAVVE FACECANON (we do not talk about Hell Hogan), I always get really excited when I open my inbox to see “rhombustron said to tupperwareheadcanonparty”

@owlabouttwrp if i miss a twrp post u can be damn sure that i can find it on this blog

@lespobs WRITES GOOD SHIT GODDAMN, somehow i consider u one of the god tier twrp blogs even tho u post a lot of kpop, this is the only blog i don’t unfollow bc it posts kpop because ur twrp shit is just [clenches fist] so good

@lesbianmeouch WHY ARE THERE SO MANY GOOD ARTISTS IN THIS FANDOM GODDAMN, posts a lot of aesthetic shit which i love

@commandermeouch knows everyone (i kept seeing “foleh” everywhere and now i know who it is i feel like i’ve unlocked a secret), “torp”, along with glowbos foleh is responsible for most of the live show images and gifs and i thank god for that every day, great tagging system

@doc-sung-appreciation-blog Unsurprisingly a Sung stan. Surprisingly posts about more than just Sung.

@meouchy-boy Meouch stan. will absolutely fight everyone and everything. doesnt use tags a lot but when he does theyre golden

@autisticphobos thAT GOOD STIM HEADCANONS, may not tag ur twrp shit but will absolutely reblog it

THERES A LOT MORE BUT I GOTTA GO DO HOMEWORK NOW BYE I LOVE YOU GUSY

#twrp #tupper ware remix party #tupperware remix party #twrpband

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survivormuxloe · 6 years ago

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Episode 13: "so things went from Guatemala to Guatepeor” - Ahrre

david REALLY GOT BRAVE TRYNA COME FOR ME WHEN HIS ASS AINT IMMUNE HUH. aint it so.. vote me and ur ass gonna go... ijs!! rip my perf game but at least i was the last person to recieve votes so thats kinda cute.. it doesnt change the fact that im winning tho ALMFNBG like. just 3/4 more tribals to survive bitch.. give those immunity wins to me pls x :)))

LOWKEY MY ASS WAS NERVOUSSSS LIKE I DONT WANNA READ MY NAME ON THOSE PIECES OF PAPER AGAIN THO!!! altho my name is cute written out by anna highkey ngl.. maybe she'll write them in cursive for my winner reveal? x

my mind tho. rhys/tobi/ryan r all under my spell. missus mo and ahrre got brave and are gunna get a taste of hell when im not dying under exams lol x ALMFJHBFG

lvoe u gusys. xoxo ur winner scooty toots

Well fuck. David is gone. I’m in the minority. So now it’s just me and Ahrre. But I don’t want to settle for 6th or 5th place. I’ve made it this far I wanna make it to the end. So I’m going to try to wiggle my way through.

http://images6.fanpop.com/image/photos/41700000/Avengers-Endgame-2019-avengers-infinity-war-1-and-2-41740034-540-225.gif

So the situation is looking pretty grim, Rhys stuck with the majority, David the absolute unit is dead and I wouldn't be surprised if I'm the next one to go.

So right know things change as it's no longer about getting majority but rather get that group of 4 to cannibalize itself. Now the thing is that each of those 4 seem so confident in their position but only 3 make it to the end so that means at least one will end up being left out and that's just with a minimum level of snaking, but we know they are capable of way more shafty shit.

But their overconfidence in their position is not the only problem. It's also kinda hard when I've tried to blindside 3 of them. But hey at least you can't say I didn't try. Tobi is not willing to even tell me anything until tomorrow after we do the challenge. But he also says he's rooting for me as an underdog even if we're in oposite sides... Cheky fecker trying to get my jury vote...

As for the rest well I'll try to talk to them tomorrow, if I can commend Mo for something is that at least they might be more willing to work with him than me, which is clearly not a good thing for my game but eh wadda you do. I know for a fact by now everyone is gonna be saying that the plan is me going home probably 5-1 but if that's gonna end up being true or just a bluff for one of the 4 to get blindsided is still to see.

Either way I'm gonna try to stir some shit up and not be a voulnerable pleb waiting to be taken out or saved. Better dead than a goat.

These fattys are going down one by one... i love it... like highkey david going means that me and scott have to step up our physical games if we wanna take out ryan... someone else has to win immunity and then we can start pinning moves on ryan... I'm slowly repairing my relationship with ahrre by having a frank talk with him about our relationship in the game, which was both awkward but i think it helped??? im trynna work him pretty hard because he's a tough nut to crack but i think i can do it hehe... scott is working on mo but lets be real mo is easier to crack than ahrre, and honestly rhys' performance last tribal was good.. too good imo like.. i previously pinned him as an inactive goat but if he's able to connect with the other side that well and have them believe what he was saying, i have to give him props because that's some good plays in terms of benefiting our alliance for knowledge, bad jury management sure, but good for the alliance... at this point tbh,,, who the fuck cares about jury management... but then again it's important if you wanna win so maybe im just a dumbass

Well right now it’s final 6 and the question of a final 2 or 3 is up for debate because it could be either or.

After that tribal and David left, he tried to expose me when I had exposed myself already to the people he exposed me too. So sis there was no new tea.

Honestly now one of our 4 needs to go. The only one I would feel confident about going to the end with would be Ryan. Just as I feel he has done less. I’m super close with Scott, so I think right now I need to try and convince some people to vote out Ryan.

The only problem is I will probably need to convince Ryan and Scott or mo and ahrre. Mo and ahrre may not that me after lying to them two rounds in a row. And Scott seems to be strong for our alliance sticking to the end. So I’m going for this immunity as if I win it should all the confidence I need to make a move against my own.

I’m not feeling great. I don’t like a conversation I just had. It made me wanna quit. I’m not going to because I wanna do my best.

i really found an idol day 1 and made it to final 6 with it safe and sound.... ctfu how did this even happen, and Scott too we rly did that. the only thing about that is.... at least until we surpass final 5, there's always that worry that im gonna make a fool of myself with it and hnnnng. i feel like our 4 is solid af and yet, i'm still making myself paranoid that Tobi or even Rhys would perk up and randomly try to blindside me or Scott... but anyway yeah thats where my head at rn. i still don't talk to ahrre at all so he's a complete mystery and no idea if anyone else talks to him so that's great. Mo is an oddball still idk what to do w him kfsdfa

So I want to flip on my alliance this round. But 2 people outside my alliance are throwing me hardcore under the bus. Ok. So like how am I gonna make a move now.

pls god... lett this immunity challenge be in my favour alkfjnhfg i just want a win pls pls pls let me be guaranteed f4 lol

I just had a really good conversation with Tobi and it’s making me like really happy because this entire game I’ve gotten the short end of the stick. With people not thinking I don’t deserve to be here, that I’m a goat and people sending me condescending messages about my mistakes. It feels really nice to get praised for the good things. Don’t get me wrong I own up to my mistakes and I do my best to improve and change moving forwardss so I don’t make the same mistakes again. But usually the conversations that happen before that aren’t very happy, they’re needed and they end on a peaceful note but they don’t start out happy. But Tobi just praised me on my gameplay complimenting me and it’s such a good feeling. I think I might end up in fifth or sixth place but I’m still proud of myself and I’m going to keep fighting till the end.

so like... I'm really happy i won immunity but im kinda more annoyed with scott right now like... we had this big plan to take out ryan at 6 which is literally a perfect time now since 1) we can access numbers for it 2) he wont suspect it so the chance of an idol popping up is low 3) we can gain trust with ahrre and mo this way... but NOOOOOOOOO lets play with our emotions instead of our BRAINS and take out someone who has played a bad game and would be EASY to beat in the end like JESUS and i thought ahrre had his head up his ass... also scott is SO fucking confident know like he acts like he will 100% win against anybody in ftc and like sis... that's not the case... not if you're constantly confronting and arguing with mo and ahrre... use. ur. BRAIN.

Cemetery....

Anywho, this vote. Mo & Ahrre are voting me probably. So It seems to be a 4-2 vote. However an Idol may be played now more than ever, as I think this is the first time someone from the bottom hasnt had any hope of staying. (Dani, Felix & Jones were all blindsided , and Michael & David had some chance of staying). So one could easily be played. So ima try to push a 2-2-2 vote to save my ass.

so. (: I lost spelling bee. (: LAMDLFNFG

lowkey feel as if the words are suitable to the player tho. embarrass for ahrre as in that game is embarrassing. accommodate for Mo as in we have to accommodate for the fact that he’s a goat. Cemetary for rhys bc he makes us all wanna die @ tribals. handkerchief for me bc my ass gotta clean up ryan and tobi wanting to target each other.. and rhythm for tobi bc while hes in time rn that time is gonna run out soon :flushed:

i just dont want 6th ):

So I know it’s me and Ahrre on the chopping block. I just kinda wanted to make a quick plea. I really really wanna stay. I want to go as far as I can even if that’s just fifth. Not only to prove people wrong thinking I don’t deserve to be here, but also to prove to myself. Whatever decision you make tonight I respect wholeheartedly. But I’d love to go further.

I CACKLED @ THIS COPY PASTED PLEA.. MO BABY WYD

I’m currently making my plea to the others on why I deserve to stay. I’m proud of myself no matter the outcome but I’d love to go as far as I can.

So ahrre and mo are both kindve pleading for themselves. Mo just wants him to be saved where as ahrre is trying to flip people. He is trying to flip me again which is funny. Lowkey am a little worried just Incase it’s a ploy to get people to vote me or something. But he needs me and tobi to flip. So I think he won’t vote me which is great, incase a surprise idol is played.

soooo final 6 tribal. I definitely want Ahrre to leave finally, so how to make that happen. Scott informed me that mo/ahrre lowkey suspect i have an idol so wig. i would prefer if we went 4 strong on Ahrre bc I really don't think he has any powers, but the thing about that is i don't want to campaign for that to happen and make it look like i feel safe about idols... i don't want tobi or rhys to get suspicious and get the urge to flip on me/scott.. so kinda tricky. we'll see what happens

so recently scott and ryan have really been pounding on mo for his goatness and like... I took advantage of that hehe... I talked to mo and had a real heart to heart with him and like... I told him that he deserves more credit than he's getting and then more wholesome stuff and then BAM we got past the barrier we previously had and now we're totally cool!!... where ryan and scott burn bridges, im gonna build new ones!! so like that wasnt TOTALLY just for strategy like im not that big of an asshole... but its a mix of both. mo is a good kid and he gets too much backlash for his game.. and im gonna take advantage of that by showing up as his guardian angel hehe.. and who knows like this might pay off hugely when i need his vote at f5 to take out a bigger player but for now i'll stick to tending to his wounds that scott and ryan left.. and they really did come for him pretty hard... like REALLY hard so there is no harm in coming to him and helping him with his confidence and who knows, that might be a jury vote right there

Right so things went from Guatemala to guatepeor, I didn't win immunity I actually flopped at it in wonderful fashion it was quite beautiful really. But anyhow Tobi ended up winning it.

So I tried to talk to people and get them to do ANYTHING but to no avail really. Ryan and Scott seem set on stone. I did get Tobi to tell me that if it ties 3-3 he would flip on the revote but that's just playing it safe. Rhys told me he doesn't want to go to rocks so I'm like hey Tobi supposedly flips on the revote so maybe there's no need for that go talk to Tobi.

But they all seem to be giving me the silence threatment right before tribal even Mo has accepted what seems to be me going home.

It's a shame really cause if I do end up going home one of the majority of 4 is gonna regret it the very next week and two more later when the 4th beats them at the end. But hey congrats to that 4th guy whoever it is.

I've tought about doing an idol bluff but it wouldn't make sense for me to tell anyone I have it. Even Mo since if I hipotetically had it he wouldn't help me with it because he would be the one going home probably. Also because I would've definitely played it in a previous round for someone else if I had it and the rest probably knoes that.

Either way rn I'm currently trying to get home in time for tribal since I had to walk a chunk because I almost didn't had enough for the bus fare lel. Who knows maybe I'll survive somehow like the cockroach I am but I don't rate my chances or luck very highly. Either way at the end of the day I'm happy and you can't say I didn't try!

Ahrre is voted out 5-1.

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