#you come off childish and stunted you shouldnt be cutting about in skate shoes and cargo pants grow the fuck up

[eonars]

I used to be so whatever about getting older I used to just vibe it out but ever since I turned 29 in March I've been like, uncharacteristically and really annoyingly? Predictably? Disappointingly? worked up about it and tearing myself up over the fact that I'm still a bit immature I still like to engage in things that people have sanctimoniously put behind them by now I'm not done having fun I'm not done being out late or doing wacky shit on a shoestring budget or acting foolishly at times. Maybe I'd feel different about it if my life hadn't hard paused so violently for a good few years or maybe if I had some more to show for myself by now in terms of independence and success but I feel stupid and insane that I still dress like the teenage boys I see at work most of the time and my idea of a fun night out is getting kicked in the head by a local musician while off a substance and everyone else is like haha I put all that behind me a looooooong time ago I've outgrown that and like 😰😰😰 I haven't