#you cant really tell thats cdream which is like

[takomakiii]

best friends

[lehhoh7822]

i know that currently cprimeboys posting is forbidden and such however! i want to get this idea down, and context is important. but if one wishes to avoid it because it also is like. funky fucked up. there is a cut. cws for gaslighting, physical and emotional abuse, programming in a trauma sense, allusions to irl abuse situations

do you know like, machine learning? how you get an AI to observe and participate in something until it can algorithymically pick up on things? (in theroy)

that’s this AU, it’s like. exile but cdream has got ctommy to a point where he can be convinced that he’s just an AI and cdream is the master programmer whos gonna make him fit the circuit, however, how he fits in the circuit is extremely unclear and thats because its abuse right? your abuser is unpredictable and thats one part of the awful

so things like remembering and talking about the past is Forbidden Behaviour (tm), behaviour that could come off as traumatised or neurodivergent is Forbidden Behaviour, reacting “wrong” (read: you literally cannot win) is Forbidden Behaviour, being messy, speaking too loudly, not speaking enough, wanting things, whining or “physically whining” (something like shivering, coughing or bleeding), being too emotional, not being emotional enough, not reacting fast enough, not being able to fall asleep, inability to remain silent, not making enough noise, daydreaming, being too robotic, being too human

thats to say that ctommy cant win and he’s forced to live in these monotonous repetitive situations where he has to do the same things over and over and over and if he breaks a rule and “deviates from the code” he gets killed, and then immediately revived to do it again. these situations also are impossible, some are physically impossible like moving things that are bolted to the ground or emotionally impossible without breaking a rule

alongside this, he’s taught that everything really is like. its like a bug in his memory, oh no, tubbo? oh you mean that bug in your code i had to remove? and due to the ability to warp memories with the whole die revive process tommy believes it. all of his positive memories turn into like, oh that was a delusion back when i was glitching and ruining the program. good thing now im being corrected, if i can just learn how to be perfect and fit into this world correctly...

i want maybe maybe maybe if i was to work with another two chaeacters- which i might! i just dont have any in fandom that have such a resonant depiction of abuse at the moment and i really dont want to make some. if i was to work with other characters, emotional abuse would get a far bigger note as. the punishment because i just. idk the only storys you see about this stuff is like “oh he lit him on fire!!” so its really clear it was abuse but i think that really misrepresents a lot of abuse while that definitely does exist, i would like just one with “oh he called him a bitch and said that he’s useless and threw his art on the floor” even if not specificlaly here

other screwed up things:  -either he gets trained to go into a dissciative state for long periods and it adds to the whole “piece of code that can be activated and deactivated by me” and here is where anything is cleaned so he can be gaslit better OR he’s forced to always be moving and always be doing work so theres no break, maybe both.  -he’s kept perpetually understimulated like even if not nd then just in general loss of interaction, touch staravation, the world around him is grey, all the food is lukewarm and made to only stimulate eating while he’s given just below the vitamins and nutrients to survive -whenever he seems to breakdown breakdown cdream is all there, suddenly he’s so close and so loving and he’s just doing his best and you’re breaking his heart and your touch starvation would do anything for a hug from anyone who says they love you, no he never did that, no he never would, honeslty thouse are some pretty fucked up lies tot tell about someone who loves you- you get the idea -tommy is never starving completely (but he could starve himself if he thought it would made dream happy and dream will just watch) and never completely lacking in sleep and he always gets revivied immediately so its the whole uhhh “starving children in a third world country that i wont specify because like who cares this is such an awful adage to start with let alone dragging down some random people” mindset -everyone thinks hes dead like you can have this be a one shot or a whole “help tommy out” fic but you know to be personal with you friends readers and besties those always made me feel... frustrated so idk. 

in the case of giving tommy a happier ending, idk what i would do. dont have ti be deliberate. have like. dream goes missing eventually tommy has to stumblr into town where an old face tries to reconnect but realise it wont work. let him stay at thier house. let him get treated kindly. and i hope that he, without siblings to worry about, without a foster care system or an interconnected system to lose- i hope tommy, with only this trauma to anxchor him to dream, would leave. 

dont have a “save tommy” plot those piss me off. if you write this i know no one will i might. 

idk enjoy