#you can dissagree with people without starting a fucking argument

[helldritch6211]

Comic fans need to check their superiority complex…

Most of yall need to chill..

[maybeshelives]

Placebo - “First Day” Rock Remix (Timo Maas)

My day was about to start. I was casually warming some milk up and burning a couple of eggs, when this song started playing on my stereo. 

Although it could easily pass as a break up song (”Don't fuck it up / You'll remember me / For the rest of your life / It's the first day / Of the rest of your life”, as if this is the first day of the person’s life without the singer being in it, as if this is the first day of the rest of their life alone/single; maybe we’re sort of dead after a romantic seperation and we have to be somewhat reborn again - “how one becomes two” and vice versa), it instantly attained a different meaning inside my depressive mind. 

Earlier that morning, I carried out my fifteen-minute morning mediation session, a habit that I’m struggling to form for the past month (two sessions each day, one in the morning and one before I fall asleep, like an antibiotic). So far, I tend to select guided sessions, for the lack of knowledge and experience from my side. 

As I was slowly sinking into my armchair, the instructor said: “So, for today’s meditation, let’s just begin with our eyes open. Take a moment to be aware of your surroundings, notice any sounds or movement happening around you... Just simply observing this moment of being alive”. 

That last sentence struck me and stuck with me throughout the whole session. 

There’s just something so poweful into those two phrases combined:  This is the first day of the rest of your life, so just take some time to observe this moment of simply being alive. Every time you wake up, you are confronted with the rest of your life, so, in a way, every day is a first day.

Being someone who has suicidal and self-destructive thoughts on a daily basis, somenone who wants to escape the reality of her emotions pretty often, meditation offers me a few minutes of stillness; I can just be. Life doens’t have to always be overwhelming, at least for fifteen minutes.

The state of just being is very underestimated. If you don’t do, consume, possess or think in general, then others might think less of you. Everyone has this constant expectation, from themselves and others, of movement. Some people do things only because they’re expecting that the outcome will get them somewhere or give them something of different nature (it could even be a sense of worth and superiority, for all I know). People get into relationships and often wonder “where is this affair going?”.  Why does it have to go somewhere? If I do a roadtrip from Athens to Bucharest, for example, would that be considered as some kind progress that adds value to my life? Is getting from point A to point B cosidered as progress? Why? Who says so? Sure, gaining experience, seing new places and having fun is dope, but it doesn’t have to mean anything other than that. 

Well, maybe I reject this false notion of progress because it doesn’t feel like I have done any myself. Yes, maybe I’m using the philosophy of meditation as an armor that protects me from revealing that all this comes from a place of insecurity and jealousy. Or maybe I’m just tired of feeling that I can never rest, of always thinking that I have to move, to ascend.

A while ago, I was watching a video on passivity, mediocrity and mental illness, with which I don’t fully agree (I mostly disagree), because I think that it promotes an erred mindset on greatness and what gives humans value and worth. But, oh well, the internet is already far ahead of me: 

“Not saying I disagree with everything in this video, but I believe that some time spent being inactive (and I mean truly inactive, as in not scrolling through social media or anything like that) can be very productive. If you always have to distract yourself with tasks, then you're essentially trying to run away from your thoughts. If you're always running from your thoughts, then you'll never be able to examine yourself or the world around you. Time spent idly contemplating can be very enlightening. But of course, take everything in moderation”. (commenter: angry hermit)

“From a more nhilistic viewpoint, we do we necessarily have to be great? The entire argument here is playing on most people's desire to be significant/be better than everyone else. But while you're breaking your back and toiling day in and out to climb that ladder and be on the top, what is it all worth in the end? Your life is nothing more than a blip in the span on time and history. If racing to be great genuinely makes you happy, then go right ahead... but I personally think more people than not feel an uneccesary pressure from society that unless you do great things and become the next Steve Jobs then your life is effectively worthless. You can achieve self love without this mindset because genuine self love is unconditional, not based on your worth to society”. (commenter: blep)  [Trying to be better than someone else means that you’re still playing their game in a way, doesn’t it? - wink wink]

“There is a point where I dissagree; one should not see oneself's value through their actions and achievements, for this itself will create a state of constant dissatisfaction, never being quite feeling worthy of pride since there's always a way to be better. This lack of self love will lead to dismotivation. The individual shouldn't be motivated through the lack of self validation, but, by the contrary, by the presence of it; it may seem conterproductive, since "if you feel good with yourself, why would you change?", however, if you know your value as a "good person", you will feel like you are worthy of more, of going beyond, of living a more fulfilling life, and that will motivate you through the discomforts, it will lead you to act on what you desire to achieve, and not what conformity gives you. Additionally, while engaging in non-stimulating, passive activities in our free time is counter productive and leads to all the problems mentioned, working on the same things as in working ours is equally counter productive, since we would never stop to evaluate our place and impact within the world, thus also succumbing to conformity in labour, not considering what we desire for ourselves. We must evaluate our lives always and our free time is the most fruitful time for this.“ (commenter: Pedro Silveira)

But really, what is progress? What does it mean to go/get somewhere? Is this always related to personal growth? And what the heck is personal growth to begin with? Who defines it? And how can it be experienced? Can someone be aware of it and how?

Maybe doing nothing is an Art itself. Perhaps it intertwines with the Art of Being.

As for me, I haven’t felt good in years. Being hurts, all of the time. So, I’ll just focus on that for now. I think that, as I’m gradually being aware of the present, it makes me want to stop putting up with the mess I’ve made for myself, which exclusively includes other people’s desires and expectations, whereas mine are cramed into labels such as “secondary”, “hobbies only” and “unimportant”. 

Expectations are chains, whoever holds them.

This is the first day of the rest of your life. You can spend it however the fuck you want... if you want to spend it at all. 

Peace xxx

[vldperibow]

rant under cuttttt (mainly annoying tumblr culture, emphasis on cult)

ok so social feminism in america??? bull shit. Why? Name one person who isnt in government who you can call sexist. Oh 70 yr old uncle lenney you might say? who cares about his opinion?? no one cares at all. everyone knows hes sexist, and doesnt take him seriously for it. I mean yea a person cat calls you on the street, thats immensely uncomfortable. But is it an issue that needs to be erradicated for the “sake of womankind” no?? Yes some people are sexist. So what? You dont have to listen to them. just ignore them and move on. If their opinions are wrong and they arent as dense as fucking idk whats the densest material, they’ll start to understand.

2. Government Feminism. OKKKKK so yes alot of people in american government are racist homophobic mysogonist bigots. But they’re only there because people voted them in. “i didnt vote for anyone!!! so its not my fauld :) “ WHAT THE FUCK. you had the opportunity to eradicate the asshole from office and you didnt??? “oh my vote doesnt matter, so why bother?” yeah you and the other several million people who didnt vote. 

3. Tumblr and the black and white. im only here for klance vld and maybe some shallura or shatt content. But???? i saw this post about romanticising eastern countries because of one aspect, and that is very fucked up and is an important issue but??? they said in the tags that “this is that one girl that moved to south korea for the k-pop” and yea thats bad but they went on to say that “they’re disgusting and everyone who supports them are disgusting” you’re acting like they fucking raped someone. They do something the wrong way? disgusting you are the scum of the earth. Post something mildly offensive? CIS S C U M. Someone digs up a post you made 6 years ago saying “men arent so bad?” and you are a rape apologist. even if you realize your errors, everything from your past is used against you, no one can catch a break. Yes some people make mistakes. They arent scum.

4. People using “white people” and “cis” and “”hetero” as slurs. Its the same level as using “black people” and  “gay” and “trans” as slurs. You are using millions of people that you have no idea about as an insult. like you could know all of them? Why the fuck are you doing the same thing to them that they did to you? 

5. demonising people for shipping someone?? bull SHIT! like oh yea shiroxpaladin makes you uncomfortable? thats ok. Block them and dont interact with people who make you uncomfrotable. Its not ur job to be friends with everyone. Block them. better than calling them a “shallie” and calling them a “nasty” god i used to use that word. i cant anymore without thinking of b&w tumblr culture.

6 SOME tw. Some tw are just bullshit. by “some” i mean only one - when people dissagree with you. Yes people get uncomfortable. Thats life. If its a mental disorder this still applies to you. if you cry under pressure, thats an issue. get therapy. don’t blame it on your mental disorder and not do anything about it. (im talkin like minor socital pressure, not like someone screaming in your face, or exams, im talking about like someone tells you they dont respect your opinion or something like that)

7 BLOCK LISTS ARE OK!!!!! i encourage them! they get rid of petty arguments that end in nothing. You can ignore thing easily online. You dont have to interact with things that make you angry.

8 i love civil arguments online, if they’d exist. I suckkkkk at speaking in public, but talking on the internet? All my intrusive thoughts about saying something that i  wouldnt say like “ugh die” are GONE!!! i can change it as i go!! im fine!! 

9. People who only focus on negative parts of things. they just piss me off ok. Like yea your hw takes forever but you live in a country where you have the privledge to HAVE hw!