#you better give my dads a tooth rotting happy ending Neil Gaiman or I swear I will come haunt you

[elavoyyy]

Every time they talked about forgiveness, seems to me that Aziraphale is essentially begging for Crowley to forgive himself, to accept that there is still good in him. Every time he says ‘I forgive you’ it’s right after when Crowley proposed that they run away, that they should be isolated from heaven or hell because they are not accepted by either. But Aziraphale simply doesn’t think that they should be running. The difference between A/C and Gabriel/Beelzebub is, Gabriel in the show doesn’t really have any morals to begin with. And Beelzebub has no problem with being a demon except for a never present boss and idiotic subordinates. But Aziraphale is naturally compassionate, and compulsively wants to be good. In season 2 he is more sure of himself, he no longer associates obedience with ‘the right thing to do’. He believes that he is good even though he was cast out by Heaven, therefore Crowley, who is his soulmate, is also good, fallen or not. But then at the end of season 2, Aziraphale gets an opportunity to make Heaven as good as he thinks it should be, a heaven that represents inclusiveness and love, a heaven that accepts someone like Crowley who asks questions. It makes sense that he would want this above all else. Because it means that his ideology and the reality can finally be aligned. It means what he recognises as good (Crowley and himself), will be good to everyone, and eventually Crowley himself. To Aziraphale, if Crowley accepted his offer to go to heaven, he can make Crowley see that there is nothing to forgive, Crowley can be who he is without any guilt or shame or feeling of abandonment. If they had communicated properly even just once in the last 6 thousand years this wouldn’t have been so difficult. Then in the end, they ran out of time.