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Lacuna | Pt. 5

An unfilled space; a gap.

Min Yoongi x reader

Genre/Tropes : established relationship, miscommunication, angst, yelling, tears

Word count : ~2.0k

A/N : Hello dear readers! The last part is finally here!^^ It’s so exciting to see how far this blog has come all thanks to you! Thank you very much for reading and interacting with this story and for following me! Your lovely words have encouraged me to continue writing and strive on becoming better. Sending you all lots of love<3

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With aching legs you make the final turn to your home. The neighbourhood is eerie at this time of night. Your eyes dart around making sure there’s no one following you.

You had always been paranoid about walking alone at night, knowing the kind of people that like to wander around at this time.

Your house finally comes into view but it doesn’t make you happy. You feel a knife twist in your chest.

His car is parked at front.

You’re standing frozen on the street, contemplating whether or not should you even go home. Yoongi has hurt you a lot in these past months but this…. This is where you cannot take it anymore.

This is where you must draw a line…

Insecurities cloud your mind once again, but you push through, walking to the house. You have to end this if he won’t, you can’t keep hurting yourself like this, expecting him to change when you know he won’t, or your heart will actually give out…

As you enter the house you expect to be met with total silence and Yoongi sleeping soundly in your shared bed, but oh… are you mistaken.

“WHERE IN THE HELL HAVE YOU BEEN?!” Yoongi’s voice booms through your ears.

He’s standing at the end of the hall as you take in his appearance; hair messed up, a bottle of soju in his hand.

You had to admit, your heart did go slack after seeing his soft eyes behind the gray expression that he was sporting.

You begin to undress without saying a word to him.

As much as you wanted to tell him everything, you couldn’t. If you started talking now you’d just end up crying and for the first time in your life you were insecure to cry in front of Yoongi…

Yoongi was pissed to say the least, but more than that he was worried…

He didn’t know where you had been, if you were alright or hurt… or with someone… He knew nothing, because you would not return his calls or texts, until you finally stumbled in looking a bit dishevelled.

And now you were only standing there taking your shoes off without saying a word.

This got Yoongi frustrated.

“Hello?! I’m trying to talk to you here. Why didn’t you answer my calls or texts?! And have you seen the time?” He pointed at the clock hung on the wall, the same one you’d always gaze at waiting for his return “It’s almost 3 in the fucking morning! You finished work 5 hours ago.”

That made your head spike up. Your hard gaze caught his.

So he remembers when I got off work.

“I’m tired.” was all you said to him before moving upstairs, but before you could reach the middle of the stairs Yoongi’s words made you stop.

“You’re being heartless…” he slumped on the sofa, taking a swing of his drink.

This enraged you. You hurried down to him, snatching the botlle out of his hand against his protests.

“Me?! I’m heartless?!” you scoffed “Isn’t it YOU who promised to drive me home tonight but never showed?! Isn’t it you who had been coming home at 3am every night for the past two months?! ISN’T IT YOU YOONGI WHO CANNOT KEEP A DAMN COMVERSATION WITH ME OR ANSWER ONE SIMPLE QUESTION I ASK YOU BECOUSE YOU ARE SO BUSY?! AND NOW YOU’RE MAD AT ME?! I SHOULD BE MAD AT YOU FOR STRINGING ME ALONG FOR SO LONG, FOR TREATING ME LIKE I DON’T EVEN EXIST! YOU’RE AN INCONSIDERATE BASTARD YOONGI- and I loved you so much…” You muttered the last words in between you sniffles wiping your face with your free hand.

You closed your eyes behind your hand taking in a deep breath.

“I can’t do this anymore… it is unfair to both of us…” your gaze was now fixed on the floor, too scared to move your eyes up and see him sitting there.

Would he be smiling that it’s finally over and he didn’t need to do a thing about it?

You handed him the bottle, arm stretched out waiting for him to take it. But he sat still, not moving an inch toward it.

You let out a sign and slammed the bottle on the table, feeling like an absolute fool opening up to him.

You just ended your three year relationship and he didn’t even say a word. You tiredly made your way to the bedroom, closing the door after you.

As you sat on his side of the bed your eyes caught sight of your luggage.

You knew that you needed to leave, but god did it hurt to even think about, leaving your home with a man you thought you’d have a forever with.

More sobs escaped your mouth raking through your limp shoulders. You felt weak. But staying would make you feel even worse.

You gathered yourself and propped the luggage on the bed, slowly putting your belongings inside.

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Yoongi sat frozen since you blew up on him. His mind racing at the speed of light. He was repeating your words inside of his head for what felt like hours.

“loved…” the fragment he heard you utter that left him in absolute pain. His heart was on fire, twisting inside trying to tell him something he couldn’t yet decipher.

Then he heard a bang from upstairs which broke him out of his trance and without noticing he sped up the stairs to you.

He burst through the door only to be met with a sight he had never seen even in his darkest nightmares.

Your luggage on the bed, half-full, you standing in front of the closet with a bunch of clothes surrounding you.

Yoongi’s lip started to shake and only then he himself noticed that he was crying.

“Y-Y/n?” he wobbled out “Wha-at are y-ou do-oing”. He waited for you to turn around but you only paused for some time before continuing packing again.

Tears now streamed down Yoongi’s hot cheeks. He didn’t know how to feel, what kind of emotion he was going through even now. Was he mad? Betrayed? Sorry?

Yoongi couldn’t put a finger on it.

As your hand reached to put a blouse inside the bag Yoongi’s hand caught your arm, stopping it.

“What are you doing?” he managed to question without breaking.

You had never seen Yoongi look so small and defeated; it made your heart break. All you wanted was to pull him into your chest and cuddle the worry away.

“I’m leaving… This is your house so I’m the one that has to go” you tried to remain at least a bit of rationality.

“No it’s not… It’s our home” he shook his head frantically.

“Yoongi-“

“No please… please don’t do this… please don’t say my name like that...”

“Like what?”

“Like you’re saying goodbye forever…”

“Yoo-“

“Don’t go Y/n, please don’t leave me”

Yoongi was on the floor beside your feet, back pressed against the bed, head buried in his hands. His whole body shook with pain.

“Don’t leave me Y/n… please… please…” he sobbed. A sight so sad your heart couldn’t help but drag you down toward him.

You kneeled in front of him taking hold of his hands and pulling them away from his face.

“The sooner we get over this the better, Yoongs. Now we’re just holding each other back” You tried to keep your emotions from bubbling over. “I guess we just… fell out of love… and if we stay together we’ll just hurt each other without truly meaning it…”

You could feel your heart breaking the moment you uttered those words. Fell out of love. Knowing full well that you could never love another, your heart belongs to him and him only.

Yoongi could feel his heart give out, fell out of love, he could never fall out of love with you, you introduced his heart to love, his heart could never love another. You were it for him.

Yoongi let his head fall again, thinking this all through.

He should stay down and let you leave, because it looks like something you want, but that didn’t resonate with him. He wanted to fight for you, to make you see that this relationship is worth fighting for.

So he did.

He got on his feet and stood in front of the luggage blocking your view of it.

“Don’t leave Y/n, we can still fix it. I can fix myself; I’ll come home earlier and talk to you more. We could go out on dates or you could come to the studios with me when you’re free. I could talk to the boys and the company about bringing you with me abroad. I’ll make time for you because I want you Y/n. I still love you even if you fell out of love with me…” his heart stuttered “but give me one last chance to prove myself and if I can’t get you to love me again I’ll even pack your bags for you and drive you wherever you want to go… just please give me this one last chance.”

You stood before him, eyes wide, mouth agape, arms limp at your sides.

Yoongi didn’t know what to make of your reaction, so he just stood there waiting for anything, breathing heavily.

“I… I… I do love you… I never fell out… of love with you... I thought you stopped loving me, that’s why you were never here or never wanted to talk to me… that’s the reason why I said that…”

Yoongi stepped closer to you wrapping his arms around your waist burying his face in the crook of your neck breathing in your scent… still the same…

As you felt Yoongi’s touch you instantly melted in his arms, wrapping your arms around his neck. Resting your face onto his shoulder.

It felt like the very first breath when his scent engulfed you.

All that was needed to repair the both of you was a little touch of skin from the one you love.

You pulled back resting your hands on his waist as his travelled to your cheeks softly pulling your forehead to meet his.

“I love you so much Y/n… Forgive me for being such an ass to you… Let’s never fight again, I hated seeing you so hurt, even the boys got unlucky with me after…” his thumb stroked your cheek.

“I love you too Yoongs… And all is forgiven as long as you keep your promises. And you weren’t the only one struggling, even the thought of you made me cry at times…”

He kissed your forehead and gazed deeply into your eyes.

“Never again. I promise.”

He kissed your lips gently but with a message that all the good things are yet to come.

You two pull away to look at one another. Eyes sparkling with undeniable love.

The lacuna inside your chests filling with love from one another as you become whole once again…

The end…

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