#yoink!“ and i start spacing out multiple times during the ramble :(((((( | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

pizzalover69420 · 3 months ago

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relate to prev reblog. yeah i lose steam REALLY fast trying to listen to others infodump or get into other people's interests unless i get lucky and hyperfixate on it. i feel like shit about it because past that i really do like listening to others, learning about new things, and stuff being shared with me :( the only combat ive had to this is multitasking with a very light task while theyre talking or showing me something but sometimes that makes me miss something and i feel bad having to ask to repeat or rewind because technically i wasnt paying attention. but im really REALLY trying. if i Dont multitask then i miss way more than i would if i didnt multitask. like im putting my 200% into this because i REALLY WANT THIS my brain is just convinced everything is oh so boring all the time

#i struggle a metric fuckton with “everything is boring” symptom #octo.txt #the joy i feel when i am able to successfully listen to an entire infodump or watch an entire show with someone while also having #a meaningful discussion about it despite all the struggling i did to get through it #feels nice #if i could get rid of one symptom this one is in my top 3 for sure #i feel like a bad friend a bad partner a bad.. everything #because of how hard i struggle to pay attention to literally anything that isnt related in some way to my spins #but i want to do it !!!!!!!!! make no mistake i REALLY want to do it !!!!!!!!!#yknow i forgot to add. having a dissociative disorder with ptsd about being talked over or rambled at does NOT help #someone who i love cherish and trust can be rambling to me with all the love in their heart and my brain is like “hmm remember that one time #yoink!“ and i start spacing out multiple times during the ramble :((((((

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