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pumpariah · 5 days ago

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For years I dreamed about the idea of dying my hair pure white as soon as I got white hairs so at least I could have a decent enough excuse to look like a broke latam Storm

Nowadays nearly every single moment something in life happens, I just wish I could rip all my hair in one big strong pull and have a bald buzzcut from then on, at least I'd feel less heat

#ren.txt #vent #yknow. For the last whole month I expected halloween with somewhat positivism #Just expected to spend a chill day at home sharing any cute art I found #Maybe even open up more abt horror/spooky very special interests #Like old horror mexican films like Alucarda or the Spooky Month web series #I mean you all see the Pump fanart pfp #Its funny how when I was at my lowest points I projected a lot of fucked up shit on Skid as a fictional character #But after things in my life got “a little less bad” I started liking and projecting more fondness on Pump #They're not just simple ''artistic mused''. For long and important periods in my current life thinking abt them for better or worse #was some of the few hobbies that could keep me going on #Which is ultimately weird because its ultimately just a newgrounds esque web cartoon #.. idkidk I'm just trying to blow uoff as much as possible so I can go to bed in peace #Those who got to see the deleted post know #But escentially today my father got his phone stolen right before trying to do an important business trip #The fact that he got so nervious and hyperventilated guilty and the intrusive idea #that his cognitive and physical health might be at risk messed me more than the loss of the phone and money he saved there and the trip #He's better now. But..#I'm just feeling extremely hopeless after me and loved ones going through shitty things on a day that is happy for others in the world #Thats more or less what im trying to say #I just want both of my parents to be healthy and live long be well and be happy #I'm sorry. I have a work reunion tomorrow. Im trying to vent out as much as I can without worrying others so I can sleep in peace

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