#yknow te patterns that made me nearly fail a unit last semester? those ones | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

catkin-morgs-kookaburralover · 1 year ago

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i really think im on the upward trend mentally. much reduced suicidal thougths and i went for four days without any a few days ago. this is wonderful.

however i am beginning to stress about uni. it's reminding me of how difficult stress is and how fragile i am actually. but yeah. progress. :)

#im... Not doing well with a couple of work related things and that may drop me in hot water. same with chasing up uni stuff #if i think about handling continuity of care stuff for uni (midwifery) i get short of breath bc stress #but i have to do it so. im sure it'll be fine #and honestly? if i have to go talk to lecturers and say hey im genuinely feeling a lot of anxiety around this and need a bit of a hand #they'll help me. i know they will. they want everyone who is capable of passing to pass #personal #puddleglum hours #honestly even writing this tags out im already stressy again but yea.#i should probably find a job for while im in uni but i might just go talk to my old employers and say hey can i just grab that job again #low stress and all #am realising just how debilitating my stress levels are at times . hm . to be considered ....#because this is nothing like the stress ill have at uni but i can already feel teh stress-avoidant patterns setting in again #yknow te patterns that made me nearly fail a unit last semester? those ones #altho now i have ransom and also a better understanding of those patterns #im not sure if ill find new psych tho by then. haven't done anything about it #and that just adds stress #but anyway yeah at least my commute to uni will only be half an hour to forty five minutes . at old place it was an hour plus #so good

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