#yknow at one point i thought i maybe had some sort of bpd | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

ikyw-t · 3 years ago

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hm. spiraling tonight it seems! i am in the drive through about to get a horchata which is delightful and then im going back to guitar center to buy new guitar strings.

also i had told someone at work i could cover half of his shift on the 25th and somehow despite having looked at my work schedule multiple times still somehow got it twisted and didn't realize I was already scheduled to work nine hours that night and now i literally feel like the fucking grinch good god it was a genuine mistake but this shit happens to me all the fucking time and i know it's literally undiagnosed adhd but i mentioned "decision fatigue" to my dad and he immediately scoffed and said it was a fake thing so like in what fucking world does he believe in fucking adhd which is already the biggest fucking misnomer. also a lot of my mom's and i's bad habits that he constantly berates (forgetting to finish tasks, misplacing things, being generally forgetful) are what i think seem to be symptoms of adhd that we both have but you try having that conversation with him

#also didnt eat lunch bc i was and continue to be annoyed and upset at my dad.#so i also got a bean and cheese burrito in the drive thru.#ugh. anyway. im fine it's whatever im gonna go buy more strings now #yknow at one point i thought i maybe had some sort of bpd #but now I've realized I'm actually just incredibly sensitive and i get five days at a time maybe #where i am feeling good and smart and capable and like a normal human being #and then ill inevitably be late or misplace smth or forget something important #or something else will happen that im now realizing tend be adhd symptoms acting up #and then i get incredibly hurt but mostly disappointed in myself #not to mention constantly disappointing everyone around me!#my own twin sister literally doesnt fucking take me seriously bc i never keep my word bc i am indecisive and flakey and etc etc #fuck man #... gonna eat my burrito now and calm down lmao #p

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